Build me up so that I may live a life of loving

Origin. Where did sin begin? Sin did not begin in the Garden of Eden.  Sin began in heaven. In Ezekiel and in Isaiah, God tells us very clearly. that a very powerful angel, with a very responsible position, made a decision. 

Wow, this one was really strong from Charles Stanley: 

https://www.intouch.org/listen/radio/the-truth-about-sin-part-1-1

And this was satan's decision, because in this confession of satan, here is the heart and core of all sin. 

Sin in essence is the spirit of independence. I will do what I choose to do, in spite of what God says. "I will act the way I want to act."

 

I will get my needs met, when, and where, and however I want to, in spite of what God thinks. And so here is the first confession of sin, here is where it all began. "I will" is sin to heaven. 

Each day I have so much coming through to me as here with the March 15th Lent Reading. I always feel so blessed and in peace. Matthew 5:44 to love my Enemies which catches me as no real surprise. I’ve even felt how through out my life those who confront me, end up becoming my closest friends. I do still wonder and struggle with the events before me, and the steps I can take. . . Or where these steps lead me.  

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I’m always feeling so challenged . . . Saturday Bodie came by to get his water jug, and I went with him to the Saturday market. . . I told him about growing up in the woods and never connecting to people or understanding how to. As weird as it was I bought my veggies and a few others things, and simultaneously spoke to more people than he did.  And I said how easy it was when I was focused on something.  

Like the guy making the journals, Bodie said he bought one last week and I spoke to there guy anyway explaining how the right yuppie shoppers coming to St Pete to see him would pay 10x more if he made a book with recycled St Pete News Papers. . .  He laughed and understood me. Then I saw the guy who can make my mortar and pestle and Bodie told him what sized and what wood to use. Again I was selling him on making something new, claiming I could net him much higher profits. 

Back to Charles, satan said: I will raise my throne above the stars of God. I will sit on the Mount of Assembly. In the recesses of the North, I will ascend above the heights of the clouds. I will make myself like the Most High.
That is the reason satan is a fallen angel, because he chose to act independent of God to be equal with God, to be superior to God. All sin begins today, where it began in heaven with satan, when you and I say, "I will."
I will meet my needs. I will do what I choose. I will be free of all restraints. I will do what I please to do. That's where sin began.
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And now in the same vibration i add the Exodus 90 Prayer, Let us pray.

Loving Father, you pursue me so that my soul may not be lost to eternal death. I return to you on this day with my whole heart. I repent from all the times I have run away from your plan for me, fixing all my attention in dreams of earthly success and pleasure. Only in you can I find true rest and peace. Fill the parts of my mind and soul that have been wounded by sin. Heal me and my loved ones from the effects of my sins and weaknesses. Build me up so that I may live a life of loving service for others in imitation of your Beloved Son. I accept your plan for my life today, Lord. Give me the grace to persevere until the end so that- bold speech I may dwell with you for all eternity. I ask this through Jesus Christ Our Lord. Amen.

In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.

So now the Homely of BIshop Barron speaking about the Transfiguration of Jesus which he describes so many experiences we’ve share here through the Sun and Beyond https://youtu.be/lEGeV6MTc5Q

Experience the breakthrough... it’s really important that my children see this. I started this blog with the Sin Lessons from Charles that I had compiled and posted to my kids. I realized how it was important to add Bishop Barron’s explaining how vital it was to know Jesus and knowing the history we are part of. . . . Like my Children carry my own DNA, where we all carry it forward from Adam and Eve beyond time and experience. .  .

https://youtu.be/PbMGNb_0PDM Of course, the next podcast to pop-up from my experience is equally as important seeing the 5-signs of Holy Spirit . . . Some challenge brings God’s Purpose where evil brings learning. . . 

1. Proclamations about Christ bold speech
2. Expelling the dark, explosive power to the unclean; Miraculous manifestations, healing and wonders
3. Great Joy as principal flag of Holy Spirit, fruit of the Spirit, radiant and contagious Joy
4. Intellectual curiosity about spirituality, searching, wanting and understanding more. . . 
5. Experience of Love, sharing the Holy Spirit to “will the good of the others”

And of course, i find more Love and Joy Preached online . . . Yes, I’ve not visited Woodlawn in Months, and see Rev John has created a new YouTube Site. . . “Without Love, I have nothing” . . . This one hand-written note by Dr. Martin Luther King in answer to the question “what is love?”: Love is the greatest force in the universe. Love is the heartbeat of the moral cosmos. He who loves is a participant in the BEing of God: 

https://youtu.be/4qzuRiKXsCc.  lol.  R U Fruit of the vine, or trimmed off?

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word !

What are you struggling with now?

I know I have got a very limited income and might have one more monthly check coming in for this term, while seemingly no classes, until the end of the summer. Thus, I know I need to apply for something more, or do something more! Thus, I reached out to someone who needed a room to rent in the local neighborhood app.  Here, I met a chef moving into the area. Oh my, meeting a professional chef (Bodie), how convenient.  I shared the story about Judy and how I have a collection of her equipment and supplies, still hoping to step into something more?! 

I soon had a visitor, who even offered to cook. I’ve realized I’ve not written about this experience and know I need to write, but nothing is coming through for me . . . 

What about reaching into this level where you belong. Loving your way out of this. Loving the experience and challenge before you. What feels right this moment for you?

I am so grateful for this moment with you. Today 9:23:53am 3/17/2025 is Saint Patty’s Day filled with Green Beer and Holiday celebrations! Yes, it is also Spring Break for me at St Pete College. . . . It’s not something I’ve come to terms with. I’m not really sure what is my priority or what’s next. I’ve been able to sit and wonder again, and listen to the preachers online that I’ve found as posted above. Like Saturday as I got home from the Market, I had a note from Leslie and called her. She asked for chicken soup so I started cooking everything I had purchased and dropped on organic chicken from the freezer into it.

Course, I lost track of time and soon noticed my stove clock was 5pm and my iPhone was 6pm. I called her again and said how the black beans were not ready, but I could bring her everything that was ready. She said she was starving, and so I immediately packed-up everything. When I got there she found a movie for us and I filled a plate for her. I think it was too strong for her, and still left her a lot saying it should be watered down. . . Yes, a jar of broth, two jars of fruit, and another of veggies, so she had both cooked and fresh veggies.

We have given you everything that you need. Accept what is before you and step into it all with ease. It is not something to question or challenge, but accept and enjoy. Be in that JOY, with Gratitude in your Heart, do all the love that brings you forward. Whatever you do, it’s a task especially reserved for you by God, complete this task. . . No other can do this or step into this as you have. . . .

I get it! As I write here with you I also sent TXT messages to Bodie and Leslie. One who cooks and one who needs the healthy foods to heal . . . Wow, listening to Rv. John speaking about the 40 days of Lent, contrasting the 40 days of Jesus in the Dessert vs. Moses spending 40 days in the mountain getting the 10 commandments. . . And I’m inspired to open my leather Journal book 4:11:56pm 3/15/2025 where I’m writing about the Joy in the Family of Jesus, with Mary and Joseph, where I’ve learned it is all about BEING! 

What you have come to, is recognizing that it’s only You, just in this Moment that Love is. It’s always just this one moment, this time, this peace, this one experience. There is nothing more that you need to address. You feel the knowledge and love coming through to you. It’s very powerful and clear how this is all working together.

I get it still . . . And see so much strength and power coming through . . . .wow, checking my email Tony the Mac IT guy from SPC is visiting today at 1pm . . . . So now my kitchen is clean. Almost. Yes, I picked up everything started the dishwasher, took out compost, vacuumed and washed the tile floors. . . Instantly, my house is clean and ready for guests. 

What about praying now?

I get it, again . . . PLEASE forgive me Jesus, Mary and Joseph, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Saint Mary and Joseph, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Mother Mary and Saint Joseph. BE WITH ME, guide me and lead me through this experience with my Brother Tony. Help us to see what you have Gifted us and lead us to step into a new Place with you and Your Love. Guide me to share the deepest truths you know, and have before you. . . All for the Glory of our Father GOD, in the name of Jesus Christ. 

What you did now was focus things into a very different level. This is much more clear and passionate than ever. You need to learn from this and know your place and love here more than ever before. No “strength,” no “wisdom,” you are seeking guidance for God’s Will to BE who HE WANTS you to BE . . . 

I get it. . . lol . . I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.