close to your word as possible. . .

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word !

I always feel so blessed and guided in everything that I do. 

What are you finding?

I have been lead very clearly all the time. I’ve been bringing Jesus into my space more and more all the time. I realize this is so much beyond what I share and talk about each day. Like since Christmas I’ve been really focused on my son!  I remember talking to him about this year being his 33rd birthday and talking about how at 33 Jesus came into His Passion. 

What was his reaction to this? 

It was really a surprise for me. He spoke about having no interest or belief in Christ Jesus! I was perplexed explaining how for his first ten years of life with me and his sister we were bathed in the beauty and joy of Jesus. I always had this Divine Experience and exceptional opportunities everyday, as Colleen would give me the children and almost vanish whenever I was home.  IFAS completely alone with them for countless hours which was why the divorce didn’t affect me. I still saw the kids as much as ever, and she wasn’t there at all, instead of just hiding. . .   I have since realized that’s where the experiential education developed because taking care of the house and family was really my responsibility, which the children shared in immediately starting in the baby pouch, and then the toddler backpack. 

With Christopher’s Christmas confession, I realized that I never explicitly spoke about the relationship and love of Jesus as it was really what children meant to me. I know I’ve written stories about Being the Prodigal Son, who demanding a Fat Ram for my Party returning to Christ. And then Maryanne had aborted a child without even telling me. And I can’t even count how many times she was pregnant after that, or could have been, finding a red lump in the toilet with each new ovulation cycle she had. So then returning to Jesus, or accepting my new knowledge of my Fat Ram coinciding with my Dad moving to Tampa made it crystal clear that my next step in my evolution was in Tampa. 

I knew Tampa was about Children so to build STARS with Chuck and Jack was another complete blessing. Restructuring education was something I knew was needed before children anyway. And suddenly I was graduating and immediately married who I was with, knowing it was time for children.  When Emily came out after 20+ hours of labor, and she was all blue, and rushed to the NICU. WOW, another powerful wake-up. . . Time to get serious about BABY, GOD’s Gift, an awesome Angel directly from the Breathe of God and Jesus that moment. . . WOW, WHAT MUST I DO NOW?  More focused and clear than ever before.

What is remarkable here more than anything is the power and truth we saw in your WOW Statements, that you breezed over, but actually repeated over and over here:

• Wow, you survived a 90mph motorcycle accident at age 16…
• Wow, you are a Prodigal Son returning to your place in the Kingdom of God…
• Wow, you have this awesome Fat Ram… Fine, Barbie Doll Goddess anxious to . . . 
• Wow, you have children anxious to be in the next stage of your life…
• Wow, you have been called to Tampa escaping the chaos you created in NJ…
• Wow, you have the Best of NJ helping you to reform Education in Tampa…
• Wow, you finished schooling and have with first child at age 26…

• Wow, your whole universe changed in 10 years . . . . From Death to Life! And now suddenly you have this little angel with her wings trimmed needing you to bring her into her next place of Divinity. And you knew this, deep in your soul. It was very obvious and clear to you, even confirmed by your mother who brought HER MOTHER to see and share this Divine Light you were caring for. . . Three Maria’s spanning four generations right before your eyes.

Yes, and I know this whole exercise is about me learning and accepting my place more and more everyday. . . I gotta tell somebody, I need to share this. . . !

What are you waiting for?

It is so very intimidating! I know I’ve got all I could ever imagine in my hands. And I know I need to stay as close to your word as possible. . . 

What does this really mean?

I know, so I called Kevin! He had just came back home from a trip last night and was able to get on the phone with everyone else still asleep. So he really was so wonderful to chat with me. Very specific and clear about whether I am in Judgement or in Love with my son . . . . Which was really what Chris was asking about too, when we had a FaceTime call while I was in the Welcome Team Meeting Wednesday night. And it’s really important that I just Love him and hold onto the truth that we share. . . . And I guess what is really important is how Chris was again exploring more relationship, more experience, more understanding and more dialogue with me. He didn’t invite me to their wedding. . . Which I can’t blame him since I know Paul and Colleen will be there and that would be dangerous, as it was for Emily. It’s really kinda annoying to me, but I guess someone has to be mature about it.

What is important now is to keep the doors open and listen and share as much as possible.

I guess it’s interesting as I met with the Friday Men’s group.  Roy was there again, as he’s in the Welcome Team and the Exodus Group too! So I decided to email him today, asking him to support my work elsewhere. I mean, I saw his name and picture in one office I was visiting last week . . . So I felt like he could help me there.. . .

What did you do now?

I Kevin and Jack notes about Jack’s work. I really just asked Jack if he’s doing anything in St Pete, offering to help in and give him a free place to stay.  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.