“Power without love is reckless and abusive, and love without power is sentimental and anemic. Power at its best is love implementing the demands of justice, and justice at its best is power correcting everything that stands against love.” ― Martin Luther King

Sunday, February 22, 2026

Do you know community will bring the necessity

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! Wow, a quick little break now as I'm been running all day again. I'm really happy with my classes, but certainly have too much to do. I've got several students proposing something pretty cool, and several more who have suggested things I am really familiar with. That is kinda cool. 

I feel like I'm always running and really have a lot to do. I guess I love to be back in the same place that I started here after High School. I was even happy to hear that my son is looking to teach again. Yes, I spoke to him again, but not Emily in a while. It's weird I speak to one or the other, but never both consistently. I wonder what that's about? I always thought they were closer to god than I could ever be. But then Chris decided no way and Emily just doesn't want to talk or share that deeply anymore.

I'm really wondering more and more. As I grow and share more with people at church and the Prayerline, I seem to remember and learn more about myself all the time. I mean, I have had some serious trauma in my life over and over again. But honestly those individual experiences that seem crazy and extreme for a day or maybe a week, are really buried between years and years of total bliss. 
What do you mean?
I guess it's really just the reality of my experience. Like my mom died, colleen left and I lost my job in the same week of January 1999. BIG three crazy things happening all at once. Then in 2017 AGAIN, lost job, house and wife; another seriously big three that has killed people before. Course, it makes me wonder about my accident in High School. Maybe that was a big three then too? Lol, yes like lost my job then too, lost all my friends, lol, and lost my freedom!  And I just never recognized it, meaning now that I’ve survived three big three traumas.  And that's really what this is all about anyway. How the experiences on the PrayerLine, Schools, Jobs, Church and Home are all teaching and reminding me of things I've done before. It's really stepping back into Childhood and seeing some remarkable experiences.  Or really having times NOW, that remind me of these experiences.  Wow, I called my Emi-em . . . lol, and now have a great big smile on my face.
What else do you remember about these events?
I guess what comes to mind now, is how the Prodigal Son Story hit me in High School and I was soon blessed with “My Big Fat Ram.” Yes, I read the bible story, and knew if God wanted my lazy ass out of the hospital, I figured that the chosen calf wouldn’t suffice, so I needed a BIG FAT RAM. Course, surviving death and walking the streets again, I knew it wasn’t about a four-legged ram to eat, but something else. That ended up being a dream over several years, which was soon revealed as the sweet pretty petite goddess, Maryanne. And similarly my 1999 Big Three Crazy brought me Kathy, another awesome swimsuit model from Hawaii!  I’m certainly not ready for either of them now, but both would likely love this house and lifestyle I’m in now. Course, no one would believe me if I told them either. I’m not sure I believe how awesome this is myself sometimes. Like now, waiting for my next ZOOM student meeting and I want to eat something, but know I need to fast every other day.

I’ve actually had one meal days, and often only fruits and very light meals. But I realize I need to skip days completely or shift myself more than I have. It’s interesting to consider 3 days a week at St Pauls, 3 Days at St Raphaels, 3 days PrayerLine, so I should add 3 days fasting and three days exercising. Course I’ve only missed one day exercising in 2026. Wow, 2026 . . . Not sure what could be next for me, or what I’m really doing. These classes are great, and I love what I’m doing.

But, I certainly don’t anticipate another Big Fat Ram now, nor do I think I could really handle a new one. Funny, I saw a note online where a cute young lady was looking for work, offering to clean, cook, pets, kids and all for a family. I thought that giving my extra room to a maid would be great. Not that I need someone else in my space, but just to have someone who cleans and organizes regularly would be pretty awesome.  I told Larry I could give a girl room and board for twenty hours a week for about a year.
Our time is dominated by a “cult of casual” very far from this spirit of glory and beauty, perhaps especially in our understanding of divine things. This mentality affects how we dress, the way we speak, and even how we understand worship … Exodus 90.
I Love you Lord Jesus. Thank you, thank you, thank you for all this wonderful experience that I have with you.
You need to really step into this more strongly and fearlessly. You still avoid people and you still avoid sharing everything that you can share.
I know I can share more, but this is intimidating still!
We really want you to be free about it, because the Spirit comes so strongly through you.
I get it. I’m working and focused and trying to get more engaged every moment. It’s not easy for me, and I’ve no idea what I’m doing sometimes! Course, I know I’m protected, and I know things always come out in my favor. It’s really kinda crazy all the different things I see and deal with. I mean not just classes and grades . . . Bible studies and church is pushing me into deeper and deeper understanding of my relationship with God. Yes, I always say Jesus, as that’s more personal, and God seems Higher and Mightier, but in fact Jesus, God, and the Holy Spirit are all One the Loved, Lover and LOVE!


LEARNING AND DISCUSSION:

  1. What prevents us from receiving God's mercy?
  2. What steps can we take to become reconciled with God and the Church, and stay the wrath of God?
  3. How can silence help?
.. What You are is More!


Dick’s lessons 2/12/2026

Lexo DiVina

Divine reading is like deep focused spiritual reading 

Divine Listen to everyone with deep focused Divine Listening- creates understand and creates Relationships

Deep Listening, Holy Listening VS, Blurt Out and LEARN SELF- CONTROL

Answers without a question is seen as manipulation inspiring the Flight or fight RESPONSE!

What happened?
I went to my Thursday Divine Chaplet course after sitting with Dick above. When the ladies started talking about the lessons and their connections to it. Someone spoke up about the Synchronicity she saw with the coming of the Light into the darkness. Of course, there was already a ton of other synchronicities for me. But now I told her about “Scott’s SEEL Light” that came into our Friday Prayer Meeting.

When Scott came in to our February 6th  Friday morning prayer group, he said how Father Claudius did this wonderful Homely that was speaking of the Great Light in the darkness. And he had had the early morning doing the SEEL lessons seeing that same light. And recognizing the synchronized realizations coming over and over to him.
What happened yesterday?
I actually spoke to Kevin again. I had to tell him about what I learned in Lisette’s class.  I mean, I’ve never had brothers this close. Never a Father. . . lol, funny how many times I’ve said to someone, that he sounded like the father I never had. Course, I say women are like my mother all the time, too. And I still get adopted by women who really take a mom role healing, leading and guiding, or wanting to help me and my mom, knowing she was really up against a lot with me.

But to recognize that I have a real brother now here in St Pete. Someone NOT trying to cut me and chop me into dog-food. But a real brother who steps-out and really tries to help me. I mean, how Kevin, Todd, Jim, Larry, John, and Bill have really been supportive and strong.  But I guess what actually happened with Lisette, was the DISCOVERY that I really am getting back stable and secure again in my home and life. And I KNOW it’s these Brothers from Saint Raphael’s who have really saved me.

I couldn’t help trying to tell Kevin bits and pieces. . . WITHOUT INTERRUPTING HIM EVERY SECOND . . . And to really share the deep personal love I had witnessed from my Church Community.  Several times trying to share this yesterday with Kevin, I got choked-up in tears.  And I admitted I’ve never been busy, since the “eric the Engineer” world ended.  So now the Dr. Rafi world that I’m in, with St Pauls 3-days, St Rafe’s 3-Days, Prayerline 3-days, Classes 3-days. . . Biking 3-days, 20x weights daily, swim monthly. . . . lol, yes the regular routine again like in High School.

Course, I also admitted to him that SPC hadn’t paid me yet, so I wasn’t sure if it was even at half the Engineering salary, or less? As weird as it was chatting with him, my iPhone battery died, so yes the iPhone shut-off. I plugged it in and called him back. . . We chatted a bit more and then I was back in the office grading papers.  When I stopped, like now to read, write and study Spirit, I went back to my iPhone and saw this little red note on my USSA Bank as posted up here ?!?!?!
What we did was surprise you again. Yes, we really enjoy surprising you. Each time you are so excited and even dumbfounded in surprise. Yes, we have always really enjoyed the extreme joy and bliss that you demonstrate. As Kim demonstrated to you, you really have always known you were gifted and protected, having these positive results all the time. 
Wow, my next bible lesson: He’s going to put me where he wants me to Be! With the joyful mysteries. 
We have been really pleased with all your work and efforts. Here again now, you press on knowing how each step before you will bring you more stability.
Bank?!?!?! Surprises are really cool, I like these and hope to see more.
We have always know what you like. Even Maryanne and Kathy could have been sisters with the same style and look about them that you love!
Yes, I wonder about that too. You have said over and over again how my experience now with community in St. Pete will bring the necessity and experience of family again.
We will let you know!
Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.


Team Collaboration & Tracking

YEAH! Yes, you absolutely CAN start a team!

I have been encouraging everyone to lean into this.  ENCOURAGE PEERS, add to their research, dig deeper!  I’ve even shared class advertisements among my professional peers, inviting them to audit the class.

Why? Because we ENCOURAGE TEAMS! My hope is that a professional might inspire you and your teammates to go beyond a grade, and actually start a real business together.

How to Form and Track Your Team?!

To make sure everyone gets the credit they deserve and to help me track participation, please follow these steps:

  1. Invite & Declare: If you are looking for partners or have already formed a group, post a reply in this thread (or any of the specific discussion links) clearly stating desire, or post your team name: Goals, Members, etc...
  2. Tag Your Team: In every milestone post (HW01–HW04), list your teammates at the very top (recognize this is your responsibility to make the team KNOWN with discussions and each member must label their contributions with name in title; "GOLD TEAM"
  3. The "Participation Math": While you work together on the business concept, the individual workload requirements still apply: ALL ASSIGNMENTS for TEAM include required Post + 2 Replies (with APA references), page counts and all with team name in subject.
  4. Yes ONE HW, will work for team, ONE BSN PLAN, meeting all the contributions.
  5. ONLY ONE MORE thing is beyond the existing class requirements, EACH TEAM MEMBER must complete peer evaluations
Action Item: If you have a connection—like the one I mentioned between Taylor, Emily, Haylie, Olivia, and Melina—post here now to confirm your "Founding Team" so we can start tracking your progress!

Let’s co-create some world-changing solutions. You can all then reply to the team leader, so this Announcement has three team threads we can all see.  You will also need to share phones numbers, emails and private group chat collaborations and such as appropriate.

YES COOPERATE will beat competition!

Dr. R

Sunday, January 25, 2026

I remember coming home and finding half-of-everything

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating this awesome experience. I’ve been trying my best to keep up and stay in the deeper truth and power that Has been opened to me again. 

It’s really interesting how this is coming together for me. And I’ve been trying to keep up still. And I guess it’s about time I accept my place here. It’s really weird now in another college faculty meeting about how to be an adjunct at SPC. I know I’ve had this open to me since I started, but today is the first time I’ve been able to attend this event.  I’m sitting in the room and enjoying the experience for new teachers at this college. I even notice how some really cute girls looked at me.

I know this is about me starting over in a completely new life and experience. And I even got a paycheck from USF this last week (1/10/26). That totally surprised me and I offered to take Leslie out to lunch, dinner, movie or whatever as I know that there is so much more coming through to me. I thought the USF courses didn’t start until next week. But yesterday after mass I saw something and checked, and the courses all started today (1/12/26). I immediately called Leslie to reschedule as I thought I still had a lot to check and update. 

I really did, and felt finished at 6pm or so. We had planned to go out at 4pm, so I could likely have done it.  But I really feel so blessed to be doing these courses now. And so I want to be sure I have everything right and ready for me to step into it and develop more. It’s really kinda a “twilight zone” thing because so much is here exactly as I could never have imagined.

I mean Jesus is very clear and very strong in everything now. I get up with the Podcasts and Bible versus, then exercise 20x now, my bike ride to St Raphaels or now walking to Mass at St Paul’s. Then home again for the Bible Verse or to begin working. Yes, school work for a few hours. Outside to garden for an hour. Inside to Schoolwork again for another hour or two, then back now to Jesus Time, Bible reading and/or SEEL lessons.

It’s really just remarkable living:
In The Way of Your Word!
We asked you to stop, and you rode right past. And only stopped to come back after it started raining on you more. This hesitance will be the death of you. If you recognize how much we’ve always been with you and you know deep in your heart that we are always protecting you. You must be Fearless all the time, not just when it’s convenient and suitable, but always. That dance you did about getting to mass Saturday, and then hearing a volunteer speak about Welcome at St Paul’s. You knew you belonged there and still walked home. Then when we told you to get on your bike to return there, you still tried to avoid the tasks before you. 
I know that was so far out of my schedule. You’ve made tasks very clear, what I must do every day and each moment, and each step we take together, gets stronger and more focused for me to step into action. I awake, I do the Prayers and Podcasts, Do my exercises and start the tasks before me. Mass, School, Gardens, and House all together, an hour here or there, each one taking my sincere efforts and time. Then an hour of writing or bible work, and I must stop to eat. I’m almost down to one meal a day. And skip more each day. Knowing I need my salads made or whatever else that you set before me.

I also know I must become more focused and clear about my prayers. It’s become like direct conversation with you, where my every desire appears. I know this is my place and responsibility. And I must be very clear about each and every step I take. 
What about healing Yram today? You heard her and knew it was all issues you could perceive and resolve for her. You did finally ask if you could hold her hand. And you know it’s something important for you to do with all of them. Again it’s another important step in the path before you. Each step getting stronger and more focused. You already know it’s all setup from the very beginning and it’s just about the pieces falling into place now. Trust and move forward with ease fearlessly!
I am really challenged again. I woke up early enough for the playerline and then biked out for the Sunrise. I got to mass and then left to get home and stopped to swim. Wow, was it cold to swim and easy to get out and get home. I sat outside in the sun for a while but then never could get anything done. I got-up to make some food after 3pm and really just ate the last of my fruit salad not making anything new, but just finishing what was already there. I've not done anything but pray and read. I've only started writing a bit now and am really not sure what will be next.
What you are doing is appropriate and exactly what you need to do. All things will come together in time. You are safe and protected, while you know and see each challenge before you. Stay at peace, stay focused, and sincere, know your place and your actions are all in the Spirit for the Glory of God. Yes you can know this, accepting your responsibility to be in the Truth of our Guidance and Power. Remember to stay fearless in your walk with God, humble and in service to lead, love and follow Jesus. 
I get it. I'm still really challenged and scared at times, but know this is really my place and time, to stay focused and clear as I move forward.  It seems so bizarre sometimes, as I don't feel I know which way is up. But somehow I always come out ahead. I guess it's always about having faith and trusting that I'm doing exactly what I need to do at the exact time it is required.
What has happened now is that your professor is ready to let you take this over. You had four classes yesterday and now have six. The first two started with power and focus, where you were able to lead them and bring greater focus and clarity.
6:13pm 1/22/2026   Wow, more classes that I've got to get it together on my own. Yes, Lynn has really dropped out almost completely, so I've got to get everything together on my own. It's really flying by the seat of my pants. And I’ve realized this is exactly what I asked for. I’m starting my next 50 years now where I’m getting deeper into a groove of peace and love with Jesus and my Team of Saints and Angels. Wow, wrote a real whopper there. And knowing Jesus has this all set exactly where I belong. He’s all I need to fill up. . . And I realize this joy and peace writing in Your Love, knowing in gratitude .. . . There is a JOY in this experience where all things are at peace to become more godly in scripture. Stanley ends now, and it’s time to start the Ascension bible in a year.

It’s only about His Life, where I can only live the one Love in Christ. To get closer to Jesus, each following path in courage, purpose and peace….intouch.org is always more work to do. 5:55am fri Jan 23. . . 1/23/2026 
12:12:34PM 1/24/2026 What we love seeing is how much you connect all these dots. Every moment you find more connection and relationship with us. You Recognize we’re a team of saints and angels. You also understand the physics and the energy at a deeper level than most people. You can just feel it and understand it. You don’t need to have so many symbols. When you were in the hospital, you demanded symbols. So you get them all the time now. You also demanded never to see angels. YOU have wanted to change that several times, but it’s not something we can do just yet. It will come.
I really am so very grateful for all that you do for me, as I see and feel so much from you all the time. I know I’ve been so very blessed. I’ve done my bible in a year and my Exodus 90 and the Exercises 20x every morning this year.  I’ve biked to Mass and met with the groups I’m in. Swam in the bay, which I will do tomorrow, every Sunday that is.  I’ve never done that before, to get a real schedule and routine to this detail.  Wow, like I did with Emily and Christopher when they were little, everything was planned by Jesus and I just made sure we could follow threw. And I know it’s always only in Jesus, the same yesterday, today and forever detached from the events, simply doing what I need to do. 
What is wonderful to you see you flash back to your children, and you sorta wonder how you did it or what happened. And remember your Mother passed with your Divorce and the children both told you they were still talking with her for years after she left. You can see now FLASHING Back that we were all with you and BEING the Heart, Hands and Feet of Jesus and the Saints was remarkable for all of us. 
I never knew what that means 
… it’s sorts something I’ve only learned recently getting closer to Jesus. 
What Kim did was open this deeper understanding for you to see and know the Saints and Angels with you.
And again you are so clear and strong in spirit that you just do these tasks almost randomly, never really knowing on caring as you continue to step forward in the truth of your experience with Christ Jesus.
Of course, I seem to get anxious and terrified randomly, but often can really step through that in ease as well. I really know and feel that my place and time has come, where I can Truly can be at ease and peace just knowing that all things come and go, while Jesus keeps me focused in peace!

I mean, I really feel and know that I'm exactly where I need to be, doing exactly what I need to do in the Grace and love of God!  And what I love is how I am able to understand and step into more and more everyday. I know Jesus is with me. I know I am guided and in Peace. It's really just wonderful to see share and understand all that is before me.
What you have now brings you more peace knowing and accepting that you only need to focus on school, church, and home. There are no more challenges or conflicts. It's all ok and at ease. This is what you asked for.
Finally, peace, ease, safety, we are all ready for you Jesus, you can return and find a home and place of ease and comfort.
What you’ve done is taken more and more clear strong steps deeper into the relationship with Christ. Each day making clear strong steps forward to insure your continued growth and understanding brings you more power and focus to create this life of love that you seek with all your heart.
I see this again in paragraph 444 here from the Diary of Saint Maria Faustina where the priest tells here of the three stages in the accomplishment of God’s will, external observation, interior inspiration and complete abandonment to the will of god! And I’ve really been seeing God’s will dominating my life.
Yes your steps to get to the Bible study and the Saint Faustina study group with your church has really been delightful. You are always learning and growing in the spirit and community you have found. This continues before you, each day that you trust and step into more that you know and share. Like the last meeting with the ladies and you realized how you learned to be such an awesome father.  Your daughter almost dies and you gave her every moment you had out of work. So much so that Colleen would leave the children with you the moment you arrived and vanish! Telling the ladies how often the children would wonder where Colleen went, while you would always invite her to join you. But in fact, she never went kayaking with you. Nor did she even walk in the woods, like you did with Kim in NY. No matter what games she plays the truth about these experiences will always be in your children’s hearts and history.
I never realized how valuable it was for my children to actually have their father there all the time. Of course, I always wanted to do that deep in my heart, since my dad was never there for me. And to know that I learned how valuable it was to have a father around through that experience with my dad. This is really something I should honor my dad about and make it clear to him how much I love his sacrifice to teach me something so important.

And I guess I’ve never really understood the sacrifice until now anyway! Nor did I understand all the blessings that my daughter brought to me. Singing her to sleep each night in the Hospital NICU and then continuing for the next ten years. I still get embarrassed when I remember the silly song that I sang each and every night to them.

Now, Remembering I’m feeling that experience deep inside of me, and I recognize that it was my finger touching her nose that was really powerful for me. I put my hand inside the plastic box and touched her little nose to sing her to sleep rubbing her little nose . . . And then did the exact same thing with Christopher, even after out Boy Scout Meetings as he got older.
What you experienced with them will come through more to you as you grow in Spirit. These things you did were in Trust and Joy loving Jesus through each challenge. Accepting what was before you with no question and no fear. This you carried through over and over again. If you recall Colleen was pregnant twice and each time you shifted jobs in the middle of it, adding the Insurance Cobra Payment to your list of challenges. 
I remember that, more because I would be working at a new job the next day, no matter what happened. And what’s more remarkable to remember now was loosing my mom, my job, and my wife that one week in 1999. I remember coming home and finding half-of-everything gone? No wife, no kids, no notes, nothing. And calling the police to get help.  Seeing the two cars pull in I walked outside and the first office asked if I was married.. . . Told me to get an attorney and left?!?!?!  Then the 2nd Police man explained to me how in Florida the laws protect the individuals as equal owners in the Marriage. So either could buy sell, move, or whatever they wanted with or without the other. So Colleen left with what she wanted, and I could only stop her with a divorce and a judge.
What we want you to remember is the Love and Joy with your children. Each night coming home to have them in your hands. Each weekend planning with them and doing whatever felt right.  All the art shows and kayak trips. You were always ready for anything and allowed you children to step-out seeking to understand and experience new things every day. That was the greatest blessing for all.
I look forward to remembering and sharing more in the spirit with you. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Friday, January 9, 2026

It’s really beyond wonderful.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
What A GREAT IDEA. Yes you know how important it is to take your time and practice all that you have learned. This is the new year, and can easily be the New Life you have been wanting and needing more than ever. 5:32:04am January seventh, twenty twenty six! And again you are in the right place, at the right time, with everything is at your finger tips - tips - finally 
 Finally  we have you exactly where you wanted. Perspective is all we need. Growth demands stretching, and your strength grows with your devotion tested and pushed to grow more Genesis 22:1. Now more than ever the love of Jesus is coming into your experiences: Purpose, control and companionship in full power and freedom!
Everything had to be setup to all fall into place at the same time. And to be real and exactly as you need to make each letter here in the perfect place for purpose in our Christian life, stay in trust and confidence. . . you are ready. . . all is ready . . . 
Yes I had a visit from Xela who has really become a good friend! We shared a beer and ate some Plantain Chips. I actually had two ribeyes seasoning on the counter. I asked if he had time for dinner, and he had just eaten. It was really neat, as I knew I had to call him on the phone since the men’s group had their Planning meeting at Bayboro Brewery Friday. We would usually have talk-time driving to church, which has stopped. So I kept telling myself to call him, and Finally I did. He was literally just around the corner driving by.
 
After I invited him over, I walked outside as we were still talking on the phone and he was pulling into an empty space in front of my house. That synchronicity that is too strong and too obvious has been happening a lot to me. Like Friday I had a Prayerline Call from someone I knew. I remembered her story, but let her talk out all she needed. It was really kinda cool, as she had an attorney now, and the last time we talked I had told her to find one. More remarkable still was that when she asked for my phone number saying how we had spoken before. . . I started to type her number into my Chat and it was already there. 

Yes, we had spoken August 30, 2022, where my chat with her started at 5:42am. Course, then she admitted my name had popped into her head a few days before and Jesus told her to call the prayerline again now, when she found me. Course, we’ve been talking ever since, which I’ve really been enjoying. I mean, to share with a smart professional woman is kinda nice, especially if she is learning and growing in Jesus.  Yes, I know I need to teach the “Renounce and Command” in the Name of Jesus Christ process.

When we talked yesterday she had already started that. Anytime someone calls and NAMES something specific and evil that’s attacking them, I do this lesson. I’ve had callers talk about curses and witches, as well as just evil addictions and anxiety.  So I’ve been telling people to add the Renounce and Command after their morning prayers. And then I do it myself with them . . . Saying  “Yes just repeat after me: I renounce the spirit of anxiety in the Name of Jesus Christ” . . . “I Command the spirit of anxiety to leave me in the Name of Jesus Christ.”

Course, I will usually start by saying how we are all made in the Image of God, and how Jesus brought us the Power of The Word, and Name of Jesus Christ. So to use these words becomes really powerful. 

So next I always say to get outside and barefoot too. That’s not always as easy for people, since so many people talk about this separated from Jesus. Being real about this in the Love of Jesus is really another level, so I know that’s next on my agenda for teaching people. On the Prayerline it opens up sometimes where I can get it in. Again it’s easy to refer to the Love of God who placed us in the Garden of Eden to start. So the very beginning was about just us back on Earth where we belong. So to get people to accept this connection and relationship is easy.  Then of course, all things were created by God, so finding God in all things is possible, as all will lead us back to God. Then I can talk about the Heartbeat of Life creating magnetism, and all life has different levels of this love energy from God.
What you just flashed into is really important. And you are humble, trying not to go there. But You know you are the Man of Knowledge, and you have stayed hidden, because there are as many people ready to hunt you down, as there are people ready to follow and learn. This experience of sharing deeper knowledge will start increasing. Like your experience of Healing people. It’s just something you can understand and step into more all the time. Yes, it’s important for you to allow this more. And you know when you have the ability to shift someone’s life. Yes, it’s not easy, nor will it be. Like everything else, you are learning and growing into this more all the time. Like here below, what was your feeling?
I was searching for the “Renounce and Command” lesson shared by a Saint somewhere and found a few links and prayers . . . 
I guess what came through to me as I was reading through these was how these are off a bit. I saw the word “rebuke” and that feels off. I mean to rebuke,” is to express sharp disapproval or criticism of (someone) because of their behavior or actions. . . . SO WHAT! I mean, satan laughs at that, and could really care less if anyone rebukes him.  I heard someone say this on the Prayerline and I said how slapping satan’s hand about misbehaving is really a joke. It’s like rebuking him would almost encourage more instead.
What is really wonderful now, is that you are taking your place more seriously. Especially on the Prayerline. We are able to send you people that really need your insight and guidance. That’s something you need to recognize so that more people will be coming through to you as you get stronger and clearer about everything that you do. Just like the signs and symbols you have shared with those around you. Others are recognizing you are stepping into the powers of change. These are really all the changes that you have asked for. Like what’s happened on your iPhone. You need to pray more, as your power increases it’s important that you keep it focused and moving forward in the areas that you know your people and world need. And this does include praying for your family and leadership.

I actually prayed for everyone. I actually said the names of all my family and all my brothers from church and their wives. I also said the names of the fathers and USA President, and asked that all are protected and brought into deeper love and relationship with Christ Jesus, our church and God. I really have never done that before. Usually I would pray only for my kids, which really has only started since I've been Catholic. I realize how much I really can shift everything with my own prayer life. It's really apparent that it's really necessary, more than ever.
What has happened here is really everything you have worked for. It's really been a long struggle for you, and now more than ever, you are ready to do the very things that only you can do. And again you are alone with all your needs and desires available and set for you. The whole world is at your finger tips and there is no conflict or challenge before you that will have any impact on the ease and comfort you know moving forward. 
I have been so blessed, everything is so joyful and pleasant. I’m fearlessly stepping into everything that Jesus places before me. It’s really beyond wonderful. 
What you did for Ettesil was really wonderful. When you started to dance and hum in the class to the music, everyone could feel it.. 
Thank you so much for watching and listening enough to care, share, be real with what they have shared and offered to you. To say and admit publicly that you only now see how important it is to really pray focused with names and intentions. It’s really something that you have struggled with for centuries. Yes we are ready, and you are too!
I think this will be really fun 
. . What we have done is exactly what you have seen and dreamed since time began. And again it’s all ready!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to help us all See Your Will to Be Do and Share our deepest passions in full union and Spirit evolution in Father, Son, and Holy Ghost!

Sunday, December 21, 2025

Spiritual phenomenon of renewal

GENESIS 3:9-15, 20 - EPHESIANS 1:3-6, 11-12 LUKE 1:26-38

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
WhatI I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Regeneration is a biological and spiritual phenomenon of renewal that leads to a higher order of vitality, viability, and evolutionary capability. And just like these world-makers we have a role to play to elevate the health-generating and wealth-generating capability of the living systems we are part of. But that requires a new take on leadership and business.
https://www.health.belgium.be/en/news/2024-6-regenerative-development-design
https://www.linkedin.com/posts/leen-gorissen-86aa508_do-you-understand-how-regenerative-is-different-activity-7396808251171819520-tX_L?utm_source=share&utm_medium=member_ios&rcm=ACoAAABRpZwBBGJzVGO6jhBhZcCF7vLZ4pvEWRg

The seven gifts of the Holy Spirit, traditionally listed in Catholic teaching and They are considered a fulfillment of the prophecy about the Messiah in Isaiah 11:1-2, and are received fully by Christ but shared with the faithful to perfect their spiritual live, including: Wisdom, Understanding, Counsel, Fortitude (Courage), Knowledge, Piety (Reverence), and Fear of the Lord (Wonder/Awe),which empower believers to live virtuously, grow in holiness, and follow divine inspirations, completing the virtues received at Baptism and strengthened at Confirmation. 

The Gifts Explained:Wisdom: To judge rightly of divine things, seeing things from “God's perspective”, appreciating divine beauty and purpose. To see totality from “highest cause.”

Understanding: To grasp the deeper meaning of faith and divine truths. illuminating the mind with Insight into Holy Things, . . search out meaning of truth To know God and oneself, recognizing His presence in creation.

Counsel: To discern God's will in decisions and choose the right path in difficult situations, choosing what pleases Gof. Right reason to do Morally right thing to do. . . Practical doing
Fortitude (Courage): To stand firm in faith, overcome obstacles, and bear crosses. To strengthen the will to do God's will, even amidst trial.

knowledge To know God and oneself, recognizing God's presence in all things.
Piety (Reverence): render due praise and justice to God. To love God as Father and serve Him with a childlike devotion, finding joy in His service.
Fear of the Lord (Wonder/Awe): A profound respect for God, leading to a desire to avoid sin and please Him.

The world has been made by the Lord as a sign of his goodness, wisdom, and beauty, and it is meant to point us to him. Facing toward the rising sun for prayer allows creation to teach us, to remind us of the Lord’s coming. Pope Benedict XVI spoke about how we have lost our ability to listen to creation and have become increasingly focused on ourselves.

The Book of Revelation describes Mary as the woman clothed with the sun, connecting her to the hope of the coming Messiah who would dawn upon us. When she appeared to Juan Deigo on December 9, 1531, on Tepyac hill, she asked him to go to the bishop of Mexico City and ask that a chapel be built on the site, in which,” she said, “I will manifest and give all my love, compassion, aid and protection, because I am your loving Mother; the Mother of you and all the inhabitants of the earth; a Mother to those who love me, who call upon Me, who seek Me and trust in Me. I will hear all their cries here, and remedy all their miseries, sorrows, and pains.”

Let us pray.

Lord, you provide us with many signs of your constant care and protection. We thank you for the gift of your Mother’s presence at Guadalupe, making the Americas a place where you dwell through the faith of your people. Continue to guide our families and nations that we may live in a manner pleasing to you, stopping all abominable sins against the dignity of human life. Increase our hope in you and your coming that you may truly become a light that dawns upon us forever. We ask this through the merits of Jesus, who is the dawn from on high that has broken upon us. Amen.

In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.

Our Lady of Guadalupe Fr Johnathan.

Texecoco Mexico City, Aztec Gods, 1400s giver of life, lord of what is near and close to us, lord or heaven, lord of earth, John the apostle associated to eagle. Juan Diego “with flowers you paint oh giver of life” painting, songs, dance and flowers closest to god!

Answering the first bishop of Mexico . . .

Lady of Guadalupe speaking in Aztec language, clothing shining like the sun, nature shining like heavenly light. Know my dearest son, that I am the perfect Holy Mary the mother of the one true god, “the giver of life” … Santa Maria using Aztec traditions to represent Christ! Mary as living Arc of the covenant. Juan Diego Collected flowers from a frozen mountain to take to the Bishop who spilled them on the ground to see the image of Guadalupe. Stars in her clothing of December 12th that morning over Mexico City. '

Image as snapshot in time, while miracles such as April 24, 2007 lady of Guadalupe infant glowing when Mexico City passed abortion laws… Guadalupe mantle music from her images. Biblical picture of Mary comparing biblical and historical! Nine million people converted to Catholicism in ten years!

Juan Diego worked as grounds keeper of the original chapel.

Religious Syncretism needs to be avoided




Monday, December 8, 2025

another quick easy way to share and post immediately

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!  I am so grateful to have this time and experience with you. I attached the keyboard to this iPad, so I could select my “blog template” and copy it down the page. 
Now, I’m back using my pen, all in ease and joy sharing with You Jesus! What’s really remarkable about all of this is that I got another upgrade from Apple, and immediately went in trying to do things I never could do before. WOW, I was totally dumbfounded. I mean there was literally a dozen things I could never do that suddenly worked great. I was able to play around with all this graphics and made myself another background with my new WHY STATEMENT. It was almost magical how it all happened and came together before me.

Yes, as you can see I was so excited about having this new template of tool to play with fonts and images that I sorta went crazy with it. . . . And after setting it onto all my devices, I decided it was TOO BUZY, and went to the after picture here, that I’ve got set everywhere now. What’s kinda neat o now, is whenever I open a device I see this heart and phrase. . . Click and I have a perfect stationary to write my next thought, experience. . . Whatever. . . Yea, I’ve been playing with hand-writing again and just loving every moment of it…

Yes so I posted a page half done where I was writing this morning before I got my blog started. . .

127/25 7:32am I went out for the Sunrise today again too. I really wasn't sure about the time. I had looked but wanted to do all my exercises. Yesterday, I only did half the exercises, stopping early not wanting to miss the Sunrise. Today, as I arrived, I got off my bike and stopped to clean off the stones on my walk. . . I looked up and noticed the smallest little break of Sunshine coming over the horizon. It's so beautiful and again I was able to sit and stretch a bit calling it up and out before me. I usually start with the Our Father Prayer just as the full Sun breaks over the water . . . Stretching and grounding from the first break to the full orb above the water.

 It was really so clear and perfect these last few days. Yesterday, I went to the farmers market to get my usual root vegetable salad and then also a Fresh Organic Turkey for Thanksgiving. Yes, I got my rent payment this week so I had cash to spend. I did get my beer growler filled with a yummy coconut porter earlier in the week too. I guess I've also received confirmation and syllabi for my next terms teaching. Yes, I'll be doing both USF and SPC. I was kinda concerned about it, but recognize it’s really the best thing for me, as everything will be online, and I have No driving required!!!!  YEAY!!!
We have really gotten a lot together for you and the presence and power before you is simply remarkable. So much, so fast. Everything is lining up and set into motion for you to create and develop so much again. You have always enjoyed and done so well creating and designing, especially in schools and nature. Yesterday you were also able to fix your well pump. . . It's ok to stop and rest a bit. 
I recognized how much I really did this last week. Or really the last few weeks have been a whole lot. And what's really wonderful is how it feels like I've turned the tide. Like I really stepped into another place, another vibration, another level, another dimension, or like a higher vibration. Like with all the mystical experiences, I know this realization was really critical. I've always known I was gifted somehow, seemingly beyond anything I could understand. And now more than ever, I realize and I do understand more and more every day. Or it really is everything I've always known, just blossoming and expanding from youthful fantasies to Christ Glories now before me. Like as a child, I could be invisible and walk through walls. And it was really the power of the Saint Michael Prayers that I knew and practiced constantly. And no one understands, and I never really understood either. Until I told someone in St. Pete recently and then walked into the Vinoy through the locked back doors. I mean, sitting for coffee on their patio, I was considering the experience and I prayed about what happened . . . in colloquy my prayers made it crystal clear!

What you have done now is really stepping beyond so much that has limited you before. It is the Prayers and your Conversation with God, where you have so much power and focus. You have been more clear and sincere in your prayers with the heartfelt desire to know your next steps and actions!
I can see and do so much more every moment. I see this in the Mass and words shared and flowing to me from this awesome life I have been blessed with. Like all these mystical experiences this last few weeks. Each word and experience really opens up so much confidence and security in the tasks placed before me.
What is coming will be more challenging. Where you will need to step beyond many limitations that you perceive. You have asked and requested to bring the supernatural experience of GOD'S love more present and real into each and every day you live. Similarly, you must recognize that your prayers and your own imagination are growing stronger and the time is necessary for these next steps to open up before you.
I always get interrupted and know it’s great sometimes, like sharing this information, which I posted to my Men of God and to the Welcome 2025 chat-groups: Ok guys this is really cool…. The Chosen did the foot washing of course in season five, here the scholars explore and discuss the history of bare feet, back to Moses on holy ground… you will enjoy this:
https://watch.thechosen.tv/video/184683636572?position=0&language=en
This Flowing is what happens each time you get closer and more sincere in your HEART DESIRE with us, and then it is really a lot more POWERFUL than you know or recognize. It's the Love of God Flowing through you that brings this Mysticism. We have this "Wonder Faucet" that we can turn on at anytime. You have done more for us than you will ever know. 
I get it. And I know I always have so much more to do. And it gets intimidating sometimes!
We are always with you. And now as you learn more about prayers, you will be able to get clearer and stranger all the time, in everything that you do, 
Yes prayers, I need to just say what I need and where I need to go next.
What you did with the garden club was ideal. You considered different options. You asked questions and made suggestions in the colloquy with us, and then listened and followed. It's really important to understand all these lessons fold together as you grow and step into new actions and need tasks. 
5:18:36 12/5/2025
Wow, I slammed it. Wow, it showed-up again.  Wow, it came out and attacked me. . . “Get behind me!” . . . Stopped that one dead. Course this time, instead of freezing like the ghost, it challenged me back.
“Sorry dude, your personal insecurities and lies are notwithstanding my problem. Get away from me.”
What a joy🤩 . . . Modeling the truth, you are there to lead and guide. Not to fix everything yourself. You need to evaluate all the pages you wrote here and link them together here below. You got the latest yesterday. So you can post and connecting. Keep your eyes on God, who alone give you the power to step forward. 
It was weird as his gossip took the day anyway. Course a “professional gossip” and a man from the woods really speak two completely different languages. Not that I really care, I called it as I see it, and if everyone likes his sweet fake accent better than the brazen truth, so be it! I can see it could very easily be more about breaking everything down than the me, & him ego BS.
What will happen here will become crystal clear as you move forward, Yes everything is set and ready to be exactly what needs to be.
I know, that’s nothing new. And I’ve got so much to do today.  I’ve been reading and editing this blog for days, and I found another quick easy way to share and post immediately. Lol, course the handwritten scribbles are hard to reads sometimes and I don’t have the autocorrect and instant words popping on the screen before me, like I do now using the iPad keyboard. . . But it’s really just fun bouncing back and forth through different things.
We are with you, get busy, lots to do again. . . 
I know, thanks for the help and guidance today. . . Especially with my Manny Conversation ;-) I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Wednesday, October 15, 2025

reading each mystery and then doing the Hail Mary again

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ it’s always so wonderful to share with you. I'm so grateful to have this time in adoration. I never understood what it was all about, but I finally learned. And to have this time with you is so awesome.
We really like what you did. Please explain it now. 
I followed Your Word! I went up to the alter in front of all the candles and knelt at the stand. I knew I had to read all my prayers. So I started here in order, as shown on these prayer cards. When I got to the Hail Mary, I repeated it for each of the mysteries, reading each mystery and then doing the Hail Mary again. So yes, reciting it 20 times, I guess as I look now as there are 5 decades for the four mysteries. Then I did the Saint Michael prayer and Saint Joseph. I felt I should have started with those Saint Prayers to set my space, so it feels like I will be doing this again.
We have asked you to do adoration on Wednesdays before. You already have a wonderful relationship, and each learning and each step, only opens up more love and light into your life. Like your experience today was really full of love and power all day long. You can go hone now.
I still need to pray for my dad. The Word from father Curtis for my confession who to say 5 prayers for my somone. Wow I need to read all this again.
What a great idea !!!
8:14:22am  10/16/2025 Yes, it was really wonderful to pray and share this morning with Dick Alexander. He is so clear and focused about what I need next and where is my learning for today. Getting serious about my next welcome statement is so important. And again this gift from God to have Dick's question, and exploration to step deeper into this growth and understanding. And than I read the next lesson with week #15  ”The Call of Christ our King"

And my first word highlighted about God's dream for the world.. And again I am full-circle as my first question to God when asked to return to Earth, was could we really achieve His Original Dreams. And then if so, what exactly were His Original Dreams! So now Dear Jesus, as we move to build and create a better, bigger, fuller, community of love with all You are.I am, trying to each moment and experience more seriously.

I biked out to share with Wanda, but then only did the sunshine and swim since I didn't have my iPhone to share what happened, so I stepped in Wednesday to visit, of course that means I saw Fr Curtis and Brian and all too, they fold me about the fall festival and removing the chicken coop, so I offered to come in early for the garden club and take it out. Yes filled my truck with tools and took it out. And even took home a few pieces.

Wow and today I got to speak to the leadership of St Pete. I finally shared the continuous motion sidewalk design, idea, patent with someone who could understand and make it happen.  It was so remarkable to speak with someone who could actually understand. I mean, someone familiar with construction and communities, and neighborhoods and homes for people, not just for cars. Yes, I still hate cars, and hate gas and oil more than anything. Ending all those lies and deceptions would be awesome.  Yes, we can get away from the greed machine and survive. We don’t need endless profits and fast foods racing around all the time in debt so we can have a fancy car.
We have told you over and over again that you were building it all. It’s always been your dreams and love to make it easier for people to move and share. The idea of working and slaving just to have adequate transportation is really barbaric. The Roman Empire was more free and supportive of their citizens. Now to have the whole culture tied to steal and gasoline is just so sad. Especially when you’ve allowed this to replace family, community, and relationships. Everyone in debt to have anything in their lives. It’s so pathetic and uncivilized.  
I know and to have your Word about this is grand! I’m so happy to hear your comments and experiences about this.  And I know finally saying something to a leader, who could really understand me, was really grand. THANK YOU SO MUCH. I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ as I know it was your guidance and instruction to start with such a simple statement about what we have here today, and the old vision to create more. WOW!
We have always told you to speak up. Each day you can share the Love and Spirit inside of you it will have profound impacts on everyone around you. And you can go out and get some beer if you want to. The sun in up and you are able to afford something small and simple. . .  
I know I’m so very lucky and blessed. That is simple something that I do in my life. I’ve always been blessed, always indestructible and usually fearless.  It’s just part of my experience that I’m living with. And it’s kinda weird as I know and accept so many things that come at me almost randomly.  It’s kinda funny and I’m really loving it so much. Like I needed to go find some containers to clean out the garage. I’ve started and feel good about it, but still have a long way to go. Everything feels so awesome now. . . Thanks Jesus. . . 
We have been waiting for you to recognize how everyone can feel this vibration that you share here with us. Each word you write vibrates throughout the galaxies.. Everyone can feel you love this pen shares, as each word creates and expands the life before you. It's a matter of the physics involved since it simply is your own beingness now before you. We have spent decodes to get you here and now you allow interceptions and distractions. 
I know the Word! Sorry. I still see, feel, and . smell the people and experiences around me. Like the fine blonde strutting by me again now.
We have told son for centuries we could make this all happen. Exactly as you needed. Now again in your space of creation. And the song changes and ' you start to dance. Out here in the fields, I fight for my meals. I put my back into my life, I don't need to be forgiven. Don't cry, don't waste your time, it’s only teenage wasteland.... Put out the fire and don't look back. The exodus is here. You wont get much older. The teénage wasteland. 
I love this Word we are able to share. Everyone is waking up. The power and vibrations are off the charts. I mean yesterday was Friday mass and the men's group. When I arrived to make coffee there was already a pot started and Fr. helping to set things up for some event. Yea, I rushed around and did whatever I could. Got to mass just after it started. Walked into my back row corner and the sun was in my face.  It was really wonderful. Each time I stood, or sat, the sun was back in my eyes. I was deep staring at it, as my morning sunrise has been wicked powerful over and over again.

I knew it was time for me to stay there, exactly where I was, and soak it all in and savor every moment. I guess I was really comfortable and filled with the Holy Spirit, so it was easy for me to stare off into the distance and savor the peace and joy. Then I noticed Bonnie infront of me in a clean perfect white suit. And then Mary, also in white a few rows in front of her. I then immediately felt how they were sisters somehow. Wondering for a moment, I saw how they both had some secret key that opened the whole church, parish, and catholic experience before me.

So somehow, I walked up and greeted Bonnie to hug her or half-hug. And I asked if she knew Mary. . . And she did know Mary. I know Mary is leaving town soon so I want them to meet and talk more. It’s really about me understanding more about whatever Mary said at the “Nine Grades of Prayers” class that I connected with so much that I had to respond and share something similar. Of course, I have no idea what I shared back in the class. But I’ve come to see and realize how blessed I’ve been to know and share with these people.  
I mean, like the Exodus Fraternity which they invite more to, has totally changed my life. Which really has been getting stronger and stronger every day with more focus and clarity.

Like today, I woke up and noticed I still had time for the sunrise, and raced off. I road up to the Sun Dial just as it was braking the horizon. . . Wow I sat and started The Our FATHER . . . Had to stop and restart again to get more focused and straight on the stone. 
We really enjoy when you can really make the efforts to step into this power that you can move so easily. It’s really almost common or trivial to you, but each time you shift into higher and higher places. Like you also noticed the loops, when you roll your heads around in a circle and can see the sun shining deep inside of you. This really effectively shifts things to a higher place.
I love your Word! I really try to bring more light into myself to bring you glory. I recognize people can see and feel it all. That’s really part of the experience for me. I mean, like this morning writing at the St Pete Market, I felt every letter hitting the pad and how it shifted and created vibrations beyond just the words on my screen to everyone everywhere . . . Like I recognize it’s some mystery about fulfilling Your Call that is just so far beyond all our understanding.
We never have told you everything. But like discovering that you are the Man of Knowledge, it just something you did, whether you understood the physics or felt the energy moving inside of you. . . . None of the really matters, you did the action, you had the experience, you achieved the task, that no one else had done.  Like these words now, you simply type what comes to you, and reason and logic come in later, it’s really not even relevant to you. . . . As much as it is BEINGNESS, just do it, and you have!
I get it, I love you, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to achieve all the tasks you need done now!

Sunday, October 12, 2025

acts in accordance with His Word

Charles Stanley today said whenever God provides something we’ve requested, it’s easy to recognize His active intervention on our behalf. If, however, He doesn’t give what we had hoped, we then might conclude, He’s not doing anything. But in today’s Bible passage “Make a joyful noise to God, all the earth;” Psalms‬ ‭66‬:‭1‬-20 ‭RSV‬‬ https://bible.com/bible/2020/psa.66.1.RSV, the psalmist recognizes that God works in various ways - sometimes via a great deliverance (vv. 5-6) and sometimes through painful situations (vv. 10-12). 

Since we know the Lord always acts in accordance with His Word, it’s important to read Scripture regularly so we’ll learn to recognize His activity in our life. When our eyes are focused on the Lord, we’ll be open to a new perspective, and our faith will grow as we begin to discern how He’s working. Then the joy of seeing His involvement in big and small ways will motivate us to praise and thank Him, even in the hard times.

I recognize this says the connection and relationship between synchronistic events and cohesive experiences always represent the Acts of God, where everything is aligned and congruent. This alignment and congruence always implies God‘s hand in my life. I am really grateful to have this deeper understanding of His divine experience and guidance in my life.

More and more of this clarity is coming to me all the time, as I see things shifting before my eyes. I try to remain calm and collected not questioning or thinking, and trying more to stay in His Flow and vibrating in the love that is so present and consistent around me.

All of us who have been baptized into Christ, who have died with Christ and risen with Christ, are members of his mystical body. We are members of Christ’s body. We are part of him, and so he cannot deny himself. He cannot deny us because we are part of him. That is how close we are to God - if only we remembered this at all times, especially in difficult moments.
These awesome lines below resonate from a Great video of Mike Schmitz interviewing a nun Sr Miriam James Heidland:
Healing is an ongoing encounter with God's love and the truth that brings us into wholeness and communion  
Healing is not fixing. 
It's not sin management. It's not minimizing. It's not pretending it didn't happen. 
It is the agonizing at times, creating an encounter with God's love in all the places where I am not whole and I'm not in communion that brings me to become like him because it brings me literally into his own beautiful life. 
And that's a daily journey. That's all of us all. It is a process. Yes, Grief is part of the healing process. 
And that requires us to feel it. And what does it feel like in our bodies? What is it like to miss that person? 
What is it like, maybe your dad's an alcoholic? And he wasn't around for 30 years and he's taken something from you
How can he pay that back? 
And there's a grief in the childhood that was lost. And that's in understanding that, that comes at very inopportune times for us many times. And to allow ourselves the nature to cry, to grieve, to name the lost. 
We have to be able to name and lament. There's a whole book of lamentations, of lamenting the loss and offering it to God, because ultimately that process is what we need to do, it is not just letting it go into the abyss, but it's letting it go to God. And justice will be served. 
That's courageous, because that's part of the healing process. As I actually have to take a full inventory of what was taken from me and how it affected me, how it distorted my identity. And that's not blaming. I mean, I've heard a speaker once say that in order to heal, we have to be honoring and honest. 
And we have to honor the people in our life and we have to realize “blaming another” is not ever going to heal us. 
This is not throwing your parents on the bus. It's nothing like this, not throwing your spouse under the bus. We must be honoring all these people in our life. All those who've hurt us, as the image and likeness of God and also being honest. 
Telling the truth. And that can be daunting for us because then we really have to feel it, we have to name it,  and that gets us into deeper places. And it's much easier, it seems to be like, you know, it's not a big deal. 
The heart that offers itself to the Holy Spirit turns injury into compassion and purifies the memory by transforming the hurt into intercession. That is the journey, that is worth it. It's really worth it. It's worth it to live in the truth of who we are. 
It's worth it to have our hearts fully alive. We're not on a healing journey, so we can get back into control. Right. 
We're on a healing journey to become like Christ, and that's the best gift of all. That's the goal. It's worth it. 

Wow, I read this and cried. I know I need to share it with my dad. I know he really wasn’t an alcoholic, though he might have told my mom, he didn’t need to beat me so much, but had a rough day, or had and drink, or just couldn’t help himself .

It was really something you asked for, because it helped you to became fearless. Still to this day you accept and over-power pain. So many people your age are “programmed” to fear pain, and start taking drugs or avoiding exercise and efforts, because they feel some pain. This pain is a lie or a deception about pain, is why people age and deteriorate. You remember as a child you would encounter pain almost daily, cutting your figure, hit by your brother or a bully, and you would just muscle through it and all but ignore it. Course that always made the bullies hit you more until you reacted like they wanted you too.

I love you Jesus. I am so grateful to have all this time with You. I’ve been so delighted in my classes. It’s not really “my class,” but the professor worked with Dr. Jermier and really learned and did all the things I wish I had done. I mean, when I first started with my 3D-PhD trying to tie in education and Dr Katz’s work with Public Health and Engineeriung. And now as it turns out, Lynn studied with JJ, and then did all the STATS and education stuff Katz was all about. I really feel blessed to be doing, or redoing her classes. As I feel and see the skills and insights of these two awesome scholarS everyday now. . .

Once again, you are beginning to see all that went into preparing you for this experience now. There is still so much around the corner that will really surprise you… 

Oh great. . . Please limit the challenges and increase the Fruit of the Spirit. I know you want me to do more teaching, leading, healing and loving. This is all on the Fruit side.  Guide me and help me there.

When you are ready, you will start asking for the love and relationships that you really want.… 

Well that’s good to hear. I know I’ve never really asked for my ideal.  Certainly had many show up and surprise me.  But I’m really not sure what would be ideal. .

Do you think you are ready?  What would be ideal?  You met another Katherine with your swim Friday. She’s doing Bible studies, and already has a teen daughter ready to volunteer doing the works you love…

Yes, another Kathy would be great. And to have a teen, since I missed the teen years of my own lids would be neat too. And I know you have said before how I was starting over again. And creating family in community for the next so years is a lot more than a mature body with a teen daughter. Also I know I've come full circle again, so creating new again is about Rent-a-Student again. Or really about redefining what school is all about, and the Devine experience of moving into full expression of the our own growth.

Yes, you are recognizing this has a lot of details, bringing together aspects of your life experiences into a higher level. Yea, you have done and experienced a lot, and how you step forward now will bring a lot of these things together in ways you might not fully understand. Once again, it's about Faith and stepping into more and more opportunities. Again it’s something you have always done. Being in the right place and the right time, and fearlessly stepping forward where no one has gone before.

I get it. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ for sharing this with me. I am always wondering what could be next. Like I wasn't sure fasting would work for me. Skipping a day of seeking 3 meals is really easy. I guess I need to research and explore this more deeply to understand my place and responsibility.

You will soon find abundant time and resources to explore these different aspects of creation that you will be modifying more and more as you step forward in your power and grace. … 

.Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ for all you do and share with me!