What about this jumped out to you. . . .It’s kinda weird, It was like the very first time I ever read it, or ever really understood it. And it’s weird as I feel this phrase jumping out at me, to “Do the Will of God” and as weird as it seems, I kinda just “DO and BE,” and never really know why sometimes. . . I mean, I’ve really had never examined so much of my life. But I’ve come to really realize this very intimate divine experience. Like, I remember the experience with Kimberly and the Roof Replacement comments over lunch with Christopher. This brought me so much new insight with the active examination of my own experience. I simple have always known things and never really looked into the deeper meanings. And I always knew where I belonged and simply BE, without question so much of the time. And it’s funny now as I’ve gotten into debates and arguments with myself, or with my Guardian Angels countless times. And of course, I realize this has been my whole life, alone and alienated by many, I was always happy and busy with my own conversations and experiences with Christ never really concerned if anyone else understood, or even acknowledge my experiences.
I remember working in the Nursery at the United Methodist Church in Waldwick, NJ . . . The Nursery School Teachers always were so grateful whenever I walked in ready to help. The kids would always find complete peace with me. And I remember how awesome it was to just love the joy and beauty of these babies and they would all be asleep in no time and I then still could walk over and attend the church sermon if i wanted to. It’s so weird to remember this as I speak about it now, and something more comes into my memory. Beauty with Bishop Barron as “Harmony integrity and radiance of Form”
What Happened yesterday?I guess it was the same experience to see and witness the “flashback in father trauma” and I know I’ve done this before too! Like obviously we are all going through these same experiences, just like the Bible describes how the Israeli people needed trauma and suffering to bring deeper understanding of the truth. And to know Truth versus some relative truth destruction or deformation.
What has this come into today for you.It was kinda weird as Bishop’s next piece was an interview and experiences with some actor/producer David who has been seeking to review the Catholic Parton Support of religious art. It was kinda neat as they spoke about how the young adults are finding the Latin Mass again, and loving it. It’s an art move into them more than anything.
What about just doing this all yourself? You are always trying to find someone to support you and help you to really do what you do best by yourself. Like speaking to all the professors on Friday about your students, when you finally got the last word: “it’s your class do what you want!” Stop searching, just so it!I’ve been trying to get more clear and more focused and again and again it’s really about Jesus. It’s really about TRUST and Experience with this deeper more powerful Truth that I know inside of me. I know this seems a little weird, but I really know this. And I’ve been learning and studying more every day about this deeper power and the love deep inside of all of us. And allowing this to flow and express out of us is key.
What it brings to you is so much more than you realize. And as you grow and learn more, the clarity and focus brings you more power and abilities.I even spoke to Dr. JJ now, wow. He had some good ideas and suggestions for me too. He’s more realistic and practical about what the students are here for and what they can do and respond to. Again It was wonderful to share with him, as it always has been. He was surprised to hear I was doing six classes now, saying four is considered full-time, so I’m really doing time and a half. Of course I know this is more about getting the summer off and doing whatever it is that I need to be doing next.
What do you feel about this now?I guess I’m really not sure. I know you’ve been pushing me to heal and do more on the healing side of life than I’ve ever done before. And I’m also pressed or challenged to get more social and engaged with people. I’ve really never been able to figure this out
What you have there is really an excuse. For years, you’ve blocked so much empathy so you wouldn’t start healing people before they even asked you, or before they even knew the sickness and issues you were seeing. Then you can dance and share your love so freely with anyone very easily. And always have been able to step beyond the limits and issue that catch people all the time. These are skills and abilities that make you who you are. These will never leave you. Like you discovered at Age 16 in NJ when you realized you were going to USF. You can do most anything, and what people know and see is very limited.I guess so!
What about this is knew to you? No one will ever believe you. You can heal and change things all around you anytime you want. It’s really not a challenge or any issue at all. Accepting this is what you need to do. Stop second-guessing yourself and trying to Be or Do something that’s beyond you. You have enough, there is not anything more you need, nor do you really need to learn anything. it’s about TRUST and MOVING forward now.I know, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.
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