clear and comfortable going

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word ! Ah baby changes everything. so I realize I’m a little kid again playing with the toys. I always wanted in my whole life. Well, I guess I made it myself because there’s only one life here. So God created God for God.

We just haven’t figured this out yet so we think we’re going to set an alarm wrong. wow what is your incredible as hell? I am perplexed by all this technology, and it just keeps coming at me from every direction. It’s like another world that I live in. And I know I serve so much to do. I know I gotta get up in the morning then I can swim, what is the Weeknd doing and I almost 40 hours this week . . . 

I love this experience so much. I’ve got to get more done, every day!

It’s going to get intense again. I can feel it coming. I guess that’ s

I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, sing hallelujah, sing hallelujah to the writer of the words. . . On TheJoyFM.com @ 10:23 12/7/23

What are you doing now? 12:42 11/23/2023

I can’t even count how many holidays I’ve spent alone! I’m always grateful for this experience with You Dear Jesus. But I never understand the next steps. You are always pushing me for more, and then you feed me so well and take such good care of me. Like now, I cooked a pound of Shrimp. Yes, cleaned wild shrimp, with my hot salsa. And I keep hearing the wine. 

What we are saying, is sure have some wine with your lunch. It’s part of the celebration of being clear and grateful for this experience and gift before you. 

I’m always stunned by these gifts from You! I’m not sure why being alone is a gift. I know I can sleep in the hammock out in the sun. Or Bike around the city to see if anything is open, or anyone is around. I really don’t care, and would rather go to sleep in my bed or in the bathtub full of epson salt.

We have told you before, that you were getting ready for a lot. And you have recognized how important your own reconciliation is in this process before you.  

I get it, and it’s all steps in the process! And I realize being alone to chat with You is also part of my process.

What we have set before you is to get you more “religious.” Yes, religion beyond the spiritual energy you feel and live is the conscious connection to others in love and respect. Religion is about the church and community. Honoring traditional principles opens more clarity and freedom in your spiritual practices. As you are finding with SEEL, the experience in your own exercises allows a stronger more focused relationship with everyone around you. These exercises and challenges bring you closer together in spirit and love.

I get it. I’ve sat on my magnetic mat before the alter to rest in my room. The breeze through this house has really been awesome. I’m cleaning out my office and resetting things all around as I go. I replanted some mangroves and found more seeds to plant. The seed beds outside have been scavenged by a rat, squirrel or mouse! I’m not sure what to do but replant, tend, and keep trying. It’s weird as I never have had so much house in my life. And it’s all to myself. 

What you have is a gift from your mother. You set of mothers who have all passed to share this time with you. It’s always about you growing, and forgiving, and learning, and sharing. Everything is about you stepping into a stronger place of love and freedom.

I get it. I’ve got to get my truck fixed, and it’s not going to be any fast easy process! Nothing ever seems like a fast easy process for me anymore. I guess I witnessed to the Men’s Welcome Group and that was easy as I wrote up an outline and stepped into all the different aspects. 

What about this brought you closer to reconciliation?

I guess it was recognizing how I’ve always gone through these cycles with you. Working hard and strong in something specific you set before me and then completing some major aspect, where I’m given some extended period of peace and quiet. Sitting alone now, makes me wonder what the next step into some major challenge will be. I know that reconciliation will sorta clear the slate between us.

Yes, this is what it is all about. You need to leave behind all the demands and challenges you created in New Jersey. Yes, you were a Prodigal and came back for very specific reasons. Bringing forth the child you had invited into your life was important, and the efforts you made around them set the stage for so much more. This was completed, and you have moved on. Releasing those limitations you demanded to keep you focused are necessary now.

I get it. And I’m not sure how to make this work for me.I know it’s about the reading You have set before me, both in SEEL and in Welcome. This reconciliation is both about seeing my sins, where I stepped down from the virtues and gifts of the spirit. I see and recognize how lucky I’ve been in maintaining my “cardinal virtues” of prudence, justice, fortitude, and temperance. And I seed how these gifts have been my strengths for a long time. Standing strong with a family filled with conflicts and struggles. Sure I was abused, insulted and humiliated most of my life. And it seems that this strengthened these virtues as I continued to grow and express myself through all of these.

I have acknowledged how these challenges of youth were a big part of what made these elements so strong for me. And now I’ve been lead to open the Ignatian Adventure book that I’ve been reading for SEEL, and this verse put me in tears. Luke 7:47 “Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven—as her great love has shown. But whoever has been forgiven little loves little!”  And this feels like the many gifts I’ve been given. And again I recognize I Have so much to be thankful for, and again I wonder what could be next for me. 

I’ve had my truck stuck at the office for the last few days. Yesterday, I called around to check about getting it fixed and found someone who understood what I was dealing with and knew my truck ready to fix it. This morning I biked to work and called my insurance company for a tow of my truck. They told me about the same price as I heard at work. And I’m confident it was be working fine when I get it back. It feels good to get my truck fixed. I’m still perplexed by everything I have at hand. I try to stay in my spirit and focused about my tasks and goals. 

I’m tired of having strangers in my house. I’m not happy about this, nor do I respect those who are taking advantage of me. It’s really gotten annoying. And I know I need the extra cash, but I’m tired of it. I’ve been wondering about selling my house. I know I could get almost twice what I paid for. I mean my deposit was enough for a new truck and a new airstream camping trailer to live in. I wouldn’t have any cash left over for gas or anything. But I honestly considered it, just to escape all that I have around me now. 

Now again to sell my home means buying the biggest, best truck and trailer with cash for gas and travels lasting years. Not that I need to escape anything, or dealing with my mortgage or bankruptcy or whatever I have before me is completely crazy. I’ve always been able to come out ahead, and I know Jesus always is watching out for me. I never know what could be next and never seem to care. I mean, Jesus always has these challenges that show up and I’m never ready and always surprised, but still end-up ahead or winning whatever it is.

What this is, is the prudence, justice, fortitude, and temperance that you spoke of before! Stepping into things requires these steadfast and immovable which prepares you for more. As You have read and heard before to those with great gifts, are given great responsibilities. 

I’m in pain and frustrated, my keyboard on my iPad is not working anymore. Which really sucks. I do have to much to do.... More just cleaning and taking care of things around my house. I love this house. Maybe because it's filled with my mom or maybe because it's be such a wonderful gift from her. I don't like being alone, and I don't feel I can do anything productive here. It's really annoying more than anything. 

I have always been loving and productive all my life. And I feel like it's brought me here, but this is nothing but being alone and feeling sorry for myself.

What did you do today?

I Finished my confession and rescinded all my demands that I placed for you when you brought me back as a prodigal. It is with Father Jonathan, who helped me all along. So I was clear and comfortable going through everything that I’ve had to confess. Thank you, Lord Jesus I love you.

What this does is open new things for you. You’ll be able to experience more and understand more because we won’t be as limited as you had made it before.

I know its about starting a new life and accepting my responsibility at a new level because I know you have so much more for me to do and I’m a young kid again so it’s gonna be fun

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

never write those words, because I don’t know how to spell them

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What this is about is making the next step easier and faster for all.

I get the feeling that the world will soon be crazier than ever.  I met with another professional leader, and shared too much. As crazy as it seemed I included my complaint to the student aid office and then I received this notice discharging it all completely. It was as if I had set the energy into motion for resolution as I planned my meeting, and the energy of resolution itself was enough to bring the issues to conclusions, far beyond my own desire or need to present or address it again myself.

This reminds me of Kim’s comments about our new roof, when Christopher left Florida. It was obvious to her that I was somehow protected or living a life in a different world, where money and support for all my efforts and desires simply appeared. This is a similar effect, as I’ve started to write here several times before I really said anything.

We have always told you that this world was some sort of playground for you. You simply have been here from the very beginning and choose to do and accept challenges and responsibilities that most people can barely understand or conceive of. You have always been an instrument of change, very necessary and powerful changes beyond your own understanding. Often like the ripples in a pond the impacts on the edges are far removed from the source.

I’m still not sure what that means, except as we are all still the one same electron that started everything here. But I am getting more comfortable with my regular routine. I know I need to get into a regular health and exercise routine again, before I could do anything significant, but I don’t really know what that means. Anyway, it’s clear I’m getting prepared for something so much more. I’m always getting prepared for something, sometimes it feels like just trivia. You know, like another new bike for another road trip or something else I don’t consider significant. Even meetings and conversations seem trivial sometimes. I really don’t know how much shifts from one moment to the next, while people seem so surprised sometimes.

What we love, is how you dance between, learning, sharing, growing, and teaching others, the here now you stopped to send praise to Apple, who still follow and learn from your writing and works.

I’m always perplexed at how each week I seem to get another Apple Beta upgrade and another nightmare vanishes. Like, the AI they use now is knowing what I want to write, when I cant spell or write, never having a clue what needs to be shared. And now again, I can talk to the screen as much as I write to the screen, and then switch to the text, or switch to the pen, or the typewriter and go back-and-forth randomly, which is insane. I just laughed about it, because I’ve written for so long; and have been so frustrated with the pen, and so frustrated with the notebook, and frustrated with the computer, frustrated with this keyboard, but now I can switch randomly. It seems so random and easy, allowing me to share what I need to share, using which ever methods are easy and preferred from one moment to the next. Clearly showing me how I must continue, not missing a work, or stopping a moment, knowing the pen, and mic await when I can’t find the correct keys to type.

What that means for us is that we can do a lot more as well. You’re not intimidated by speaking for us. You can type very quickly and you can talk even faster. And when things come out wrong, you almost wonder whether AI or someone else understands something which is teaching you something. Everything just flows for you and you allow it to flow. This is your blessing. This is your power. This is your purpose. Every day another planet shifts because of your words. Those around you have no idea.

I hate how that sounds, it’s just so arrogant or prideful; and really what’s funny here, is that I would never say those words, or never write those words, because I don’t know how to spell them, so I avoid them, but now you got them out as i just allow Your Flow! 

What is more for you?

I’ve been asking for more wisdom and more guidance all my life, but what’s more is recognizing that I need to do this where I feel I’m most confident. I guess that means I need to seek Gods wisdom in guidance at work. This is where it feels like I know what I’m doing all the time. If I recognize that I’m back doing the same work that I did when I first arrived at St. Petersburg, except now that I’ve shifted from Eric the Methodist to Rafé the Catholic and all the work is the same, then I need to recognize that it’s a spiritual shift as well. Like today Ron called, where he wanted to come work for me again, after he got laid off and went to the county, while I got laid off and biked for four years. So now working together again might be totally crazy. Or it might really be exactly what we both need to be doing. . . Doing more!

What about this surprises you?

I guess it was weird that Ron called today, and more so that he’s coming for an interview on Friday. I guess I can accept this as the next step before us!

What are You doing now. . . 5:39. 10/24/23

I AM starting over again. Tomorrow is my SEEL meeting, and i thought to read over what we’ve done! Of course, my very first meeting started with my clear statements about following the guidance of Jesus and “creating a new life, community, passion and experience.” I realized I was starting over and know it will be wonderful beyond anything in could imagine.

Last night Rick was very clear that Saint Ignatius’s exercises were in a sense magically encouraging us to ask for more. What, me? Ask for MORE? How could I ever want anything more. I’ve already been given more than I could dream, and the idea of “more” just seems too preposterous. But as I spoke to Rick and remembered the call from Ron. MORE was present and stronger than ever as I recounted my recognition of starting this New Life. Rafé the Catholic was back Moving Rivers and setting up city infrastructure to love and hold the waters of life. And now Ron was back as my intern who I was training, and now is prepared to step into everything I could ever design and dream of.

What’s more, is as incredible as it sounds, Ron has been at the county learning and growing and now has been trained in all the latest tools and techniques, that I need to shift everything we are building before us. And he’ll be there on Friday ready to start, and I’ve got a long list of tasks coming into my head each moment. So not only is Rafé ready and stepping into this new life of more before me, but the world is bending to meet me there . . . . Giving me everything I could ever imagine, AGAIN!

What are you reading now. . . 

Yes, now again, as i reread the first week’s SEEL exercises, we need to begin each Prayer period with a Prayer for a singular Grace: “What do we desire” What do we want during this time of Prayer? Moreover, naming what we want also helps us to open up to receive the expected and the unexpected gifts of God. Each week I suggest a certain grace, but do not be bound to these words or a specific grace, but allow your praying for grace to flow from your heart….

This morning in Mass, before the Saint Raphael’s Mens Group, I felt deep into the Spirit. I have always recognized that the Power of Christ and the Spirit is strong and easy in Church. It’s much the same voice and vibration I feel and carry with me all the time. . . While Church is just more powerful. When Father Curtis got to our prayers, where we all support each request for our Church and Community by saying “Lord Hear our Prayer.”  Then he stopped in silence for us each to add our own in the silence of our hearts, and I said “More for Jesus”

We started this first week asking to be more aware of how God is near, to trust in God‘s personal care and love for me. Starting with Isaiah 43 one through seven; Luke 12:22 to 34, Psalm 23, Psalm 131, Psalm 139 one to 18; then back to Isaiah 43 one or Psalm 139 and review your journal, remembering Key Graces, and give thanks to God for them.

I knew the next week went into how God is still creating, always creating, always moving us forward, always sharing love and guidance. I guess that’s my challenge with “more” as asking for love and guidance is really nothing new or more at all.  It’s like asking for breath, while I'm breathing all the time, so what’s the point of asking for breath? I guess that’s my challenge with asking for more,”more Jesus,” or More Love, is really like asking for nothing at all. I’m blessed and grateful for all the love and Grace I receive every day. I also recognize that more is about stepping up into my BEINGNESS.

For unto whomsoever much is given, of him shall much be required; and to whom men have committed much, of him they will ask the more . . . From everyone given much, much will be required; and from the one for whom more is provided, all the more they will ask of him.

I AM again brought into this space of more. And I’m challenged beyond recognitions as I prepare for another hearing. The homeless drug addict who lived in my house with her son, or husband, filed assault charges and had me evicted from my own house. Today the public defender has submitted a motion for dismissing the case, since no one can find the drug addict. Everyone involved, including many of my neighbors who witnessed her, know how she created a scene to avoid paying rent. She essentially had two months here for free. And scared or intimidated everyone who came near, essentially guaranteeing that no one new came into the space to pay me the rent I needed for the mortgage.

What this brings forth is how the state supports drugs users. She was obtaining drugs through a state program, and then buying more to support their addictions. Stealing and lying to obtain further state food stamps and benefits that allowed her to continue. When people learn these loop holes in the system and exploit them, it really hurts everyone, those who really need to services and those like you who are needlessly impacted.

I get it and wonder how my own trauma and challenges have prepared me for these issues before me. And then to see how I’m meeting with Ron who wants to come work with me again. I hadn’t considered this before I spoke to Rick who clearly confirmed so much more had been given to me for such a strong experience.

What about making this the change you need?

I'm here with you now; and know I’m ready to step into the power and grace you have give to me. I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

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I have been learning how to write again, so I can be more focused and clear on what I need to share. I know this is part of my task, to write and share more of what I understand. I also see and realized how it has been my work to use a pen, where I am able to understand and express so much more. I've learned to connected to deeper wisdom with the pen, allowing the ink to flow, releasing this Flow without my judgement and fear. But Just FLOW in LOVE. . . wow. . 

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! Dear Mother Mary fill me with your strength, love, and wisdom to achieve the glory of Father, Sons, and Holy GHOSTS.

What we have been doing is preparing you for the changes before all the race and Earth shift.

I have been seeing all kinds of visions and insights leading me to new times and places. Teaching classes, learning more, growing more, sharing, and leading. 

What we need, is for you to take your time; and be very clear and focused as you are able to share in this work before you; as you have taught and helped others to move into this space. This is something you have created and perfected exactly as no other has achieved. You created this forum and median for your own expression. Countless others have profited and exploited this. And now you have every tool and every convenience you could ever imagine, create, or desire. Yes, like you have requested, you even have the odd little keyboard screen floating around to add a period, coma, or whatever symbol you desire, and countless symbols and images to add at your own convenience. You see more and more words appear from your half scribbles, as we have explained and written for you before.

What we have needed is your explanation and understanding of the shift in consciousness, that you have known about, and anticipated all of your life. You understand what this is all about, and what it really means to create all a new. Also you know where this is all going and what it means to step forward. 

I guess so, and I know we are all being prepared for some major galactic changes; both in our time and expression, but also in what it means to be human and how valuable anyone of us is to the whole. It seems we will be getting a lot more clarity and understanding about what we really are and why. I wonder again now about what this really means.

We have told you over and over about how you are in the “same image” of the Creator, which Jesus expressed as a solution to escape your own defeatism. As a Creator, you can shift all the rules and experiences, as you need to shift creation to another level. What does it mean to shift to another level? 

You recently had the realization that the Eucharist, or the “Body” of our Lord Jesus, shared in the ceremony of Catholic Mass; was really about ingesting the “Word” of God. Bringing the True Word into yourself. And then similarly another powerful revelation came with the Consecration of Mary, when you realized that Mary was “Married” with the Holy Ghost, where they were One to Create the conception of the human infant Christ Jesus. This oneness expressed in the creation of Jesus, essentially gave a name and personality to the Holy Ghost. Similarly, the son is Jesus Christ and the Father is Jehovah, so the Holy Ghost is Mary, where the Trinity of God, is the Model Family.

I get this and understand, and it also brings so much more for me to consider. I know the snake and deception of our culture and experience has been focused on the divide and conquer that continues to today. Yes, the snake destroyed the trust and respect of the garden, as God had established by day six. And this experience was what separated us from the truth we had known in peace and love.

The World as you know it, is coming apart. These deeper truths are becoming more critical and significant, while a surprising few really know or understand.  Using these deeper truths will be an important responsibility for you this shift is about your own expression and understanding. It's ONE Life, and One changes everything everyday.

I get it, yes it's always something significant and beyond me that I am pressed to learn and understand. It's always inspiring how much I impact people. Shift their complete view and understanding in a season or a reason. I am remembering the last class I did for Professor John. I was terrified several times, and really pushed them to present and do so much more than they were ready for. I remember how often students would tell me they never worked in one class so much. Then I also heard how much they totally shifted their understanding and experience, knowing that I had some knowledge, that they had to dig out of me. 

We have always inspired others to challenge you. There is so much there that no one can reach. . .

I get it. Each day I do the PrayerLine I get reminded about this Power and Focus in the ONE GOD.  What does it really mean to understand and know The One Life. How can we have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ and be saved without this impacting everything in our live.

What if you need to impact everyone. What if that's the whole purpose. The ONE person challenged and confronted is the ONLY ONE strong and clear enough to push everything through. 

I know it's because everyone gets lost in the selfishness and fear. "god has not taken care of me, so why should I do anything or care for anyone else" . . . people get lost in the lies of the matrix about "not enough," and think that being selfish can bring them more. . . it's really the same deception of the snake. The very same lie, over and over again, about how having the Apple will make me better. 

What is so remarkable is the metaphors you show through this in using all the apple equipment and technologies. . . 

I know, and then I'm always thinking "I NEED" the newest, latest, greatest Apple Techno Toys. . . Oh sure the next pen will be better, faster, easier. . . lol. . . i'm always thinking this. Then suddenly someone BUYS ME ONE. And I feel like a idiot, since I'm always getting whatever I ask. lol. . . wow, like babies  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Chris. . . Thank You Dear Mother Mary for bring me the Strength, Love, & Wisdom of your Son, out Dear Lord Jesus Christ.

Adding a new into the world and Bringing it forward

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What is next?

I was helping with an Estate Sale. Carol came by to buy something. The first thing she said, when she saw me, was that I had cut my beard. Well not really, I cut all my sideburns off. I was looking like a lion with this big grey mane around my face. Now, saying this or realizing this, I remember the Catholic Preacher guy on the big sailboat in Belize. Nicky was just back from fixing something in his boat, and this guy was preaching to him about our big beards and how the King James Bible confirms how the mans’ beard is the container for his knowledge. Yea, Nicky has no facial hair, and has always looked like he was twelve. The guy was saying how there is some powerful aspect of our heritage and knowledge carried in the beard. I realize now how much I carry this and show how real it is, explaining this more to Carol who came to understand this more intuitively already.

I had people, almost daily, telling me to shave, cut my hair or cleanup. Looking in the mirror one morning, I noticed my mustache and the beard below it, had a clear distinct darkness, while the sides were much more gray. I got out the electric clippers and cutoff all the grey. Carol noticed immediately and said how I looked 20 years younger, and asked if I was ready to find a lady again. Of course, earlier in the same day I noticed Leslie hugging some friend of her’s, who came into the sale. She was really a hot young lady, roughly my son’s age. But the first thing Leslie asked her, was whether she was still single. I did help her out a bit, getting out what she purchased, but never talked much. Carol wanted me to get her number?!? That’s almost never happened. Lol, or only happened once, that I can remember with Maryanne in High School. I’m really not sure if I ever did that. But when talking with Carol, I realized I have always been ‘picked-up’ by ladies instead. Of course, except Kimberly, who I really had to chase down. Carol said we needed to talk with Leslie about getting her friend’s phone number . . . lol . . . Yea, Leslie just laughed about that, saying her friend was the same age as our sons.

What has Carol been doing.

I finally told Carol that I needed to get out more and meet people! She was thrilled, and started inviting me to meetings she was going to. Not just visiting for lunch after her meetings, but taking me with her to the meetings. The first was at Allendale Methodist to watch a movie. When we walked in, she ran to the restroom and I noticed the open door to the kitchen. Of course, I walked in to check it out, and it had big old gas ovens and stoves, built-in catering warmer trays and all as well.

When we walked in for lunch before the movie, we sat at an empty table where Gwen Reese soon came in to join us. Her son Jeff, was with her and someone else. Our table was soon full with several other people coming by to greet Carol and Gwen. Carol went out of her way to introduce me to everyone. It was clear everyone knew Carol and were happy to see her.

A week later she took me to the Phyllis Wheatley: Rise to Read Campaign board meeting, that was followed by their partnership collaborations meeting. It was interesting to hear about what was going on and who was contributing and participating. I even recognized someone from the movie night at Allendale. He was trying to price and find computers for their program. After the meeting I spoke to him about STARS and the projects and such I did with my son to get him reading before he was three. I sent him the USF excess inventory email that I get every year and he was impressed. 

No follow through yet, or not much going on at all.

The seven deadly sins of pride, envy, sloth, avarice, gluttony, wrath, and lust will lead to the  sadness, interior instability, an inner discontent, unease, or restlessness. The mind is ever-flitting; moods are ever-swinging. Sadness has to do with a kind of disappointment, frustration, heartbrokenness, or restlessness that comes about when one is enslaved to the passions or appetites of man beyond the vision of Christ.

I’ve not written in a while and have only just been able to return home recently. I have three people in my house now, and all are honest and clear with Christ, moving forward at different levels! Last week I met with Deja and her son about him becoming the forth tenant. He’s not making any income yet, but is skilled at photoshop and Wordpress which makes him a a key asset very quickly. He is also keen on a lot of issues and ideas I have about creating more space for Spirit and Growth.

We have to get moving as the next shift away from the poisons on Earth, that will be more drastic and deadly than any we have seen before. There will be serious attempt to limit and direct all people to a place of sickness and death. Sloth is a kind of ambivalence about spiritual discipline and one’s duties, while the remedy is a sharp conscience.

Pray that the Lord draws you out of sloth to embrace the kingly mission he has given you. Pray for the grace of freedom and humility for all Exodus Men, just as they are praying for you.

In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.

Lord and Master of my life, spare me from the spirit of indifference, despair, lust for power, and idle chatter. Instead, bestow on me, your servant, the spirit of integrity, humility, patience, and love. Yes, O Lord and King, let me see my own sins and not judge my brothers and sisters; for you are blessed forever and ever. Amen.

I have a dinner party tomorrow night, 6/11/2023 at 7pm. I’m expecting Leslie, Judy, Carol,  . . . John, Eugenia, Larry,  . . . Deja & her Son Calvin . . . With me that make 9. Of course, my dinner table fits 8. . . . While my mom’s dinner Table fits 12 . . . Lol . . . Wow eating a meal around a dinner table together, haven’t seen that is years. And this is really the closest to family I’ve had together in years as well.

What is Family, what is this all about?

I was wondering this myself. What new experience and form am I creating or wanting to create !

What additional readings are you engaged in now: 2 Samuel 1:6-16
wait patiently for the Lord's will to be done. Saul ultimately undid himself in his pride, the fruit of his resistance of complete obedience to the Lord. There is a proper balance of waiting upon God and acting when necessary.

This is a lesson to us: if we are to remain vigilant against sin; if we are to avoid spiritual sloth or lethargy; we must act quickly to root out sin in our lives and in our environment. We must not let evil reside in us.

Consider this question in prayer today: what sins or sinners are you allowing to linger in your life because you find them useful or comforting?  

Sloth is a kind of ambivalence about spiritual discipline and one’s duties, while the remedy is a sharp conscience . . . . What fosters his courage is his sense of honor. This is a notion that we have lost in our society. And it is no wonder that our society is full of so many cowards. Honor arises from a sense that a certain task or goal is noble and, further, that sacrifice is necessary for attaining it. But we no longer think that certain tasks are universally noble and we have widespread mistrust or disdain for institutions. What we desperately need today are men who are alive and alert to what is right and wrong, what is true and false, and what is honorable and dishonorable .

2 Samuel 2:1-4. David was a humble man who had the honor of God before him. This means at his best and humblest, he did nothing without seeking the Lord first. Yet, his humility did not keep him from acting. He did not agonize over whether he was really ready to be king. He was not paralyzed before the will of God. David knew that the Lord had called him, and so, while he sought the Lord’s direction first, he embraced his responsibility. 

I keep reading and challenging myself further. I recognize my power and passions are coming through stronger and stronger. Making a healthy meal, and loving my dearest friends is such a blessing for me. I also realize that I need to step into so many places of leadership and direction to bring further power and clarity into my space.

After three days of penance this week, we now focus on Sunday anew as a day of the Resurrection. Trinity Sunday, in particular, points us to the deepest truth of our faith: the one God is a communion of three Persons. We are called into that eternal communion through faith, becoming partakers of the divine nature by sharing in God’s own love. . . This is where the feeling begins. As you begin to get ready for guests tomorrow.

I’m always getting ready for more. And again I’m relying on everyone I know. . . I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, and I know its about becoming your True Experience here in this space. And everything is exactly where it needs to be. It’s really such a wonder to be here again in my own space, where I can be and express so many different things.

We have to learn that our life is not about us. It is about God. We are made to give God glory by sharing in his own happiness:

What choices we make toward personal development evokes such an energetic power that it can shine like “… a new star in the universe  . . . ,”  apparently becoming a beacon for others to see. And the angels are always there to assist us, for as always, “God is mindful of thee.”

I felt this so clearly, and understood at such a deeper level than ever before. Creating new Stars every moment we allow and instill another level or Divinity and creation expands and grows to a new level beyond all we can understand or perceive. 

What… For, above all, keep thy balance, in spirit, in truth, in body, in mind, as has been given thee; else thou may lose thy way! But put thyself in that position where He may give His angels charge concerning thee, and never “Let’s see what will happen.”

I have shared so much of this with John. And then asked Pastor John to help guide us and lead us into the next place of glory and fulfillment.

What did you feel now as you wrote.

It felt like I was building Eden again. Adding a new garden into the world and Bringing it forward I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

powerful growth and understanding

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What happened this week?

I noticed Tuesday, or um yesterday, that I'm having TONs of De-ja-vu's!  I mean, I noticed this Monday as well. But yesterday is seemed to be happening all morning. It was really remarkable as I walked and connected with everything around me.

What happened?

Monday, I had another piece of equipment donated to STARS! It was a mini-DV deck that I can use to transfer all my movies into the new digital world we are living in. As I got to USF to visit the video labs, I was perplexed with the whole experience bringing me back to a place of control and responsibility. 

What do you mean.

It was remarkable, talking to people about making things happen. Suggesting new courses, and new opportunities where we could do so much more than anyone could understand! I've been in this place over and over again throughout my life and it is really just the shift as I move into another place.

We have been trying to prepare you.

I know, how God is always working for the Good and What I need! It's always been for the deeper more powerful growth and understanding. It's always about power and growth so much beyond my understanding. And I know this is what I do every time. Each challenge and conflict scares and threatens me, but then opens up something so strong and powerful.  Like I step into a new space that I never knew was even possible. Each time this happens I get closer to you and have a stronger impact on someone's life.

 We have stayed with you through this and will be clear guiding you forward.

I know, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to bring me home in your Peace again. I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

stay focused in this power

Today's Reflections: In your prayer today, spend a little time dwelling on the fact that the Holy Spirit knows you inside and out. Pray to him that he would make you docile to his promptings—that you would rely more and more on the Spirit to tell you what to say not only in extraordinary situations but all the time.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!  I know it's important to trust moving into things You have set before me. I struggle as I know your Love gives me strength to move through so many things. And if things are not working them I'm going in the wrong way.

What you are doing is chanting the name of God through actions you engage in. This is very powerful to move through anything. However, when you stop chanting and things fail you lose your confidence and decide that it's not necessary or proper for you to do. Having the direct guidance and power we bring to you was necessary to get you here. You allow Flow as such a Higher Level. It was your mom did and created in you. Taking this to the next step is important too.

I guess this means I need to be teaching and stepping into more as I move forward. Everything has stopped again. Everything is out of reach. I have nothing I can do but write and share in Your Love and Word!

Why don't you Chant then?

I get it, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ!

What does this make you feel now?

I feel like I need to be planting more! Planting Mangroves or something somewhere. It's kinda nerve-racking as I seem to be out of it again. I've been only able to do the Prayerline, focusonthefamily.com, www.intouch.org before catching the morning crew prayers at 6am on theJoyFM.com. . . yes 3 early hours each day giving me a clear focus.

What about your readings and studies.

I've been keeping up with the Exodus 90, which is where this post started last week! Yes, it is helping me to grow and understand more as I go. Like I've been getting out onto my knees to pray and focus very clearly on God. As I reread my notes here above, it seems the connection to God and Jesus with the Holy Spirit is something more I need to focus on. 

When the going gets tough . . . you will never stop fighting for me. . . you stand up for me in the darkest night. . .

I'm always getting the Words of Jesus singing to me from everything I see and read. It's obvious to me how God Planned every detail to bring us all into this Truth of Spirit and Beingness that can take us away from the lies and greed that have been taking over everything all around us. 

Father let your Kingdom come, Father let Your Will be done, on Earth as in Heaven. Again more music resonating inside of you and again more clarity and focus comes simultaneously. It's always been like this for you, like listening to the trees in the woods of northern New Jersey. Starting this week with John 15:5 "I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing."

I know and I'm trying to stay focused in this power and truth that you are sharing with me and open for me!

What about your readings?

I know I’m onto it now. . . I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

time moving forward

I don’t understand. More and more is coming together faster faster. But I’m still totally clueless. I know things happen all the time to teach me and lead me into some thing but I don’t feel like I’m getting anywhere. I always feel like I’m falling behind.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What just happened was really wonderful. You accepted that you could change everything and you understood how that could happen. It’s all about time! It’s all about how you spend your time. When you spend your time with us, we all grow, when you get lost in useless things you fall.

I know ‘Joyce make it sound so easy, so now again I need to learn something more about my power and my focus. So now I’m finally talking to my blog. I understand I can do this all the time. I understand you can talk back with me all the time. I don’t understand where I’m going or what I’m doing.

I guess that’s completely irrelevant, but I don’t understand why. Except knowing it’s time moving forward 

 I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

a random vision or leaving my home and I started to cry

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! I know you have always protected me, and given me so much more than I could ever understand and deal with. Yes, I know you always have pushed me to the limits, and I have never been without.

I remember a fight I had with my dad before dinner. And I told him I was fine and could take care for myself without him, and abruptly walked outside.  My little sister soon came out looking for me in tears. And I was already eating an orange for my own dinner. Of course, my dad said how it was “his orange,” that I had in my pocket saved from lunch. And again it was his winter coat, he bought for me as well.  Again, back wanting me to admit I couldn’t survive without him.

What does this make you feel now?

I wonder if this is another lesson for me to accept that I can only survive by trusting God and asking Jesus for my needs! Please, lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom Dearest Lord Jesus Christ to bring me back into my home in safety and security.   

What have you done with this?

I have started bringing real food into the lives of my friends and neighbors. Yes, loving my neighbors as myself, since I have no family. I work at keeping up with my lessons and readings with the man’s fraternity at St Raphael’s, and struggle to exercise and bike. But then it seems I am not able to keep up with anything at all. I seem to be struggling all the time. I struggle to write, I struggle to garden, I struggle to learn and share and grow.

What else?

YESTERDAY, I discovered there was someone else in my house. An AirBnB guest who was helping out, put someone inside of my house, not just in the ABB space he had shared and filled already, but into my space without me knowing.

This was something unexpected and it totally freaked me out, without my knowledge, means I don’t know what was said, or agreed, whether there were any conditions, or rules, or agreements. Catching me by surprise just freaked me out, even if I really had the space ready for any other guest.

What lesson is in this for me? Yes, I have an awesome home, and blessings that I am trying to share every moment . . .  I do know the lessons of Lent last year taught me "each One Teach One" where I was barefoot in Mass from that day forward. And then I realized that was only half of the story. As I open the page and see my “Mom’s Sermon” listed as well. This is all about the lies in the medical systems which are only making profits and not healing anyone. It’s like the whole industry is based on a fundamental lie that chemicals and surgeries can solve everything. Of course, this greed paradigm killed all the Indians and women (witches) who knew and understood the natural methods of healing built into the Earth since life began.

Thus I needed to get people into real foods, and teach these deeper truths that are never taught in schools and are essentially avoided. There is intentions, and focus that goes with it all. This is really about shifting the vibration and understanding that we are Spiritual Being above and beyond anything physical so to make the intentions and shift the consciousness vibrations and coherence between our health and experience is critical.

With God, we can get through anything. Without him, we are without hope, even when things seem to be going well. There really is only one thing necessary in this life—God himself—and if we have him, then we can survive anything else, and God will actually turn our hardships into good.   

I guess, I’ve been living with this all my life. Here again in a coffee shop typing on this little keyboard that fits into my pack on my back to bike out.  Everything is always so clear and strong for me. So I go through major downs and craziness and then rebound up really powerfully to shift into a stronger clearer place than ever before. !

We have shared this with you for a long time, and it’s nothing new for you. It’s getting clearer and stronger all the time. So much of the world is in transition now, and you might be surprised to find out what has happened. You have always been sheltered and protected. Like when you could walk through walls as a child. It seems so simple and obvious to you, that you were confused to find that no one else would do it.

I’m not sure if that is what I need to be focused on now!

You have noticed so many De-ja-vu’s recently, that you cannot keep up with or understand. This is what o have prepared for. If all the world falls apart around you, nothing will slow you down. You are fearless and clear to move forward into another space that no one will understand. Just like you home and professional experiences lately. You are always stepping into a new space that no one can understand or accept. While you simply FLOW. You allow this shift, and growth, and carry it forward in Grace and power.

I get nervous all the time. It’s always a challenge for me to keep up.

We are with you, and have everything set in ease. . . No worries, no fears, simply allow and move forward.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ for your Grace Love and Wisdom that continues to fill me and guide me forward.

just cause it feels good

In your prayer today (especially in your examination of conscience), think about the sins of omission—those times when God wanted you to do something, but you shrunk back. Ask yourself why you did so. Pray for the grace to follow the one who has the “words of eternal life.” 

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

AND YES I KNOW, my challenge has always been insecurity and fear in the follow through. I KNOW, over and over again YOU ask me to do the smallest, weirdest, little things that seem to shift the whole world. I'm getting better at adhering to each WORD. And more and more of us are getting stronger into this. Like now asking me to stop and write. WHAT? Where? How? You said to stop driving and park a hundred times and it all just confused me.

What you just wrote was not taken seriously. We asked you to write. And stopping in the SUNSHINE, seemed more powerful for you … so the one seat you found with the sun on your head should be no surprise…

I know but you know I passed a dozen places before stopping.

Yes, but now you are online and writing in the blog instead of on paper. What did you do when you arrived here at Trips.

I grabbed my book, and couldn’t find a pen!  And now stopped to take pictures. I tried to get the blog to snap a picture, but instead remembered that I haven’t written a review here yet. So of course I got a pic of my face in the sunshine. 

What about the pen?

I know you want more work online! It reaches more people, and my book just sits with me, so writing with a pen feels better to me, but is not what you want.

What you have been going through is very powerful and challenging. It is not just dealing with people that have come to you for healing and guidance. It’s also about shifting the matrix.

I know it’s always about being real and understanding that I’m here now! Yes here now 8:36am Tue May 2nd to share and love the blessing of life.  Stepping back and writing more details about my place and experiences is really a challenge. But it is also a big responsibility to know and feel the blessing that I have been given and the insights that come to me from everywhere.

What does that mean?

I get it, you want me to talk more about my experiences with you.

What has happened is more and more people are connecting to Spirit all the time. You simply have been there all your life. Like now again hearing the birds over your head. You see this all the time, where the truth and power of your experiences are at so many different levels. For you to reach out and chirp or imagine and visualize is really important because you are shifting up the power to enhance things for everyone else.

I get it.

What did you do this morning.

I was in Saint Raphael’s doing the Rosary and they decided to act on my last suggestions. Last week when someone in the group spoke about doing the Rosary more often on his own. I asked the men about my own experiences. I told them about being a freshman in college and helping some old lady with her groceries going upstairs. She invited me for a sandwich and then did the rosary with me after it. So I started to do the Rosary with her once a week with a tuna sandwich. It became our little ritual for a while. And I noticed that at church we would only say parts of the Rosary while before when I did it I remembered staying in the verse all together where we would get in to the vibrations and it would really get powerful.

So this morning, the men’s group said they wanted to encourage saying everything together instead of only in parts. WOW, was it wicked strong and powerful. I was sitting in the back all alone against the wall and took off my shoes to really connect to the vibration. And then I remembered something Judy said to me about honoring the people I was dealing with, where I could visualize pink light spinning through an infinity path from my heart to their hearts and back again. 

I did this visualization through the rosary today and it got more and more powerful. I was holding my hands up and could feel the vibrations stronger and stronger as my voice got deeper and deeper into the sounds of the moment.

What happened here can be very powerful in shifting everyone and everything. Mother Mary brought in the Christ, honoring her with other men, where usually it’s women who do this, is really important and powerful at this time of transition. Much of what you are doing and going through is about transition and shifting things that really need to change at a much deeper level. Again it’s your power to step-out and push at things that no one else notices or addresses. This power and clarity you bring into circumstances is very critical as so much shifts.

I always get intimidating when you place so much on me. I’m not the only one alive, nor am I the only one connected with you and following guidance. 

Son, you must recognize that your experience and separation for the matrix and many programs of your culture place you in a very unique place. Just like your statement about needing diversity of age, and diversity of experience, and diversity of race in public realms is really bringing more insight to others who only consider one basic level instead of the deeper more complex issues that you bring out. Recognize also that your experience and time with these issues far exceeds most everyone who might have just discovered what you have know, experienced and enjoyed for a great many years.

What, I think you are loosing me here! 

What you do stepping to the back of the room, to hold up the edges is something you have done all your life. As a little child you were on the edge and fringes of society. In No you were in the woods connected with bird and trees more than you ever connected with your family or friends. 

I get it, but always being on the outside seems to have hurt me as much as it has helped me.

What happened in Rosary today was powerful for everyone ion the room. You certainly took it too a much higher level for your own personal expression of love and divinity. And know that all the others also had a very unique and powerful experience that will resonate on too.

I get it and I know it’s all about moving forward and learning and growing as best as I can in each and every situation as only You can open me up for.

We have always been very stony with you. And good.usually you do exactly what we want even if you don’t feel convinced at the time. Like breakfast this morning, if you had tried to write at the church or the sun dial you would not haver had the Wi-Fi working as well. You didn’t have any pen, or couldn’t find it, so it was exactly as it needed to be. Then of course you needed to write a good review for them, and more and more of your reviews and catching people than you know.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, jj, tt, jj, tt, lol. . . Missed a letter there at the end. . . I always seem to do that so fast, just cause it feels good.

choir practice the song we sang . . . suddenly started crying

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

12:06 pm Mon Apr 17. 

Yesterday, I spoke to Judy about a powerful experience at church. She’s always really sweet and polite asking how my day went, or how church was in the morning. I told her how we sang more Easter songs their morning. I admitted how one time during choir practice the song we sang sounded like my dad in church. 

I explained how I suddenly started crying … it was totally random, and I got all choked up, where I couldn’t sing anything. I was trying to catch my breath through the rest of the song. Then I explained how crazy it was that when I sang the same song an hour later on, during the church service, after never getting a single word out during practice, I was able to sing it just fine. 

As I explained the experience to her. I realized it was just the sound and vibration I felt during practice. I sit right in front of the music director’s speaker, so his voice really comes through to me strong. And it equally could have been my own voice, where I sounded out the words and heard my own dad’s voice, that put me into tears.

Judy was asking me about the vibration, and how it was the sounds that hit me. I explained how I never had any communication with my dad. I was always in trouble, so the only voice i heard was angry and violent. The love and beauty of his voice was something I would only hear in church. Somehow that first phrase in the song during practice sounded like my dad, and I just burst into tears.

But then singing the same song again later on, it was no trouble at all. I recognized it was one of the songs he liked, but the sounds didn’t hit me as they had the first time. I explained to her how this had happened before when certain songs come up in church. And it was completely random. Like when my kids were young and I took them to the Temple Terrace Methodist Church, I joined the choir then too. As remarkable as that was, the choir director from Van Dyke Methodist had moved there to Temple Terrace. And then an old engineer who I knew, was also on the choir, so a few people encouraged me to join. I remember how much I enjoyed the choir then, since there were three or four men together singing the deep base. And I know I was choked-up several times in that church too, feeling into the song my dad had sung next to me when I was little kid in church.

What is remarkable now, is how you feel about sharing this. You want to send it to your dad and step-mom. And again you start to cry now, feeling the experience of wonder and love, as you consider how so many people have affected you.  And yes, you called Cathy last night, just wanting to share some love and some insight. You still struggle with sharing and put these things on a private blog, instead of the public blogs. You have learned and understand how this is all testimony for Jesus, and you have been very clear and dedicated to get things written even as you struggle to work or find out what’s next. What would you think, if this writing was the only thing we wanted you to do. Like getting every comfort feature you could imagine, so you would just sit still and write more. Yes, imagine that it’s all been setup for you to only write and share this experience with Divinity, that so few comprehend, and even fewer share in transparency like you have.

Ok, so I first thought this was crazy, since every time I get into my office and start to do anything; I get interrupted by little ants biting me! I’ve killed a few here already too! I know I need to get outside in my gardens and finish building things to keep bugs and such away from me. But how is this about creature-comforts when I still get interrupted.

We said “comfort feature” for writing. Big couches, hammocks, and rocking chairs and the big comfy bed you are sitting in now, with the pressure blanket that makes you purr.

Ok, I’m never purring, but yes I guess I know what you mean. I get very comfortable on this stack of pillows, watching pictures of my granddaughter flash by me. Yes, listening to the JoyFM as usual and wishing and wondering about Kim, Kathy, Cathy, Colleen. . . Wow, that’s weird as I always worshipped women, and no matter what they did or wanted, I would always essentially allow them to walk all over me.

We have tried to teach you boundaries. Women do not respect men who are not strong. You felt you were being loving and kind; but they interpreted it as you being weak and insecure.

Yes, i get it. And i’m sure you tried to tell me or explain these things before! I’m alone again. I wonder what could be next and sent out applications again today for a few teaching positions. 

We have been very clear about staying close to you.  You have always been taken care of, even at such a level that was beyond your dreams and ambitions.  The peace and ease you find encourages you to relax and spend more time with us here . . . 

I know it's weird to write and write more and more; usually it feels almost completely irrelevant and useless, but I'm too close to everything to see any bigger picture or purpose!
I know it's about time with you. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ;  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Keyed into the same vibration of Love

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! I see and experience my place more and more every day. It’s kinda weird, as I feel sometimes that I have a lot to do, or a lot that I’ve not done yet. But then I see from a bigger perspective, that what I do is already enough or more than I need to do.

We have told you this many times, you are in a very unique place, and the energy you share and the vibrations you shift are important and need to be honored.

I remember the first time you told me to get published and how much I was annoyed! Like find a real journalist, not some crazy kid who can’t spell or speak clearly. It’s always been weird to see my words out and about everywhere. And I always feel it’s more important to get them out than anything else. It’s the ideas that shift people and when people understand and explore these deeper messages and ideas, it really opens them up to so much more. Then I know that the culture and vibration of people shifts almost daily. And it’s more about the deeper truths and their evolution that’s important.

Yes you have been focused on the experiences and moving the vibrations at such a higher level. We have told you many things that you are shifting so much, and the rest of the world will be tied up in too much for you to care or respond to. It’s important that you stay in peace and move through your ease and peace as you are.

I always wonder what could be next, and i know i belong here - now as this is enough for me. And I always feel like there is so much more to do.

What happened last night? 5:43 am Sat Mar 18

It was wonderful. I went to help Judy at Unity, who did a Birth Day Party for this member who turned 90 years old. I got a message from one of my guests who was in my Kaptain’s Kabin, and she wanted to upgrade to the Xeon room. She said the sign on the door was asking for $222 and she already paid $111 so she wanted to give me the extra hundred for the last three nights they reserved. Oh that’s cool, so I told her to walk in and check it out, and I could clean it and change all the sheets after 3pm, when I was done with Judy.

She loved that idea. . . WOW:

What we have done from the very beginning is make this all exact, and perfect. The science, and details of every tool, resources, and your actions are all Keyed into the same vibration of Love. ALL in LOVE, you can do anything. You personally, have chosen to Live for God. You are on our team, by choice and desire. No matter what happens there, or anywhere else, you will be able to stay here. . . Exactly where you are, alone, or with others is totally up to you. And ordering the wedding book again was really a wonderful thing to do. And it only had that one typo, so your changes were really brilliant.

Done most of my responsibilities from dawn, with the bike ride, swimming, and then raced home to feed my guests who were ready to talk to me about Jesus!

Everything happens for a reason, but you don’t know what you don’t know. . . We have been keeping you on your toes. This is what challenges are about. You forgive and help people, but also stand by your limits and boundaries. Everyone must have limits and boundaries.

It’s so incredible to be back here again with You. I always get this sense that You are here with me already, and that there is nothing new around the corner, but then so much more opens up. Like somehow I missed the boat and there is so much more here than I could ever understand. I try to stay present and clear with what I’m doing and sharing, but then I have everything flip over and something totally new and surprising shows up.

We have done that to you all your life. Every year in school starting off as someone different. No one knew you from the summer, or the last school year, it was always something new for you. You have really spent more time with us than anyone. Your mother knew this, and she did her best to protect you. Just like your church experience now you really need this and its very significant and important for you to step into are that you can. 

As a community of Exodus Men, we will form a Plan of Life for life after Exodus 90 and Lent. Through the Easter Season, we will reflect deeply on the life we are called to live individually and supplement this plan with personal habits that keep us moving forward!

What does this mean to you.

I really feel it is more important than ever for me to follow through more with what’s at hand and what I'm doing. It’s a struggle sometimes, as I am always insecure about what is next or what I need to do at anytime. I try to accept and grow and learn each day. I'm never sure what I am doing.

What we have done is make it very easy for you.  You are always in synchronicity and always see how things line up for you. It’s usually very obvious and specific. It’s not a challenge or anything but what you need. It’s really about you knowing we are always here for you and will always be moving things forward for you, no matter what it seems like.

I feel like there is just so much that I don’t know or understand, but I move through things as they appear and I try to stay at peace with everything and not judge or interpret, but trust and allow things to be. 

We are here for you.

I know, thank you, I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

already done Exodus

“Have you been paying due attention to the details of the spiritual exercise the Lord has called you to? If so, receive God’s loving affirmation in this moment. If you have not, then open your heart to the grace the Lord wants to give you. He desires to bring you to the dawn. The choice of cooperation with his plan is yours.” Exodus 90

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! 

What is really remarkable, is when you finally take us seriously. Not many are jumping up at dawn. Waking up and accepting it’s time to start working. So here again you have to stop and setup your toys before you write. This always interrupts the process for you and words are missed where the concept slips when the scribble stops, or the dictation scrambles. This is why you are always keeping the originals, always wanting to use the pen for us. You recognize that it is the WORDs of God that matter, not just your interpretation. . . you have always been "perfectly love" always anxious to save every word and record only specific details.

5:37 am I’ve been reading! Next up on the JoyFM that is going next for me now. I’ve already done Exodus 90 and still have my exercises to do. But then I also know I need to do a cold shower. Last year I was swimming in the bay which is wicked cold too.

What this will bring to you is a lot more than the charge into your lymph system. It also gets you into the same vibrations as your Fraternity and sets this brotherhood into a stronger place for your own psyche. 

I know they are people, working out their faith just like me! The Harvest is great, but the workers are few. . . Jesus has a better plan than I could ever have. And again its beyond my own comprehension.

What you know, is that it can happen anytime. God's plan for millions. Everything that’s here is part of what makes it work, and again now decide what that means. Plus you need to allow things to flow. Now!

“Nothing else was important in my life,” he said, “not my family, my property. It was all nothing. My only desire was to know more about Jesus. In my heart, I could talk to him.” . . . and I still do. . . all the time, so stepping into this more strongly is so important.

What we need now is more work on the LENT story that you have countless pictures and experiences that are all tied into this with you.

I know, i'm trying! You are always putting so much in front of me. Yes, I know I have nothing to do but serve you, and spending time with you is always really awesome and I get that, it's only just starting and the vibrations of neighbors is getting stronger all the time. . . slowly but surely . . .

What you need to do is start with your picture archives, where you have pics and video of the real experiences that will inspire you to write and share more and more every day.

I get it, thanks for the light. . . I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to achieve as only You can!

finding more and more system

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! I need to do more, I noticed so much coming through to me all the time and it’s really strong. Just like today, I wanted to do my yoga, but I never got out of the house. The Prayerline was really lite this morning. I was surprised. It gave me more time to read and think. I know I need to write and share more. But also have a long list of things to do outside, and around this house. I only seem to be working hard for Judy, and never want to do anything more. 

We have been getting you more focused on Spirit, where you are growing more and creating more at another level of consciousness. It’s remarkable how time that you spend with yourself always opens so much more for you. It is something with your own focus and power that resonates at another place when you take the time to share with us. You do tend to discount this, but the details and experiences you bring forth are so much more. Being here and carrying this truth forward shifts the vibration for all of us higher. This coherence you provide is very fundamental at this time. 

I had another one of my ABB people go to help Judy. It seems like everyone I meet goes to visit her sooner or later. I guess its about working for her, and nothing more. I guess that’s what I do as well, but I also know we share and learn from each other all the time. We are both filled with Spirit, and so I'm very comfortable sharing these experiences with her, as her spontaneous insights are also very helpful and empowering.  It’s still a challenge for me to wonder what could be next for me. It’s really just annoying to be in such a state of flux. I know I have everything I could ever want within reach. I mean, I really have very little to question or desire. I always want more stability, but also know that’s my place with Jesus has brought me everything I could need.

I know Jesus is always watching over me and staying with me, where nothing is out of reach and things are always safe and protected for me. I remember the story Kim shared about getting a new roof for our house before she bought it. It was about God watching out for me and providing for me. I guess, that’s been my whole life, just accepting what showed up and flowing with it in ease. Each job, and each relationship was just as random and clear as it was with Kim and the roof. Almost destined, where I allow and move through things with no question always ending up safe and secure.

I remember when i met Jaclyn and decided i wanted this person to stay and forced her. Oh, i tried to do that with Kathy too. I remember wanting to push for someone that felt right to me, but just wasn’t right. I guess I was just being selfish, thinking I could have a life or relationship that wasn’t right for me. It’s weird as I consider my time and space now. I never really have needed or wanted much at all. But my space now is so full and complete, its hard for me to imagine something missing or out of place, or ever wanting anything more at all.

I mean the detail and perfection is extreme, like Saturday, I went to the St Pete market downtown, and I wasn’t sure we would have time, or be able to park. I drove past the parking lot, commenting about the $5 fee to park, and Julia found five bucks so we could park there and save her the walk. So I went around the block, and when I was back in front, the street parking space was open right there in front. It was just a dollar in the meter instead of the $5 parking lot. And of course, this was right by Worton Farms that I love and want to visit all the time.

Then of course, I always have said to them to bring potted plants, and they had some. I bought some Moringa, which I’ve wanted and tried to grow before. I also got some more Mint and Basel to add to my own collections. 

We have been getting you focused on these gardens and these plants more so you are ready to build what’s next there. You have been told there wasn’t going to be much left when the three years are up. You keep reading and finding more and more systems of corruption and poisons all around you. These are all going to end soon. 

I know that’s what I was told when I started to plant mangroves, and this seemed so real and powerful at that moment. But now, as it approaches three years later, it seems so abstract and irrelevant. Like nothing will change here, and I will go on doing these same things that I have been doing all along. It's like nothing will ever change for me. I will stay protected, stay in my sacred space, stay writing, stay gardening, and stay playing a new inspired moment from one to the next.

What is more important than ever before is that you stop limiting yourself. You have a clear priority. You have a very clear schedule and ascetics that reach deep into your history and ancestry. You have only started your first cold shower today. You did also complete your weightlifting twice today, including the bike ride and Mass. Not any Yoga or mangroves but maybe you can plan to get there tomorrow.

I do feel the freedom and power of being able to do what has been opened before me. I’ve built the first garden box, and I have started new sprouts in my seed beds. I took my tank and mixer/shredder to my welder and told him what I wanted to make it work better. He told me $100 and then suggested that I get   a concrete mixer from Home Depot for him to sharpen and customize to meet my needs. He told me exactly what it looked like and where to find in the store. So last week I dropped in and gave it to him and confirmed what I needed for my next tank and mixer. 

Today, as I pealed and cut up butternut squash with Judy again, I was filling up a compost bucket to take home for my gardens.  I realized that I would soon have my new tank and mixer and be able to chop compost and mix soil for my next set of seed beds. I planted three beds last week, and can do three more next week. This will enable me to test different methods of creating soils and compost to see what works best for my own gardens.

We have been preparing you to do more. Each day more things come together shifting the vibration and coherence for everyone. Recognize that there is so much more here than you can see or understand. Accepting your place and stepping into the actions each moment that open for you, is important. You see the opportunity and take it seriously as it is necessary for you to continue to grow and move forward.

I get this. I have been seeing more and more everyday. I’m curious and challenged, but I step into it more everyday that I can.
I am so grateful to have this time with you. Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to us all to achieve for your Glory,  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.

composting ourselves

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I can’t think of a better metaphor for life; that even as we switch jobs, switch partners, move to new cities, move into new chapters of our life, that we are constantly composting ourselves, composting our experiences, and making room for new opportunities to grow. We walk away from toxic jobs and partners. We slowly back away from the friends who put us down more than they build us up. All the while, learning as we go. Falling down. Standing back up. Continuing to grow.

In the midst of heartbreak and trauma, humans have this incredible capacity to compose musical masterpieces, write the next best selling book, create powerful art, build businesses, and start a new sprint.

share what was real

I love you dear Jesus . . . Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

We have waited a long time. You have worked hard, and can now relax back into the love and fun that you are hear with us, knowing these deeper truths and experiences. Again here watching The Chosen filled with the love of this experience. Knowing the vibrations of Earth get aligned with you now is important to understand at this time. Everything has the place and time for you to step into and do.

It seems there is a lot more here than I understand again, as usual! I’m trying to figure what could be next but accepting the experience as things show up. And realize I now need to go St. Raphael’s to lead the teen group seeking volunteers. Where I belong, since I did confession with Fr. Kevin. Wow!

What you need to do is exactly as you have, recognizing how it is important to stand and follow in the light before you and share the deeper love and experiences that you felt necessary. It’s always about timing and feeling this video is more important, as the people are growing and shifting everything to a higher place. Yes, it is so much more as you step into more of the changes before you as a people and race that has been struggling for so long.

It certainly confirms the experiences before me knowing its so much more as each moment that I move before knowing that we are doing only what you need! I know it’s more than I can understand, and slowly I stepped into more each day . . .

What happened today?

I was able to get to ritual and then raced to mass at St. Raphael’s where Fr. Kevin was preaching so clear and strongly! I recorded his sermon and then went out and asked him to do confession and he said we could right that moment. I was so very thrilled to share what was real for me, and how I hadn’t taken the full-responsibility for my relationship with my brothers. Just saying that put me into tears and I continued how I hadn’t taken responsibilities for my Church family either stepping into things with Fr. Curtis.

What did you do about this. 

I attended mass again on Monday where Fr. Curtis was! After mass I visited with him to confess. Or to admit I had missed his emails about t-shirt sales for the boat parade. I also missed the teen meeting the night before and offered to help with that. He also spoke about the Exodus.90 starting with the men's group on Tuesday morning so I was sure to attend that again. it had a lot of the same men again!

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Hope in God

Day 9 | Exodus 4:10-17

Moses must learn that when God calls, he always provides the grace and strength to fulfill the call. If Moses is to lead the people of God and accomplish the impossible, he has to depend entirely upon God.

What Kind of Man Will You Be?

Day 10 | Exodus 4:18-312

God will send his people into the wilderness so they can learn to depend upon him. They need to understand that the Lord is God and they are his first-born son.

Consider your own relationship with God. Do you see and relate to God as your Father? Do you turn to him often, the way a son turns to his father? Bring these questions into your holy hour today.

As you can see in today’s Gospel reading, Jesus has the ability to bring heaven down to earth.  All it takes is man’s free response and consent to God’s will. . . . Many times, in your spiritual life, our Lord will do things to “stretch” you. He will make you do something uncomfortable for your spiritual benefit. Periodically, he will challenge you to go deeper in prayer, asceticism, and fraternity. As a matter of fact, that’s exactly what God is doing on this journey with Exodus 90 right now. 

It is important for you to step into this place you find yourself it is so important to accept this responsibility to write and share as only you can do here. When you listen and write you find more focus and clarity in your day and tasks all come with case and truth. This flow are experiencing is your place and power  . . . Step into it, trust and move with ease. 

I`M so grateful to carry this forward for you, and I know my place here with you. And its wicked cool to write and type and ‘cut and paste’ as everything comes easier and easier in you Grace. . . I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.