We have always been here with you, just as you notice how Ely, Joyce, Joni and even Dawn are with their own families now. You reach out and hear each reply from afar. They know you and visit you often and you recognize how important it is for them to spend time with their children, exactly as you have been wanting. It’s such a high vibration you experience with kids. Olivia yesterday allowed you to see and teach her more in a few moments than you did in weeks with students at USF last term.
Yes, this last term teaching shifted things tremendously for them, and it was really a powerful experience for you to connect and move them. Each one of your students were grateful for the power and focus you provided to them. Many shifted things a lot deeper and stronger than anyone would ever know and understand at that moment. Again it’s a vibration that carries them forward and influences deep seeded aspects that are hidden deep inside.I understand how my place and power moves so many things forward! And I still get the sense I’ll be teaching and opening things up more in the months to come. I’ve submitted so many applications and resumes to St Pete and USF, and this has not really opened anything more up for me.
What you are feeling and sensing about your now is as real as it gets. You have tried to help the people around you and they refuse to move forward. Spending more and more time here is not healthy for you or for them. You recognize this is not healthy or moving forward. It’s getting worse not better.I’m trying to respect other people and their choices! But it has been impacting me more and more. Like one guest wants to leave because of a new dog in the room. I’ve always seen the dog with the owner, and not getting up or out at all. Of course, my guest is not happy about it and asked about leaving the room, and even getting a refund on the month she paid for, so she can leave now. Then the backyard looks like a private bathroom, with laundry and junk all around . . .
Then I’m also asked about what do I really want to get together and make happen. .
We have been asking this for years. Building a city of Love is a wonderful idea, and how you created it in High School was part of your expression and Divinity in experience. You created so much focus and motion with these ideas you wrote and shared. Now you have seen these same expressions over and over again in front of you. You still want to remove all the cars. You want to have everyone with free access to information and knowledge, and you have seen this come into fruition. This technology you use so easily now is more than you imagined even possible. Just like having a strong woman ready to help and having three children each at a time that you cherished.I get it. What about winning the lottery? What would I do then? Could I build and do anything more than I am already doing. Would I buy more e-bikes or cars or something else to make my airbnb space something more. Not really. I don’t want anything more. Would I invest in building kid-containers? Maybe that’s ideal? Maybe saving the worlds children is where I belong. Would I prefer to just love little kids and teach them to love and grow plants and animals in the gardens or somewhere else? Do i need to create my own school, or daycare center? Would I open my home for more transient people struggling to find and achieve their dreams or would I do something else? What would I really seek?
Do I want to be planting mangroves and singing to the sunshine each morning again? What church would support me there, or do I need my own church? Do I really seek to heal people, or is this a responsibility I feel obligated to. Like helping Judy at Unity, is it the church, or the food, or the opportunity to help and love another mother figure, like my own mother? What is it there that I really seek? Do I love to cook and feed people? Would this be something more that I need to seek or pursue for the next hundred years?
My Son made it so obvious how delighted I was to be teaching at USF again. And I sorta get this feeling that JJ might be asking me to fill-in or take-over again anyway. What about this experience was so exciting for me? Was it the sudden challenge to teach and present something that I’ve not done before? Did I need to clarify my teaching methods so that I could step into it more strongly or was there something else that this opened up? Yes changing lives is what I’ve always done. Teaching bright strong seniors who are stepping into their own careers was certainly a challenge and powerful experience. It was a delight to see how easy it was to change people’s lives and how they viewed their world and future.
Is this where I belong? Do I need to stop trying to help everyone else and focus on helping myself? What else could I do about teaching? It’s not something far away, and not something so complicated. There are dozens of colleges locally, and I’ve only explored and applied to one of them. Is this my major focus?
What you have done is recognize that you can bring and change everything. Ending the lies and deceptions that plague Earth has been a passion for you. The corruption of capitalism was what started you, and then through your own mother’s sacrifice, you came to know how deep these lies really are. This course you taught allowed you to bring many of these ideas out to inspire students to learn and take their place and responsibility more seriously. You were able to change lives. You have always done this for people. And you have trusted and allowed this place and responsibility to evolve and grow before you. Watching and stepping into things that show-up is easy and powerful for you. But what you have attracted and brought into your space is so much more.I’m stumped. I have three dogs in the front rooms, two people on bunks and one who paid extra for the private room. Then I have three more dogs in the back with a mother-daughter couple who are set on smoking themselves sick! They paid for the tent space and are now living in my tool-box. The container is now a bedroom, and I’m not sure what they are doing in there beyond smoking all the time. I asked them not to smoke on my property, and that had them hiding cigarettes from me, but smoking as much or more than ever. So they don’t respect me and want me to give them cash for cleaning the bathroom that they only paid for one week.
Then of course, I have another friend who found me at Saint Raphael’s Sunday service and has come and visited my home everyday since then with her three children. Loving a pretty woman is easy, leading and loving children is something else I’ve always done and enjoyed. Wanting to have the fun and joy I shared with Emily and Christopher again is something really wonderful of course.
What about your experience with “only 3 left?”Yes I felt it was my experience with the Mangroves that allowed us to step to three years beyond the three weeks and months. What’s “soon” anyway, it’s been millions of years to bring us to this time. And it’s only been three centuries that we have been destroying it all.
What do you feel about this nowI’m not sure it’s relevant anymore. Like we have stepped beyond these limits again. Like walking through walls, stepping beyond limits is what I see and experience all the time. Do I want anything more? Do I need anything more? What about this experience is critical for me now?
What about sleep? You’ve been reading and rewriting this all day long. You’ve really not found anything new, and simply are allowing things to stay as you have placed them already. The people move and shift around you and you help them along, or watch as a spectator instead of taking control. Providing directions and encouragement is nice, but you have so much more you need to do. What about making your City of Love. What is happening there that you can still move forward. Consider also what’s before you. What would you share with your son, and what would you want to hide from your son? And if choosing to hide things is where you are now, WHY?I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.
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