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Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What we need you to do now is start following through with all you need to do. ONE DAY IN YOUR HOME, was where you started. You can fix the whole place in One Day. You need to do ONE DAY in the garage as well. You could spend the whole day in the Garage, or House, or Yard, or Office. . . That needs to be your first week. 

I get it, and that’s only four days, as I know it will require six. So I’m wondering if that’s two for each instead of only one!

What about gettin busy, and adding the extra day in the area you wake to that’s not complete. 

I’m really not very focused or productive yet. The only day I spent in my office was barely gettin started on anything. And now again I’ve been very slow at getting anything started or done at all. I know it’s lunch time already, and I barely feel like I finished breakfast. Linda and Carol have reached out so writing and helping them has taken time too. 

What about Dick this morning?

It’s interesting how you get me there. I did have a good chat with him, and seemed to just ramble on about my own challenges and experiences more than usual! I guess his questions and focus were very clear and powerful. Again, he was asking more about you. I know my experience here with You seems to be more powerful than ever. I understand, it’s important that I write about it. I also struggle with that responsibility even as it gets easier and easier for me. 

What about Dick?

I know I gave him all the audio I recorded, and then checked my drives of data for him to browse. Once again you are reminding me about getting more organized and clear about what I know and need to share. I did mention to him about my five day or six day work week. And I know this is really part of “my job” that I’m doing now. And yes I even mentioned about my server and blogs and tons of data I can coordinate and publish more focused!

What we appreciated was how you started with the Earth Creation with the Lords Words: Let there BE Light, Water, Land, birds, Fish, and Mankind who is Very Good. And you now start with you morning times in the Light of God, with the Waters touched with the Mangroves you set into the Land to restore the Birds the Fish and Mankind. You have returned to start here where you belong. And you reach to share more of this and know the love and beauty that you have created and brought forward for all to see.

I get it’s important again to share how I am able to share this Love with you! And how much You Bring Through to me as I write: 

What a good place to start. . 

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

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Christian Awareness Witness

I need to be in this more. Please Dear Jesus lend me with Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to stay focused and clear about this task before me. God Grant me the Grace to stay in clarity. 

I need to write 3000 words, or roughly 6 pages of my experiences getting to know Christ more intimately. This is really a challenge because there are so many aspects of this that I know. Where should I start, and where should I focus. I’m ready to go back to bed now. I really want to hide and not address anything. 

Write our origin story, everyone loves these stories. “Tell me the story of how you and mom met.” Pick the one topic and start with a letter to Kevin.  Kevin represents my ideal client who I need to prepare this for.

My dad was in the navy and found my mom when he was on leave at port in Puerto Rico. I grew up inNorthern New Jersey outside of NY. My life experience has been much like a sign wave where I’m focused and engaged with Jesus through high-points and then crash and burn in despair whenever I get distracted.

When I came to Saint Pete I was starting over after a divorce in Tampa. I had been hired to setup a new engineering office focused on my work doing stormwater master plans and river models.  I moved into my newSaint Pete home on December 13th, 2019. 13 weeks later on March 13, 2020, COVID closed my office and I got a forbearance on my mortgage and weekly unemployment checks searching for anything I could do in the city.

I wasn’t biking to work anymore, but continued to bike out every day. They closed as much as they could,but the public parks and bike paths stayed open.

Soon my Father who lived in Land o’ Lakes decided to leave Florida and I spent a week helping him pack tomove. My mother had passed in 1999 and this move was a major shift for him leaving Florida and cleaning out the history of my mom. During this experience I learned more about my mother.

I ended up getting paintings and art she had collected. The big tapestries that my mom had in the house forever are now central in my new home. I got all the family pictures that she had collected now that my fatherwas cleaning out the family home to move north. I had twisted my ankle helping my dad, and buried my foot in the sand on my next bike trip along the St Pete waterfront.

Now, I'm reminded of first arriving in Tampa for college, and feeling like I was in a time-warp back into High School, where everyone was struggling and trying to figure out what I had already done the last ten-years. Course, I'd been down this road over and over again? Do you think I could get it right this time? Andwhat does it mean to get it right? Does this mean being someone else? Does this mean being who I AM? Does this mean BEing more than I AM? How could I BE MORE? 

What is it that I'm exploring or trying to understand now, that is beyond me, or forcing me to grow and achieve more My father had raised us in a Methodist Church, but my mother was Catholic. Soon after this experience with my dad, I noticed a Lent Guide in the local Protestant church I was invited to from work. I learnedhow Lent was primarily a Catholic tradition and decided to visit the Catholic Church next door to my home in St. Pete. As I walked into Saint Paul's for mass I picked up a Lent prayer guide at the entrance. As I was leaving I returned to the entrance to find any additional prayer guides to assist me.

At this time, someone noticed me exploring and asked if she could help, I told her I wanted to learn how prayand this was my first time exploring Lent. Bonnie told me there Father Curtis was new at Saint Raphael’s Catholic Church a short distance away on Snell Island and he was beginning some new classes that might meet my needs.

I biked over to catch the 8am Mass lead by Fr Curtis. After Mass I asked him about learning how to pray and hetold me about the “Nine Grades of Prayer” course starting the next morning after the 8am Mass. I got the book right then and showed up the next day for mass and then class. The class was very familiar and that was very clear that I was in the right place to the right thing. Soon I realized that it was all women in the class and they told me how it was right after their morning meeting And the men’s group That I could go to, so the women invited me to the men’s group meeting and asked their husbands to welcome me which they did and I started in the men’s group starting with Exodus 90.

I mean, my mom warned me countless times about false prophets and spirits who could pretend to be "Christ" or God, or anything inside our heads. 

She always told me how Jesus brought us the "Word," where no one else could ever answer to His Name. It was the best way to make sure I was only talking to God...

Now, the real experience is knowing what tasks I have to do and doing them. Like completing this letter for your Mondaymorning, editing all the work we’ve done and adding critical details and power where it feels necessary.  And really using this technology that I have asked for all my life. I can hand write with a pen, talk, or type each goes digital, spell checked and ready to share . . . . . Each adds new ideas and experiences to this note!

Likemy journal from high school still in my Great Grandmothers Trunk, sharing thoughts and communication is how I evolve, this is what I’ve always done!

90 was wonderful experience! This was my first exodus 90. This was my 1st men's group. This was my 1stmen's fraternity. I was doing regular exercise, I was biking to church. I was doing yoga with the sunrise, I was swimming. My morning experience with God was shifted up to another level.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word. '

We are always with you, ready to guide and help with every step. It's not so much a challenge or conflict to pull you out of step, but more an opportunity to create more and share more at a deeper level.

I’m not sure what I'm doing. I cleared up my back yard to have the men's group over again. But made no effort to remind anyone about it. I did build a big fire, and it’s getting chilly so I'm really enjoying it now. But I'm really ready for bed.

What a wonderful experience to share with us. You really go out of your way to love the moment, and enjoy everything that appears before you. You rarely are concerned about the details, and simply accept whatever we suggest and place before you. Like now you have been alone in your house for several days working on this Witness Writing that you have prepared. And again now as you share the insights we have for you now. You begin to feel and experience deeper thoughts and feeling about what you can share in this witnessing.

What jumps out to me is to WATCH, LISTEN, PERCEIVE, ATTEND, CLEARLY FOCUSED, READY, AND SLOW . . . To my passions MANGROVES, GARDENS, PLANTS, PEOPLE, which feels like 

USF RESEARCH, PATENTS, TRUTH.

1.         CHURCH        ????? = is really defined as the loving relationship in Jesus, Father, and Spirit
2.          SCOUTS            ???? = is about loving my neighbor, teaching children and families
3.           CLEAN HOUSE   ??? = is about loving me, my space and all Jesus has given to me
4.            CLEAN OFFICE     ?? = is about loving my responsibility to care for all these loves
5.             USE OFFICE            ? = is reinforcing these loving responsibilities above
6.              WWW.      = is really about teaching, and publishing all the above . . . 

IS THIS MY NEW FULL TIME JOB, six days a week for Jesus: each one of these needs to be DONE every week, and every day. I’ve been trying to focus 3-4 hours daily to each one.

         SCOUTS, HOUSE, OFFICE, 

w/             CHURCH    A real foundation

I realize again that I’m starting over. And so I did my everything today but swim. I even did two sets at 12 exercises, instead of 24 like I finally did last week. I attended to the mangroves, added another branch in there next to them to hold onto. Then everything I heard and read in the gospel and in the liturgy, all remind me of who I am again! Yes, I got the same message over and over again! I know it’s about what I have to do! It’s always about what I have to do!

Now my work days have been defined. And if I did one of these tasks in one day every week, I’d be done with everything within a month or two. I mean really focused and clear on the one task. 

What did you figure out?

I can plan 4 hour blocks, or three hour blocks. Each day I can plan to do “X” for three hours. . . Or let’s see 5-6am Exodus, JoyFM Pods and prayer at 6am doing exercises and getting up clear and focused. Then bike to Beach for 7am sunrise. . . Mangroves, and swim to get back home by 9am?

Friday, Saturday, and/or Sunday will be 8am mass.  Then Tuesday its 630am Mass till Men Fraternity at 730am.  Hum, maybe Mass and the Rosary then too? So then Monday, Wednesday, Thursday is 8-9am office work?  Garden Works? Might be best to do seeds, and watering first thing. 

We have to make sure you eat lunch too. So gardens, mangroves, church and all ends at 1200 noon, where you can read or PBS for lunch. And then get into your office next. It’s best for you to get started there early. And then do house/office/yard cleaning before bed. That would mean you can get a shower and relax before bed.

I get it 5-8am is god and health, 8-12 is mangroves and gardens, 12-3pm is office works, 3-6pm cleaning, and 6-9pm is the Examin with God again.

What about scouts?

I can get into scouts or teaching as a four hour block once or twice a week. Like Exodus 90 on Tuesdays shifts things a bit. Whenever I have a scouting event or something to do with Carol, I can make that a four hour block, skipping the office or cleaning once or twice a week.

We have to say you have come a long way. It’s important that you take each of these tasks seriously. Remember your time with Emily. Whenever you scheduled a four hour trip to the art show or river to kayak, you were very clear and focused preparing every detail.  Nothing was more important than that time with your daughter. 

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to Achieve YOUR GLORY!

usually totally perplexed

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What have you done now. . . 

It was kinda weird, as I was preparing for another Court Hearing Justin asked me to leave! What? Yes, he had really planned for an intern, not a PhD. The tasks he was giving me, were all canned, where he wanted the boxed versions updated, no new thought, no new insight, just get the job done so he can bill for it. All focused on the cash flow, and not interested in developing something that’s real and lasts. Course, I can only build stuff that’s real and lasts, so the incompatibility came out again and again. 

Interesting as it was, he asked me to leave the day before I had a full day of hearings. Perfect timing to bring clarity and focus to court. What a joke court was. I did say specifically how the whole thing was a show, like a comic strip that anyone with common sense could see through. . . . Except the cop, who always thinks he knows better and must be right. Catherine pulled it off and I was NOT GUILTY, so it’s all just crap on my record now.

Now with the police negligence, bankruptcy, foreclosure and tenant fraud it seems like I’ll be in courts full-time for a while. AS odd as it seems, in the middle of it all last week, I got a call from the DEO who told me they had more COVID funds for helping homeowners in Florida. I told her I already had a foreclosure notice, and she said they could expedite it all. WOW?! I told her my monthly bill, and then the total due after the forbearance. . . “Expedite” in government usually can mean a week instead of a month. . . Or a month instead of a year. . . Which feels like I’ll be getting another call this week.

What did you feel with this.

Yes Jesus, I again felt the endless Blessing of You Providing for me! I did cancel my last mortgage payment. I mean why pay them anything if they already gave me the foreclosure notice.  That means with my last check due in today, I’ll have almost $10k cash.  I’ve lived a whole year on less than that before. So I am more fearless than ever. I’m still fighting my “dad’s program” that the “man is in a job 5 days a week.” It’s not been easy for me to let go of this, and I still apply and ask for another job almost every day.  But I also realize you are leading me into something very specific and strong that I need to do.

What else would we be doing. You know that’s been your place all the time. Now more than ever, you need to decide and create your place in all of this.

I know I’ve been clear about this and working diligently to do whatever I find needs to get done. Like I rewrote the Exodus 90 “Why Statement” with Kevin and Dick, who both provided direction and insight for this. I even have written it out on my wallpaper picture for my iPhone and this iPad:

 

We love that you have your favorite pictures set there in the heart as well. Each time you see this you have this flutter of joy and peace so grateful for the memories and experiences that you created and shared with so many.

I sometimes wonder if that was the best I ever could do and it’s all downhill from there now.

We have shown you countless times how much you change and influence all those around you. There is a lot of power and focus in these experiences that you have and whenever you share and witness to others about the events and blessings you have seen it moves mountains.

I just never seem to know which end is up. Like I push for work, or school, or home, or STARS, or something else. Each time thinking this will be my next fifty years or at least a year or two. I try to stay present and focus on replying to the real issues that appear before me. And suddenly everything shifts again? I always try to stay present and recognize that I’ve got more important things each moment You show up and ask for something. I mean, I’m usually totally perplexed and never seem to know what possible goals there are, wondering what this could be about or what You could need next.

We have always been pretty clear. Knowing you can get through anything is always a big advantage. 

I get it. But I’ve done the fort, and family, and business, and school! I’ve taught classes and guided instructors and even Guru’s. It’s just weird to consider that I’ve got more to do. Yes, I know its more that no one else is doing, or more something that others can’t address or understand.

We have you there where you need to be. Stay slow and steady, everything is set for this next shift we are all needing and wanting.

I get it.  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to guide and lead me to fulfill all that Is . . . . 

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Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

We have told you the same things, hundreds of times. You still think there is something else you have to do, or something that you need. You haven’t really ever “needed” ANYTHING. It has always been given to you. You have always been blessed and spoiled. Countless generations of people who were equally gifted have exploited and gotten lost. Over and over again we have done the very same thing. Each time we get closer and closer to the deeper truth and more powerful experience where men trust in God to provide, and each time you all get lost.

…yes it’s always been LOVE and Relationships to emulate Jesus Christ and create more love, respect, and peace, for JOY in personal interactions. Your ability to share and offer up your Grace to others has always been a place of power for you. Yes, fearlessly as you have known and seen things beyond, so much further than people ever see or understand. Nothing has slowed you down. Nothing has impacted your abilities. Each day you grow and learn more. Each day you fearlessly step into more power and focus in service to your fellow mankind.

I am always going to step into something more. It’s what you created inside of me. I have always been able to see opportunities and create things that surprise me. I never know where I'm going of what my next step will be, but I'm always ready. I guess I need to go to USF and visit a Dean or two. 

God does not set up commandments to make us miserable. Breaking the commandments is what makes us miserable. God loves purity because it reflects an inner reality of right ordering, peace, and love. Jesus calls us to a place of holy detachment. We must fulfill our duties and make use of the things in this world, even as we remain fixed on our true home and our deepest need - - Love with God. Sated with pleasure and material things, we become too distracted to ask the honest question of Jesus: what do I lack? Jesus will answer if we ask him sincerely. He can point out the attachments that bind us and which we try to keep hidden from him. He can lead us to see into our soul and find him there, waiting for us to stop, listen, and enter into a deeper union with him there.

It feels like a struggle to keep up. So much of my world seems out of hand. Equally, I am totally perplexed by some events and circumstances that just show up. I recognize I need to get a lot more focused and clear about my desires and intentions. I recognize things are going to be getting easier and more things are going to be flowing and falling into my lap. I need to recognize this and allow myself to be more focused on what I really need and what I really want to see before me. Like knowing that the Dean’s truck is going to be there before I drive over to the college, but never considering whether he’s going to be in his office or not. That was totally idiotic, because his truck was there and no one was in his office. I need to get a lot more clear on how my future is going to unfold because Jesus wants me to be in charge, and really ask and seek the things I want to see before me. 

What if that is really what this is all about?  That the changes around everywhere were all started by your desires that are so strong and clear seeking to bring the Love Of Christ out more fully.

I know it always has been, Recognizing that it’s God’s desire, and God’s plan that is inside of me, which means it’s all about love. And I’m just the lucky guy who asked the right questions at the right time to step into these circumstances. As opposed to it being about my personal desires or insecurities, it’s always about love and relationship; leading and guiding others to find this love and relationship with Jesus. I recognize that I’m stepping into more and more every day. I guess that’s nothing new. I also realize that I am in the right place at the right time to shift everything, I guess that was my intent to start with. 

I wrote another Apple feedback notice and just bellyaching about all kinds of stuff. They haven’t done anything yet, and then of course the next day I had upgrades on everything. I really like how they put the period in automatically in the sentences here as I speak. Of course, as I say that, they skip a period. So it’s really kind of funny that sometimes I need to say “period” and sometimes I don’t. I guess is the new thought that separates things, nope. . . Still almost random, their AI is learning my style still.

What Happened to you this morning?

I started reading, Chapter 5 in the Welcome book. It is about: “what if;” it’s all real with Jesus. And I realized that it is. I guess, I’ve always known that anyway. But understanding that everything He said is still real, brings me to a deeper relationship with him; because I see, feel and know:

1. How everybody is still alive because Love is Eternal.
2. How we will all last forever, in love.
3. How it is love growing and creating more God all the time and it’s all about love.
4. Easy Peasy: God is LOVE, and Love is God!

It’s really like the gold mine that nobody knows is there, because they all think and believe the BS sold to them by the system of greed and control. It is really such a total challenge and opportunity for me to step into all that I see and have before me. I guess, it's really all I've prepared for all my life anyway. Everyone knew I was up to something. Like all my life I had this secret, that I never could explain or fully understand. And again everything in my life brings me back to this same place, what will I build, what will I achieve, what will be next for me. And what is this really all about.

What is before you has more to do with your own deeper desires than anything else. Your love and passions have brought you here, you experience deep love and joy in each thing you do. And you constantly share and invite others into this space with you.

Yes, I know it has all been planned, and I recognize how often I experience De-Ja-Vu! Seeing, feeling and experiencing things that I’ve done, created or imagined before. I recognize how this is ever present. I feel Your Joy and Delight in the actions and steps I take to fulfill anything before me. It’s always such a blessing to share with you. It’s always such a wonder to try and keep up, to try and listen, to try and fulfill whatever wonder You set before me.

We have done this a lot. You have been very successful in just stepping into this truth that appears before you. It’s never easy to follow and listen.  That faith is so important and central to the growth and development you have been experiencing.  Such resounding faith is a wonderful Love that is ideal for everyone to strive for.

I realize that these higher forms of love are very important for us to move forward and make the progress we need.

WE have been here and shared this before. You need to remain fearless and ready to step into your place of comfort and security. Each day you will have new opportunities and challenges. And each day you surpass these more will open to you. More clarity, more understanding, more freedom. Everything is about you stepping into who for really are and what your place needs to BE!

What is before you was created and designed by you, for you, above you. . . As LOVE

I know. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ,  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Amen

speak of life before

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What are you doing?

I’m reading the witness guidelines. It talks about a AD and BC the year of the Lord Annio Domino and then BC  Before Christ? Why is one part Latin and the other part not Latin, it doesn’t make any sense to me. They want me to speak of life before I encountered Jesus, and then speak about my encounter with Jesus. And then how my life has changed after the encounter, which I do every day in a new encounter with You.

Yes, Jesus is always here encountering. He’s asking me to do more. Showing me how to do this, teaching me how to do that. It’s really kind of fun sometimes, because we get kind of goofy. Like when I made that meatloaf. I never thought of making a meatloaf before, but it was just so spontaneous and clear how much fun it was, where he just led me through it. . . Course I missed a few things, as I’m still learning to listen better. . . 

I know Jesus loves doing things and being very present, here and now in this experience. I don’t seem to be able to share that with anybody though. Nobody seems to understand me when I talk about it being so present and real. I started to pray at work and it’s really just funny. I mean, instead of holding my hands up in the prayer pose. I’m holding my hands down and peeing… lol… but it’s interesting how my energy and disposition shift so much. So I make sure I do it every day, now 2 or 3 times a day.

I also noticed that I have more guidance and strength in my workday. It’s different when I’m at home because then I could just chant my “Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ,” like I’ve learned years ago. But at work, it’s more focused on getting something done with my active mind, instead of just trusting the spirit to guide me.

I know that’s what I need to do everywhere, it’s just trusting spirit to guide me. Like learning about welcoming, trying to figure out how to talk and share is the challenge.

All your lil "friends" who let you sit in the comfort of your bad habits don't love you as much as the people who dare to challenge you to be better.Am

I know it’s always about the Word!

What is before you, will become more clear every day, as you move forward and step into things that you are not accustomed too. You have always been able to smile and stay at peace through some of the greatest challenges and confrontations. Now you will be moved through so much more. 

I just Love Your Word! And yes, I’ve noticed you are getting more specific and more demanding. I know it’s never demands, but you are very clear about what I need to be doing and when it’s appropriate for me to do different things.  

What about yesterday, what jumps out to you?

I remember when I knew I had to get out my pressure washer and clean up my back yard. The Word, was so strong! Oh course, then I realized that I had no gas, and had to drive out to get some gas. As I was pulling out, I felt . . . . lol, or “heard” how I needed to go right down to the Shell Station, instead of left to Wawa’s. But I was already heading left. So I turned out on 16th and again ‘heard’ turn right to Shell. 

What you did was very strong and clear. You still went left and got into the turn lane, using the excuse that you were in traffic and already moving in this direction. But again you heard our directions to go to the right. And you even asked us specifically. And as the left turn arrow came on and the traffic started moving, you noticed no one was on the other side turning. So you quickly turned right in front of all the traffic to go in the direction we asked.

I thought that was so weird, but I accepted Your Word! As I went down to 9th Street I thought I might have missed an accident the other way, or maybe it was someone before me that I would see. When I got to the intersection, I turned right again into the 7-11, instead of Shell on the left.

What did you see or feel when you started with the gas. . . ?

I was thinking how I might need to fill all my gas tanks. Like something would shift and we would be out of gas soon. What an interesting Word to feel as I filled my 4.5 gallons! Yea, a 5 gallon container, but overfilling means I spill it. Something else similar happened when you told me to put my chicken soup in the freezer. I felt like it was all the food I needed through some nasty things before us. . 

What was next?

Oh i filled my tank and drove out, turning down 21st Ave and headed home, then 12th Street to 20th Ave. . . And home in no time. I really didn’t noticed anything more, and waved to someone walking or something. I try to do that everywhere, all the time. It’s like something important for me. . . Always greeting my neighbors. Like my ride to the Mangroves has befriended a bunch of people, including some who recognized me from church. And Now again I’m leaving early enough to bike down to the Sundail and Chant, as well as visiting my Mangroves . . . . We’ll see. . . 

I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to achieve all you have set before me today ;-)

 I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

He knew he was ready too. . .

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word ! Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to achieve YOU WILL!

What about tomorrow. . . . 

I am meeting with the Deacon for breakfast again! It’s my turn to buy. . . . Of course, I just sent him a test now, saying to be hungry tomorrow, so I can buy him a big breakfast. I always wanted to invite John too. 

What happened now

I crashed this app again. . .  I think it tried to put too many picture into it. . . I copied the messages to my kids and my anchor to john. And I posted it all here, oh except the videos. And I realize that I’m going to blow the doors of it all.

I mean 

It’s just so obvious how things always fall together. I can see it happening more and more all the time. It’s just such a neat life I’ve got, that I never seem to really understand and I’m always so grateful and experiencing. . . I wonder what it’s all about sometimes. But them I’m totally perplexed how awesome and incredible it all is. . . . 

What about the movie?

It ended with Jesus going in Jerulsum to die! And it was so cool, as just as he is saying his last words to everyone and leaving . . . MY SON CALLED FaceTime on my iPhone. . . WOW, I jumped up, fumbling with my phone? Not sure, but I lost him, or what I did, but then just recorded the scene on the movie screen. . . Wow, it was just really cool. Like Chris knew I had to record this. . . 

When did that happen before?

I was meeting with an engineer in the office! And my phone rang, and l looked to see I was 5 minutes late for a hearing. . . Lol, it was Domain Homes calling about buying another house. And I was so grateful to get out to my zoom call. . . I sat online with the zoom hearing through TWO MEDIATIONS, before they asked that I cancel and agree to dismiss it all. . .

What about the next morning?

I know, I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

I went into a Code enforcement hearing too. They wanted to fine me $500/ day for having Airbnb people for less than a month. . . So I was ready. . . Had my leases, and all my other violations. . . . In my suit with a black leather case of data. . . Lol. . . Bury them in BS. . . 

Then they told me it had been dismissed!

What? Dismissed?

Let me talk to someone.

So the guy in my neighborhood came out. . . So I started with my story and list of violations. . . Like the parking in the front yard, that was really in the alley. Or the Urban Agriculture when I could show them the rules, they never read. . . .

It’s was funny 

As the guy and I spoke, he recognized me.  And admitted he had done the alley with me. . . We laughed and talked more. So then I thought the hearing was all about meeting and connecting with him. . . And complimenting him on his work, encouraging him to move up in the city. . . 

I asked if he had been promoted already I always have more to talk about and where to the right and it’s interesting how things happen h

He knew he was ready too. . . 

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Each day you are getting better

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! Yes I know when you ask me to write, or stop and review what I’ve written it’s not about editing or adding to the lost post but to create new one. 

What came to mind immediately with this?

Yes, I know it’s how annoying it always was for me to write in a book, or journal! I just wanted to open and write. I didn’t want to find the last post and read whatever, to find the place that I left off. It would really just annoy me. I remember for years telling you that if you wanted m to write. Then always open my journal to a clean blank page. I really need to get back and read all my old journals….

What is important is that you created this to express this Divine Experience and Guidance that you are!

I get it! Wow, that’s a bit presumptuous. I hate writing things like that.

What is important, is that you do!  Each day you are getting better, clearer, closer and more focused than ever. Do you see how easy this has become for you to get back into the truth and power that you knew alone in the woods. You really have no idea how many times we had very deep powerful experiences.  Recognize how God has been and always is. Everything here was created and established over years, centuries, eons. And daily the resources and opportunities to bring GOD HOME, are closer and closer. While equally the snake gets more and more desperate to stop us.

I know! I see them both all the time.

What do you mean, you seem to see everything, but the snake. You recognize he’s been beaten, and fearlessly just follow what you are told to do. 

I know! And it’s really a struggle sometimes as so much gets crazy around me. I never seem to know what I am doing. And I constantly get pulled into new things. I think I have my weekend planned and hope I can get to the art show and concert this weekend. 

What you need to remember is that you are doing what you need to do. And this means, that you are given rewards and benefits to honor your work.

I get it. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

there’s a mountains so your climbing

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What happen now?

I realized how I have never prayed for a company before! It’s like I’ve always sort of known that whatever I set my mind to would be felt by everybody. It’s something that has kind of annoyed me over the years, where I decide to go to Burger King, or where ever. And the place is empty all week long, but the moment I decide to go there, the place is jam-packed full of people. That has happened to me so many times that I’ve realized it’s better not to plan to go anywhere, but just wait until the last minute and turn in, because then nobody knows I’m coming, and nobody arrives until after I do. 

It’s really sort of just one of those challenges that you have. Like if you know you’re a mountain climber and these mountains show-up, and you cant help stop to climb all the time. And then it’s just common knowledge over there’s a mountains, so your climbing it. It’s never question. It’s just something that I’ve learned. So I realize now that I have a new life, and a new job, and I knew everything. That when I pray about it and set an intention for them to do better, it only increases this that I already know. 

What about this makes you so insecure?

I’m not sure if it’s insecurity. But I do recognize that it’s intimidating. I almost feel like I should warn people. Uh-oh, I wrote a review for you. You better watch out. It’s not like any surprise to me.. I mean, I almost take it for granted, that it’s inevitable. Of course, now I wonder about my company and my church.

I’ve noticed that my neighborhood has exploded too. I guess, the whole city exploded, when I moved in. I mean like, four new high-rises started when I moved to this city. I think three of them came from the company I was with too. It’s just funny!

What Surprises you about that, since you’ve seen it all your life anyway. What’s the big deal?

It’s Not a big deal, but just something I need to be conscious of. I need to be careful what I focus on. Just like wanting to go to Burger King and recognizing that I can’t put that energy out or else the place will be packed in no time.

What else did you feel like you had to do?

I guess, I realized how I need to be teaching. I mean, I watched this PBS nature show tonight about whales and the guy doing the filming. Who wanted to talk to the whales. And he was talking to whales, but he didn’t realize he was talking to whales. So the whales are sitting around waiting for him to say something and he doesn’t know that they understand him. It’s just so bizarre how naïve people are, but of course they’ve been programmed by the machine to disregard everything that’s real. All they can understand is what the TV tells them.  I know it’s all changing, everyday… I found him online of course. Then I told him how easy it was to learn to talk to animals and shared the Turtle Story with my son. . .  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Dear Jesus, how do you expect me to move forward? I’m tired. I’m stressed. You keep giving me more, more, more. I don’t know how to keep above water even. I’m just tired. I am stressed and I can’t keep up with all this. Let me sleep please, please, please, let me sleep Sleep, yes I know so 8 o’clock and I need to get to sleep. I try to get to sleep early and I can’t. I can’t sleep at all. I have to. 

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Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word ! Ah baby changes everything. so I realize I’m a little kid again playing with the toys. I always wanted in my whole life. Well, I guess I made it myself because there’s only one life here. So God created God for God.

We just haven’t figured this out yet so we think we’re going to set an alarm wrong. wow what is your incredible as hell? I am perplexed by all this technology, and it just keeps coming at me from every direction. It’s like another world that I live in. And I know I serve so much to do. I know I gotta get up in the morning then I can swim, what is the Weeknd doing and I almost 40 hours this week . . . 

I love this experience so much. I’ve got to get more done, every day!

It’s going to get intense again. I can feel it coming. I guess that’ s

I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, sing hallelujah, sing hallelujah to the writer of the words. . . On TheJoyFM.com @ 10:23 12/7/23

What are you doing now? 12:42 11/23/2023

I can’t even count how many holidays I’ve spent alone! I’m always grateful for this experience with You Dear Jesus. But I never understand the next steps. You are always pushing me for more, and then you feed me so well and take such good care of me. Like now, I cooked a pound of Shrimp. Yes, cleaned wild shrimp, with my hot salsa. And I keep hearing the wine. 

What we are saying, is sure have some wine with your lunch. It’s part of the celebration of being clear and grateful for this experience and gift before you. 

I’m always stunned by these gifts from You! I’m not sure why being alone is a gift. I know I can sleep in the hammock out in the sun. Or Bike around the city to see if anything is open, or anyone is around. I really don’t care, and would rather go to sleep in my bed or in the bathtub full of epson salt.

We have told you before, that you were getting ready for a lot. And you have recognized how important your own reconciliation is in this process before you.  

I get it, and it’s all steps in the process! And I realize being alone to chat with You is also part of my process.

What we have set before you is to get you more “religious.” Yes, religion beyond the spiritual energy you feel and live is the conscious connection to others in love and respect. Religion is about the church and community. Honoring traditional principles opens more clarity and freedom in your spiritual practices. As you are finding with SEEL, the experience in your own exercises allows a stronger more focused relationship with everyone around you. These exercises and challenges bring you closer together in spirit and love.

I get it. I’ve sat on my magnetic mat before the alter to rest in my room. The breeze through this house has really been awesome. I’m cleaning out my office and resetting things all around as I go. I replanted some mangroves and found more seeds to plant. The seed beds outside have been scavenged by a rat, squirrel or mouse! I’m not sure what to do but replant, tend, and keep trying. It’s weird as I never have had so much house in my life. And it’s all to myself. 

What you have is a gift from your mother. You set of mothers who have all passed to share this time with you. It’s always about you growing, and forgiving, and learning, and sharing. Everything is about you stepping into a stronger place of love and freedom.

I get it. I’ve got to get my truck fixed, and it’s not going to be any fast easy process! Nothing ever seems like a fast easy process for me anymore. I guess I witnessed to the Men’s Welcome Group and that was easy as I wrote up an outline and stepped into all the different aspects. 

What about this brought you closer to reconciliation?

I guess it was recognizing how I’ve always gone through these cycles with you. Working hard and strong in something specific you set before me and then completing some major aspect, where I’m given some extended period of peace and quiet. Sitting alone now, makes me wonder what the next step into some major challenge will be. I know that reconciliation will sorta clear the slate between us.

Yes, this is what it is all about. You need to leave behind all the demands and challenges you created in New Jersey. Yes, you were a Prodigal and came back for very specific reasons. Bringing forth the child you had invited into your life was important, and the efforts you made around them set the stage for so much more. This was completed, and you have moved on. Releasing those limitations you demanded to keep you focused are necessary now.

I get it. And I’m not sure how to make this work for me.I know it’s about the reading You have set before me, both in SEEL and in Welcome. This reconciliation is both about seeing my sins, where I stepped down from the virtues and gifts of the spirit. I see and recognize how lucky I’ve been in maintaining my “cardinal virtues” of prudence, justice, fortitude, and temperance. And I seed how these gifts have been my strengths for a long time. Standing strong with a family filled with conflicts and struggles. Sure I was abused, insulted and humiliated most of my life. And it seems that this strengthened these virtues as I continued to grow and express myself through all of these.

I have acknowledged how these challenges of youth were a big part of what made these elements so strong for me. And now I’ve been lead to open the Ignatian Adventure book that I’ve been reading for SEEL, and this verse put me in tears. Luke 7:47 “Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven—as her great love has shown. But whoever has been forgiven little loves little!”  And this feels like the many gifts I’ve been given. And again I recognize I Have so much to be thankful for, and again I wonder what could be next for me. 

I’ve had my truck stuck at the office for the last few days. Yesterday, I called around to check about getting it fixed and found someone who understood what I was dealing with and knew my truck ready to fix it. This morning I biked to work and called my insurance company for a tow of my truck. They told me about the same price as I heard at work. And I’m confident it was be working fine when I get it back. It feels good to get my truck fixed. I’m still perplexed by everything I have at hand. I try to stay in my spirit and focused about my tasks and goals. 

I’m tired of having strangers in my house. I’m not happy about this, nor do I respect those who are taking advantage of me. It’s really gotten annoying. And I know I need the extra cash, but I’m tired of it. I’ve been wondering about selling my house. I know I could get almost twice what I paid for. I mean my deposit was enough for a new truck and a new airstream camping trailer to live in. I wouldn’t have any cash left over for gas or anything. But I honestly considered it, just to escape all that I have around me now. 

Now again to sell my home means buying the biggest, best truck and trailer with cash for gas and travels lasting years. Not that I need to escape anything, or dealing with my mortgage or bankruptcy or whatever I have before me is completely crazy. I’ve always been able to come out ahead, and I know Jesus always is watching out for me. I never know what could be next and never seem to care. I mean, Jesus always has these challenges that show up and I’m never ready and always surprised, but still end-up ahead or winning whatever it is.

What this is, is the prudence, justice, fortitude, and temperance that you spoke of before! Stepping into things requires these steadfast and immovable which prepares you for more. As You have read and heard before to those with great gifts, are given great responsibilities. 

I’m in pain and frustrated, my keyboard on my iPad is not working anymore. Which really sucks. I do have to much to do.... More just cleaning and taking care of things around my house. I love this house. Maybe because it's filled with my mom or maybe because it's be such a wonderful gift from her. I don't like being alone, and I don't feel I can do anything productive here. It's really annoying more than anything. 

I have always been loving and productive all my life. And I feel like it's brought me here, but this is nothing but being alone and feeling sorry for myself.

What did you do today?

I Finished my confession and rescinded all my demands that I placed for you when you brought me back as a prodigal. It is with Father Jonathan, who helped me all along. So I was clear and comfortable going through everything that I’ve had to confess. Thank you, Lord Jesus I love you.

What this does is open new things for you. You’ll be able to experience more and understand more because we won’t be as limited as you had made it before.

I know its about starting a new life and accepting my responsibility at a new level because I know you have so much more for me to do and I’m a young kid again so it’s gonna be fun

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

never write those words, because I don’t know how to spell them

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What this is about is making the next step easier and faster for all.

I get the feeling that the world will soon be crazier than ever.  I met with another professional leader, and shared too much. As crazy as it seemed I included my complaint to the student aid office and then I received this notice discharging it all completely. It was as if I had set the energy into motion for resolution as I planned my meeting, and the energy of resolution itself was enough to bring the issues to conclusions, far beyond my own desire or need to present or address it again myself.

This reminds me of Kim’s comments about our new roof, when Christopher left Florida. It was obvious to her that I was somehow protected or living a life in a different world, where money and support for all my efforts and desires simply appeared. This is a similar effect, as I’ve started to write here several times before I really said anything.

We have always told you that this world was some sort of playground for you. You simply have been here from the very beginning and choose to do and accept challenges and responsibilities that most people can barely understand or conceive of. You have always been an instrument of change, very necessary and powerful changes beyond your own understanding. Often like the ripples in a pond the impacts on the edges are far removed from the source.

I’m still not sure what that means, except as we are all still the one same electron that started everything here. But I am getting more comfortable with my regular routine. I know I need to get into a regular health and exercise routine again, before I could do anything significant, but I don’t really know what that means. Anyway, it’s clear I’m getting prepared for something so much more. I’m always getting prepared for something, sometimes it feels like just trivia. You know, like another new bike for another road trip or something else I don’t consider significant. Even meetings and conversations seem trivial sometimes. I really don’t know how much shifts from one moment to the next, while people seem so surprised sometimes.

What we love, is how you dance between, learning, sharing, growing, and teaching others, the here now you stopped to send praise to Apple, who still follow and learn from your writing and works.

I’m always perplexed at how each week I seem to get another Apple Beta upgrade and another nightmare vanishes. Like, the AI they use now is knowing what I want to write, when I cant spell or write, never having a clue what needs to be shared. And now again, I can talk to the screen as much as I write to the screen, and then switch to the text, or switch to the pen, or the typewriter and go back-and-forth randomly, which is insane. I just laughed about it, because I’ve written for so long; and have been so frustrated with the pen, and so frustrated with the notebook, and frustrated with the computer, frustrated with this keyboard, but now I can switch randomly. It seems so random and easy, allowing me to share what I need to share, using which ever methods are easy and preferred from one moment to the next. Clearly showing me how I must continue, not missing a work, or stopping a moment, knowing the pen, and mic await when I can’t find the correct keys to type.

What that means for us is that we can do a lot more as well. You’re not intimidated by speaking for us. You can type very quickly and you can talk even faster. And when things come out wrong, you almost wonder whether AI or someone else understands something which is teaching you something. Everything just flows for you and you allow it to flow. This is your blessing. This is your power. This is your purpose. Every day another planet shifts because of your words. Those around you have no idea.

I hate how that sounds, it’s just so arrogant or prideful; and really what’s funny here, is that I would never say those words, or never write those words, because I don’t know how to spell them, so I avoid them, but now you got them out as i just allow Your Flow! 

What is more for you?

I’ve been asking for more wisdom and more guidance all my life, but what’s more is recognizing that I need to do this where I feel I’m most confident. I guess that means I need to seek Gods wisdom in guidance at work. This is where it feels like I know what I’m doing all the time. If I recognize that I’m back doing the same work that I did when I first arrived at St. Petersburg, except now that I’ve shifted from Eric the Methodist to Rafé the Catholic and all the work is the same, then I need to recognize that it’s a spiritual shift as well. Like today Ron called, where he wanted to come work for me again, after he got laid off and went to the county, while I got laid off and biked for four years. So now working together again might be totally crazy. Or it might really be exactly what we both need to be doing. . . Doing more!

What about this surprises you?

I guess it was weird that Ron called today, and more so that he’s coming for an interview on Friday. I guess I can accept this as the next step before us!

What are You doing now. . . 5:39. 10/24/23

I AM starting over again. Tomorrow is my SEEL meeting, and i thought to read over what we’ve done! Of course, my very first meeting started with my clear statements about following the guidance of Jesus and “creating a new life, community, passion and experience.” I realized I was starting over and know it will be wonderful beyond anything in could imagine.

Last night Rick was very clear that Saint Ignatius’s exercises were in a sense magically encouraging us to ask for more. What, me? Ask for MORE? How could I ever want anything more. I’ve already been given more than I could dream, and the idea of “more” just seems too preposterous. But as I spoke to Rick and remembered the call from Ron. MORE was present and stronger than ever as I recounted my recognition of starting this New Life. Rafé the Catholic was back Moving Rivers and setting up city infrastructure to love and hold the waters of life. And now Ron was back as my intern who I was training, and now is prepared to step into everything I could ever design and dream of.

What’s more, is as incredible as it sounds, Ron has been at the county learning and growing and now has been trained in all the latest tools and techniques, that I need to shift everything we are building before us. And he’ll be there on Friday ready to start, and I’ve got a long list of tasks coming into my head each moment. So not only is Rafé ready and stepping into this new life of more before me, but the world is bending to meet me there . . . . Giving me everything I could ever imagine, AGAIN!

What are you reading now. . . 

Yes, now again, as i reread the first week’s SEEL exercises, we need to begin each Prayer period with a Prayer for a singular Grace: “What do we desire” What do we want during this time of Prayer? Moreover, naming what we want also helps us to open up to receive the expected and the unexpected gifts of God. Each week I suggest a certain grace, but do not be bound to these words or a specific grace, but allow your praying for grace to flow from your heart….

This morning in Mass, before the Saint Raphael’s Mens Group, I felt deep into the Spirit. I have always recognized that the Power of Christ and the Spirit is strong and easy in Church. It’s much the same voice and vibration I feel and carry with me all the time. . . While Church is just more powerful. When Father Curtis got to our prayers, where we all support each request for our Church and Community by saying “Lord Hear our Prayer.”  Then he stopped in silence for us each to add our own in the silence of our hearts, and I said “More for Jesus”

We started this first week asking to be more aware of how God is near, to trust in God‘s personal care and love for me. Starting with Isaiah 43 one through seven; Luke 12:22 to 34, Psalm 23, Psalm 131, Psalm 139 one to 18; then back to Isaiah 43 one or Psalm 139 and review your journal, remembering Key Graces, and give thanks to God for them.

I knew the next week went into how God is still creating, always creating, always moving us forward, always sharing love and guidance. I guess that’s my challenge with “more” as asking for love and guidance is really nothing new or more at all.  It’s like asking for breath, while I'm breathing all the time, so what’s the point of asking for breath? I guess that’s my challenge with asking for more,”more Jesus,” or More Love, is really like asking for nothing at all. I’m blessed and grateful for all the love and Grace I receive every day. I also recognize that more is about stepping up into my BEINGNESS.

For unto whomsoever much is given, of him shall much be required; and to whom men have committed much, of him they will ask the more . . . From everyone given much, much will be required; and from the one for whom more is provided, all the more they will ask of him.

I AM again brought into this space of more. And I’m challenged beyond recognitions as I prepare for another hearing. The homeless drug addict who lived in my house with her son, or husband, filed assault charges and had me evicted from my own house. Today the public defender has submitted a motion for dismissing the case, since no one can find the drug addict. Everyone involved, including many of my neighbors who witnessed her, know how she created a scene to avoid paying rent. She essentially had two months here for free. And scared or intimidated everyone who came near, essentially guaranteeing that no one new came into the space to pay me the rent I needed for the mortgage.

What this brings forth is how the state supports drugs users. She was obtaining drugs through a state program, and then buying more to support their addictions. Stealing and lying to obtain further state food stamps and benefits that allowed her to continue. When people learn these loop holes in the system and exploit them, it really hurts everyone, those who really need to services and those like you who are needlessly impacted.

I get it and wonder how my own trauma and challenges have prepared me for these issues before me. And then to see how I’m meeting with Ron who wants to come work with me again. I hadn’t considered this before I spoke to Rick who clearly confirmed so much more had been given to me for such a strong experience.

What about making this the change you need?

I'm here with you now; and know I’m ready to step into the power and grace you have give to me. I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

the newest, latest, greatest App

I have been learning how to write again, so I can be more focused and clear on what I need to share. I know this is part of my task, to write and share more of what I understand. I also see and realized how it has been my work to use a pen, where I am able to understand and express so much more. I've learned to connected to deeper wisdom with the pen, allowing the ink to flow, releasing this Flow without my judgement and fear. But Just FLOW in LOVE. . . wow. . 

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! Dear Mother Mary fill me with your strength, love, and wisdom to achieve the glory of Father, Sons, and Holy GHOSTS.

What we have been doing is preparing you for the changes before all the race and Earth shift.

I have been seeing all kinds of visions and insights leading me to new times and places. Teaching classes, learning more, growing more, sharing, and leading. 

What we need, is for you to take your time; and be very clear and focused as you are able to share in this work before you; as you have taught and helped others to move into this space. This is something you have created and perfected exactly as no other has achieved. You created this forum and median for your own expression. Countless others have profited and exploited this. And now you have every tool and every convenience you could ever imagine, create, or desire. Yes, like you have requested, you even have the odd little keyboard screen floating around to add a period, coma, or whatever symbol you desire, and countless symbols and images to add at your own convenience. You see more and more words appear from your half scribbles, as we have explained and written for you before.

What we have needed is your explanation and understanding of the shift in consciousness, that you have known about, and anticipated all of your life. You understand what this is all about, and what it really means to create all a new. Also you know where this is all going and what it means to step forward. 

I guess so, and I know we are all being prepared for some major galactic changes; both in our time and expression, but also in what it means to be human and how valuable anyone of us is to the whole. It seems we will be getting a lot more clarity and understanding about what we really are and why. I wonder again now about what this really means.

We have told you over and over about how you are in the “same image” of the Creator, which Jesus expressed as a solution to escape your own defeatism. As a Creator, you can shift all the rules and experiences, as you need to shift creation to another level. What does it mean to shift to another level? 

You recently had the realization that the Eucharist, or the “Body” of our Lord Jesus, shared in the ceremony of Catholic Mass; was really about ingesting the “Word” of God. Bringing the True Word into yourself. And then similarly another powerful revelation came with the Consecration of Mary, when you realized that Mary was “Married” with the Holy Ghost, where they were One to Create the conception of the human infant Christ Jesus. This oneness expressed in the creation of Jesus, essentially gave a name and personality to the Holy Ghost. Similarly, the son is Jesus Christ and the Father is Jehovah, so the Holy Ghost is Mary, where the Trinity of God, is the Model Family.

I get this and understand, and it also brings so much more for me to consider. I know the snake and deception of our culture and experience has been focused on the divide and conquer that continues to today. Yes, the snake destroyed the trust and respect of the garden, as God had established by day six. And this experience was what separated us from the truth we had known in peace and love.

The World as you know it, is coming apart. These deeper truths are becoming more critical and significant, while a surprising few really know or understand.  Using these deeper truths will be an important responsibility for you this shift is about your own expression and understanding. It's ONE Life, and One changes everything everyday.

I get it, yes it's always something significant and beyond me that I am pressed to learn and understand. It's always inspiring how much I impact people. Shift their complete view and understanding in a season or a reason. I am remembering the last class I did for Professor John. I was terrified several times, and really pushed them to present and do so much more than they were ready for. I remember how often students would tell me they never worked in one class so much. Then I also heard how much they totally shifted their understanding and experience, knowing that I had some knowledge, that they had to dig out of me. 

We have always inspired others to challenge you. There is so much there that no one can reach. . .

I get it. Each day I do the PrayerLine I get reminded about this Power and Focus in the ONE GOD.  What does it really mean to understand and know The One Life. How can we have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ and be saved without this impacting everything in our live.

What if you need to impact everyone. What if that's the whole purpose. The ONE person challenged and confronted is the ONLY ONE strong and clear enough to push everything through. 

I know it's because everyone gets lost in the selfishness and fear. "god has not taken care of me, so why should I do anything or care for anyone else" . . . people get lost in the lies of the matrix about "not enough," and think that being selfish can bring them more. . . it's really the same deception of the snake. The very same lie, over and over again, about how having the Apple will make me better. 

What is so remarkable is the metaphors you show through this in using all the apple equipment and technologies. . . 

I know, and then I'm always thinking "I NEED" the newest, latest, greatest Apple Techno Toys. . . Oh sure the next pen will be better, faster, easier. . . lol. . . i'm always thinking this. Then suddenly someone BUYS ME ONE. And I feel like a idiot, since I'm always getting whatever I ask. lol. . . wow, like babies  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Chris. . . Thank You Dear Mother Mary for bring me the Strength, Love, & Wisdom of your Son, out Dear Lord Jesus Christ.

Adding a new into the world and Bringing it forward

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What is next?

I was helping with an Estate Sale. Carol came by to buy something. The first thing she said, when she saw me, was that I had cut my beard. Well not really, I cut all my sideburns off. I was looking like a lion with this big grey mane around my face. Now, saying this or realizing this, I remember the Catholic Preacher guy on the big sailboat in Belize. Nicky was just back from fixing something in his boat, and this guy was preaching to him about our big beards and how the King James Bible confirms how the mans’ beard is the container for his knowledge. Yea, Nicky has no facial hair, and has always looked like he was twelve. The guy was saying how there is some powerful aspect of our heritage and knowledge carried in the beard. I realize now how much I carry this and show how real it is, explaining this more to Carol who came to understand this more intuitively already.

I had people, almost daily, telling me to shave, cut my hair or cleanup. Looking in the mirror one morning, I noticed my mustache and the beard below it, had a clear distinct darkness, while the sides were much more gray. I got out the electric clippers and cutoff all the grey. Carol noticed immediately and said how I looked 20 years younger, and asked if I was ready to find a lady again. Of course, earlier in the same day I noticed Leslie hugging some friend of her’s, who came into the sale. She was really a hot young lady, roughly my son’s age. But the first thing Leslie asked her, was whether she was still single. I did help her out a bit, getting out what she purchased, but never talked much. Carol wanted me to get her number?!? That’s almost never happened. Lol, or only happened once, that I can remember with Maryanne in High School. I’m really not sure if I ever did that. But when talking with Carol, I realized I have always been ‘picked-up’ by ladies instead. Of course, except Kimberly, who I really had to chase down. Carol said we needed to talk with Leslie about getting her friend’s phone number . . . lol . . . Yea, Leslie just laughed about that, saying her friend was the same age as our sons.

What has Carol been doing.

I finally told Carol that I needed to get out more and meet people! She was thrilled, and started inviting me to meetings she was going to. Not just visiting for lunch after her meetings, but taking me with her to the meetings. The first was at Allendale Methodist to watch a movie. When we walked in, she ran to the restroom and I noticed the open door to the kitchen. Of course, I walked in to check it out, and it had big old gas ovens and stoves, built-in catering warmer trays and all as well.

When we walked in for lunch before the movie, we sat at an empty table where Gwen Reese soon came in to join us. Her son Jeff, was with her and someone else. Our table was soon full with several other people coming by to greet Carol and Gwen. Carol went out of her way to introduce me to everyone. It was clear everyone knew Carol and were happy to see her.

A week later she took me to the Phyllis Wheatley: Rise to Read Campaign board meeting, that was followed by their partnership collaborations meeting. It was interesting to hear about what was going on and who was contributing and participating. I even recognized someone from the movie night at Allendale. He was trying to price and find computers for their program. After the meeting I spoke to him about STARS and the projects and such I did with my son to get him reading before he was three. I sent him the USF excess inventory email that I get every year and he was impressed. 

No follow through yet, or not much going on at all.

The seven deadly sins of pride, envy, sloth, avarice, gluttony, wrath, and lust will lead to the  sadness, interior instability, an inner discontent, unease, or restlessness. The mind is ever-flitting; moods are ever-swinging. Sadness has to do with a kind of disappointment, frustration, heartbrokenness, or restlessness that comes about when one is enslaved to the passions or appetites of man beyond the vision of Christ.

I’ve not written in a while and have only just been able to return home recently. I have three people in my house now, and all are honest and clear with Christ, moving forward at different levels! Last week I met with Deja and her son about him becoming the forth tenant. He’s not making any income yet, but is skilled at photoshop and Wordpress which makes him a a key asset very quickly. He is also keen on a lot of issues and ideas I have about creating more space for Spirit and Growth.

We have to get moving as the next shift away from the poisons on Earth, that will be more drastic and deadly than any we have seen before. There will be serious attempt to limit and direct all people to a place of sickness and death. Sloth is a kind of ambivalence about spiritual discipline and one’s duties, while the remedy is a sharp conscience.

Pray that the Lord draws you out of sloth to embrace the kingly mission he has given you. Pray for the grace of freedom and humility for all Exodus Men, just as they are praying for you.

In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.

Lord and Master of my life, spare me from the spirit of indifference, despair, lust for power, and idle chatter. Instead, bestow on me, your servant, the spirit of integrity, humility, patience, and love. Yes, O Lord and King, let me see my own sins and not judge my brothers and sisters; for you are blessed forever and ever. Amen.

I have a dinner party tomorrow night, 6/11/2023 at 7pm. I’m expecting Leslie, Judy, Carol,  . . . John, Eugenia, Larry,  . . . Deja & her Son Calvin . . . With me that make 9. Of course, my dinner table fits 8. . . . While my mom’s dinner Table fits 12 . . . Lol . . . Wow eating a meal around a dinner table together, haven’t seen that is years. And this is really the closest to family I’ve had together in years as well.

What is Family, what is this all about?

I was wondering this myself. What new experience and form am I creating or wanting to create !

What additional readings are you engaged in now: 2 Samuel 1:6-16
wait patiently for the Lord's will to be done. Saul ultimately undid himself in his pride, the fruit of his resistance of complete obedience to the Lord. There is a proper balance of waiting upon God and acting when necessary.

This is a lesson to us: if we are to remain vigilant against sin; if we are to avoid spiritual sloth or lethargy; we must act quickly to root out sin in our lives and in our environment. We must not let evil reside in us.

Consider this question in prayer today: what sins or sinners are you allowing to linger in your life because you find them useful or comforting?  

Sloth is a kind of ambivalence about spiritual discipline and one’s duties, while the remedy is a sharp conscience . . . . What fosters his courage is his sense of honor. This is a notion that we have lost in our society. And it is no wonder that our society is full of so many cowards. Honor arises from a sense that a certain task or goal is noble and, further, that sacrifice is necessary for attaining it. But we no longer think that certain tasks are universally noble and we have widespread mistrust or disdain for institutions. What we desperately need today are men who are alive and alert to what is right and wrong, what is true and false, and what is honorable and dishonorable .

2 Samuel 2:1-4. David was a humble man who had the honor of God before him. This means at his best and humblest, he did nothing without seeking the Lord first. Yet, his humility did not keep him from acting. He did not agonize over whether he was really ready to be king. He was not paralyzed before the will of God. David knew that the Lord had called him, and so, while he sought the Lord’s direction first, he embraced his responsibility. 

I keep reading and challenging myself further. I recognize my power and passions are coming through stronger and stronger. Making a healthy meal, and loving my dearest friends is such a blessing for me. I also realize that I need to step into so many places of leadership and direction to bring further power and clarity into my space.

After three days of penance this week, we now focus on Sunday anew as a day of the Resurrection. Trinity Sunday, in particular, points us to the deepest truth of our faith: the one God is a communion of three Persons. We are called into that eternal communion through faith, becoming partakers of the divine nature by sharing in God’s own love. . . This is where the feeling begins. As you begin to get ready for guests tomorrow.

I’m always getting ready for more. And again I’m relying on everyone I know. . . I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, and I know its about becoming your True Experience here in this space. And everything is exactly where it needs to be. It’s really such a wonder to be here again in my own space, where I can be and express so many different things.

We have to learn that our life is not about us. It is about God. We are made to give God glory by sharing in his own happiness:

What choices we make toward personal development evokes such an energetic power that it can shine like “… a new star in the universe  . . . ,”  apparently becoming a beacon for others to see. And the angels are always there to assist us, for as always, “God is mindful of thee.”

I felt this so clearly, and understood at such a deeper level than ever before. Creating new Stars every moment we allow and instill another level or Divinity and creation expands and grows to a new level beyond all we can understand or perceive. 

What… For, above all, keep thy balance, in spirit, in truth, in body, in mind, as has been given thee; else thou may lose thy way! But put thyself in that position where He may give His angels charge concerning thee, and never “Let’s see what will happen.”

I have shared so much of this with John. And then asked Pastor John to help guide us and lead us into the next place of glory and fulfillment.

What did you feel now as you wrote.

It felt like I was building Eden again. Adding a new garden into the world and Bringing it forward I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.