back to your own priorities

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! I recognize that I am more in my place than ever. It’s wicked powerful and getting more-so every moment. I know where I am, and I'm really starting to recognize who I am. 

I AM getting slammed by more synchronicities than I ever knew possible. It’s one thing to see and recognize the synchronization and it’s really something completely different to step into it all and move into this power and focus that is very uniquely my own. It’s like really feeling and knowing that this iPad was my very own design and creation. Yes, all my own creation to make my Way of Life and the Earth transition experience very fast and very easy. And I see these words appearing almost magically before my eyes. It’s a trip to half type and then punch the words that appear on the task bar before me.

Then remarkable as it is, there are countless mistakes that are magically transformed from scribbles and errors into the exact words that I never could imagine were appropriate for the ideas that I’m looking to share. And It’s about making this real and valuable to others. I know I’m here to share and lead. And I know that Jesus is with me and inside of me, excited to be alive and engaged in everything I do as it all progresses and appears before me.

What you have been learning and seeing before you more and more each day is the experience of God. Jesus has opened the door and guided you into the Throne Room of Glory. The Graces of God and the associated gifts are ample and plentiful here for your benefit. You have been so focused and dedicated to the “tasks before you,” that you have not even considered asking for the bare necessities of life. You need to recognize that the Father Above is very able and happy to resolve and remove the simplest, strangest, most annoying itty-bitty details that you encounter and can not address in the daily routines of life.

I can pray about my AC and electric bills?!?

What do you think Your Father is all about? It’s making these issues and insignificant details vanish. You Father LOVES to remove all the hindrances and distractions to make it easier for you to stay focused on the more important tasks He has set before you. You were very clear and focused with the tasks before you today. You never could slow down enough to sleep. But you were still able to address the tasks at hand and provide the guidance and insights that the people sent to you needed.

I understand! I've never concerned about the details and insignificant crap. 

What happens is these insignificant details distract you and waste your time, and you spend way too much time with such gibberish. Like you concerns about paying bills. You always have money, and always get anything you need. You have never been in need. When Kim told you the story about your new roof, you suddenly began to notice how much you never concerned yourself with. You have always been protected and always step beyond all boundaries and bs that so many people spend their whole lives with. Let go of these things. You really have been beyond these things, and really need to return to that child, who could do and achieve anything. That's where you belong and being real about it is so simple and practical for you. Just stop all these extra insignificant details, and get back to your own priorities. That's where you belong. 

I know Dear Lord Jesus Christ it is time to step into another place of power and focus. I'm going to be able to do so much more. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ!

What happened with Nate?

It started with him getting an electric bike with fat wheels like mine. He never ask me a word about it. I’m sure he saw I had one, but he knew better. He got it from Amazon or online somewhere. Soon he was having problems and I explained to him how he had to make all the screws really tight. He didn’t have a lock, so I let him use one of mine. Of course, he soon lost the key and bought me a new one. Ok sure whatever. I try to be polite and avoid any conflict!

I mean, he did move upstairs after paying me for a month on the ABB bunk, discounted considerably from the ABB rates. Yes, Shawna called about coming back to my house and wanted to get inside, instead of in the tent like last time. She was due with her baby in a week, and I wanted her to have the room Adam was in. Sure I got him in there so his cat could get out of the cat box, but now he wouldn’t agree to put her back in the box, or let her meet Shawna’s cats?  His month was really over anyway, and he had found another place. It seemed like he had troubles. Found something and planned to leave, and then it fell through. This had happened a few times. But Shawna had already been a month outside cleaning up my garden for a free breakfast and coffee each morning so making the space for her was necessary.

Yes, Shawna had two cats and a dog when she rented the tent. Paid for the month immediately. And I didn’t even meet her for the first few days. I could tell someone was in the tent, and there was piles of stuff around. I finally saw her one morning as I went out for my bike ride. She was clearly VERY pregnant. I immediately asked if she was ok. I guess, I knew finding a place with animals was difficult, but also pregnant and alone, meant she might be trying to avoid some crazy man somewhere. She said she was fine, and when I asked if she was eating well, I could tell she wasn’t. With a baby, I had to make sure she was safe and all. I offered to give her some of my good healthy organic fruit and oatmeal, that I make every morning, if she could help out around the gardens. Wow, did she clean up a lot, and then got a fresh breakfast every morning!

Nate paid for the month and agreed to go upstairs to the empty room, so Shawna with her animals could have his bunk. There were already two other “weekly guys” in the room too. I hoped Adam would figure it out, move back into a bunk or whatever, so she could have the bigger room. He was jerking me around, never telling me what was up, or when he was going or staying until the last minute. Then he even asked to stay without paying. But then Shawna called back again and asked if she could move in NOW!

She was in Sefner where her guy had paid for a space for them. She was convinced he could never be a good father and just had to get away from him. Nate moved upstairs in about 5 minutes, I gave him the house keys and asked him to only use what he already knew in the kitchen. Of course, he paid for a bunk not a kitchen, so he was thrilled. And then I was driving off the get Shawna in no time at all. The cops arrived there shortly after me. I was so grateful. I could see her piling her stuff outside a motel room. And her mom was there too, while they were yelling back and forth.

The cops stayed there until she and her mom had everything in the back of my truck. I told the cops I was a friend just helping her move. I covered everything with a tarp and then took off, first taking her mom home, as we passed through Tampa. Her mom lived off 22nd by my old Seminole Heights Neighborhood. And we were tired and hungry so I suggested Mermaids Tavern. Shawna had agreed to put gas into my truck, so I bought us dinner, with her little dog there with us. The two cats were in a box in my truck. WOW!

ANYWAY, Adam got pissed at me for suggesting he let his cat meet other cats, or even worse that he move back in the bunk and put his cat back into a box. So he soon left. Shawna moved into the big room. Someone else rented the room upstairs and I asked Nate to go back down to his bunk. Course he took a whole day to move. And I was really pissed at this by then. He had his own pantry of food, and made big meals, never asking me about anything. Eating my expensive honey and Almond Butter dip as a sandwich? WOW, he even ate ALL my pink himalayan salt and the expensive olive oil. Course he used all my spices and such too. NEVER offered to replace anything. Then when I got my keys back and he was out in the bunk, I noticed he left stuff in the fridge and pantry. I just pushed it out of my way, thinking I’d give him everything when he asked and I had time. Nothing. Suddenly the Pantry was empty?  I made the divider to separate the front room more substantially, but I still wonder if he copied my key as well. I even lock my bedroom when I sleep and have a bat there next to me.

Crazier still he was parking his new ebike on my back porch so he could plug it in. He was never realistic about it, and I tried to tell him that the rain would ruin everything. But again he knew better. So he tells me how he plugged it in all wet and saw sparks. I reset the circuit and his charger was dead. I pulled out my charger and it was the same size, so he used it to get to work. Course, still out in the rain he fried BOTH of my chargers too???  Then he bought himself a new one, and let me use it when he was off at work.

As usual, I tried to avoid all conflict, I didn’t need another scene like with Keith. 

What Happened Wednesday that you told your son about?

Ok, so Nate got a flat tire and locked his electric bike at a gas station. I told him he was crazy and someone would steal it, but as usual he knew better. After a day or two, he asked me to help him get his bike, and maybe go food shopping. He said he would give me some gas money. I was grading my class work, stopped and got all my stuff together and was outside ready to go in 5 minutes. I was even waiting for him to come out?  So we drive three miles to the bike on 30th Ave and 46th Street. It was gone! Oh well he says, lets go shopping. I suggested Aldi, Sams and Publix as I go all the time anyway. 

I went in with him at Aldi and got a few things. He got a cart full, even cat food for Shawna’s cats. He forgot to get boxes so I was pulling bags out of my truck to pack his food in. We went to Sams and he wanted to buy more, but had no way to pay for it. He could have given me cash, but anyway. Then at Publix I dropped him off, thinking he already filled a cart and all he needed was bread. I sat in the truck reading email outside the front door for 30 minutes and he came out with another cart full.

As we were leaving he saw a Wells Fargo and asked if we could stop so he could fix his visa, which he needed to get Uber rides to work, without a ebike. I stopped again, back to reading emails on my phone. 20 minutes later he asked about going next door to another bank, and ran over. I drove around and picked him up. We stopped by the gas station again where the ebike was. I suggested he at least get a police report or ask if they had taking it or something. No luck. The homeless guy he saw there told him that someone was there pounding with a hammer or something the day before.

What happened next?

When we got home I went upstairs to get my grades done. And then I realized it was getting late and I needed to clean-up outside before the hurricane hit. After working for a while outside I was trying to fold up the big sails all alone, which was really a pain in the ass. I finally decided to ask Nate to help me. When I walked into the room, they had a frozen pizza in the toaster oven and so I asked him to come out and help when he could. An hour later I was getting frustrated with the sails and walked back over. Of course the pizza was gone, and he said “oh I forgot.”

I told him I was ready to go in 5 minutes when he needed something, but now that I’m trying to make the place safe with a hurricane, coming he can’t find the time to help. Don’t bother!

Oh, then he got mad, told me I had “no right” to get mad at him, and that I was rude and demanding. I told him he was inconsiderate again and he told me he would be petty too starting to demand his charger back. He continued to yell at me for the next 20 minutes following my around saying he wanted the ebike charger NOW. I continued to move things into the back yard and he was not helping me at all but still yelling about his charger. I finally gave him one that he burnt out, and told him I wanted him out. His month is up in a day or so and I want him out. Of course, then he began demanding a refund and that I give him the one charger that was still working.

Of course, there were two bike chargers working when he arrived and now there was only one that works. And he continued to yell, and block my path standing in front of me yelling and all. Threatening and harassing me. Wow, I trash to Keith assaulting me and using the bat in my hands. So I started to carry a walking stick as. I continued to cleanup, and Nate continued to yell BS.

Now 9/30 morning as I edit this blog, I notice the front door opening an closing every second and I hope its him moving out. But it seem like Shawna is going too. I saw her walking back to the container to get things. So I asked if she was leaving with Nate. And she yelled that she doesn’t have to tell me anything and that I was a pervert and a pedophile. “WHAT?”  So she then said when I walked through the house taking pictures for hurricane insurance I passed by her nursing the baby. Then she demanded that I couldn’t say a word to her or it would be sexual harassment. Of course, she knew I was recording it.  And told me I couldn’t say anything to her. . . 

Leslie called and while we were talking I smelled something burning. I went out front and found the toaster oven on while they were eating in her room. I pulled the plug and shut it all off. Then tried to shut the power off upstairs in the circuit box. Not sure if I did it right or not.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Story about sustainability

I am back here again with You and I know this is all about my own power and focus, as again I was watching a story about sustainability. Yes, I already know about all the greed and deceptions in the industries all around us. And I know all about how corrupt all these companies are exploiting the systems and breaking all the rules for greed . . . 

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word !

What do you want to do about it.  

I have a class full of business students that I can lead and direct into something new and powerful that the world needs.  It is obvious that I am in the right place at the right time, again. What’s holding me back? Do I need to see the world fall apart any more around me more? What could I do or say that could inspire people more into their power and clarity, so they can bring these issues out to be addressed at a new level . . .

What do you think your children would say. 

I guess that is where I need to be. I know its really something they understand at a deeper level than I could ever comprehend. Everything I’m doing is about engaging their peers. My own children could be in this course. 

What about asking them about it. 

I could. But this late on a Friday night is not the best time to try. I might be able to get them this weekend. And now a week later as I stop to write again, I wonder about this message for my kids.  I’ve been trying to grade peer reviews, and it’s really a challenge. Each student has different offering and challenges. Some post very good insight, but then miss a few days. It’s been hard for me to get through everything. I have been impressed by many presentations and goals.

What came to mind now?

I need to share my own PowerPoint presentation, so the class can see how to get it done. I know it’s more about the images and ideas than the words, but I also know that each team has a lot of ideas and inspirations that empowers them to move forward with powerful ideas. 

What about praying about this.

I always thought that prayer was simply communication with God. So now here again as I type and share myself with you, I feel like I’m deep in prayer!

We are messengers, angels, and ancestral spirits that have been sent and stay around you always. As with many of the lessons you teach, there is so much more and deeper involved here. Your prayer to God step beyond these words on the page, and reach far beyond anything that we can do for you.

I didn’t know that!

What you have always known is that there is so much more here than anyone has understood, explored and revealed yet. Your prayers are very clear and powerful. Ask for guidance and direction into these tasks before you , , , then wait and see what opens up for you.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to guide me and direct me through all these Words and Powers that have been provided for us. In the Name of Father, Sons and Holy Ghosts, amen. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ 

how to change and shift others

Dear Dad,

I am back at USF again.

I really thought it was crazy when you brought me down here to Florida for college. I never worked in school. What would "me in school" really do. I got through it in NJ, by making so much trouble that teachers just wanted me out. I never read anything, never worked, but really only faked it. . . with a smile;-)

But here I am again, back in school again!

I took my AirBNB guest in with me on My 2nd Day. She planned to take a single bus south to her doctors for her last check-in before having a baby... Yes Friday, she's having a c-section as she has other complications. Now I'm helping to bring another baby here in Tampa, again. . .

That's why I came to Tampa. Maryanne wanted a baby after high school in NJ. No way could I raise a child as a handyman. Then you asked me to empty your garage to move you to Florida, to the house mom designed. I helped you move and came south, got my degree and got my baby. 10 years later I went back to school for another degree, and then helped you move out of the house mom built. And then again 10 years later, I was back for another degree and then helped you move out of Florida completely . . . .

Now five years more, and I'm back in USF again. Not moving you anywhere this time, maybe I can focus on classes now? Not even thought of a degree this time. But this morning as I was speaking to the pregnant guest, who is about to pop.... and then seeing the old apartment I was in, and the dorms my freshman year. Yes driving to USF, and dropping her at the bus center nearby. Wow, I was deep in the memories seeing my history as we drove, and wondered what Jesus has in-store for me now. Yes, your experience in the Redwood Forest during High School is what I do almost weekly. 

Last night, I was in a Catholic Church to join the choir. I jumped in my truck thinking that I was late, but was the first one there. Usually I’m one of two men, surrounded by women; but now it’s all men. What a trip is that. Sunday is now chior with the Woodlawn Presbyterian Church 9-11, and then the all men's group at Saint Raphael's Catholic at 11:20.

I know there is so much more for me to write, explore and understand. But I’ve got no idea, and as usual so much more is happening every day, that I can barely keep up with. Of course, Dr John who hired me at USF, called me about teaching his class this term; and I suddenly have three roommates paying me a thousand each, so that’s my mortgage. Then the school income, and random ABB’s gives me enough cash for my food, gas, life and all. It’s really just weird, to get a random job showing up with everything set for me to teach. I know I need to get deeper into USF and find a real job. Then I also have interviewed with St Pete and can easily get more into this campus too.

It’s really weird, as I always know I’m safe, and always know I’ll come out ahead. It’s like I couldn’t do anything else. It’s what my life is about for me. Like something that will never change. I always wonder how I could be getting ahead, but then I always listen and follow the guidance I get.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

We have stayed with you and continue to open things for you and guide you into what you need. Being clear and focused in this experience before your is remarkable. You were asked to sing, and then joined the Choir in two separate churches. Again the strong male presence was what you attracted and moved into the space. This power and focus you will use to lead more and guide more. It’s the students and children who need a strong male in the Church. It’s not easy for others to step-up into this vibration and it’s important that you model it for others.

I always wonder what it is that you need me to do. Modeling and sharing a coherent vibration for others seems so abstract. I never seem to know what I’m doing, nor do I understand how much I change and shift others around me!

What you do know is how much power and focus you create each day by being true to your own desires and truth. You know you change and shift everyone with each action you take. It's really remarkable to you but again and again you are free to take such simple actions that really seem to shift so very much all around you. 

I get this from you all the time, and it really seems so very pointless at times. I get caught into such fear and insecurity. Like who am I to think anything I do or could do would really change anything.

What you do, carries a vibration so much deeper than you will know and understand for years to come. This is at another level, and another plain of existence that so few understand and accept. You recognize there is only One Life here, and you can feel it and connect to it at another level. It was designed to shield this deeper knowledge so people would learn to love another for the sake of love instead of for selfish reasons. Once they realize that all Life is really the One Same Life, then the Love is because of selfishness, not because of Love. Love for the sake of Love is Pure.

I recognize that this vibration and experience of sharing Your Power and Flow is about something so much more that reaches to the very beginning of life it self. Again now, I know and realize how much power and focus I can share each moment. People ask and explore deeper and deeper into more of the truths all around us, that are hidden in plain sight.

We have told you all along how much was happening behind the scenes and you knew and understood this. You chose to come through at this time it share something deeper and stronger that was necessary for survival and it’s been your place to push things that others could pickup and understand. You are always thinking or feeling that others will understand and step into things deeper. The people and place is not ready for this. It’s getting clearer and stronger for some, but not at the levels you want or hope for. It is a very slow process and requires many years of deep introspection and challenges so much stronger than people can handle.

I know that today most people are raised on TV, and fed poisons for most of their lives! Stepping into higher truths and deeper power is not possible for people boxed in by so many toxins. And sometimes I wonder how I was able to escape that, as I remember fighting with my brothers to get the last bit of the Doritos, or the last of the Pepsi bottle as we watched the 4:30 movie in the afternoon after school.

What you remember is the few days that you engaged with them. More of your time was spent alone in the woods or hiding from them. As all children you learned to protect yourself, and block out memories. You recall seeing certain movies and TV shows, since you had very limited engagements with these. It might seem as though you were there all the time, but as you stop and consider it now, you only remember those times in High School. This could be primarily the times you were in trouble and not allowed to get out and do anything else.

You also remember a great many forts, and places you knew very well in the woods and hidden in the trees. These places required hours of effort and work to create and develop. You might remember few experiences in each one, but the time and efforts to develop and create each was hours, days, and weeks of focus and labor to bring them to the space for the one memory you have.  Each tree fort and experience you recall was many months in the making. Again you know now how much people repress memories. You had a great many powerful experiences lost in the woods that no one would accept or understand. The very few you have been able to share, you consider very obtuse and abstract you don’t ever edit or update them.  

I get it. Like my Mom teaching me the Prayers of Saint Michael for protection when kids would bully me all the time.  And then suddenly I realized I could get invisible. I could say prayers and people couldn’t see me. It was like I created a blinder on them, or just blocked out the light coming from my reflection. And now as I say this, it feels like I understood how this method of “conscious words” could shift my vibration such that light would not reflect from me, but would be absorbed by me, so no one could see me any longer.

What it is will be so much more than this. Like the faith and power of understanding that you carry into all people and places. Wanting to be and dance and express at such a different level than any could understand or relate to. You have always done this. Remember how you would describe your dancing experiences. You said how everyone at a bar was drinking to get ‘loose’ and carefree to share and express more opening to others. You described it as everyone "was spilling their energy all over the place." And coming into the space filled with loose energy and lost souls; you could absorb all this power and spin this power into vortexes around you bringing so much power and flow by providing directions to the mixed up mess of scattered energy. 

I wonder if I’ll do this again!

Again what you don’t know here is how much the entire space shifted with your actions. Picking divinity spilled about by the foolish is very powerful. Never has there been a time where so few really knew their capacity. Your ability to connect and inspire is a gift that vibrates into the coherence of the Earth at such a deeper level that so few really understand. 

I am always perplexed by these things you say! It’s such a powerful expression and I know how I feel whenever I get into these situations. I’ve done it a few times here in St Pete, and I know it’s so much more than I can understand. But it’s not something I’m concerned about, it seems so far away from me. Like it feels like a celebration that I can enjoy whenever I finish whatever work I need to do.
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please lend me Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to teach and share all that I can for moving students and USF forward to the next Level of Divinity in the Truth and Guidance that you provide. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ; Amen