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Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

I'm so grateful to have this experience. I'm always so surprised by my opportunities and everything that happens to me each day. I'm listening to Fr. Gaitley speaking about his book the 33 Days to Morning Glory. Yea, I'm at Lisette's now where our group is deep into this book. I just got an invite to lunch with Dr Jim, so I am really surprised and exited about it all. And how Mary has been so strong and focused to bring us to Christ. And we can't plan things like this . . . 

That’s What we have shared with you all the time. Accepting this gift we have for you. The cross you bear is more than you can write or share, and again you recognize how you can bring more light to those.

Now the word before me is so strong and focused. I'm really challenged to know and share what is before me, as so much is here. You are always putting so much before me. I wonder about how I can honor all you share. And I guess speaking of this truth and passion is beautiful.

What else did you do?

I started with morning mass, and then visited with Lisette, when I started this page. Then lunch with Jim was cool. Getting to know each more and speaking about church and our own growth. I told him about my experience with Dick in the morning. We both know Dick and share our growth and learning with him, so it was easy for us to speak about our own growth and challenges.

God Created to have a relationship. Our only purpose in life is to have a relationship. . . . the poisons and deceptions of toDAY are satan's work to get rid of all who can not Prayerfully translate this Purpose of Life into the Principle and Foundation to concretely praise, love, and serve God! What activities help you achieve this end?

I see my primary task now in serving God is to write and share as much as possible. I have recognized this task before me for a really long time. It's interesting as it has come and gone as a priority. Children, wife and work have taken their place here over and over again. Now in my silence and privacy I have witnessed how much more important it has become for me to write and share. The discourse about Principle and Foundation speaks of "indifference" to health & sickness, wealth & poverty. I agree to being indifferent to the events of life, while being responsible for the gifts I have from God, really must include conscious choices to eat and work as necessary to sustain my good health and wealth. It would be disrespectful and disingenuous to become a glutton exploiting my health and wealth.

I readily accept what comes before me and honor everyone I meet, without priority or with indifference, but respect and acceptance. This can often be a challenge and I've been as focused as possible to do as best as I can. I know I've still not turned-on my server or have I explored other means of sharing and publishing. I wonder now if I have accepted what is easiest for me and not pushed into new areas as much as I should. I have been trying to do more at church and realize my own limitations.

What we are waiting for is the power and focus you are really capable of. You act and feel as a child so easily and have the ability to play into that. This truth and experience you carry and share is important. 

I get it and I stay in Your Word throughout my day! 5:57:57 12/14/2024 Like today the Exodus reading was clear and focused: 

During his time among us, Jesus was very active and involved, full of wise words and good works, healing, initiating apostolic action, and carefully training his disciples. He loved the world deeply despite its corruption. However, he always viewed this world in light of where it was heading; his gaze was set on, “the new world, when the Son of man shall sit on his glorious throne” (Matthew 19:28). The throne Jesus speaks about is a symbol for the divine rule of God, that blessed time when everything on earth will conform to God’s will, and all death, sin, fear, and injustice will be banished.

Let us remember our true hope in God’s coming kingdom and ask God for a full measure of the joy that filled the heart of Christ, “who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross” (Hebrews 12:2).

God is coming to save you, renewing the wilderness of your heart.

I have this Word with me daily!  My “in the woods” wildness seems to be where I belong most of all. As you just said wanting me to be as the child again.

A few weeks ago when the crew were picking up all the brush outside from the hurricanes, I went and pulled out a big steel BBQ pit that my neighbor had out in his pile. Yes, that couldn't go with all the brush.  It’s been out at the curb ever since. So today I went and measured it and then moved it to my tent space by my container. It was the right size to rebuild my composting corner to allow my mixer and all to work with the big old bath tub I had there.

Yes, creativity and talents recycling trash to make something work better. You see I got a big bunch of veggies this morning, I started my turkey soup and made my root veggie salad, and filled my sink with beautiful compost fixings. Yes, I have my steel mixer and drum the welder made for me, but that is great for mixing soil not chopping compost. So now with the steel BBQ pit holding up the steel bathtub, I can use my steel mixer to chop up stuff to put in to the plastic compost bin. I have three of the plastic city compost bins. I'm sure neighbors threw them in the trash. So now my new compost set-up is ready to rock and roll. 

So I swallow my pride, and pickup trash to build another widget. My yard, house, and life is filled with them. I was thrilled at the farmers market today. Eva has dozens of plants out for sale now, and there is more and more yummy organics everywhere. It felt like home, even the music got me jamming a bit. I always feel like there is so much coming together here for me. Yesterday I went to pick-up a truck load of brush and as I drove out to venician isles I could see so much of the area had flooded. There were no sidewalks and I kept "seeing" the moving sidewalks taking all the flood waters away. 

When loading the truck with Dr. Jim we even spoke about it and Addys said how her daughter was doing patent reviews. What? It was really inspiring to see my one contact with Dr Jim and Lisette would be with someone who needed and could understand some of my junk with Jesus. I've always wondered why I did certain things. Like rebuilding my compost seemed so far out there. And I guess not really, as I've done so many other things that just "showed-up" and walked through the process before me with complete indifference.

We have been doing this with you for a long time. Your ability to listen and follow is very significant. As you never required an angel or a burning bush. You have stepped into so much just naturally, trusting what was before you and allowing things to happen fearlessly. . 

I guess I have followed the Word most of my life! And of course I've been districted and confused plenty of times too. But I've seen over and over again that I always end up in the right place at the right time. It often happens that I'm totally clueless, and even scared or insecure about my next steps or place in the mix. But somehow I'm always getting ahead or doing something that seemingly no one else can do?!?

I do feel like I am being followed or watched all the time! And equally protected as well. I wanted to get my server on this weekend, but then discovered another website much the same as my own, sharing and disclosing something for everyone to learn and understand. I then realized there really are several that I know and reference often. So maybe my place and purpose here with this is something else.

This too has happened countless times. Where I work and focus on one thing and then discover it really is nothing about what I thought. Like I feel I've not done what I need to do but in fact my delay or distraction was critically important to allow me to be in the right place at the right time for something completely different than I was anticipating. Like now again, I'm really not convinced that I have any idea why I came to St. Pete in the first place. I feel I am in the right place all the time but still really have no clue. This morning, I realized it was only 10 days until Christmas and felt this time alone would be wonderful for me to get ready for whatever could be next.

I really have only met some women who seem spiritually free, like my mom and Joyce. Joyce was really a second mom for me. . . And they both recognized something in me, that I 'm still tying to understand. Then no one I ever met seemed to have more spiritual freedom than I do.  It doesn't always feel like a gift as I've been in St. Pete for 5 full years, and I still wonder what I'm here for. It seems clear I belong here, as I've been gifted and graced all that need, whenever I need it. And the real chaos has only been a concern when I tried to do something or plan something on my own. I am in chaos whenever I get impatient and anxious about where I am and what I need to do or not  do.

Maybe this is all about teaching you to wait and be patient: What do you think of that?? 

I  don’t know? I trust you Jesus, say what you would have me do, guide me and direct me to achieve as you require of me. .

I  do have my Exodus 90 Why Statement that I've updated and see most every day: To slowly listen and love God in joy, gratitude and Peace! 

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Yes, chanting “I love You Lord Jesus, Thank You Lord Jesus.”

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! I’m so very grateful for every moment we can share.

Wow Spent the day cleaning up and getting ready for Thanksgiving 5:43:52pm 11/27/23 now and the sun is going down and I’m ready to sleep! So when I FLASHED to a new house when this day started, I saw the bunk room filled the college students. Fearlessly challenged with projects and goals All around them! It was a professional boot camp, they had only what they came with and a list of chores. Each chore opened more opportunities and responsibilities. It was all real, all Truth, everything there for them to see and understand . . . Very specific rules, and tools too. But only serious professionals. I had scheduled 6 too, one even got a discount toe arrive early to clean and organize more. Then two were coming to work on the computers, two more to work in the gardens the another to sell things created from the others. 

Of course, all six would have access to bikes and kayaks, and planning to go plant mangroves at the beach. Then I wanted to get another class setup focused on mangroves, growing and transplanting. Having a full class focused here would be wonderful and getting everyone out to the beach for a special event is also very feasible. As usual, whenever I get a FLASH it’s like a snapshot where I peak behind the curtain. But then when I remember it, everything shifts and evolves with my focus. I can look at the corner and the image evolves into a motion picture. Sometimes I see what it for and what’s happening there, other times I see how it got there or a precursor. But always some new expanded images and feelings develop 

Suddenly the professor opening doors for the interns and everyone could see the great benefits and opportunities with all the gardens, tools, computers, and pieces all finding there perfect use.

GOD IS MORE THAN JUST A FEELING, YOU ARE MY HEALING, your healing! 5:46:17 TheJoyFM.com

I know I still hear Your Word, and need to make the beds, sort the sheets, vacuum, mop, and write of these wonderful experiences that You share with me more and more every moment… “Lord nothing is better than You, Lord there’s nothing better than You, nothing better than you.” Loving this moment with You.

6:07:28 11/27/2024

Numbers, numbers, numbers, and I’m going to Pray now.

We have been ready to step into this a lot more than you can understand.

I know and realize to Pray I know God has overcome all Fear. It’s remarkable how I get so much placed before me all the time. 

9:14:36 11/29/2024

Wow flash flash flash. . . Every where I look I see more!

What did you learn, or see today

I got up to Pray, thinking I was going to do the morning sunrise at the beach. I was up late last night cleaning up the last in the kitchen and putting alway all the food.  Then I heard Charles Stanley and realized I was running late already. But then also heard the morning rainfall. Wow, it’s so beautiful to hear the rain over my head, the pitter-patter droplets in the yard and outside the windows. Yes, a bunch of windows open upstairs, I love this house to much it’s always so comfortable.

Then Exodus was right on target with me too.

 Why don’t you start with that one.

I got to Pray more about this.

What you are doing now is technically called PRAYER! Prayer is about communication:

I related to be the responsible steward, but death or not is really not relevant at all for me. . . 

Exodus 90 Day of Remembrance
Matthew 25:14-30 If we desire a happy death, we must strive to be good stewards of our possessions so that we may not squander the graces God gives us. St. Joseph is the patron saint of a happy death because he died in the friendship and presence of Jesus and the Blessed Virgin Mary. A happy death does not necessarily mean dying without suffering but dying in the state of sanctifying grace, having received the sacraments. St. Joseph is an example of how all our possessions and work should be ordered toward God. He shows us what it means to work with Jesus in the hiddenness of life. He is a witness of holy detachment, changing his plans and leaving material possessions when God asked him to flee to Egypt with Mary and Jesus. He was able to die happily because he lived a holy and responsible life. We turn to St. Joseph’s intercession as we seek to remain in God’s friendship throughout our lives.

Let’s pray today about how we employ our possessions, finances, and the talents the Lord has given us. Have we used them responsibly for the physical and spiritual well-being of those under our care and in need? Is there anything we would be ashamed to explain to the Lord when we are called to give an account? Entrust everything to God today, placing yourself, family, and possessions in his care.

 What about the others 

First Corinthians 15, thanks be to God for bring me through this challenge before me. . . Like Paul persecutions thanks be to God . . . Colasicans 2: Therefore as you recieved Christ Jesus . . Overflowing with Gratitude. . . to Pray First Thessolosions 5;17 . . . A Thankful heart helps in three ways, First in thankful means I’m walking in His Presence and makes to day Joyful. . . It also inspires us to look for God’s Purpose in everything! Thanksful Heart helps me bring my will submitting to God’s Will, whether we understand or not. . . . God always has a purpose with everything. Growing and learning through these impacts. Heart full of thankfulness keeps us focused on the truth instead of the BS of our Culture. This is also important to be trusting through things in thanks instead of worry and suffers. THANK YOU GOD, through all these challenges and suffering. I don’t like this, but I’m thankful to God this moment. Thankful Heart drives out other emotions to be at Peace and Joy.

Focus on God, Thankful heart for these experience and brings peace and energy through things. . . Thankfulness is happy, healthy, into a better Life with Jesus!

This was so wonderful to hear after my day yesterday with Thanksgiving. I got up at dawn and the morning was foggy and cloudy. When I hit 22nd Ave N, I was empty and cloudy too. I knew I had to race down there since I only had 5 minutes before the sunrise. As I got to Coffeepot 

This is Charles Stanley today: When I think about all the things that God does for me every single day, he's the one who keeps my heart beating. He plays within my subconscious mind. 
This awesome, how He is inside of us, keeps the heart beaten, the blood flowing, the eye seeing and the ear hearing and the movements and all the things. Everything God has made is awesome, the fantastic body of ours and at top all that, everything opens up to be saved and have him living on the inside of us with the promise of heaven, the promise of our presence, promise of all the needs being met, and our prayers being answered!

Wow, what kind of God is that? He is a god for which you and I should be absolutely eternally grateful, and so when the scripture says in our passage here, and this psalm, “shout joyfully to the Lord all the earth,” seek the Lord with gladness, come before with joyful singing, Honor the Lord himself, he's God! In other words, when people drag into the church there's something wrong. When you think about coming into the Lord's house, with all this fantastic music and singing and praising the Lord God, our gratitude and thanksgiving spills over into our music and and the way we try to sing. 

Then of course, in our prayers, look if you will, and you know this part probably by heart, in Philippians 4:6, notice when he's talking about prayer and anxiety and so forth. 
Listen to what he says in this fourth chapter in the sixth verse. He says, don't be anxious eat anything, but in everything, by prayer, supplication, with thanksgiving, let your request be made known to God. That is, thanksgiving should be a part of our prayer life. 


Then I think about the spiritual battles that you and I deal with every day. Look if you will in prorin in the 15th chapter, and as he's been talking about the resurrection, and then if you'll notice, as he comes and speaks about death and death has lost its sting and here's what he says. He's his oh death, where is your victory? 
Death where is your sting? The sting of death is sin, the power of sin is the law, but thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ that is in our spiritual battle as we all have them. We should listen, we should be expressing gratitude. Thank you God that in your wisdom you allowed me to be tested like this, thank you God that you're in this with me.

And somebody says, well, I know the Bible says that in everything give thanks, but certainly he couldn't mean everything. 
Yes, he does. Somebody says, well, how could he mean everything? So let's take the Apostle Paul, who is being stoned to death and Lystra and they left him for dead, thought they'd wiped him out. 
And what happens? This is the Paul who says in everything give thanks, so this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you. In other words, how could he give thanks? 
I can see how Paul would be given thanks. He'd be giving thanks first of all that he was counted worthy to be persecuted for Jesus sake. 

He would be thanking God that he knew the truth, thanking God for the awesome testimony he was having by being persecuted by those who were watching because Paul knew the impact of the death of Stephen when he stood, kept the close, watched Stephen stoned to death a kind of impact that it was having. 


The truth is, every spiritual battle you and I can have. Listen, everything that comes our way, if we listen, we can express gratitude to God. The way we look at it, I'm gonna show in a few moments, the kind of impact that kind of heart has in every aspect of our life. 
When I think about how that works in a person's life and for example, in looking at Colossians 2 for a moment, and this is just daily living. I mean, this is just living day after day, some days in our lives and not all that as much as exciting as some others, but listen to what he says. He says, therefore, as you have received Christ Jesus, the Lord, so walk in him, that is, our daily walk should be in our relationship to him, having been firmly rooted and now built up in him and established in your faith, just as you were instructed and overflowing with gratitude. 


That is, our daily life should be a life of thanksgiving, of giving thanks to him, with a thankful heart, a thankful heart is going to express itself in different ways, 

first desk lawions first, chapter five, 17th verse is fifth chapter of of a first test lawions, 

theasians chapter 5 verse 20, e 

1. First it motivates me to launch him of a godly life. A thankful heart is a motivation to godliness. 
I amm aware that I'm walking in his presence, no matter what else is going on. 
2. Second way it impacts us is this, and that is it motivates us to want to look for his purpose in our life in situations and circumstances. And all of our circumstances, you can be the most committed Christian there is, and they're gonna be difficulties, they're gonna be hardships, trials, tests, you name it, temptations. 
They're gonna be there. But if my heart is a heart of gratitude and Thanksgiving to God, what's gonna happen? I'm gonna be looking for a purpose and everything that happens. 
3. Third thing it's gonna help me bring my will in the submission to his will when it's things I don't understand. 
And there situations and circumstances, I don't understand. I don't understand why God allows certain things to happen. 

He always has a purpose, and it affects people that you and I will never know. You and I go through circumstances, difficultness and hardships, people see, they watch, they carefully observe how we respond and what happens. It impacts them either for good or not so good. 
Then, of course, it reminds us of our continuance dependence upon him. You see, our person who is genuinely thankful isn't prideeful and cocky and arrogant. 

The truth is life is all about Jesus. 
Life's all about God, the Father, and as we said in the very beginning, in all these things that we mention, these blessings, these things we have reason to be grateful for, this is what he's doing, not what we are doing. And the truth is, if my heart is a genuinely thankful. The truth is we are all saintless we all have been sinners save by the grace of God. We've been made saints. 
We all have his inheritance, and we have been adopted into the kingdom of God and narrow part of his family. 

I don't feel like it, God. 
I don't like any of this. I can’t change it, so I just wanna thank you in any way. I just wanna praise you and thank you for what I'm going through because you're allowing it to happen, you're trusting me with it. 
You've got something in mind, I don't understand. I'm still telling you God I don't like you, but I'm telling you, Lord, that I'm grateful. 

Then I think about the kind of witness we have. Is it not true that when you and I go through difficulty and things are really tough and your friends know it and other people know it, and they see how you respond and they see you with the heart of joy, no matter what, and you're able to say, you know what? I don't really like this. 
This is very painful. but I'm thankful to God.

About time you got back to this work that you have been real about.

4:15:26 12/6/2024 I need to Pray more. It has become very clear now much more work I need to do. I’ve been focused on the work before me, and I know this has evolved greatly. I am seeing more work every day. Again and again I’ve been seeing how much I need to get online. I seem to be directed to make my recipes public and now watching a movie about how much diet is more important than anything: https://youtu.be/mZGs0XsS_lI?t=4471 food choices we make have profound global effects.

What have you been feeling?

It’s interesting to see this question now. I have been feeling more and more focus on publishing everything. I mean everything I have studied and researched has come into my immediate circumstances. I seem to meet focused conscious people everyday. This comes through to me more and more all the time.  I realize I have so much to do. And I see opportunities to share each day, and know I’m in the right place at the right time again. It’s really kinda weird as I keep seeing “the Writing on the Wall” about major changes and shifts everywhere.

We have been setting this right for you, trust and move into things as it is. 

I to Pray I can get this done the right way. . . Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to achieve as only You can Imagine. . .  Amen.

I recognize which kind they were

I had another crazy dream.

This time I was walking across the campus and I needed to call Kimberly

So I saw this office. It was in a big field and there was some old building in it that was neat. I saw several of these. They look like old buildings and I realized they were brand new. They were coverd with these vines all over them, growing like crazy. And I realized that it was old brown vines that made the building look old, because they were all brown and coming apart and sort of hiding the building behind it.

I realized how they had gotten all these old vines to grow like crazy to cover up the building and it made it look like it was old. Just crazy spider vines grow so fast. I’m so sorry. I realized I needed to call Kim and I walked inside and there was somebody sitting at a desk with a phone in front of him. So I asked him if I could use the phone.

He’s like sure no problem, so I picked up the phone and I noticed it only had half the numbers on it. It only had like half the number that are usually on the phone and I looked at them and said how am I gonna call Kim with this? He said you just use the same numbers that you use instead of having four numbers on the top and four numbers on the bottom, you use the four numbers on top and four numbers on bottom it’s just the same order on th top again. I didn’t quite get it, but pressed the numbers. Just like he told me and Kim came on the phone. I was like oh I dialed the right number and she was at home and we had an Airbnb guest at home. She’s kind of rushed and really short with me.

It was weird as I had just left the house and she wasn’t there and our guests were there and I was trying to figure out which room they had and who was paying for what. And so I actually tried to call her at work, but I dialed the home number and she turned out to be at home anyway. That was kind of weird and caught me by surprise and this guy was looking at me as I’m talking on the phone, so it was me that was really rushed at her. 

Here’s the way this guy was looking at me, while I’m talking on the phone, and I realize he really wasn’t doing anything at all. And he said that he just had to sit in the space to make sure it looked like he was doing something, in case somebody came in and they need to make sure that the office look like it was working.

Oh yeah, I know it’s a government office so you gotta act like somebody is there or there’s no reason to have the government office. That’s normal, government has been scamming people for years. So when I went outside again, there was a whole courtyard filled with racks of clothing. They looked like uniform uniforms and stuff so i noticed people milling around and working. Since I was walking by, I asked the guy what’s up all the uniforms for school and he’s like really short with me. I was like oh you just use the space for your business. . . 

And once again, it was like obvious that a private business was using the public land for whatever he was doing, just to make sure it look like the public land is being useful, but it was really private business making a profit. I’m thinking I wonder if AirBnB is doing that too, leasing out all kinds of public land and places to make tons of money with somebody else’s property where they don’t have any right to it at all, but somebody has a sense to use it because it’s public . . . . 

And I realize that’s exactly what I’m doing with my experience on the Airbnb. I’m charging 100 bucks an hour for people to come and watch my ritual and I’m doing it all on public property. I was essentially not paying anybody for using the property, but I’m making a profit for using it myself. And so I was like walking out looking at these buildings and realizing how they look brand new or are set so they looked really old and they were actually brand new and I was intrigued by how they had done these vines. Then I recognize which kind of vine they were I know a couple different kinds. I noticed the clothing company packed up. Everything was gone, and it was like a guy talk to was saying goodbye to me making sure that I knew that they were gone. And it was kind of weird.

Course, the whole dream was kind of weird.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What comes to mind with all this?

I wonder if it's all about ABB exploiting us at another level. Or should I say the Greed of the American Machine running people over again. And agian it is placing me into a space of change! How do these insights help? What have I lerned from this?    I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

picked up Mangroves and planted them

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

OK, so I started SEEL again and I ran through the chapters to the first readings. And I remember that I’ve written this up before, so I decided to go back and read what I’ve written last time. Of course, it was essentially a year ago. And I just had my first bike accident, broken ribs and new job in September. So it was sort of like a twilight zone reading it over again, because it put me in exactly the same space again.

What’s weirder than anything? Is that as I got this Engineering offer? I also had three or four other jobs open with USF. Of course, the inspiration was to find a job there for me now, but I just applied for. So it’s so strange because I’m sore and stiff with broken ribs again, and I haven’t been able to do any exercises at all yet. And the dates are almost the same and the exercises are almost the same. And of course, I noticed that I had the wrong Bible verse last time so now I’m reading the right Bible verse Isaiah 43:1-7.

And once again, it is just so strong, right in my face about who I am, or what I do. Dr. Rafi Moves Rivers: Moses and Me! It’s not like anything new for me. I always have everything in my face. I mean, I’ve been trying to do the same thing all my life. Every chance I get, I try to change people! Try to change perspectives, try to change understanding. Even trying to help people eat right, and healthy, and get them to change their diet. I know my life has always been about changing others. It’s funny because I even had this in the comments, about being in the woods.

I mean, I literally wrote up yesterday about being in the woods. How much understanding and knowledge came from seeing God’s Perspective everywhere.  I mean, that seems like such a big deal to ask for God‘s Perspective. Give me a break, we are made in God’s Image, why wouldn’t we wanna have God‘s Perspective? I mean it’s like common sense, we should all be there all the time. So I’m wondering what He’s got planned for me now. I just gonna keep on teaching or am I gonna end up doing something completely different again. 

I Always like to say it’s up to God, and I go along with whatever He wants me to do. But then He throws things in my face, that you know I need to respond to. Oh, like another job at USF, of course it’s perfect for me. You think I’ll finally get hired?!?

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I was so surprised to get hired at St Pete College. And I can tell they really like my work because of how much they’ve done for me already. So I wonder how long I’ll stay there. I really wonder what God‘s got planned for me!?!? You always seems to have some crazy things going on behind the scenes!?!

It’s like I’m always peeking behind the curtain because the Wizard likes me Watching what He’s doing. Sometimes I even think I’m like “shadowing,” to learn how to do it all by myself. Which, of course, is intimidating as shit. Like how can I handle doing anything more myself?

We have this all set perfect for you to learn to ask for direction and guidance. You always ask for strength, love and wisdom which has gotten you far, but now seeking the presence of God in each moment is necessary. . . the contemplation and discussion of each moment together!

I woke with a real crazy dream again. This time I was riding my bike on this trail. And I noticed they had redone this trail along the creek. So I turned in and followed this trail. I was going along and suddenly the trail vanished and I came to this big boulder and stopped and I was like dammit I don’t know why I didn’t turn around and go back because the trail filled up with water or something. Something happened behind me and so I was at this big boulder at the end of this trail. I don’t know why I decided to climb to the top of the boulder. I grabbed my bike, and I was hanging the bike off the edge and started climbing up this rock and as I climbed up, I realized that it was like entering this office park or office building on the other side.

I was like how the hell am I gonna get around this? You know, here I thought I was on a known trail, that picked up right away and so I was like in this river gorge and it was filling up with water. So I climbed on the rock with my bike and I saw this office park right up next to me and so I jump down and dropped my bike by this window and opened up the window, looked inside and saw this lady sitting at her desk and and she just looked at me. It was like she was busy and recognize that I was there in trouble but she couldn’t do anything and was like hold on. Looking at me like: You don’t need to come in yet or don’t do anything yet and it was funny because she was busy and doing whatever work she had to do dealing with her boss or dealing with other people and she knew I was trying to hold off. 

She didn’t want anybody else to see me or something, and it was really kind of weird because I was watching her work and she was dealing with other people and being very careful not to let anybody else in her office, walking out and talking to people and walking out and doing this and doing that, and it was funny so she was out in the hallway or something, and I climbed in and sitting on the other side of her desk and she was looking at me and smiled, and it was funny because you could tell she was busy and she was dealing with other people and the darkness that somebody else was in and I started to climb over the desk and and she knew what I was gonna do, but she didn’t want to take the chance of somebody walking in or something while I did it so she went out again and I jumped over the desk. It was just such a weird experience because I kept looking around and seeing all these people in her office working and busy and trying not to be obvious that I was there or anything. What a weird dream.

6:47 AM, 1020 32024. I woke up with another dream this time I was making an estimate to clean out peoples houses. Still doing a hurricane repairs it was kind of weird. Very vivid, very specific. Am I doing this now?

Well, let's begin with prayer. In The Name the father and the Son and the Holy Spirit Amen. Heavenly father help us to embrace a life of love relationship and service with You. 
Help us to see your creation through your eyes. and live out our lives based on how you see all things. Help us to suffer through, being a part of the secular world that does not believe or embrace you help us to compartmentalize and exercise detachment help us to learn how to detach and become indifferent to people who embrace the secular life. help us to stay dedicated to the spiritual path. Give us the strength and encouragement to persevere. Help us to be open and receptive, staying connected to you and your guidance and your grace. we pray these things in your most loving son's name, Amen 

 

The reason to identify your desire. Well, let me remind you of a quote from Ignatius that I know we've talked about before. And Ignatius says, our deepest desires are where we and God meet. 

What is remarkable is that you have come full circle again. It's like Drema told you years ago. You have a very specific purpose and place here to change things that only you can do. And now again you are full-circle back to the same place and same challenge again. How do you seek to create Life? How do you seek to express?  What is your Highest Calling? What is your Deepest Desire?

What happened?

I got up and was there for the sunrise yesterday and today. As I watched the sun break the horizon yesterday, this really pretty girl walked by with her black Labrador and sat on the bench there on the right. Eventually some other guy approached her and thay chatted a while. But she stayed there alone, and sat through my whole morning yoga. I kept thinking I'd ask her if she ever considered starting a business. 

 WHAT?  I thought?  Me another business?  and I knew she had her shit-together. Happy well behaved dog, long dark hair, with her fit clean form.  Sure I could do anything with a lady like that around me. Yes, the same as Maryanne and Kathy. But what business would I do now?  It's funny, I realized the best blessing Kevin gave me was just showing up. I was so excited to have a guest, I vacuumed and mopped the tile and cleaned it all every time he visited.  And I guess I did that for every AirBnB guest as well. 

What about the girl?

I know, I'm still a man. I think it's time to shave and look civilized again to see who I can meet. I know you always only send me Angels. And I know you have wanted me alone.

We have all your attention, and you read and focus only on growing Spirit. . . and growing in your yard. And what else

I know, this morning I brought a towel to the sunrise. And then got up and walked down the path to my mangrove planting. Most of the seagrass was destroyed but there were a lot of new sprouts already. It was weird as some raincoat was buried in the sand there where I dug the very first time. So I tried to dig it out. Wow, I worked for a while, sore and tired I decided to swim instead. Course then I picked up Mangroves and planted them. I even planted a coconut. Course I saw an Osprey that was chirping over my head as I passed by. . . 

What else?

I saw a big Horseshoe crab. . . ALIVE, and breeding, that I've never seen there before!  So Of course, I immediately thought of doing a special ABB course to plant mangrove and train kids. . .   I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

love to share and guide more and more

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What did you learn today? 

I love your Word! Thank you for being so Strong and clear to me today. I know I always have so much to do and I try to keep up and I try to understand and stay focused. I also get so frustrated with all the chaos and distractions that always seem to interfere. I always feel so blessed to be able to move as I do with you.

More as you do as we lead. Each day more comes through to you and more makes sense for you. You are always in the write place at the right time. And often you accept and move through things so clear and strong. The experience that you accept as your life is one of deeper truth in Christ Jesus. The saints and Angels you bring into your experience - 

I am so grateful how you share this Word with me so easily. And I know you want me to share my experience with you today, as it is always such a blessing. Today started with the Exodus readings:

Giving Thanks Day 38 | Tobit 13:1-4 . . . He is our loving Father, and all that happens to us can become a means of teaching and correction in learning how to live. We must live in a constant state of gratitude to God for welcoming us back time and time again, and come to recognize how much we must depend on him for everything . . . He has allowed us to live at this time and place for a reason, calling us to become witnesses to the nations . . . Tobit models a life of gratitude. Despite his many trials, he remained faithful and received from God the help he needed. He accepted what God gave him and did not grow bitter, expecting other things or questioning God’s providence. He did the best he could in difficult circumstances, showing us how we need to live in continual dependence on God. As a faithful and loving son, he accepted God’s will for his life, knowing that we should not expect ease and comfort in the trial of life . . . It’s his love that lifts us up to him, changing and transforming us from within. He will mold us like clay, making us ever more into the image of his divine Son, Jesus. As this process unfolds, we must accept with patience the difficulty and length of the process. St. Thérèse of Lisieux tells us, “If you are willing to bear serenely the trial of being displeasing to yourself, then you will be for Jesus a pleasant place of shelter.” Pray today in gratitude to express your dependence on the Father, giving him your praise and love.

What came next was posted here: Ok this is great, listening for the third time now: https://www.intouch.org/listen/radio/devoted-to-prayer-pt-1

Yea I know it's always your Word coming to me all the time! But I am always challenged and pushed to do more, learn more, achieve more, share more, and again now I sent this podcast to my children and the Welcome Team. And I had to pray about it and remembered that my writing is my strongest prayers ever, as this is how I have developed such a close relationship with Spirit. Yes I know Christ lives inside us and seeks to share each moment with us. And I can see how this brings me to create a garden. Christ Jesus wants to return to the garden of Eden where we all belong and all started. 

I also realized in my writing now how Jesus living with Me, is always giving me more challenges and responsibilities so that I ask him for more strength love and wisdom to more forward. Of course, he love to share and guide more and more. And if I get stronger and stronger then the challenges must also get more extreme for me to grow.

We have wanted you to write more for a while. And when you share these direct experiences you can see how much more clear it gets for you and how much more so learn. 

I know It's always more, and I see how you really want all of me. No relationships, no more children, no dogs or cats, just me and you focused on this moment together . . . 

Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to guide me through this day and week achieving all that you have get before me to your glory amen.

know everything‘s happening so fast

OK, this has gotten really weird. I can’t seem to post pictures anywhere at all. I’m talking to the machine again, which works better every day. Everything‘s happening so fast. I’m intimidated as hell because I know everything‘s happening so fast. All that means is that I’ve got more to do and less time to get it done. Like this post after my Welcome Retreat. I was so excited to do my mom’s sermon that took me months to get ready. And the day I finally presented was so late at night. I was barely standing up still I couldn’t see straight I could barely just read it. I was just so fried. 

Of course, the very next day I got an email with the very same story again. Even more detail, including how RFK had stepped down to support Trump. Of course, in the middle of this video, he said where he got his data, which is what this next link is here. Of course I gotta go back to the Source . I could care less who says what if the source is bogus… 

Nobody follows the sources tighter than I do. And I think mine is even better! 

Well, I don’t know why I had to do this, but it was such a pain in neck to get it all done…

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What His rate is right, so be it!

I I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

guiding the from the beginning

just the conscious choice you made

I know You have always teased me about changing the world!

What about baby steps as you grow in your prayer life, like asking for your Welcome Witness to impact people more directly. You saw the same story in the press the next day. Maybe all the Witness Team and guests saw it too. And if they saw the clarity of your health story repeated, they might come to see the truth in Saint Michael or using the WORD as you shared!

I get it . . .  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ, Please fill the last Weekend Witness attendees with Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to find and experience all Your Deeper Truths that I shared and experienced for the Glory of Father, Son and Holy Ghosts, Amen. 

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What you did was make it easier for you to share more. Again everything is designed to give you more focus and clarity as you struggle to write and share deeper ideas, you are forced to go slower and be more careful and deliberate. Each element of this experience expands and develops on itself. 

I realize that it's always about sharing more of the Word! I keep remembering how sharing with you here has always been my focus. I've always been able to share more with you here with a pen than anywhere. It is just what you have done with me all along. And as weird as it is, I don't seem to be able to do anything else. I go through my accounts again and try to pay my bills or something, and it's just not possible. I don't know what that means or whether something else will come along or not. Then I try to work and get a regular job and that never seems to work right either. I know you want me spending more and more time with you and when I see this app translating my scribbles so accurately, I really have to accept that I'm doing something that's really important and necessary. I mean, often I can't even read my own scribbles... but they are still translated to perfect printed text . . . Even when my scribbles are spelling the words wrong!

We have been very focused with you for a long time. You understand vibrations and other aspects of this world that not many people have been able to conceive. You use these tools often and are able to traverse through these systems very easily. You are able to fit in. You are accepted by many classes and types of people because you are at another vibrational level.

9:35:33 08/31/2023 I know, Blogging is more about sharing your Word! The power and focus we can create here is the whole point of having this technology and time for me. Yes I get it. And as weird as it may sound, I now wonder if all my work is blocked. I mean, it seems odd that I have any readers here at all. I'm not sure why it feels odd to me. Well except it's always really about my own learning, growing and sharing.

Learning, growing is where we started. You need to pray!

I really need to be praying here!

Yes that is exactly what this is all about. You always recognize that it's the time and place that's more important than anything. You stumble around seemingly with no idea which end is up, but then you say and do things that no one could anticipate or prepare for except US!

I guess, that's a good thing. If people knew and prepared, they would likely all be fakes. It's really easy to dress up and prepare for a wedding or a funeral, if you know what it is all about ahead of time. While if you have no warning and can only be real in the moment, then the true self really comes out.

What then is it that you would really want to ask for, if you really could ask for anything.

I have heard these Words before! I remember asking to understand more about Your Purpose, Meaning and Intentions. Now, I would really like it if You could Fulfill these. Leading countless peoples and countless generations to seek and love has been very fruitful and wonderful. Please Will you accept us as we are and help us to BE, Love, and Live as only you can guide us. Your sheep here on Earth have gotten more and more sick and helpless. The Strength and Wisdom of our One True Shepherd is needed more than ever.

What does that mean in practice?

It’s about the Power of Your Word!

We have been here with you for a long time. You have spoken about seeing that first Spark in the mud that made this all possible. Included and guiding that from the beginning you already know and recognize now much you have influenced this and what it means to create and adjust it all to meet the needs apparent. More and more people are seeing the systems crash and you asked for that as well.

I figured it would come back to this.  YES THE Word! Love!

What, where, when, how?

I want to see all the deceptions and the lies and falsehoods to die and crumble from their own weight. We need a system to share Love based only on Truth. We need to teach and honor only love and truth above all things, please Dear Jesus Christ bring Your Transmutation!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

always ready to help

OK, so July 17, Wednesday morning at 930am I had my second interview with Saint Pete College of Business. Five people were on the zoom, the first 30 minutes was a bunch of questions. The next 30 minutes was my teaching sample. The coolest part was that my teaching sample was also answering some of their questions. They wanted to know about applied experiential education, and I did my flipped team-building with  John’s class again. So the examples that I gave them were an answer to their questions. It felt so good as that was just the coolest thing ever.

Then Carol asked me to come up to Safety Harbor to help clean out her garage on Saturday the 20th. That morning I had breakfast with Kevin, and I mentioned the Knights of Columbus needed help cleaning out or moving Mark downtown. Kevin told me it was important for me to follow-up with another men’s group at our church, since that was why I was at the church in first place. I had enough time before seeing Carol at noon so after Kevin left, I packed up my tools and went to Mark‘s.

All I knew was that it was the Knights there to help Mark move and they were taking apart a bed. I figured it was an IKEA bed, so I brought my power tools, to take it apart, no big deal. When I walked in, Philip met me in the garage responding immediately, when I said I was ready to take the bed apart. We went inside and Mark was sitting on his wheelchair looking up a YouTube for instructions on the bed.

It certainly wasn’t an IKEA, but it was a great big complicated thing, with motors and lifts to get Mark out of his wheelchair. Yes, too many motors and all kinds of pieces. Philip got it on the YouTube and gave me instructions. They took it all out to the trucks outside after each piece I took apart. And then we took it all downtown. We got it into an elevator and upstairs to put together, and I noticed there was wire in the center loose, that wasn’t part of our instructions. Of course, it wouldn’t work until we connected that too.

Mark was thrilled to see it working again and invited us down for gelato at his ice cream shop. He gave us a little tour. We left his condo, got on the elevator and went down to the third floor, walked past the pool to another elevator at the front of the building. He pointed out his parents’ condo right there. Then we went down that elevator and around the corner and were at his gelato shop.

Wow, what a beautiful place, and really convenient for him in his wheelchair too. I took Mike back to his car at Mark’s house, and headed north to see Carol.

Carol’s was incredible to. She wanted to clean out her garage. We started with moving things around and organizing, and she found pieces she ordered for in her kitchen. It was a spice rack she wanted, so we added that to my to-do list. Then she noticed water on the floor in the corner of the garage, and we found out that her air condition drain was clogged. She freaked out, worried about how her landlord had already spent $3000 on another house to clean a clogged AC drain.

I found her shop vac, duck-taped it to the end of the drainpipe, and found a little snake to wiggle down the pipe until it opened up. Wow, was she so happy. I cleaned out under her sink and put in her spice racks. She gave me some cash, and then took me to dinner.

We went to Tarpon Springs for a wonderful dinner, in a nice restaurant sitting on the water. Just as we sat down, Leslie called, she wanted to know if I could help her with something that week.

The next day, Lesley called and told me that she was working for somebody who needed help with general handyman stuff. I told her I’m always ready to help her, and she said it was a paid gig. Monday and Tuesday I was busy moving the dirt and resetting my gardens in the front yard. Yes piles of dirt to fill in around the trees in the front yard so I could move my benches.

As I was busy this black SUV pulled up and Lesley was waving out the window. I walked over and said they looked like twin sisters. Lesley introduced me to Bonnie, who was driving, and asked if I could go over and help on Wednesday. “Wow Bonnie,” I said how it was Bonnie who invited me to Saint Raphael’s so I could learn how to Pray and become Catholic.  Like I met Lesley at a church too, and she was the first person to call me Rafé as I learned that I was Catholic from my mom.

Wednesday I was outside again all morning, knowing I needed to move as much dirt as possible before Leslie wanted me to meet her at Bonnie’s at 11am. It was about nine and I was thinking it was almost a full week since I spoke to SPCollege, so I might want to call them before I went to Bonnie’s.  Of course then the Dean from SPCollege called me. He said they found someone else for the business management position, but they wanted me to do the sustainability courses. 

He said they could just transfer the reviews and interviews all over to the other position, and I needed to get the forms in so I could start in August. Wow! Then he told me I could help the existing sustainability professor so she could take more time at home, and retire. So I asked if I could be prepared to take over, and he said we could work that out.

Wow, so more forms, and another background check, and then more forms and official transcripts. And a week later I had a position ID Number, a new college email address and a list of courses to complete. I had  to understand their course computer systems, student safety and grading and all the tech stuff for the college.

Wow, it was like magic, as I also got a check from Bonnie that covered my bills. Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What happened here was in-line with the Eucharist Conferences and all the new learning and realizations you have had there as well.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ, I am so grateful for this moment and experience with you. I know it’s important to accept this all before me and I’m sure it will be great as it comes together.

Jesus that’s all I need

11:43pm 6/1/2023

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What happened now?

I tried to clean my laptop, then tried to upgrade to the next operating system. It Drove me crazy and I finally restored from the backup, then I noticed that the new restoration has all the Adobe creative suite again. So instead of trying to get the latest system and the latest upgrade, I realize that maybe I just need to use what I already have! 

I guess that’s what I needed to write, because I haven’t been able to sleep as I keep thinking about this. I’ve known for weeks I needed to get my server going and I used the laptop cleaning as an excuse to keep me busy every time I went in the office. So now that I came back with the Adobe creative suite I realized I could really do a lot on the server with all these tools I was given years ago. . 

I always knew I’d be making some crazy stuff in video and pictures and everything. I guess it’s time for me to get started with it. I also noticed I have DreamWorks, which is cool for building webpages too. Of course, I have no idea what I’m doing yet. But I know Jesus has something in mind, and I guess that’s all I need. 

 I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to learn and follow through slow and steady to fulfill all you have given to me for Your glory.

THANK YOU LORD JESUS

5/16/2023 I climbed into bed and all I can do is say: OH THANK YOU LORD JESUS, thank you, thank you, thank you. I love you, Love you, love you, thank you, thank you, thank you . . . . I love my beddie-by

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What is more important than anything is how you have found your place in peace and joy where you belong. You are more focused and clear about your passions and desires. Recognize this is how we made you. Each challenge and conflict you have endured has made you stronger and more focused to be and do as only you can . . . .  No one has seen and been through all as you have. 

I get it, and I know I’m in such a wonderful space of peace and Joy. Like copied above, when I get into bed. I’ve never had a King Sized Bed, especially all to myself. I remember climbing on my mom’s bed in NJ, which was a great big king, I’m sure. Now surrounded with pillows and organic cotton sheets here each night, I can’t help but scream out “Thank You GOD.” I always feel so blessed, and it’s so much more than I could ever imagine. I mean, I’m not sure if I ever wanted a King Bed, or ever asked for it. I also recognize this is about sharing and experiencing the Divinity that Only God himself could imagine and ask for, giving me all these blessings as so many today seek and desire.

Yes, it’s weird to say that. I know Jesus Loves me, and I know he’s ready to come back. I know I’ve told him for years to wait and stand-off. I recognized there was too much shit everywhere and if he came back then most all would be gone. It was weird, with Covid I felt like it was just me and the mangrove surviving and then later there were only a few thousand able to survive. Now with The Chosen and so much Truth coming through to people, it feels like we are into the millions again. Wow, that felt like a stretch even to say now. It’s kinda weird I guess, how I get this feeling and sense about Jesus with me all the time. And it’s not always crystal clear to me, but that’s my own insecurities. The Truth is strong and present all the time, it is more whether I believe or understand very much or not.

Yes Jesus, please come now, as with the seven horses which have been spoken of and anticipated for centuries. Yes, you can come now, I am ready.

What we are able to do with you is very unique. You started talking with the animals and plants in the woods when you were very young. You really didn’t know it was them who responded, but you still connected and understood. They tend to respond to emotions, so it got you into trouble as much as it saved your ass. Then your accident shifted everything to a higher level for you really quickly. 

I know, the Word got much more focused and specific since then! I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ and I’m so grateful for this experience with you, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ!

So much of what you do and share just hasn’t been done before, and certainly not at the level you have been able to do. This again is your gift, your challenge and your responsibility. Taking the time here with us has been really strong for you, and you continue here so easily.

Yes I know it’s the Word that carries me through. Like when I opened this iPad to write, there was an X-notification that Elon Musk posted something cool. Curious I opened it first. I notice I open similar junk whenever I start one of these devices. Whether it’s my iPhone, iPad or Mac I’ll open these little red notifications first. This time it was a silly TV show about two people placed into a pod where they could win $500,000 if they didn’t leave for 100 days.

It seemed like two random people too, who met for the first time there in the pod. It was a big space, and only had two beds, two bathrooms and a kitchen with enough canned food to last 100 days, but nothing else in the space.  Sadly, I watched for 5 minutes or so. But I know it’s always about distractions, divide, and conquer. Everything is about separating me from You and my tasks, gifts, and life I have before me now.

What is interesting is how you have been working in your office. Or not working. It was very clear and present that you needed to get in there and get things done. But still you have only opened and looked, and not really completed anything. You thought you needed to clear your laptop before you touched your desktop. And now you have restored the laptop back to where it started instead. Yes, you tried to install and setup something that wasn’t any better. And ended up stepping back away from it instead. Like all your beta work and surveys always seemed like something you could offer to help others. But this too has seemed unnecessary, and was more interference from what you really need to be doing.

What I don’t understand still is how I can do more and share your Word!

We have given you all the resources and tools you could imagine to take you into a higher space. The people you share with and engage with each week are really part of the leadership that needs your insight and experience. It’s been a challenge for you, but that’s part of what has happened. You are in the right place and right time for the shift that needs to bring people to the next level of consciousness.

What else is new. I am always challenged to be in this space and time we created. And understanding what that means and how I can achieve whatever it is that we have created and set before me, seems beyond my reach still!?!?

What is really stunning now that you pick up a pen again, is how much you think or feel that there is something you need or require outside of yourself.  You have expressed to others how Christ is already here, and came back with Pentecost giving all the Holy Spirit. So waiting on anyone else is really beyond you. You have learned how you are prepared and have everything again. You have more than you could ever ask for. Even this pen in your hand that can magically type words perfectly legible and have them spelled correctly, no matter what you scribble, it is like you had dreamed of many decades ago. 

I know it's always about planning or sharing your Word!

What you know and understand is so much more beyond this. You know Christ lives inside of you and also have had others see and experience your wisdom and guidance that miraculously applies to them all at deeper levels. Even going as far as to explain to you who you are, and what the “man of knowledge“ is all about. These symbols and guidance has been unrelenting. You always want others to confirm and support you, instead of simply stepping into the Love and Joy that you already are. You love to share, you love to cook, and you love to garden. You have all these things at your finger tips now. None of these things need anyone else to be complete. None require anything beyond you. All are at ease and comfort nearby to address. 

What does this mean?  Am I simply going to escape all else by tending to my own?

We have only sent you angels. If you get into your space and are clear in your truth, nothing else is needed. You know you have always been cared for, you know all you do and create has a place and purpose in all else that exists. You are fearless. You are Love, and Joy, and Peace. All things come to you, and nothing is beyond you. Explaining and justifying is no longer necessary. 

What? I always need to explain your Word! People never seem to understand how simple it is to just Love and Love is the Law above all others. So to Love and BE LOVE means so much more.

What comes to you in ease is exactly what you need. There is nothing more to it.

We have been here all along and nothing else is needed.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ. Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to me and all the Exodus Men at Saint Raphael’s, the Women’s Group, John, John and Jon. . . My children: Emily, Brent, Maddie, Chris and Claudia and Family: Sharon, Dad, Larry Jenn and all. . . For your Glory Amen.

slow at getting anything started

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What we need you to do now is start following through with all you need to do. ONE DAY IN YOUR HOME, was where you started. You can fix the whole place in One Day. You need to do ONE DAY in the garage as well. You could spend the whole day in the Garage, or House, or Yard, or Office. . . That needs to be your first week. 

I get it, and that’s only four days, as I know it will require six. So I’m wondering if that’s two for each instead of only one!

What about gettin busy, and adding the extra day in the area you wake to that’s not complete. 

I’m really not very focused or productive yet. The only day I spent in my office was barely gettin started on anything. And now again I’ve been very slow at getting anything started or done at all. I know it’s lunch time already, and I barely feel like I finished breakfast. Linda and Carol have reached out so writing and helping them has taken time too. 

What about Dick this morning?

It’s interesting how you get me there. I did have a good chat with him, and seemed to just ramble on about my own challenges and experiences more than usual! I guess his questions and focus were very clear and powerful. Again, he was asking more about you. I know my experience here with You seems to be more powerful than ever. I understand, it’s important that I write about it. I also struggle with that responsibility even as it gets easier and easier for me. 

What about Dick?

I know I gave him all the audio I recorded, and then checked my drives of data for him to browse. Once again you are reminding me about getting more organized and clear about what I know and need to share. I did mention to him about my five day or six day work week. And I know this is really part of “my job” that I’m doing now. And yes I even mentioned about my server and blogs and tons of data I can coordinate and publish more focused!

What we appreciated was how you started with the Earth Creation with the Lords Words: Let there BE Light, Water, Land, birds, Fish, and Mankind who is Very Good. And you now start with you morning times in the Light of God, with the Waters touched with the Mangroves you set into the Land to restore the Birds the Fish and Mankind. You have returned to start here where you belong. And you reach to share more of this and know the love and beauty that you have created and brought forward for all to see.

I get it’s important again to share how I am able to share this Love with you! And how much You Bring Through to me as I write: 

What a good place to start. . 

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Awareness Witness

Christian Awareness Witness

I need to be in this more. Please Dear Jesus lend me with Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to stay focused and clear about this task before me. God Grant me the Grace to stay in clarity. 

I need to write 3000 words, or roughly 6 pages of my experiences getting to know Christ more intimately. This is really a challenge because there are so many aspects of this that I know. Where should I start, and where should I focus. I’m ready to go back to bed now. I really want to hide and not address anything. 

Write our origin story, everyone loves these stories. “Tell me the story of how you and mom met.” Pick the one topic and start with a letter to Kevin.  Kevin represents my ideal client who I need to prepare this for.

My dad was in the navy and found my mom when he was on leave at port in Puerto Rico. I grew up inNorthern New Jersey outside of NY. My life experience has been much like a sign wave where I’m focused and engaged with Jesus through high-points and then crash and burn in despair whenever I get distracted.

When I came to Saint Pete I was starting over after a divorce in Tampa. I had been hired to setup a new engineering office focused on my work doing stormwater master plans and river models.  I moved into my newSaint Pete home on December 13th, 2019. 13 weeks later on March 13, 2020, COVID closed my office and I got a forbearance on my mortgage and weekly unemployment checks searching for anything I could do in the city.

I wasn’t biking to work anymore, but continued to bike out every day. They closed as much as they could,but the public parks and bike paths stayed open.

Soon my Father who lived in Land o’ Lakes decided to leave Florida and I spent a week helping him pack tomove. My mother had passed in 1999 and this move was a major shift for him leaving Florida and cleaning out the history of my mom. During this experience I learned more about my mother.

I ended up getting paintings and art she had collected. The big tapestries that my mom had in the house forever are now central in my new home. I got all the family pictures that she had collected now that my fatherwas cleaning out the family home to move north. I had twisted my ankle helping my dad, and buried my foot in the sand on my next bike trip along the St Pete waterfront.

Now, I'm reminded of first arriving in Tampa for college, and feeling like I was in a time-warp back into High School, where everyone was struggling and trying to figure out what I had already done the last ten-years. Course, I'd been down this road over and over again? Do you think I could get it right this time? Andwhat does it mean to get it right? Does this mean being someone else? Does this mean being who I AM? Does this mean BEing more than I AM? How could I BE MORE? 

What is it that I'm exploring or trying to understand now, that is beyond me, or forcing me to grow and achieve more My father had raised us in a Methodist Church, but my mother was Catholic. Soon after this experience with my dad, I noticed a Lent Guide in the local Protestant church I was invited to from work. I learnedhow Lent was primarily a Catholic tradition and decided to visit the Catholic Church next door to my home in St. Pete. As I walked into Saint Paul's for mass I picked up a Lent prayer guide at the entrance. As I was leaving I returned to the entrance to find any additional prayer guides to assist me.

At this time, someone noticed me exploring and asked if she could help, I told her I wanted to learn how prayand this was my first time exploring Lent. Bonnie told me there Father Curtis was new at Saint Raphael’s Catholic Church a short distance away on Snell Island and he was beginning some new classes that might meet my needs.

I biked over to catch the 8am Mass lead by Fr Curtis. After Mass I asked him about learning how to pray and hetold me about the “Nine Grades of Prayer” course starting the next morning after the 8am Mass. I got the book right then and showed up the next day for mass and then class. The class was very familiar and that was very clear that I was in the right place to the right thing. Soon I realized that it was all women in the class and they told me how it was right after their morning meeting And the men’s group That I could go to, so the women invited me to the men’s group meeting and asked their husbands to welcome me which they did and I started in the men’s group starting with Exodus 90.

I mean, my mom warned me countless times about false prophets and spirits who could pretend to be "Christ" or God, or anything inside our heads. 

She always told me how Jesus brought us the "Word," where no one else could ever answer to His Name. It was the best way to make sure I was only talking to God...

Now, the real experience is knowing what tasks I have to do and doing them. Like completing this letter for your Mondaymorning, editing all the work we’ve done and adding critical details and power where it feels necessary.  And really using this technology that I have asked for all my life. I can hand write with a pen, talk, or type each goes digital, spell checked and ready to share . . . . . Each adds new ideas and experiences to this note!

Likemy journal from high school still in my Great Grandmothers Trunk, sharing thoughts and communication is how I evolve, this is what I’ve always done!

90 was wonderful experience! This was my first exodus 90. This was my 1st men's group. This was my 1stmen's fraternity. I was doing regular exercise, I was biking to church. I was doing yoga with the sunrise, I was swimming. My morning experience with God was shifted up to another level.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word. '

We are always with you, ready to guide and help with every step. It's not so much a challenge or conflict to pull you out of step, but more an opportunity to create more and share more at a deeper level.

I’m not sure what I'm doing. I cleared up my back yard to have the men's group over again. But made no effort to remind anyone about it. I did build a big fire, and it’s getting chilly so I'm really enjoying it now. But I'm really ready for bed.

What a wonderful experience to share with us. You really go out of your way to love the moment, and enjoy everything that appears before you. You rarely are concerned about the details, and simply accept whatever we suggest and place before you. Like now you have been alone in your house for several days working on this Witness Writing that you have prepared. And again now as you share the insights we have for you now. You begin to feel and experience deeper thoughts and feeling about what you can share in this witnessing.

What jumps out to me is to WATCH, LISTEN, PERCEIVE, ATTEND, CLEARLY FOCUSED, READY, AND SLOW . . . To my passions MANGROVES, GARDENS, PLANTS, PEOPLE, which feels like 

USF RESEARCH, PATENTS, TRUTH.

1.         CHURCH        ????? = is really defined as the loving relationship in Jesus, Father, and Spirit
2.          SCOUTS            ???? = is about loving my neighbor, teaching children and families
3.           CLEAN HOUSE   ??? = is about loving me, my space and all Jesus has given to me
4.            CLEAN OFFICE     ?? = is about loving my responsibility to care for all these loves
5.             USE OFFICE            ? = is reinforcing these loving responsibilities above
6.              WWW.      = is really about teaching, and publishing all the above . . . 

IS THIS MY NEW FULL TIME JOB, six days a week for Jesus: each one of these needs to be DONE every week, and every day. I’ve been trying to focus 3-4 hours daily to each one.

         SCOUTS, HOUSE, OFFICE, 

w/             CHURCH    A real foundation

I realize again that I’m starting over. And so I did my everything today but swim. I even did two sets at 12 exercises, instead of 24 like I finally did last week. I attended to the mangroves, added another branch in there next to them to hold onto. Then everything I heard and read in the gospel and in the liturgy, all remind me of who I am again! Yes, I got the same message over and over again! I know it’s about what I have to do! It’s always about what I have to do!

Now my work days have been defined. And if I did one of these tasks in one day every week, I’d be done with everything within a month or two. I mean really focused and clear on the one task. 

What did you figure out?

I can plan 4 hour blocks, or three hour blocks. Each day I can plan to do “X” for three hours. . . Or let’s see 5-6am Exodus, JoyFM Pods and prayer at 6am doing exercises and getting up clear and focused. Then bike to Beach for 7am sunrise. . . Mangroves, and swim to get back home by 9am?

Friday, Saturday, and/or Sunday will be 8am mass.  Then Tuesday its 630am Mass till Men Fraternity at 730am.  Hum, maybe Mass and the Rosary then too? So then Monday, Wednesday, Thursday is 8-9am office work?  Garden Works? Might be best to do seeds, and watering first thing. 

We have to make sure you eat lunch too. So gardens, mangroves, church and all ends at 1200 noon, where you can read or PBS for lunch. And then get into your office next. It’s best for you to get started there early. And then do house/office/yard cleaning before bed. That would mean you can get a shower and relax before bed.

I get it 5-8am is god and health, 8-12 is mangroves and gardens, 12-3pm is office works, 3-6pm cleaning, and 6-9pm is the Examin with God again.

What about scouts?

I can get into scouts or teaching as a four hour block once or twice a week. Like Exodus 90 on Tuesdays shifts things a bit. Whenever I have a scouting event or something to do with Carol, I can make that a four hour block, skipping the office or cleaning once or twice a week.

We have to say you have come a long way. It’s important that you take each of these tasks seriously. Remember your time with Emily. Whenever you scheduled a four hour trip to the art show or river to kayak, you were very clear and focused preparing every detail.  Nothing was more important than that time with your daughter. 

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to Achieve YOUR GLORY!

usually totally perplexed

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What have you done now. . . 

It was kinda weird, as I was preparing for another Court Hearing Justin asked me to leave! What? Yes, he had really planned for an intern, not a PhD. The tasks he was giving me, were all canned, where he wanted the boxed versions updated, no new thought, no new insight, just get the job done so he can bill for it. All focused on the cash flow, and not interested in developing something that’s real and lasts. Course, I can only build stuff that’s real and lasts, so the incompatibility came out again and again. 

Interesting as it was, he asked me to leave the day before I had a full day of hearings. Perfect timing to bring clarity and focus to court. What a joke court was. I did say specifically how the whole thing was a show, like a comic strip that anyone with common sense could see through. . . . Except the cop, who always thinks he knows better and must be right. Catherine pulled it off and I was NOT GUILTY, so it’s all just crap on my record now.

Now with the police negligence, bankruptcy, foreclosure and tenant fraud it seems like I’ll be in courts full-time for a while. AS odd as it seems, in the middle of it all last week, I got a call from the DEO who told me they had more COVID funds for helping homeowners in Florida. I told her I already had a foreclosure notice, and she said they could expedite it all. WOW?! I told her my monthly bill, and then the total due after the forbearance. . . “Expedite” in government usually can mean a week instead of a month. . . Or a month instead of a year. . . Which feels like I’ll be getting another call this week.

What did you feel with this.

Yes Jesus, I again felt the endless Blessing of You Providing for me! I did cancel my last mortgage payment. I mean why pay them anything if they already gave me the foreclosure notice.  That means with my last check due in today, I’ll have almost $10k cash.  I’ve lived a whole year on less than that before. So I am more fearless than ever. I’m still fighting my “dad’s program” that the “man is in a job 5 days a week.” It’s not been easy for me to let go of this, and I still apply and ask for another job almost every day.  But I also realize you are leading me into something very specific and strong that I need to do.

What else would we be doing. You know that’s been your place all the time. Now more than ever, you need to decide and create your place in all of this.

I know I’ve been clear about this and working diligently to do whatever I find needs to get done. Like I rewrote the Exodus 90 “Why Statement” with Kevin and Dick, who both provided direction and insight for this. I even have written it out on my wallpaper picture for my iPhone and this iPad:

 

We love that you have your favorite pictures set there in the heart as well. Each time you see this you have this flutter of joy and peace so grateful for the memories and experiences that you created and shared with so many.

I sometimes wonder if that was the best I ever could do and it’s all downhill from there now.

We have shown you countless times how much you change and influence all those around you. There is a lot of power and focus in these experiences that you have and whenever you share and witness to others about the events and blessings you have seen it moves mountains.

I just never seem to know which end is up. Like I push for work, or school, or home, or STARS, or something else. Each time thinking this will be my next fifty years or at least a year or two. I try to stay present and focus on replying to the real issues that appear before me. And suddenly everything shifts again? I always try to stay present and recognize that I’ve got more important things each moment You show up and ask for something. I mean, I’m usually totally perplexed and never seem to know what possible goals there are, wondering what this could be about or what You could need next.

We have always been pretty clear. Knowing you can get through anything is always a big advantage. 

I get it. But I’ve done the fort, and family, and business, and school! I’ve taught classes and guided instructors and even Guru’s. It’s just weird to consider that I’ve got more to do. Yes, I know its more that no one else is doing, or more something that others can’t address or understand.

We have you there where you need to be. Stay slow and steady, everything is set for this next shift we are all needing and wanting.

I get it.  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to guide and lead me to fulfill all that Is . . . .