my head starts spinning not knowing where to start

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ  . . .I just updated my iPod Pro to another 26.6 Beta, and I'm already impressed. I know Apple has gone crazy to make it all work perfectly for me. And I still send in some problems whenever I can. Yes of course, I'm always breaking things and trying to do things it’s not figured out yet. But I've really been so impressed.

Yes, even now as I write script all across my iPad with this little white pen, and hope it can translate my scribbles. Yes, it gets better and better at this. Every time it feels like I'm starting over training the thing. It's really funny as I know they are coming out with the "ultra" versions of everything, so I know that somehow I will be getting all the upgrades. Still not sure how or where or when. But it really feels like common knowledge, like Claire and I building the first servers with a constant archive of everything. So much about these tools really just fit and seems so obvious to me.

What you have now is about greater power and focus. Everyday you step into more and find more. We have told you several times that this is really only starting. There is really so very much more coming together before you. 

I can’t sleep I don’t know what I need to write about, but I just went over and picked up my iPhone and turned on the blog and now I’m talking to it. I don’t have my glasses on, so I can’t see how bad it’s translating. Text to talk, or talk to text, whatever it’s doing. I realize that I’m digging deeper into my history and I don’t know what that means. I understand it’s about getting stronger about my vibration and my effect on others. I don’t know what the history will bring out. I do remember odds and ends here and there. But I’m really not sure how bad it was, like the story of the cops being afraid of me. It’s almost surreal.

Yes, I always considered my life sort of surreal. I started writing to understand, and now record as much as possible to understand deeper. But then it feels like I'm trying to prove things, because no one ever believes me. . . lol, it's always fun to share my stories as people get lost and loose touch, it's always beyond reason.  I mean how can anybody survive, and still keep going I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what to say now, I don’t know where this is going talking to my iPhone in the middle of the night. I feel like I’m ready for anything of course. Which really means that it’s gonna be a powerful experience again. I mean, that’s all I ever have anyway. I was doing things and nobody else can do, doing things that nobody else can understand, doing things that I don’t even understand. I do it anyway in Christ. In Christ I’ve been able to do almost anything . . . I used to joke about walking through walls, till I saw it happen. Which is really kind of funny because it was the first thing I did when Jesus brought me back home. Sure I can handle Spiritual stuff. What do you want me to do, and I know I could handle anything, but the difference is to make something Spiritual, supernatural, magical, a mystical whatever where I’ve been there and done that. So I really wonder what could be next. I wonder if that’s what’s keeping me up right now; trying to sleep when my mind is racing, and racing through scenarios, racing through opportunities, wondering what could be next.

I know I really end up creating things all the time. So just wondering what it could be about, in creating something that I never thought of before. So I stopped to think about it and dream about it and then I end up creating something completely new. Me create it all, so it’s kind of funny that I get surprised all the time even though I know I do this. I guess that’s something Jesus likes to do, he always likes surprising me so I guess that’s what’s next is getting more surprises.

What do you feel now?

I visited one of my professor yesterday and she was complaining about back pain and such like Lisa did years ago.  Course I thought about taking her outside and taking off her shoes. And never said a word about it.  She left at the same time as me, to go visit a doctor about surgery. Yes, back and neck surgery!  Eeek. . . as weird as it was I knew I had to say something. When we left she commented about me being barefoot saying I could never be hired full-time if I was barefoot all the time.

What happened now? 6/3/2026 10:15:51am

I went outside. I fasted yesterday, so I was so happy to make an omelette this morning.  Yes Cheese and everglades tomatoes. I have hundreds of little red tomatoes all over my yard. I invite Larry and Leslie to breakfast, but then only ate half alone, putting the rest in he fridge. So yes now I went outside knowing I need to clean and work and all. I walk around a bit and my head starts spinning not knowing where to start or what to do.  I've got so much to do outside.  I started replanting things as I got some seeds with Emily so I want to start growing more.  Yes big mess outside my back door.

What about starting with the obvious, you don't need to step over one mess to clean another. Like you did your kitchen first last week, what about starting here and getting things done here first.

I get it. I've cleaned the kitchen and started at my porch stoop outside my back door. . . lol, oh and my front door. I've got plants starting everywhere and I need to make some pots really nice to set them out where they look best.  It's so neat how the plants always ask for this or that. "can I get a bigger pot; con i get moved over there, can this be shifted and changed" . . . i hear them all, it's almost like they are screaming at me trying to be the next one to et my attention.  It's really wonderful and I'm always feeling so loved and supported with each step I take.

What about your studies?  Yes I know that's where I need to be working. . . 

Thank you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.