happiness is fundamental

1st Podcast:

1. What resonates? Yes happiness is fundamental, ground state of life where we all belong. . . meaning to accept what IS, as the NOW of Being and nothing else is necessary. . . simply part of the Natural Beingness of what IS. Staying there is the fun part! Practice stability and mindfulness into this experience of what IS, like I recorded here:https://youtu.be/ZV6bumRZVM4
2. What didn’t make sense? Yes, I agree Mind is fundamental, all creation seeks to create MIND IN LOVE ==> Happiness beyond all that is The Whole purpose and plan for everything!
3. Questions? Why is this such a big deal? Have no one known or accepted this fundamental truth where we all belong.
4. How do you see it? Daily sitting on my hammock, or my bike just seeing the beauty and listening to the birds and plants around me that love the attention and blessings I share with them all. We DO HAVE A CHOICE, where anyone can share and BE in this practice daily. Every day creating the experience and joy of BEING more fully in the space and Love of Divinity.
5. The themes that stood out to you applying to your life . . . "Activities and identity of life become irrelevant." Again seems to resonate with my existing Beingness as I remember school years, where each year I returned to school as a "new person" pretending to BE someone else, someone new, someone who started a new experience to meet new people, and share with different people.
6. Or would like to apply to your life - - self-imposed desire to be and grow within this culture is the mistake where we can settle and be content with what already IS. While my whole point in life now is to recognize I belong in a culture and get myself attached to that of me to share more with others!
   

Interview with https://dougveenhofretreat.wordpress.com/about-doug-veenhof/ who spoke about 6-7 hours meditations, silence for days, leaving the world of daily affairs - "Days focused on Meditation" - - - "doing less brings greater happiness" vs. "hedonism, materialism and consumerism" programming of the current culture to reach happiness. Looking within for happiness, instead of looking without. Happiness is a natural process of the mind. . .  Developed research with https://centerforcontemplativeresearch.org/ where the ultimate goal is understanding the mind, where the mind is primary beyond all else. this is just like ions in the noetic sciences did Roger Mitchell did!

All that I’ve done since my accident in 1980 is apply mindfulness to the mind, where culture is irrelevant, and study of life to examine and experience it more fully.

2nd Podcast:

Acyuta-bhava Das · How Ayahuasca Taught Me Astrology, Part Two: The Sanctuaries Of Our Suffering

1. What resonates? Opening the whole history of the universe, seeing the beginning of time where a flower opens up into a flash of Light. Saint Theresa of Avila called this the "Flight of the Spirit," while I have always called it simply a "Flash," where I see some picture, that opens up later on exploring. It's like he said, where I see a flower that opens up into more and more details, getting more and more complicated as things grow and expand from the first vision that I see. looking deeper and deeper into the same experience that grows by factorials faster and faster than I can see-or interpret . . .
2. What didn’t make sense? All I ever needed in your Love. . .👼 
3. Questions? Doesn’t everybody know this already
4. How do you see it? I already Know how much we are all connected and resonate with each other. It’s Very difficult to find someone that even understands that.   Opening the empathy of another and seeing deeper into something new we can share.
5. The themes that stood out to you applying to your life - - - let go of pain vs. where karma is without beginning. Opening up to what is again and accepting this pain an experience is a necessary part of life.
6. Or would like to apply to your life  - - - must open up more and allow it for more. Stay in humor and attend to life in joy and open to all that is. 

Opened into three take-away, explore and stay curious of your experiences. 

3rd Podcasts:

1. What resonates? How interpretation changes everything. Nature is always there and makes it right in peace knowing it's all there already.
2. What didn’t make sense? Piggy-back meditation skill development with other skills in the existing systems to non-judgement equanimity 
3. Questions? nothing new 
4. How do you see it? This is great.
5. The themes that stood out to you applying to your life
6. Or would like to apply to your life

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! I know I need to write more and need to DO MORE, and I'm spontaneous and clear about what this means. I did my Prayerline volunteer hour, JoyFM lessons and prayers, then the weights, the Sunrise and the planting, and then Mass and biking. Wow, did it all as my first time as a new habit. . .  Even recording the exercise on my bike, which has never done right, but i'm getting closer. When I got home, I watered and harvested a bit seeing that Sandi was out walking as her sneakers were gone. Her sandals were still there, so she hadn't left yet. 

After Ritual this morning I sent her my Ritual links and asked her to read them. She soon arrived home from her walk, as I was cleaning greens I harvested. She got her stuff together to leave, and I offered to drive her so we could have more talk time, taking her out to her friends in Tierra Verde. I got out my iPad and set it for her to read as I was getting ready. Then on the drive she started asking me about healing Fluoride, since she knew about how poisonous it was and all.

What did you FLASH into?

I tried to tell her how there had never been pure fluoride or pure aluminum on earth. That for the billions of years here, never has an organism had to deal with these pure poisons . . . . .

What about the FLASH!

I realized how there was never a need to deal with these pure poisons except now, so NOW a New Life Evolves now! I could clear it by choosing to do it myself. This was what inspired her, and she wanted to know what this meant. . . I mean feeling your DNA, is exactly like feeling your heartbeat. Each breath you feel your heart beat, so close your eyes and imagine you see this DNA. This is a ground zero connections to yourself, and decide this DNA inside of you is changing and moving more to use fluoride to leave your body. 

What a FALSH! But that's not what you saw.

I guess I saw or felt, or Flashed into the DNA that moment where I could ask for and request the removal of Fluoride. It was really creating a new rule. Then I saw the Golden Milk I was making with my son. 

The FLASH!

I also saw how I can shift traffic lights. It's just deciding that a certain action and procedure does something. I always flashed to the bewitched TV show from grade school, where this genie from the bottle would twinkle her nose and things changed. Yes, of course I could change anything. Sandi asked me about that too. It's wild and funky that we can do anything, we simply ask for it to "BE a certain way" and it's done. So I twinkle my nose, or blink my eyes two-times, and the stop-light changes . . . or whatever "procedure" I want to make "whatever BE" before my eyes.

That's simply where I am. And I know what’s next for me is how EVERYTHING vibrates at the same frequency ... I just do nothing, but what I'm supposed to be doing. This means no more thinking, but more feeling and acting with what I know I need to be doing. This is what I do and sorta what I've always done. Yes, like walking through walls when I was a kid. It never really mattered what anyone thought, or expressed to me. I knew I could do it and I never explain to anybody why. Because nobody ever really asked me why either. So today Sam asked and I told her how there’s always a way through things and it’s being connected to Jesus where you know everything so you see the way through.

You are the answer, "come into these open arms, it took you so long, but you're mine to love." 4/29/2022 2:08:55 and again the songs are defining your space. Time wonders in the moon, and hear our voice, calling you home. . . as again you hear with what you "need to hear" in that moment; and suddenly you see this tiny keyboard FLASH before your eyes. Again you can see and feel these tasks at a completely different level.  Flashing to another place where it's all exactly the life you want; where each typo shows the deeper meanings, confusing those not ready for it. But opening those you need . . . it's all about the timing. Ask and Receive. . . 

It is more and more exactly like you wanted. It's about making it easier for you to share. If you are the man of knowledge and are really free and clear to share who you are. Last night you made a giant salad. And you could make the same one over again now. You've barely harvested any greens. . . But you know what you can do with this food you create in Love.

This will change everything Sat Apr 03 1:34:34 PM . . You see the world in a second color, the child who paints outside the numbers. . . can you feel it now how this will change everything. And again you need to let it begin. You are doing and sharing more every moment. These are the tools you asked for a dreamed about. Forget all limits, ALLOW YOU, to BE! Fearless again as you have always seen this very keyboard before your eyes, where all life changes as you type. Hundreds thousands, millions, and billions of these keyboards Flashing before your eyes, as you magically select and test each one making it better, easier, faster. . . Yes, you know typing lessons will get you fingers faster than your words. Again and again you must let It Begin, 1:37:03PM, helping Tampa Bay find Joy, in the big vortex of Love, creating here as each moment you move it further.

I took a break to do the See Hear Feel (SHF)

You are ready to find all the answers. It's really going to be very easy. you wanted it all fast and easy remember. You were very specific and detailed about how things would happen. Save as many as we possibly can. Love it as much as we can. You know more every day. Seeing how these plants in your HOME, Shift the Vibrations completely.  

I had a wicked powerful powerful flash with Sam driving through Tampa. I was telling her how when you’re connected to spirit everything shifts to a higher level. And she didn’t understand what I mean. So I told her if we were interested of Jesus and in truth of God right this moment. We could easily be shifting the whole planet. She wanted me to give her an example so she could understand.

She didn’t exactly say that, but she kept on saying she didn’t understand, she didn’t understand, so an example was prudent. That moment I looked at the truck in front of us: the license plate said “ in God we trust” with the website above it. I told her if we had done this in God‘s Light there would’ve been a dozen trucks here just like this one, with a trailer full of tools coming to the church with us right now. For example this building on the corner could’ve been the church. We would’ve been pulling in to take over and rebuild everything, because the building was empty waiting for us. The extra building there by the side could be our staging room to do everything else. Each new truck full of tools arriving we would tell them to empty it all out and get then give them A location on the bay to pick up refugee children.

Within hours we would have thousands of people there working on the gardens putting life together all the tools and setting things up for the children. Of course she had to question every detail to prove it was even possible instead of ever considering an image beyond her current physical conditions. Of course it could happen. One meteor a block away, and this whole block would be empty for months!

You are the answer Sharing things people will never understand everybody’s limited to their own culture and misinterpretations

I’m trying

Yes you are getting the answer more every day 

I know, thank U

You are the answer, 

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to you!

There is no time, there is no space, there is ONLY LOVE

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ. I am so very grateful for this experience with You. And sometimes I wonder what it's about, to be given this time and opportunity to be ME. Whatever that really means. Like now, I procrastinated for weeks about setting up my office desktop machine. Then when I finally accepted that I had to get it done.  I had piled up all the pieces, cables, keyboards and all in the corner next to this desk.

When I started to set-it-up, I first just started wrapping up cables and chargers. I knew I would need everything sooner or later, but figured it would be easy to wrap up all the wires to get them out of my way. I would at least know where they were and what I had there. What was odd though, was about halfway, I decided I was done wrapping and started to setup my machine.

Of course, it went together like magic. I only had left the pieces that I needed?  I was able to put it all together and turn it on, the first time I tried. Usually computers and hardware are a trial and error process for me. I've really done it so many times I'm always wondering which piece goes first, or whether it ever really matters. But it was on and I was busy using the power mac in no time. I knew I had to build or rebuild my website so to get there so quickly I was stunned!

I was surprised to find an old HTML page version that I set into place. And then I moved things around and made it all work. I was impressed. And I guess I needed to write more about this. Like now I'm using my old wireless mac keyboard. I guess it's not really old. When I replaced all my office machines, after the server was hit with lightning, I got everything new, but never used it too much. I cleaned it up and got new batteries. I noticed everything I had here has come together and worked perfectly. So I guess I'm finally doing what I really need to be doing. . . Yes Jesus has this way of making things very easy for me whenever I'm doing the right thing. That happened when I moved to St Pete, and when I bought this house, everything was really easy and quick!

Today, I went shopping, no cream, no fruit, so I needed to get these basics. On the way home I noticed again how I was passing Home Depot. This was the exact same street I drove on every time I visited St. Pete. When I first got married my wife's family was down this street. Then also when I started to help sharon in College, it was this same street again. It felt like the back end of the city when I visited colleen's parents by the tyron mall. They lived in a house next to the park behind the mall. It was really a nice area, and I remember we would visit most every weekend. At least until Christopher was born, then they moved out to Asheville NC.

Every weekend getting off the interstate highway at 22nd Ave was kinda weird since we lived off 22nd Street in Tampa, and then went to 22nd Ave in St Pete. I never noticed it going to sharon's. I was usually in a rush to get to sharon's and never had to time to think about where I was going. Of course, going to sharon's was the opposite direction than going to colleen's. So i never really noticed the Home Depot there or that it was the same street i was on for years previously. With visiting either place I never knew about Mazzaros, which is an awesome Italian shop that everyone knows about, but me. 

I guess it's kinda weird to me to see myself in the same place again. Or coming down the same streets again. I remember long before I bought my Tampa house, I always avoided 22nd and that area that I lived in for 30 years. While I was in college it was a backwoods, a very poor area that you wanted to avoid. I felt the same way getting off at 22nd to visit colleen's family. Like the industrial area hidden behind the nice pretty city. Then I lived in that area for 30 years in Tampa raising my children. Just like now I live in this area where i'm likely to stay for another 30 years, or 300 years!?!

What surprises you about this? You are always in the right place at the right time. Like you have been doing all these MindValley or Catholic Church lessons learning what the correct terms for what you are already doing. Yes, you have essentially been given the language and lessons on who you are already. This shouldn't surprise you, since you have always sorta knew what you were doing. You often questioned why, but you also have always been able to get things done. Even when you really felt it was pointless or a waste of time, you were able to get it done and you followed our directions to do it anyway.

now, I notice it's 2022 now, and my birthday is coming soon.

4/24/22 8:43:39 I’m listening to Pastor John’s service on YouTube as he’s on vacation. I’ve got someone in the front room and someone else upstairs. Sam is on her way over too. She needs me to fix her bike. I made a big pot of fruit and invited her over for breakfast. I’m always intimidated offering breakfast to my guests who don’t pay for it.  Of course, I offer anyway.

Sam and I spent a lot of time talking about all sorts of history and trauma. We both agree that there seems to be some fundamental requirement that people go through trauma to bring them back to the first spark, that we all started with. Yes, it seems like many of us, who grow to resolve our own trauma, are carried back to resolve it for previous generations.

Yes, all the Way back to that white spark!

I know that I've been connected to this before and many times!

We have told you before you are here to share and teach a lot more.

I understand this, but don't know what that means! I go through these very powerful times where the synergy is so thick and powerful that everyone can see and feel it. I've always known I connected deeper to people. They come and go with their time and schedule which never affects me. I accept others as they are for the moments we have to share together, knowing I will always be connected, since we are always connected. Sure people think otherwise, but deeper and truer levels exist where that Spirit is the same that connects us all. 

What you can say here is about Love being the Power and Force of Creation, that lives and lasts forever. Like the Angels you call into your space are with you and everyone else at the same time. There is no time, there is no space, there is ONLY LOVE. 

Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

get children back to church

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What we have set before you is very simple and ideal for you to grow and achieve. Food and growth and health is really what you are doing, and very fundamental to everything else.

I understand! But when I'm alone in this cluttered space and have three or four empty rooms it really gets kinda stressful. I know I have another month to make my mortgage, and I know it's about trusting my space with you and knowing I am safe in Spirit and Truth more than anything else.

What you have been learning and doing is getting deeper into yourself. it's nothing new, but you still question so much and challenge more each day. it's not necessary to wonder or question, when you are clear in your truth and power there really is no need for anything else. 

It's still too much for me to keep up with! I've been able to clear and move things forward, and I know i'm able to create and design as I've always wanted to do.

We want you to focus on the Prayerline as you have. You know each day you reach people who are challenged. You have heard on the phone how many are at their very last. You called this service when you reached your very last. Being here for others who also reach their last is vital. And each one you help and bring back to truth.

I know and I can do this more if you want me to! Yes, if you remove my last burdens I will commit to more hours online. I also know you want me to get more details on the blog about who I am and what I do. Describing my works in greater detail will also help and inspire others. I understand. And I recognize my dreams last night were very clear and specific about me BEING and Trusting my own space and actions as they are. It's weird but I know I need to stay as I am.

What has been happening with you is about settling into yourself more. You do have a great deal to work on. Stop worrying and being insecure. Stay in the trust and focus. Everything will be fine, and more will move along as you stay clear with all that's before you.

I know, but it's still a challenge! I know I can do anything. I also know how it's important for me to trust and stay moving. It's always Your Power and Clarity that sustains me. 

What did you do now?

I has my first Prayer call. I was a lady dealing with an alcoholic husband. And everything I shared and said was vital for her to hear. Of course, he's addicted, that's what Alcohol is designed for. He needs to get back to church and into a AA group. She knows she needs to get her children back to church. So I told her how important it was for him, since having other men in the AA group helps him to standup against this disease. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ,  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

another break from all else

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What happened today?

I kinda freaked as I noticed I've not had any visitors for a full week! And a Holiday weekend should have been busy. And so I found out the another goolge app called FutureShare took over my AirBnB listings. Yea, I was kinda pissed and couldn't do anything about it. AirBnB didn't know either, but then I had a zoom meeting planned with the future folks anyway, so I thought I would wait and see what they could offer. Basically they charge me a percentage to do all the customer contact that I do. And I like doing it.  It's really about keeping me busy and doing what I need to do around my house and such.

What do you mean?

If I have guests visiting, then I have to clean and organize all the time. It's really what I need to be doing anyway! Planting, building, fixing, creating more. These are all very easy to do with random guests coming and going. And it really keeps me on my toes. I've really been distracted with Lent and Church and all these other things that I want to try to do. . . and I sorta lost-tack of what's important.  

We have to get you moving more into Spirit too.

I know, and it's more about me getting real about my own place and power! Not simply trying to understand and get fit into all these other things I know around me. Like the Nine Stages of Prayer are really just giving me more labels for what I already do. It was like the MindValley lessons I did too. They were great and loads of fun, but really just labelling and defining things I've always done. It's like everyone is making programs and procedures to catch up to what I've done all my life.

We had to get this all clear for you. If you are in the power and focus that you want and understand, there should not be anything that interferes. You can not get distracted in details about other people and processes that you already have run circles around all your life . . . So again you have seen that you are already doing these things. It's not only that you know and understand how to do these things, but also that you've even taught and trained people to do and experience these things.

I get it!

We need you to really step up and make your place and experience what you really need and want. Not just what is easy and convenient for today, but what you really came here to create. If you see this space as a healing center where people learn to grow and be in their power. Then you need to be doing it, and really about it, not just talking about it

I get it, so I needed to have these challenges before me to get more serious about all that I already know . . . feels like time for another break from all else . . . 

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

wake up in an hour to do my Prayerline

4/8/2022 3:06am Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word !

What DID YOU DOD TODAY?    

I knew You would do this to me. It’s just weird. I’ve always had You as a good close Friend. My mom did some Ritual, and taught me some Prayers! St. Michael Before Me, St. Michael behind Me, St. Michael above Me, St. Michael Below Me, St. Michael Be on left of Me, St. Michael on right of Me, St. Michael inside Me, St. Michael all around Me. . . 

Mom taught me this like from birth. Saint Michael, Saint Raphael, Saint Teresa, , Saint, Saint, Arch-Angels, and The Ascended Masters were like my bedroom buddies, not super hero’s or cartoon characters we all made up. And what’s remarkable for me now, is that I never knew it. I never knew what it was all about. . . I just listened to her!

What you must do is recognize no one can understand you because you always assume that people know "ME" and have a similar Experience that you have with Spirit. You have communicated with Us all your life. Just like talking with trees and chirping at all the animals, it's not anyone will easily understand or relate to.

You know and understand how once you made contact with a specific animal; the entire species knows you at this same level. You understand Souls, and how animals have group souls too. The Earth is a big Soul Garden, growing love and light for all. Anywhere you go they all know you when you make a sound they heard before. Every sound is very unique and different. People are so over-burdened with noise, that they can't listen or understand these nuances of the different sounds. 

It's the same experience with dogs as each one will know your own Bear-Dog. You loved Bear and saved his life. He was your dog. ALL DOGS know you are a dog lover. Similarly, all the birds know you are a gardener. The Butterflies dance and sing for you. And you are desperate to video tape it so you can prove to others how remarkable your experience is.

It’s after 3am now, I will need to wake up in an hour to do my prayerline time!

I keep falling asleep too. So I better get my drink, Coffee and my green drink. I never took my cleanse pills, like You wanted me to. I guess that is really a sin, not listening to You.

What happens is that you speak to people as if they were all connected to spirit the same as you are. And you do meet plenty of people who are and you are able to discern those who are and those who are not based on how they respond to you. This is one of the many critical techniques your mother was sure to teach you about. 

Each of these little tricks are very important. There is such a dominate element of deception and evil that you need to get everything clear and strong ASAP. . . but recognize, even if you DO MELD with people, they will need to have this experience with you more than once, or it's not going to carry. And NONE will call you to say they "KNOW YOU."

It's something that I work on all the time. Each moment I'm looking up something more, trying something different, pushing into a new space to make something different come together into a new space. Everything about my experience and understanding allows me to tread on areas where no one has gone. Do things that many don't understand or are even capable of perceiving.

What you are saying here, is really the whole point ==> PRACTICE WHAT YOU PREACH. If you are serious about doing things no one else can do, then focus and make sure you are clear and direct in all you do. You are still really unstable and randomly shift from one area to another. If you really plan and want to make certain things happen, then stop cutting corners and get to it.

I know, it's really not fair to give me so much crap because every time I get outside doing work around here and I chant Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, , , You pull in more and more, where I get more things done at once, but get confused and burdened with so much at once!

We have to prepare you. Just like your Mother did, teaching you specific skills and techniques that were very focused to get you through the challenges before you. Like putting together your computer this week. You had a mess of chords all around, and started by wrapping up and organizing them as you cleared you space. And then you knew, to stop putting away and to assemble instead. Then if came together quickly and easily. You Trust the experience and flow through it with ease. This is your world. You need to get there more consciously, and fearlessly. 

I understand and I also need to get more specific and focused on my Prayer life. As I prepare for my daily Prayerline work, I know I need to stop and get centered into Your Love!

We have prepared this for you too. Everything you are doing now is getting you deeper into Prayer. The power and clarity of your Prayer is more powerful than ever, and it will be more clear to you as you get more focused and clear about using it.

I'm starting to get this understanding!

What do you remember about your experience with Maryanne. Getting lessons from your Fat Ram is important. After you recognized the Truth you had in your hands, you began to explore those limits, and recognized that you focus and clarity in ONE Word, for One Moment, in One Intention was golden. You were fearless, and direct, moving and doing everything that you could imagine. 

You are doing the same thing now, where YOUR WORD is enough to create and move Mountains, exactly as Jesus Said. . . with the faith of a mustard seed!

I know, and I guess I was always intimidated by this!

What your Mom did was protect you, as your moment of fear is enough to all deception in and you get confused and the Word Power is used wrongly allowing the world to suffer around you. 

I know, I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

just been trusting this VOICE

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word !

We do have a lot to talk about. But this is still so incomplete. 

It’s such a trip to be here again with You, as I know it’s really become something very personal, and powerful, here now again seeing the power of Your Spirit and direction. As again now it’s thundering outside over me. It’s really feeling so great. I’ve also noticed how much everything was set and simple whenever I do something chatting your Name. Clicked through everything in no time, working online with the stars site in minutes.

What is important now more than ever is getting this done tonight. And it’s almost finished already. No fear, it is simple and quick.

I’m sorry, this is really important, and I see we have to get more as ONE, each carrying forward more of what’s already here !

We have not started yet. It’s moving in the right direction, and it’s not slowing down. The vibrations are shifting higher, and faster. It’s bringing everyone into it. No worries, you are by my side moving on in Light and Love, seeing that white shield around you chanting Jesus before me, Jesus behind me, Jesus to right, Jesus to left, Jesus Above, Jesus below. . . 

I love you Jesus! It’s so neat to have You with me all the time. I’m really shifting into another space again, and the radio sings with me . . . How Great is Our God, and we declare Your great ways in Spirit and Truth . . . And we will seek HIM, in THANKSGIVING we come . . .Great is our God . . . And again I’ve slipped into another place.

What did you see. Talking of the flashes is something we do better, since we can expand and add to it more and more, as you see this flash before your eyes. Knowing, seeing, feeling, sharing this experience in this divine fashion where none can see but us.

I know, but it’s really so much fun to see it happening where I’ve no idea what’s next, who’s around, or what can happen! I’ve just been trusting this VOICE in my head and allowing it to Flow. Like now that experience of DIVINE UNION. Knowing it’s about family, adding my power and vibration to this experience where each word carries more power and clarity.  

We have to let you get back to work

I Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ,  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ,I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ . . . Keep your head up, Jesus is coming Back!

IN clarity.  4/5/2022 6:40:24am and i'm ready to do my Sun Rituals. I've finally SPOKEN in a Saint Raphael church meeting, class, round table thingy, and said something very intimate; after another described a similar circumstance. She had done a family tree with the church healing ministers. She regressed into the dark soul, and released the angels trapped inside. This was like what I did releasing my dads and granddad’s trauma trapped in baseball.

We have to work now, people are all in the Spirit more and more. No one knows what it means to hear the animals chirping at them all day long. This is something you have experienced all of your live; and now must share and teach to others now,

I Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I need Your clarity.  

12:32:04 4/16/22 We have been impressed to let you get back to work, and see you ask and listen for directions all the time. Yes you're getting closer to listening all the time, but the Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, chants you do will always help and clarifiy as you move forward.

I Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ for this new clarity.  

We have to let you get back to work

I Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ,

3d-phd

3d-phd My Lent notes:

Start by considering: What are you doing right now, is it bringing you closer to Christ or does it bring you into sin?

What does it mean to be Baptized by Spirit?

This becomes a complete conversion in repentance from sin, to change the heart and mind in a 100% transformation, yes a 180° Turn around from where are you are now in sin to complete Christ Consciousness!

ok, so i've been doing LENT. Everyday Mass, Eucharist, Prayer, and Fasting. And I realize how little I'm fasting. It started with just water for the first few days, then juice, and fruits. Now again I'm going out for lunch and sharing experiences. It's really wonderful to see and feel more people listening and wanting to connect with Jesus and God better. I realized how I needed to start teaching . . . or preaching, or really practicing what I preach.

It's really about what I know, and sharing my gifts about health and healing. I am also doing volunteer time on the Prayerline. Interesting how good that feels to be engaged in a service when I get a direct response from people as I go along. I know I have so much to offer and feel like I really have so much to do and share. I'm really never sure what that means. So I'm always learning. It is a challenge and I accept that, as I move forward all the time, whatever that means.

I need to do so much, and try and struggle more each day. I've still have not edited My AirBnB page so nothing new is happening to me. I did this and I did that, but still am sorta spacey about everything I do... 3/31/22 4.04.13am and I realize its about prayer! I need to start my day in Spirit and stay there.

I am thankful before You, living and enduring King, for You have mercifully restored my soul within me. Great is Your Faithfulness.

https://www.google.com/maps/d/edit?mid=1qMwERmRfsZJ75XdUtdlB0vhDSukjvZ-X&usp=sharing  

What a trip this is. I had a guest move from the tent into a free night inside, in exchange for cleaning the house. The last minute she decided to fly home instead of waiting another day for the bus. So her boss dropped off all her stuff, which mostly went into my trash can. She couldn’t take it all home, so she left me beach towels and blankets too. I told her I was driving into Tampa and could take her to the bus stop or the airport, she just wanted to go.  Sounds like she was here for several months, because all the Florida workers left the state with covid or something. But she was done too much, too hot. Yea, she was from Boston 

where you really want it to be

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

Trust God for EVERYTHING, is the FAITH we need in the infinite relationship in Jesus as God who is completely sovereign, infinitely Wise, knowing past present and future, Perfectly Loving in you.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. I'm so glad I can read this again. I've heard it several times, but to read it again now, THANK YOU. It's so much clearer to me as I grow and learn more daily. It's really a challenge, but I have faith, and move forward as carefully as possible. 

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word !

What You are doing is getting more and more focused. The clarity and power is reverberating further and further. Did you notice how easy it was to connect with others, and how quickly you are able to bring the insight and energy to the position of where you really want it to be.

I Love You for all you are doing in my life. Each day I'm learning and growing more. I never thought that volunteering for a Prayerline would be in my experience. I know I need to learn to pray better. Writing with you here can be very deep and meaningful, but deep prayer always bring me to tears. I understand more about our relationship and why deep prayer is necessary. It's so much more than holding a vibration as I grow and learn more daily, I hope to bring you more close to my life and community. 

We have to do a lot in the coming months to shift things for everyone. Your focus on Prayer and Church is bringing you more clarity and makes it easier for you to move into the tasks we have before you. No Fear Son, nothing can touch you. No weapon of evil can approach you. You will always be safe and secure.

I know Dear Jesus, I Love You!

We need you to complete all the things you've started. The rooms in your house, the yard and gardens. All that you have before you is important and critical.

I Love You Jesus, and I'm so very grateful for you guidance and support through this. I know I've been insecure and lazy, and I also know that this experience with LENT has been very fundamental and powerful for me! Each day in church I am learning and growing more, the synchronicities are more powerful and specific than ever!

What is powerful is how many times the synchronicities are able to guide you in everything 

Thank you, I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

my JOY STORY, is coming to TAMPA BAY!

Yes, This is my JOY STORY, It dawned on me that my joy story was attached to EVERY song that I hear! Every sound has the vibraton of jesus, as my unceasing prayer is for jesus to BE my influencer, My Social Media, My Desire to have this Love as my experience. It was about God getting me into Tampa Bay 39 years ago!  And believe it or not, I was always able to hear the Word of God in all music, at any radio station, or at any church, or any synagogue! I still have a private life that is filled with disfunction! Jesus would reach out to me with anything I heard, as I could feel His deeper meaning in the music around me. 

I moved into Tampa where all music carried God’s Word to me, and still my personal life allowed sin to fester and was heading down a very destructive path. And it hit me this morning that my joy story is God bringing me to TAMPA and the The Joy FM Christian radio station so that I would prioritize listening to His Word!

Right now, it’s an honor to be part of what God is orchestrating; AND you can be a part of it right now, in Lent, in Prayer, In Jesus. . . as a christian life lived out as best as I can here in Tampa Bay.

Right now, You can be part by Giving to the upcoming Friend/Raiser at TheJoyFM.Com. You have a chance to give to making these moments available to Earth’s millions of people for thousands of years.

Destroy or Replace any duties, titles, rights or dedications

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

I understand Dawn Marie Jordan is with you now, and continues to still visit me often. Yes I promise to start monthly stone soup parties the last Sunday of each month dedicated to the love of lost moms!

Thank you Ely Maria Weaver Rivera, please help Dawn for me ;-)

What you need to ask Dawn is about resolving your covenant to “do Destroy or Replace” any “duties, titles, rights or dedications” listed Here: www.starsusa.org

I’m onto it dude…

   I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Yes I posted to my family this FLASH:

Dear family, welcome to the new chapter of My Life (no more health, science reminder emails from me as posted here from now on)

https://journals2mygod.blogspot.com/

My purpose:

http://appft1.uspto.gov/netacgi/nph-Parser?Sect1=PTO2&Sect2=HITOFF&u=/netahtml/PTO/search-adv.html&r=0&p=1&f=S&l=50&Query=in/%22weaver;+Eric%22+AND+ic/Tampa&d=PG01

My method's:

https://youtu.be/44ddtR0XDVU

My community: 

https://apps.apple.com/us/app/the-joy-fm-florida/id528252707

My science:

https://www.ted.com/talks/drew_dudley_everyday_leadership

This family group will be welcome in my home anytime at 1420 20th Ave N., 33704 through the next 678 years I am here!  Stone Soup Parties - open house start again the last Sunday each month like pictured in this wedding party

Perfect timing=>  http://thechosen.tv

Please no replies to this group except "HELP ME"

Love you all, God Bless you....

dr Rafé

PS. "Family" means any room free once a year, my treat: https://www.airbnb.com/users/show/161115138

grace wins every time

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Wor d!

What's more remarkable than ever is how easily you fill the space! Of Course, you have the $5000 ABB deal that everyone wants to have. Of course, everything is so very easy where the party hasn't started yet.that will be changing very soon. 

ABB Space Needs more, I know there is still so my much to do. And its wonderful and exciting _ of course it's all perfect and easy. We planned it all from the start and wanted each detail just right. And I get to carry it all forward and keep everything together exactly as no other could imagine. What a crazy task before me, includes such a wonderful aspect of how much every moment is such a blessing for me.I can do no wrong, as I know this whole life is all part of a plan because of you - all are part of this one life with me.

I am so very grateful dear Jesus Christ. I know how you set all these steps before me and I am glad that I am able to share the love that you are. I really know and understand how much every detail is beyond me and I am fearless about each step, knowing very easily how I am protected. And grace wins every time. 

 I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

bring forth a relationship

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! I am so grateful to be able to write and see this text that appears almost perfectly. Now I know how much I need or don't need to be and show here now in my space. 

What you needed to do is see the power and focus of these visions that are so specific in these scribbles that instantly transform across the galaxies ready for all to feel. Your dream placed you in a New place filled with insight. Different aspects you're seen over and over again come into the right place at the right time. Always in tune with the JoyFM Radio. Stepping up to your next challenge requires these deeper connections. Dreaming of creating art spaces. . . 

Post all your notes from ESOP meeting you missed 

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ, yes sir, here you go:

2/11/22 12:02pm bring forth a relationship

Sometimes the only way to heal a broken heart is when we fall apart. 

Have you been so lost you can not be found….

Life hits you so hard you have fallen down…… 

We both know what it's like to be heard. We are off to better days; can you relate

God of creation from the beginning of time, no point of reference.

Wow, Jesus you are rocking tonight. All these above Phrases are songs in the random experience of divinity with Jesus as I find IN Tampa Bay radio….. I'm in my fort writing to the light of my digital paper! . . . late, late night, now editing this message I started with BodyWisdomLabs. . . 

This is so wicked cool. I can talk to this machine too. I need a command code to digitally record the songs, Write the words, or instantly OCR the text into the iPhone instead of stopping to write it. I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ,, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ  . . . 

weee sing “praise” . . . 

Your Spirit guides me to the heart of the matter.

So I feel like I’m age 12 and made my bunkbed just under the ledge of the window, so no one can see me. The cool breeze just rolls in, I'm under layers of blankets. So I AM like 12 with my bunkbed just under the ledge of the window like my fort outside in NJ. Now the cool breeze rolling over the marble plate, screen, and window only open 6 inches; yes clouds of bliss rolling over the edge. Today was phenomenal too, so much happened so quickly.

What was the best was meeting my neighbor "Page" at the purple door across the street. Her mother was all excited showing her daughter my herbs. It was such a delight seeing this mother explaining my veggies. I showed them the free harvest set out on the table. Told them to take stuff to plant, and Page took a big sweet potato.  Then I offered to show them around back and it was so perfect. Like a complete divine experience. Who could have imagined all this at such a young age. And now I can See, Feel, and Experience this exact moment laying in the dark of my fort, hiding where I can write the day's events as if they were only dreams floating by.

And I forget that I can just talk. And just say the words to this little machine in front of me. And I realize that The whole universe is at my fingertips again. And I have the perfect stash. And perfect fort. Nobody knows where I am. Yes I’m Invisible, deep in the heart is a burning fire. Because you are chosen. Love has spoken.

I feel like I'm 12 years old outside hiding in the trees, again. I could be up here for days. Nobody knows nothing. The breeze, wow this breeze is so Beautiful tonight . . .

My neighbor was cleaning out, putting concrete blocks by the trash can. So I offered to take them all. Soon I was talking to his wife, who was delighted to sell me 3 kayaks. Wow beautiful, fancy, one even is a two seater with fishing stands. Stephen was happy to help and moved all this concrete. They had some paver blocks too. I really felt like a bandit! I’m like 12 again, made my secret bunkbed just under the ledge of this window, where I can hide in bliss and dream!

Wow Dawn Jordan, this was where you would put your head, too. I only have one window open so far. I know you enjoyed them both with the big queen bed set here. So is this what we needed for you to come through to me stronger now?  I needed my secret hidden fort to catch this vibration we shared, while you were here with me! I know we've been in this together from the start but how much can you help me?

Oh, I don't need it, just need to reach Ariana?

Yes, my Secret loft hideaway. Cool night breeze. Pen and paper. Oh, it's the iPad and apple pencil not working right, no arrow-keys yet, and the space selection sucks still. I try to change a letter sometimes, but it only selects the whole word. Any minor detail is impossible to get done quickly. Can't even add a coma quickly! I think I need to practice MORE and maybe even write slowly with diligence and respect. I finally got my screen turned long ways so I can see the text really well enlarged on the screen. 

Wicked cool. It is really so far out there. And so “I'm age 12” again in my fort. With Dawn this was made as her XENA room, that is now my new office, fort, paint gallery. I've already flashed to setting up all my paints and everything all Over this wonderful space before me. I got my mom's dining table with both leaves in it. Then found a pieces of glass. Yes, found 2 other glass Table tops as a layer on top of my moms oak.

Then while replacing the logs with concrete blocks along my front walkway, I flashed to building my garden boxes with all the scrap I wanted for the 2nd seeding cart in my backyard. Wow perfect set up and moving seedlings back and forth would be so wicked cool.

Dawn I also told Pages mom about our website. And i-know I need to add every one from the 

BodyWisdomLabs group out there too...

- , 1) Check-in . . . 1.5 minutes for invited participants to share.

Eric: Field of Dreams where things just shows-up to cover whatever is needed.

targeted => https://www.holacracy.org/constitution  

and Barbara Sher: https://youtu.be/H2rG4Dg6xyI?t=667 

Need to get into a Courtesan activities to bring forth a relationship . . . 

5) “Only 10 minutes left,” reminder to get finished in time, only 1hr mtg

6) “MEETING DONE,” YES 1.5 minutes Barefoot and grounded ... The Last minute we "Hu" together

God Did not forget about you, His Timing was just a little different:

Wow, I had a wicked powerful dream last night. I grabbed my iPad to talk into this blog immediately. Now “Faithfully Different” book discussions is on TheJoyFM.com as I start reading this experience with my coffee and yogurt this morning. 

The dream started out with having the son servers up. Yes, the Sun Computer Systems in that same round office maze I’ve seen before in my dreams. This time we are deep in the dark offices wound up to the top of the institution. We were able to rebuild the 2nd Sun computer systems. We finally had the two of them running at once as we had the other one hidden away running the pulse at the same time. I was deep into the feeling of the space as it was our very last chance to get this done. I was about to start this consulting university program, and we finally got the new Sun running just in time. And so we were up all night having pizza and all that stuff. I was so fried and came in early, like I had been in and out all night anyway.

This next morning I got invited to this art consulting company down the road. So All I could think was getting something to eat, and I found the pizza in the furniture that was gonna make an omelette with left-over pizza pepperoni and cheese stuff I put into my arm. It was a dark room, early in the morning. Several other computer systems still running, with people leaning over finding the tools and apps to set the last of the old Sun Server. Three or four guys around with a few friends who invited me to this art consulting company down the road. It was just a girl who said: “come with me down the street, to my office we’ll get something good.”

It was one of girlfriends of somebody else who was working all night on the sun, and she had asked me to go with her for a walk down the road to get some fresh food. It was like the airport district so getting breakfast goodies was available all around. We went down the street and to this subtle little art studio that could be someones’ home. The place was just remarkable, I was dumbfounded as I walked into the space. Just amazed by the little girls who filled the place busy doing the Valentine heart’s everywhere. She had at least four other girlfriends that were all artists each one has her own specialty. Different areas of the space with all kinds of sculptures, wire art, stone, woods and plastics. When we walked into her art studio I was just so amazed and I started asking questions. 

It was like a studio loft of a tight row of buildings, along the main district road. The very first building coming down the hill from the office tower I had started in. The Girls had hearts everywhere, each happy to show me something and suggest some food. I checked a few things and made sure things were right and trying to find some cash for food. Marking up a menu i folded it up with the $20 into my little leather wallet. And of course they just fell into my hands with all kinds of details everything was just remarkable. So an hour or two later I’m ready to fall over, and I stop and I said I got to eat something and I’m not gonna be here any longer.

And so this one girl grabs some menu and starts making recommendations. It’s like the airport district so there’s like 1000 restaurants around us and they pick something out and start talking about it. Of course every girl has another idea. Talking and exploring I totally forget about ordering anything and it’s funny because I had the menu and my 20 bucks in my pocket. But never ordered anything so another hour passes I’m starting to fall over again. And I told them I had to eat or I’m not gonna be able to stay there and they still did not understand that I am some who will just fall over. So I’m fishing out the 20 bucks so I pulled out the flyer that one of the girls had given me and I was like; what are we gonna order now. The truth was so fucking REAL in this space, clear and powerful place of art and beauty.  Everyone busy and happy exploring their work and sharing their joy and interests with me openly and freely.

I could see so many things all around me. The detail and the art or color were everywhere, with different examples and pieces of things. They kept putting all the fantastic things that I could even helped them with. The personal experience of getting the second sun system was remarkable. Nobody else knew that they had purchased two sons the same time. And I just happened to the one who held the first for as long as I could get it started. It sounds like one of the publics institution and the second one is a private consulting company. And suddenly all the pieces were together. . . 

I was totally perplexed, so when I woke-up it was with a sense of right now that these guys have been crushing all night to build the second sun and what the girls were working on with us all night long on the sun . . . 

God Did not forget about you, His Timing was just a little different:

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! As I finished my dream dictation this morning, I immediately turned TheJoyFM back on wanting to get back into my dream/sleep and not miss anything. And Your WORDS came through so clear and strong I snapped the screenshot immediately as “God Had Spoken” and YOU ARE CHOSEN.

Immediately I teared-up again, not watching TheChosen this time, but Just Hearing those Words deep in the vibrations of my dreams again how TheJoyFM has filled me with the love of Jesus each moment I listen and feel the love coming through to me so strongly. And so I clicked on the “share Joy” link wanted the world to know the latest I’ve heard in my Journals2MyGod

What is more remarkable than everything else is how you FLASHED deeply into this vibration of creating art and the digital expressions at deeper levels. Your Sun Works have passed for many years and no one knows how deeply these resonate into your works today. Adding the originals your had posted and restoring these pieces You Sun started with. Then knowing the Art Space is so much more than a single building and small expression. Healing, leading, planting, growing is so much more than a warehouse, art loft, or top round maze of offices.

What we did was exactly what you needed. Being a host, an instructor, a gardener is what’s real for you. Pulling people together to get things done just comes naturally. No one to help, means it’s not time to build yet. People and places come together naturally, or even magically all the time. Accepting patiently means that the lies and deceptions all around simply fall away while the passions and people carry on into deeper vibrations and experiences of community and love together.

I’m really still perplexed by the visions last night. The vibration of this dream cut right to my core. I can still feel the textures of the wire art “heart tree” by the doorway that I saw walking into the girl’s art loft.  It feels like the busy Boston Streets Chris took me through where these big 3-4 story brick buildings were lined up next to each other. I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

industrial model of community control

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What you have been learning is a lot more than patients. You are also learning respect and to honor your experience and events before you. You have been able to speak about things at a much deeper level. You often feel like no one is listening, or no one understands but these deeper issues are very present and clear throughout your experience. Allowing them to flow is vitally important as you are able to carry things forward. This ability to move things forward is critical now more than ever.

I don't understand!

What you realized an accepted yesterday about your mother and what you have been able to carry forward for her is something that no one else will do, or be able to do until your break it forward. So much of the system is stuck behind misconceptions and false beliefs that interfere with the deeper truths that inhibit growth. If you are able to define these issues and express the deeper truths It will have a profound effect on many others and open the doors for significant changes!

We have been telling you for a long time that the important changes you will bring are much more than simple health issues. The deceptions surrounding health issues are very deep. it's easy to avoid them, since there is such a great need and desire to get help from others. Friends and family within a tribe was effective for centuries. To allow fundamentals of health to fall into the hands of greed and control changed everything. 

I know how the witch-hunts were about health and safety! Stopping the tribe effect of health to impose the industrial model of community control set out to limit all other systems. The impact of witch-hunts was parallel to the impact on the native indigenous traditions pressed into reservations and systems of community control beyond the family tribes that were so effective for millennia.  

What about being able to restore the Family Truth that comes with Spirit and experience with God. Tribes supporting their elders allowed for healing and growth. The Elders knew the techniques and experiences for keeping the family healthy and together. Today families rely on doctors and medicines created for profits not for healing. 

It's sad how we all know this. And we hear medical advertisements all the time, that even include disclaimer and the "fine-print" about how much goes wrong with medications. But still we allow our families and friends to take a list of pills. I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Love and joy is easy to share

2/9/22 12:20pm It's a new space and a new beginning. I'm totally perplexed as usual, but see how I'm back to the same place again. I was challenged to accept unemployment and the collection of Covid benefits given to me and the struggled to stay focused and accept this wonderful gift I was given. But then I thought that I had to work or do something to make ends meet. And now, it seems that is not what is before me, I seem to be able to survive and live very well by only doing the Airbnb spaces I have set up here already. I don't know why I am back here on my own able to relax and write as only I know I can.

2/11/22 10:37:39am. I started to use the pen and iPad, which really worked fine, but was somehow limiting. I was annoyed with the typo's and not being able to correct the one letter that was off.  I'm still on the Apple BETA, but they still refuse to return the "arrowkeys" to any keyboard, which I consistently complain about. And I know there is something more happening here.  When I lost my Tampa house, job and wife I was convinced everything was over for me. Dawn pulled me out of this, showing me how much power and focus was still within reach. I went through a collection of MindValley Courses, which reminded me of leaving Maryanne, who wanted my baby in NJ. Yes, After Maryanne I was back home and could see how easily I could shift anything, which was also happened with Dawn as well.

When I left Maryanne and suddenly saw how my all but "supernatural abilities" that had prepared me to move to Tampa, helping my dad move into a new city in 1983. Then lost my Tampa house, job and wife gave me the same start helping my dad move again in 2017. Listening and learning from him, as I never had before. We said prayers together and worked together, as friends helping each other. What an incredible blessing. Suddenly seeing how I could easily shift everything again.  I discovered my power on my own in 1983 to move my dad. And then again in 2017 moving my dad again to discover my power on my own again.

How has all this prepared me for now? I thought I needed a job, prayed for one, and was hired. Only to discover that it was not where I belonged. It was easy to get in and setup everything almost completely to bring me to St. Pete.  But there was no passion, no power, no focus in the job. No one listened to me, no one understood, so there really was no place for me, and soon I was gone again, alone here at home wondering why, or what could be next.

2/12/22 1:45:23pm. I have cried out to Kim, and would like to call out to Dawn as well. I don't expect any answers from either of them. There are a few others I can call out to as well.  But I'm really just wanting to cry, and reaching out to anyone with this intention is not fair to anyone.  So I know my Mom protected me for my first 20 years before Tampa. I learned how to see a Dome of Light around me. I learned to see into people, but not get caught-up in their energy. I learned to talk with Animals and move light and energy all around everywhere. I could easily move things and shift all sorts. I would always joke how I could walk through walls and be completely invisible, where no one could see me at all.  This certainly made my childhood entertaining, but was not something I would readily share with anyone.

Nor was it really something I could fully comprehend.

 

2/13/22 10:18:18am  When I came to Tampa with these experiences of a Relationship with God moving my dad. Then came to St. Pete knowing this deeper Relationship with God, again after moving my dad.  Then only to have everything I knew collapse.  I was protected again and watched over, exactly as I still seem to be now.  I wonder how I will pay bills, and make a mortgage payment. But as usual the cash always shows-up exactly as needed.  Not too much, or too early, but exactly as needed only moments before it's too late.  This seems to have happened all my life.  I was never "without" in NJ, or Tampa, or now St. Pete. Nor could I count how many times the random insurance refund showing-up exactly the amount needed for a mortgage, car payment or whatever seeming calamity was moments away. 

Now, I've come to accept this. First it was the Covid scenario, where I was given unemployment benefits and more, and more benefits as the world spinned-out-of-control. I was perplexed how much I was able to experience and enjoy my beingness, privacy, space and freedom completely "exempt" from all that's around me.  And I'm perplexed knowing that this freedom and time to explore and understand my place is really critical for whatever is next. I was alone after Maryanne for months, before something else opened up before me. Then after Kim, I was alone again for a few years wondering what could possibly be next. Then I arrived in St. Pete and within a very short time, I was thrust into the loneliness again not sure what I could be preparing for, but again completely "exempt" from the chaos and challenges all around me.

This last scenario with Covid has had me more alone than ever before. More perplexed with nothing for years.  Does this current scenario mean something more than ever before? I've never been more fully alone. When Maryanne left, I had to appease my father, and relearn my place. When Kim left, I again was appeasing my father trying to relearn my place. But this time in St. Pete there is no one to appease,  but my own personal peace and comfort.  I feel very much at ease, doing things only as necessary. 

It is perplexing, but I know I'm safe. I know everything is right and there is nothing out of place. I see so much of you mom all around me. I get a sense of being the child hiding in the woods of NJ again. I have no need to please anyone, I don't have to appease my father, nor prepare for a child, a degree, or some other responsibility that our culture or society imposes onto me. Its just me relaxing into my own space, which I open to others who need a place to stay. I first got this home feeling I could welcome my children and family whenever any of them needed a place to stay or an escape, vacation or whatever. 

My son and his sweetie has been my only visitors. My daughter or other family anywhere have no need or desire to accept my hospitality. This might be what I'm waiting for as something might be breaking down somewhere out there that has no impact on me directly, but places people in need. I felt like I had gotten sick and really never did much of anything about it. I slept more, and relaxed more, and ate more goodies than usual. But again the overbearing sense of peace and ease is really all around me. I don't feel guilty about it nor do I feel some need to do or prove something more.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What we have said along is still true. Knowing you have peace and ease allows you freedom to accept and help those in need around you. It's not something beyond your understanding, time, or experience. However, the Love and Joy you find so easily in each moment is more critical than ever.

I can be at peace with this too. Love and joy is easy to share. I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

How can you find healing?

do you need to find yourself again?
https://go.shr.lc/2CrEHUX

Maybe you need time off:

I'm almost scared, about what is coming

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! 

What you need to remember is blowing people out really hurts everyone. This is an experience that will be carried on for a much longer time. Keeping up with all the details is the only way you can move forward … again being the center for the development in the world will be critical for you to get the job done and then you will still be pushing off center. Each aspect creates new layers for growth that is really important for each one of us. 

I’m really just barely keeping up… what a powerful trip this is.  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ… Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! I'm almost scared, about what is coming, but I'm ready for it. Even though I really have no idea what it is.

What you know and feel is a lot closer than you think to the truth. Yes, this will be a mad race, and everything will be exactly as it needs to be, so share your new meditation technique for “see, hear, feel.”

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. I started this morning to do 10 minutes. I started off with rest and silence in my breath. And then focused on whatever I can see, hear, or feel inside of me. Actually I started “outside” of me, because I heard the garbage truck outside. So for a minute or two I focused on “hearing” the truck outside. And then I could "see" images of the truck “inside“ of me, but kept my focus on the hearing. 

Then I focused for a few minutes on what I could ”see” flashing through different images inside of me of the big truck and the men working, which I have seen often. I recognized that my lesson the night before was to stay focused on one element for a few seconds instead of minutes, but this was my 1st try. Next, I focused on what I could actually hear “inside” of me. And this took me a bit, and soon in my silence, I was only hearing the "hum" of the universe. Yea, sometimes I would say it's the vibration of the city or the wifi, and I have heard doctors say it's some TMJ condition of my jaw that they want to prescribe something for. But honestly I rarely notice it or just accept it as my experience, like some of the weird bumps on my fingers.

By this time the sunshine had started to flow into my room and so I opened my eyes to focus on the lamp above my bed. I had seen this last night too, so to stop and focus on this again was very easy. I just looked at the state and size. It's really pretty when I turn it on but at this moment I was fine…

1/28/22  1:49am. I got home from an incredible experience at the Patel College. Had dinner at Dunderbak’s picked up a plant order from David. Then walked on the beach under the airplanes, while the traffic died down. When I got home I decided to go for walk about and Brian walked up. We decided to meet on the porch and have some wine with some time to sit and chat. After we sat down he asked me what is God.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! 

What a way to start tonight. You recognized we had pumped up your vibrations too much for you to sleep. You knew we had to write. And more importantly you are putting your office back together. But more important is your write up here of your next “see, hear, feel” experience.

Its always back to your Word! And I realize that I can hear You more than my own breath.  It was a long day and I finally got home and jumped into a really hot shower to fill the tub.  Emptied the Epsom salt bag and I got all the way under the water and started chanting. I was doing “AM-Home” for a while. And then I stopped and listened. I could hear the buzz of the universe and just listened to it for awhile. It was really like the "white noise" just like static.

And then it was time to “see” something inside, and my mind flashed to hundreds of images. Each person and contact I had throughout the day was a complete and total blessing. And each one had hundreds of add-ons. Layers and layers of contacts and opportunities. 

What is always remarkable is how much you are able to shift this “inner sight” into a great many scenarios. These visions you carry always morph and evolve into greater and greater experiences. Each time expanding and developing from the last. Again you were able to link your next steps very carefully allowing for your peers to hold your vision.

I’m perplexed by Your Word! 

What a escape, you are always in tune and understand at such a level that few can comprehend. Being “perplexed” as you say is really not complete at all. You always have so much going on at the same time that each move and change is very powerful and clear for you. There really is never anything out of your reach for you and as things grow and change more and more peace and power enter into your space. Like now again where are you and what are you doing.

I  sitting in the Patel College break room with the sunshine on me costing on my iPad. 

What you have done and loved to do for yours whole life. And you really have no needs, no limits, no requirements, no necessities, everything is very much at peace and ease. The steps before you to stay there are very direct and simple. Nothing complicated, nothing challenging. No big deal.

I love your Word Dear Jesus and I'm grateful for all you do and share with me.

We are pleased with your continuation of clarity and focus.

I  Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ