love to share and guide more and more

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What did you learn today? 

I love your Word! Thank you for being so Strong and clear to me today. I know I always have so much to do and I try to keep up and I try to understand and stay focused. I also get so frustrated with all the chaos and distractions that always seem to interfere. I always feel so blessed to be able to move as I do with you.

More as you do as we lead. Each day more comes through to you and more makes sense for you. You are always in the write place at the right time. And often you accept and move through things so clear and strong. The experience that you accept as your life is one of deeper truth in Christ Jesus. The saints and Angels you bring into your experience - 

I am so grateful how you share this Word with me so easily. And I know you want me to share my experience with you today, as it is always such a blessing. Today started with the Exodus readings:

Giving Thanks Day 38 | Tobit 13:1-4 . . . He is our loving Father, and all that happens to us can become a means of teaching and correction in learning how to live. We must live in a constant state of gratitude to God for welcoming us back time and time again, and come to recognize how much we must depend on him for everything . . . He has allowed us to live at this time and place for a reason, calling us to become witnesses to the nations . . . Tobit models a life of gratitude. Despite his many trials, he remained faithful and received from God the help he needed. He accepted what God gave him and did not grow bitter, expecting other things or questioning God’s providence. He did the best he could in difficult circumstances, showing us how we need to live in continual dependence on God. As a faithful and loving son, he accepted God’s will for his life, knowing that we should not expect ease and comfort in the trial of life . . . It’s his love that lifts us up to him, changing and transforming us from within. He will mold us like clay, making us ever more into the image of his divine Son, Jesus. As this process unfolds, we must accept with patience the difficulty and length of the process. St. Thérèse of Lisieux tells us, “If you are willing to bear serenely the trial of being displeasing to yourself, then you will be for Jesus a pleasant place of shelter.” Pray today in gratitude to express your dependence on the Father, giving him your praise and love.

What came next was posted here: Ok this is great, listening for the third time now: https://www.intouch.org/listen/radio/devoted-to-prayer-pt-1

Yea I know it's always your Word coming to me all the time! But I am always challenged and pushed to do more, learn more, achieve more, share more, and again now I sent this podcast to my children and the Welcome Team. And I had to pray about it and remembered that my writing is my strongest prayers ever, as this is how I have developed such a close relationship with Spirit. Yes I know Christ lives inside us and seeks to share each moment with us. And I can see how this brings me to create a garden. Christ Jesus wants to return to the garden of Eden where we all belong and all started. 

I also realized in my writing now how Jesus living with Me, is always giving me more challenges and responsibilities so that I ask him for more strength love and wisdom to more forward. Of course, he love to share and guide more and more. And if I get stronger and stronger then the challenges must also get more extreme for me to grow.

We have wanted you to write more for a while. And when you share these direct experiences you can see how much more clear it gets for you and how much more so learn. 

I know It's always more, and I see how you really want all of me. No relationships, no more children, no dogs or cats, just me and you focused on this moment together . . . 

Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to guide me through this day and week achieving all that you have get before me to your glory amen.

know everything‘s happening so fast

OK, this has gotten really weird. I can’t seem to post pictures anywhere at all. I’m talking to the machine again, which works better every day. Everything‘s happening so fast. I’m intimidated as hell because I know everything‘s happening so fast. All that means is that I’ve got more to do and less time to get it done. Like this post after my Welcome Retreat. I was so excited to do my mom’s sermon that took me months to get ready. And the day I finally presented was so late at night. I was barely standing up still I couldn’t see straight I could barely just read it. I was just so fried. 

Of course, the very next day I got an email with the very same story again. Even more detail, including how RFK had stepped down to support Trump. Of course, in the middle of this video, he said where he got his data, which is what this next link is here. Of course I gotta go back to the Source . I could care less who says what if the source is bogus… 

Nobody follows the sources tighter than I do. And I think mine is even better! 

Well, I don’t know why I had to do this, but it was such a pain in neck to get it all done…

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What His rate is right, so be it!

I I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

guiding the from the beginning

just the conscious choice you made

I know You have always teased me about changing the world!

What about baby steps as you grow in your prayer life, like asking for your Welcome Witness to impact people more directly. You saw the same story in the press the next day. Maybe all the Witness Team and guests saw it too. And if they saw the clarity of your health story repeated, they might come to see the truth in Saint Michael or using the WORD as you shared!

I get it . . .  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ, Please fill the last Weekend Witness attendees with Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to find and experience all Your Deeper Truths that I shared and experienced for the Glory of Father, Son and Holy Ghosts, Amen. 

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What you did was make it easier for you to share more. Again everything is designed to give you more focus and clarity as you struggle to write and share deeper ideas, you are forced to go slower and be more careful and deliberate. Each element of this experience expands and develops on itself. 

I realize that it's always about sharing more of the Word! I keep remembering how sharing with you here has always been my focus. I've always been able to share more with you here with a pen than anywhere. It is just what you have done with me all along. And as weird as it is, I don't seem to be able to do anything else. I go through my accounts again and try to pay my bills or something, and it's just not possible. I don't know what that means or whether something else will come along or not. Then I try to work and get a regular job and that never seems to work right either. I know you want me spending more and more time with you and when I see this app translating my scribbles so accurately, I really have to accept that I'm doing something that's really important and necessary. I mean, often I can't even read my own scribbles... but they are still translated to perfect printed text . . . Even when my scribbles are spelling the words wrong!

We have been very focused with you for a long time. You understand vibrations and other aspects of this world that not many people have been able to conceive. You use these tools often and are able to traverse through these systems very easily. You are able to fit in. You are accepted by many classes and types of people because you are at another vibrational level.

9:35:33 08/31/2023 I know, Blogging is more about sharing your Word! The power and focus we can create here is the whole point of having this technology and time for me. Yes I get it. And as weird as it may sound, I now wonder if all my work is blocked. I mean, it seems odd that I have any readers here at all. I'm not sure why it feels odd to me. Well except it's always really about my own learning, growing and sharing.

Learning, growing is where we started. You need to pray!

I really need to be praying here!

Yes that is exactly what this is all about. You always recognize that it's the time and place that's more important than anything. You stumble around seemingly with no idea which end is up, but then you say and do things that no one could anticipate or prepare for except US!

I guess, that's a good thing. If people knew and prepared, they would likely all be fakes. It's really easy to dress up and prepare for a wedding or a funeral, if you know what it is all about ahead of time. While if you have no warning and can only be real in the moment, then the true self really comes out.

What then is it that you would really want to ask for, if you really could ask for anything.

I have heard these Words before! I remember asking to understand more about Your Purpose, Meaning and Intentions. Now, I would really like it if You could Fulfill these. Leading countless peoples and countless generations to seek and love has been very fruitful and wonderful. Please Will you accept us as we are and help us to BE, Love, and Live as only you can guide us. Your sheep here on Earth have gotten more and more sick and helpless. The Strength and Wisdom of our One True Shepherd is needed more than ever.

What does that mean in practice?

It’s about the Power of Your Word!

We have been here with you for a long time. You have spoken about seeing that first Spark in the mud that made this all possible. Included and guiding that from the beginning you already know and recognize now much you have influenced this and what it means to create and adjust it all to meet the needs apparent. More and more people are seeing the systems crash and you asked for that as well.

I figured it would come back to this.  YES THE Word! Love!

What, where, when, how?

I want to see all the deceptions and the lies and falsehoods to die and crumble from their own weight. We need a system to share Love based only on Truth. We need to teach and honor only love and truth above all things, please Dear Jesus Christ bring Your Transmutation!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

always ready to help

OK, so July 17, Wednesday morning at 930am I had my second interview with Saint Pete College of Business. Five people were on the zoom, the first 30 minutes was a bunch of questions. The next 30 minutes was my teaching sample. The coolest part was that my teaching sample was also answering some of their questions. They wanted to know about applied experiential education, and I did my flipped team-building with  John’s class again. So the examples that I gave them were an answer to their questions. It felt so good as that was just the coolest thing ever.

Then Carol asked me to come up to Safety Harbor to help clean out her garage on Saturday the 20th. That morning I had breakfast with Kevin, and I mentioned the Knights of Columbus needed help cleaning out or moving Mark downtown. Kevin told me it was important for me to follow-up with another men’s group at our church, since that was why I was at the church in first place. I had enough time before seeing Carol at noon so after Kevin left, I packed up my tools and went to Mark‘s.

All I knew was that it was the Knights there to help Mark move and they were taking apart a bed. I figured it was an IKEA bed, so I brought my power tools, to take it apart, no big deal. When I walked in, Philip met me in the garage responding immediately, when I said I was ready to take the bed apart. We went inside and Mark was sitting on his wheelchair looking up a YouTube for instructions on the bed.

It certainly wasn’t an IKEA, but it was a great big complicated thing, with motors and lifts to get Mark out of his wheelchair. Yes, too many motors and all kinds of pieces. Philip got it on the YouTube and gave me instructions. They took it all out to the trucks outside after each piece I took apart. And then we took it all downtown. We got it into an elevator and upstairs to put together, and I noticed there was wire in the center loose, that wasn’t part of our instructions. Of course, it wouldn’t work until we connected that too.

Mark was thrilled to see it working again and invited us down for gelato at his ice cream shop. He gave us a little tour. We left his condo, got on the elevator and went down to the third floor, walked past the pool to another elevator at the front of the building. He pointed out his parents’ condo right there. Then we went down that elevator and around the corner and were at his gelato shop.

Wow, what a beautiful place, and really convenient for him in his wheelchair too. I took Mike back to his car at Mark’s house, and headed north to see Carol.

Carol’s was incredible to. She wanted to clean out her garage. We started with moving things around and organizing, and she found pieces she ordered for in her kitchen. It was a spice rack she wanted, so we added that to my to-do list. Then she noticed water on the floor in the corner of the garage, and we found out that her air condition drain was clogged. She freaked out, worried about how her landlord had already spent $3000 on another house to clean a clogged AC drain.

I found her shop vac, duck-taped it to the end of the drainpipe, and found a little snake to wiggle down the pipe until it opened up. Wow, was she so happy. I cleaned out under her sink and put in her spice racks. She gave me some cash, and then took me to dinner.

We went to Tarpon Springs for a wonderful dinner, in a nice restaurant sitting on the water. Just as we sat down, Leslie called, she wanted to know if I could help her with something that week.

The next day, Lesley called and told me that she was working for somebody who needed help with general handyman stuff. I told her I’m always ready to help her, and she said it was a paid gig. Monday and Tuesday I was busy moving the dirt and resetting my gardens in the front yard. Yes piles of dirt to fill in around the trees in the front yard so I could move my benches.

As I was busy this black SUV pulled up and Lesley was waving out the window. I walked over and said they looked like twin sisters. Lesley introduced me to Bonnie, who was driving, and asked if I could go over and help on Wednesday. “Wow Bonnie,” I said how it was Bonnie who invited me to Saint Raphael’s so I could learn how to Pray and become Catholic.  Like I met Lesley at a church too, and she was the first person to call me Rafé as I learned that I was Catholic from my mom.

Wednesday I was outside again all morning, knowing I needed to move as much dirt as possible before Leslie wanted me to meet her at Bonnie’s at 11am. It was about nine and I was thinking it was almost a full week since I spoke to SPCollege, so I might want to call them before I went to Bonnie’s.  Of course then the Dean from SPCollege called me. He said they found someone else for the business management position, but they wanted me to do the sustainability courses. 

He said they could just transfer the reviews and interviews all over to the other position, and I needed to get the forms in so I could start in August. Wow! Then he told me I could help the existing sustainability professor so she could take more time at home, and retire. So I asked if I could be prepared to take over, and he said we could work that out.

Wow, so more forms, and another background check, and then more forms and official transcripts. And a week later I had a position ID Number, a new college email address and a list of courses to complete. I had  to understand their course computer systems, student safety and grading and all the tech stuff for the college.

Wow, it was like magic, as I also got a check from Bonnie that covered my bills. Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What happened here was in-line with the Eucharist Conferences and all the new learning and realizations you have had there as well.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ, I am so grateful for this moment and experience with you. I know it’s important to accept this all before me and I’m sure it will be great as it comes together.

Jesus that’s all I need

11:43pm 6/1/2023

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What happened now?

I tried to clean my laptop, then tried to upgrade to the next operating system. It Drove me crazy and I finally restored from the backup, then I noticed that the new restoration has all the Adobe creative suite again. So instead of trying to get the latest system and the latest upgrade, I realize that maybe I just need to use what I already have! 

I guess that’s what I needed to write, because I haven’t been able to sleep as I keep thinking about this. I’ve known for weeks I needed to get my server going and I used the laptop cleaning as an excuse to keep me busy every time I went in the office. So now that I came back with the Adobe creative suite I realized I could really do a lot on the server with all these tools I was given years ago. . 

I always knew I’d be making some crazy stuff in video and pictures and everything. I guess it’s time for me to get started with it. I also noticed I have DreamWorks, which is cool for building webpages too. Of course, I have no idea what I’m doing yet. But I know Jesus has something in mind, and I guess that’s all I need. 

 I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to learn and follow through slow and steady to fulfill all you have given to me for Your glory.

THANK YOU LORD JESUS

5/16/2023 I climbed into bed and all I can do is say: OH THANK YOU LORD JESUS, thank you, thank you, thank you. I love you, Love you, love you, thank you, thank you, thank you . . . . I love my beddie-by

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What is more important than anything is how you have found your place in peace and joy where you belong. You are more focused and clear about your passions and desires. Recognize this is how we made you. Each challenge and conflict you have endured has made you stronger and more focused to be and do as only you can . . . .  No one has seen and been through all as you have. 

I get it, and I know I’m in such a wonderful space of peace and Joy. Like copied above, when I get into bed. I’ve never had a King Sized Bed, especially all to myself. I remember climbing on my mom’s bed in NJ, which was a great big king, I’m sure. Now surrounded with pillows and organic cotton sheets here each night, I can’t help but scream out “Thank You GOD.” I always feel so blessed, and it’s so much more than I could ever imagine. I mean, I’m not sure if I ever wanted a King Bed, or ever asked for it. I also recognize this is about sharing and experiencing the Divinity that Only God himself could imagine and ask for, giving me all these blessings as so many today seek and desire.

Yes, it’s weird to say that. I know Jesus Loves me, and I know he’s ready to come back. I know I’ve told him for years to wait and stand-off. I recognized there was too much shit everywhere and if he came back then most all would be gone. It was weird, with Covid I felt like it was just me and the mangrove surviving and then later there were only a few thousand able to survive. Now with The Chosen and so much Truth coming through to people, it feels like we are into the millions again. Wow, that felt like a stretch even to say now. It’s kinda weird I guess, how I get this feeling and sense about Jesus with me all the time. And it’s not always crystal clear to me, but that’s my own insecurities. The Truth is strong and present all the time, it is more whether I believe or understand very much or not.

Yes Jesus, please come now, as with the seven horses which have been spoken of and anticipated for centuries. Yes, you can come now, I am ready.

What we are able to do with you is very unique. You started talking with the animals and plants in the woods when you were very young. You really didn’t know it was them who responded, but you still connected and understood. They tend to respond to emotions, so it got you into trouble as much as it saved your ass. Then your accident shifted everything to a higher level for you really quickly. 

I know, the Word got much more focused and specific since then! I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ and I’m so grateful for this experience with you, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ!

So much of what you do and share just hasn’t been done before, and certainly not at the level you have been able to do. This again is your gift, your challenge and your responsibility. Taking the time here with us has been really strong for you, and you continue here so easily.

Yes I know it’s the Word that carries me through. Like when I opened this iPad to write, there was an X-notification that Elon Musk posted something cool. Curious I opened it first. I notice I open similar junk whenever I start one of these devices. Whether it’s my iPhone, iPad or Mac I’ll open these little red notifications first. This time it was a silly TV show about two people placed into a pod where they could win $500,000 if they didn’t leave for 100 days.

It seemed like two random people too, who met for the first time there in the pod. It was a big space, and only had two beds, two bathrooms and a kitchen with enough canned food to last 100 days, but nothing else in the space.  Sadly, I watched for 5 minutes or so. But I know it’s always about distractions, divide, and conquer. Everything is about separating me from You and my tasks, gifts, and life I have before me now.

What is interesting is how you have been working in your office. Or not working. It was very clear and present that you needed to get in there and get things done. But still you have only opened and looked, and not really completed anything. You thought you needed to clear your laptop before you touched your desktop. And now you have restored the laptop back to where it started instead. Yes, you tried to install and setup something that wasn’t any better. And ended up stepping back away from it instead. Like all your beta work and surveys always seemed like something you could offer to help others. But this too has seemed unnecessary, and was more interference from what you really need to be doing.

What I don’t understand still is how I can do more and share your Word!

We have given you all the resources and tools you could imagine to take you into a higher space. The people you share with and engage with each week are really part of the leadership that needs your insight and experience. It’s been a challenge for you, but that’s part of what has happened. You are in the right place and right time for the shift that needs to bring people to the next level of consciousness.

What else is new. I am always challenged to be in this space and time we created. And understanding what that means and how I can achieve whatever it is that we have created and set before me, seems beyond my reach still!?!?

What is really stunning now that you pick up a pen again, is how much you think or feel that there is something you need or require outside of yourself.  You have expressed to others how Christ is already here, and came back with Pentecost giving all the Holy Spirit. So waiting on anyone else is really beyond you. You have learned how you are prepared and have everything again. You have more than you could ever ask for. Even this pen in your hand that can magically type words perfectly legible and have them spelled correctly, no matter what you scribble, it is like you had dreamed of many decades ago. 

I know it's always about planning or sharing your Word!

What you know and understand is so much more beyond this. You know Christ lives inside of you and also have had others see and experience your wisdom and guidance that miraculously applies to them all at deeper levels. Even going as far as to explain to you who you are, and what the “man of knowledge“ is all about. These symbols and guidance has been unrelenting. You always want others to confirm and support you, instead of simply stepping into the Love and Joy that you already are. You love to share, you love to cook, and you love to garden. You have all these things at your finger tips now. None of these things need anyone else to be complete. None require anything beyond you. All are at ease and comfort nearby to address. 

What does this mean?  Am I simply going to escape all else by tending to my own?

We have only sent you angels. If you get into your space and are clear in your truth, nothing else is needed. You know you have always been cared for, you know all you do and create has a place and purpose in all else that exists. You are fearless. You are Love, and Joy, and Peace. All things come to you, and nothing is beyond you. Explaining and justifying is no longer necessary. 

What? I always need to explain your Word! People never seem to understand how simple it is to just Love and Love is the Law above all others. So to Love and BE LOVE means so much more.

What comes to you in ease is exactly what you need. There is nothing more to it.

We have been here all along and nothing else is needed.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ. Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to me and all the Exodus Men at Saint Raphael’s, the Women’s Group, John, John and Jon. . . My children: Emily, Brent, Maddie, Chris and Claudia and Family: Sharon, Dad, Larry Jenn and all. . . For your Glory Amen.

slow at getting anything started

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What we need you to do now is start following through with all you need to do. ONE DAY IN YOUR HOME, was where you started. You can fix the whole place in One Day. You need to do ONE DAY in the garage as well. You could spend the whole day in the Garage, or House, or Yard, or Office. . . That needs to be your first week. 

I get it, and that’s only four days, as I know it will require six. So I’m wondering if that’s two for each instead of only one!

What about gettin busy, and adding the extra day in the area you wake to that’s not complete. 

I’m really not very focused or productive yet. The only day I spent in my office was barely gettin started on anything. And now again I’ve been very slow at getting anything started or done at all. I know it’s lunch time already, and I barely feel like I finished breakfast. Linda and Carol have reached out so writing and helping them has taken time too. 

What about Dick this morning?

It’s interesting how you get me there. I did have a good chat with him, and seemed to just ramble on about my own challenges and experiences more than usual! I guess his questions and focus were very clear and powerful. Again, he was asking more about you. I know my experience here with You seems to be more powerful than ever. I understand, it’s important that I write about it. I also struggle with that responsibility even as it gets easier and easier for me. 

What about Dick?

I know I gave him all the audio I recorded, and then checked my drives of data for him to browse. Once again you are reminding me about getting more organized and clear about what I know and need to share. I did mention to him about my five day or six day work week. And I know this is really part of “my job” that I’m doing now. And yes I even mentioned about my server and blogs and tons of data I can coordinate and publish more focused!

What we appreciated was how you started with the Earth Creation with the Lords Words: Let there BE Light, Water, Land, birds, Fish, and Mankind who is Very Good. And you now start with you morning times in the Light of God, with the Waters touched with the Mangroves you set into the Land to restore the Birds the Fish and Mankind. You have returned to start here where you belong. And you reach to share more of this and know the love and beauty that you have created and brought forward for all to see.

I get it’s important again to share how I am able to share this Love with you! And how much You Bring Through to me as I write: 

What a good place to start. . 

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Awareness Witness

Christian Awareness Witness

I need to be in this more. Please Dear Jesus lend me with Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to stay focused and clear about this task before me. God Grant me the Grace to stay in clarity. 

I need to write 3000 words, or roughly 6 pages of my experiences getting to know Christ more intimately. This is really a challenge because there are so many aspects of this that I know. Where should I start, and where should I focus. I’m ready to go back to bed now. I really want to hide and not address anything. 

Write our origin story, everyone loves these stories. “Tell me the story of how you and mom met.” Pick the one topic and start with a letter to Kevin.  Kevin represents my ideal client who I need to prepare this for.

My dad was in the navy and found my mom when he was on leave at port in Puerto Rico. I grew up inNorthern New Jersey outside of NY. My life experience has been much like a sign wave where I’m focused and engaged with Jesus through high-points and then crash and burn in despair whenever I get distracted.

When I came to Saint Pete I was starting over after a divorce in Tampa. I had been hired to setup a new engineering office focused on my work doing stormwater master plans and river models.  I moved into my newSaint Pete home on December 13th, 2019. 13 weeks later on March 13, 2020, COVID closed my office and I got a forbearance on my mortgage and weekly unemployment checks searching for anything I could do in the city.

I wasn’t biking to work anymore, but continued to bike out every day. They closed as much as they could,but the public parks and bike paths stayed open.

Soon my Father who lived in Land o’ Lakes decided to leave Florida and I spent a week helping him pack tomove. My mother had passed in 1999 and this move was a major shift for him leaving Florida and cleaning out the history of my mom. During this experience I learned more about my mother.

I ended up getting paintings and art she had collected. The big tapestries that my mom had in the house forever are now central in my new home. I got all the family pictures that she had collected now that my fatherwas cleaning out the family home to move north. I had twisted my ankle helping my dad, and buried my foot in the sand on my next bike trip along the St Pete waterfront.

Now, I'm reminded of first arriving in Tampa for college, and feeling like I was in a time-warp back into High School, where everyone was struggling and trying to figure out what I had already done the last ten-years. Course, I'd been down this road over and over again? Do you think I could get it right this time? Andwhat does it mean to get it right? Does this mean being someone else? Does this mean being who I AM? Does this mean BEing more than I AM? How could I BE MORE? 

What is it that I'm exploring or trying to understand now, that is beyond me, or forcing me to grow and achieve more My father had raised us in a Methodist Church, but my mother was Catholic. Soon after this experience with my dad, I noticed a Lent Guide in the local Protestant church I was invited to from work. I learnedhow Lent was primarily a Catholic tradition and decided to visit the Catholic Church next door to my home in St. Pete. As I walked into Saint Paul's for mass I picked up a Lent prayer guide at the entrance. As I was leaving I returned to the entrance to find any additional prayer guides to assist me.

At this time, someone noticed me exploring and asked if she could help, I told her I wanted to learn how prayand this was my first time exploring Lent. Bonnie told me there Father Curtis was new at Saint Raphael’s Catholic Church a short distance away on Snell Island and he was beginning some new classes that might meet my needs.

I biked over to catch the 8am Mass lead by Fr Curtis. After Mass I asked him about learning how to pray and hetold me about the “Nine Grades of Prayer” course starting the next morning after the 8am Mass. I got the book right then and showed up the next day for mass and then class. The class was very familiar and that was very clear that I was in the right place to the right thing. Soon I realized that it was all women in the class and they told me how it was right after their morning meeting And the men’s group That I could go to, so the women invited me to the men’s group meeting and asked their husbands to welcome me which they did and I started in the men’s group starting with Exodus 90.

I mean, my mom warned me countless times about false prophets and spirits who could pretend to be "Christ" or God, or anything inside our heads. 

She always told me how Jesus brought us the "Word," where no one else could ever answer to His Name. It was the best way to make sure I was only talking to God...

Now, the real experience is knowing what tasks I have to do and doing them. Like completing this letter for your Mondaymorning, editing all the work we’ve done and adding critical details and power where it feels necessary.  And really using this technology that I have asked for all my life. I can hand write with a pen, talk, or type each goes digital, spell checked and ready to share . . . . . Each adds new ideas and experiences to this note!

Likemy journal from high school still in my Great Grandmothers Trunk, sharing thoughts and communication is how I evolve, this is what I’ve always done!

90 was wonderful experience! This was my first exodus 90. This was my 1st men's group. This was my 1stmen's fraternity. I was doing regular exercise, I was biking to church. I was doing yoga with the sunrise, I was swimming. My morning experience with God was shifted up to another level.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word. '

We are always with you, ready to guide and help with every step. It's not so much a challenge or conflict to pull you out of step, but more an opportunity to create more and share more at a deeper level.

I’m not sure what I'm doing. I cleared up my back yard to have the men's group over again. But made no effort to remind anyone about it. I did build a big fire, and it’s getting chilly so I'm really enjoying it now. But I'm really ready for bed.

What a wonderful experience to share with us. You really go out of your way to love the moment, and enjoy everything that appears before you. You rarely are concerned about the details, and simply accept whatever we suggest and place before you. Like now you have been alone in your house for several days working on this Witness Writing that you have prepared. And again now as you share the insights we have for you now. You begin to feel and experience deeper thoughts and feeling about what you can share in this witnessing.

What jumps out to me is to WATCH, LISTEN, PERCEIVE, ATTEND, CLEARLY FOCUSED, READY, AND SLOW . . . To my passions MANGROVES, GARDENS, PLANTS, PEOPLE, which feels like 

USF RESEARCH, PATENTS, TRUTH.

1.         CHURCH        ????? = is really defined as the loving relationship in Jesus, Father, and Spirit
2.          SCOUTS            ???? = is about loving my neighbor, teaching children and families
3.           CLEAN HOUSE   ??? = is about loving me, my space and all Jesus has given to me
4.            CLEAN OFFICE     ?? = is about loving my responsibility to care for all these loves
5.             USE OFFICE            ? = is reinforcing these loving responsibilities above
6.              WWW.      = is really about teaching, and publishing all the above . . . 

IS THIS MY NEW FULL TIME JOB, six days a week for Jesus: each one of these needs to be DONE every week, and every day. I’ve been trying to focus 3-4 hours daily to each one.

         SCOUTS, HOUSE, OFFICE, 

w/             CHURCH    A real foundation

I realize again that I’m starting over. And so I did my everything today but swim. I even did two sets at 12 exercises, instead of 24 like I finally did last week. I attended to the mangroves, added another branch in there next to them to hold onto. Then everything I heard and read in the gospel and in the liturgy, all remind me of who I am again! Yes, I got the same message over and over again! I know it’s about what I have to do! It’s always about what I have to do!

Now my work days have been defined. And if I did one of these tasks in one day every week, I’d be done with everything within a month or two. I mean really focused and clear on the one task. 

What did you figure out?

I can plan 4 hour blocks, or three hour blocks. Each day I can plan to do “X” for three hours. . . Or let’s see 5-6am Exodus, JoyFM Pods and prayer at 6am doing exercises and getting up clear and focused. Then bike to Beach for 7am sunrise. . . Mangroves, and swim to get back home by 9am?

Friday, Saturday, and/or Sunday will be 8am mass.  Then Tuesday its 630am Mass till Men Fraternity at 730am.  Hum, maybe Mass and the Rosary then too? So then Monday, Wednesday, Thursday is 8-9am office work?  Garden Works? Might be best to do seeds, and watering first thing. 

We have to make sure you eat lunch too. So gardens, mangroves, church and all ends at 1200 noon, where you can read or PBS for lunch. And then get into your office next. It’s best for you to get started there early. And then do house/office/yard cleaning before bed. That would mean you can get a shower and relax before bed.

I get it 5-8am is god and health, 8-12 is mangroves and gardens, 12-3pm is office works, 3-6pm cleaning, and 6-9pm is the Examin with God again.

What about scouts?

I can get into scouts or teaching as a four hour block once or twice a week. Like Exodus 90 on Tuesdays shifts things a bit. Whenever I have a scouting event or something to do with Carol, I can make that a four hour block, skipping the office or cleaning once or twice a week.

We have to say you have come a long way. It’s important that you take each of these tasks seriously. Remember your time with Emily. Whenever you scheduled a four hour trip to the art show or river to kayak, you were very clear and focused preparing every detail.  Nothing was more important than that time with your daughter. 

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to Achieve YOUR GLORY!

usually totally perplexed

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What have you done now. . . 

It was kinda weird, as I was preparing for another Court Hearing Justin asked me to leave! What? Yes, he had really planned for an intern, not a PhD. The tasks he was giving me, were all canned, where he wanted the boxed versions updated, no new thought, no new insight, just get the job done so he can bill for it. All focused on the cash flow, and not interested in developing something that’s real and lasts. Course, I can only build stuff that’s real and lasts, so the incompatibility came out again and again. 

Interesting as it was, he asked me to leave the day before I had a full day of hearings. Perfect timing to bring clarity and focus to court. What a joke court was. I did say specifically how the whole thing was a show, like a comic strip that anyone with common sense could see through. . . . Except the cop, who always thinks he knows better and must be right. Catherine pulled it off and I was NOT GUILTY, so it’s all just crap on my record now.

Now with the police negligence, bankruptcy, foreclosure and tenant fraud it seems like I’ll be in courts full-time for a while. AS odd as it seems, in the middle of it all last week, I got a call from the DEO who told me they had more COVID funds for helping homeowners in Florida. I told her I already had a foreclosure notice, and she said they could expedite it all. WOW?! I told her my monthly bill, and then the total due after the forbearance. . . “Expedite” in government usually can mean a week instead of a month. . . Or a month instead of a year. . . Which feels like I’ll be getting another call this week.

What did you feel with this.

Yes Jesus, I again felt the endless Blessing of You Providing for me! I did cancel my last mortgage payment. I mean why pay them anything if they already gave me the foreclosure notice.  That means with my last check due in today, I’ll have almost $10k cash.  I’ve lived a whole year on less than that before. So I am more fearless than ever. I’m still fighting my “dad’s program” that the “man is in a job 5 days a week.” It’s not been easy for me to let go of this, and I still apply and ask for another job almost every day.  But I also realize you are leading me into something very specific and strong that I need to do.

What else would we be doing. You know that’s been your place all the time. Now more than ever, you need to decide and create your place in all of this.

I know I’ve been clear about this and working diligently to do whatever I find needs to get done. Like I rewrote the Exodus 90 “Why Statement” with Kevin and Dick, who both provided direction and insight for this. I even have written it out on my wallpaper picture for my iPhone and this iPad:

 

We love that you have your favorite pictures set there in the heart as well. Each time you see this you have this flutter of joy and peace so grateful for the memories and experiences that you created and shared with so many.

I sometimes wonder if that was the best I ever could do and it’s all downhill from there now.

We have shown you countless times how much you change and influence all those around you. There is a lot of power and focus in these experiences that you have and whenever you share and witness to others about the events and blessings you have seen it moves mountains.

I just never seem to know which end is up. Like I push for work, or school, or home, or STARS, or something else. Each time thinking this will be my next fifty years or at least a year or two. I try to stay present and focus on replying to the real issues that appear before me. And suddenly everything shifts again? I always try to stay present and recognize that I’ve got more important things each moment You show up and ask for something. I mean, I’m usually totally perplexed and never seem to know what possible goals there are, wondering what this could be about or what You could need next.

We have always been pretty clear. Knowing you can get through anything is always a big advantage. 

I get it. But I’ve done the fort, and family, and business, and school! I’ve taught classes and guided instructors and even Guru’s. It’s just weird to consider that I’ve got more to do. Yes, I know its more that no one else is doing, or more something that others can’t address or understand.

We have you there where you need to be. Stay slow and steady, everything is set for this next shift we are all needing and wanting.

I get it.  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to guide and lead me to fulfill all that Is . . . . 

create things that surprise me.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

We have told you the same things, hundreds of times. You still think there is something else you have to do, or something that you need. You haven’t really ever “needed” ANYTHING. It has always been given to you. You have always been blessed and spoiled. Countless generations of people who were equally gifted have exploited and gotten lost. Over and over again we have done the very same thing. Each time we get closer and closer to the deeper truth and more powerful experience where men trust in God to provide, and each time you all get lost.

…yes it’s always been LOVE and Relationships to emulate Jesus Christ and create more love, respect, and peace, for JOY in personal interactions. Your ability to share and offer up your Grace to others has always been a place of power for you. Yes, fearlessly as you have known and seen things beyond, so much further than people ever see or understand. Nothing has slowed you down. Nothing has impacted your abilities. Each day you grow and learn more. Each day you fearlessly step into more power and focus in service to your fellow mankind.

I am always going to step into something more. It’s what you created inside of me. I have always been able to see opportunities and create things that surprise me. I never know where I'm going of what my next step will be, but I'm always ready. I guess I need to go to USF and visit a Dean or two. 

God does not set up commandments to make us miserable. Breaking the commandments is what makes us miserable. God loves purity because it reflects an inner reality of right ordering, peace, and love. Jesus calls us to a place of holy detachment. We must fulfill our duties and make use of the things in this world, even as we remain fixed on our true home and our deepest need - - Love with God. Sated with pleasure and material things, we become too distracted to ask the honest question of Jesus: what do I lack? Jesus will answer if we ask him sincerely. He can point out the attachments that bind us and which we try to keep hidden from him. He can lead us to see into our soul and find him there, waiting for us to stop, listen, and enter into a deeper union with him there.

It feels like a struggle to keep up. So much of my world seems out of hand. Equally, I am totally perplexed by some events and circumstances that just show up. I recognize I need to get a lot more focused and clear about my desires and intentions. I recognize things are going to be getting easier and more things are going to be flowing and falling into my lap. I need to recognize this and allow myself to be more focused on what I really need and what I really want to see before me. Like knowing that the Dean’s truck is going to be there before I drive over to the college, but never considering whether he’s going to be in his office or not. That was totally idiotic, because his truck was there and no one was in his office. I need to get a lot more clear on how my future is going to unfold because Jesus wants me to be in charge, and really ask and seek the things I want to see before me. 

What if that is really what this is all about?  That the changes around everywhere were all started by your desires that are so strong and clear seeking to bring the Love Of Christ out more fully.

I know it always has been, Recognizing that it’s God’s desire, and God’s plan that is inside of me, which means it’s all about love. And I’m just the lucky guy who asked the right questions at the right time to step into these circumstances. As opposed to it being about my personal desires or insecurities, it’s always about love and relationship; leading and guiding others to find this love and relationship with Jesus. I recognize that I’m stepping into more and more every day. I guess that’s nothing new. I also realize that I am in the right place at the right time to shift everything, I guess that was my intent to start with. 

I wrote another Apple feedback notice and just bellyaching about all kinds of stuff. They haven’t done anything yet, and then of course the next day I had upgrades on everything. I really like how they put the period in automatically in the sentences here as I speak. Of course, as I say that, they skip a period. So it’s really kind of funny that sometimes I need to say “period” and sometimes I don’t. I guess is the new thought that separates things, nope. . . Still almost random, their AI is learning my style still.

What Happened to you this morning?

I started reading, Chapter 5 in the Welcome book. It is about: “what if;” it’s all real with Jesus. And I realized that it is. I guess, I’ve always known that anyway. But understanding that everything He said is still real, brings me to a deeper relationship with him; because I see, feel and know:

1. How everybody is still alive because Love is Eternal.
2. How we will all last forever, in love.
3. How it is love growing and creating more God all the time and it’s all about love.
4. Easy Peasy: God is LOVE, and Love is God!

It’s really like the gold mine that nobody knows is there, because they all think and believe the BS sold to them by the system of greed and control. It is really such a total challenge and opportunity for me to step into all that I see and have before me. I guess, it's really all I've prepared for all my life anyway. Everyone knew I was up to something. Like all my life I had this secret, that I never could explain or fully understand. And again everything in my life brings me back to this same place, what will I build, what will I achieve, what will be next for me. And what is this really all about.

What is before you has more to do with your own deeper desires than anything else. Your love and passions have brought you here, you experience deep love and joy in each thing you do. And you constantly share and invite others into this space with you.

Yes, I know it has all been planned, and I recognize how often I experience De-Ja-Vu! Seeing, feeling and experiencing things that I’ve done, created or imagined before. I recognize how this is ever present. I feel Your Joy and Delight in the actions and steps I take to fulfill anything before me. It’s always such a blessing to share with you. It’s always such a wonder to try and keep up, to try and listen, to try and fulfill whatever wonder You set before me.

We have done this a lot. You have been very successful in just stepping into this truth that appears before you. It’s never easy to follow and listen.  That faith is so important and central to the growth and development you have been experiencing.  Such resounding faith is a wonderful Love that is ideal for everyone to strive for.

I realize that these higher forms of love are very important for us to move forward and make the progress we need.

WE have been here and shared this before. You need to remain fearless and ready to step into your place of comfort and security. Each day you will have new opportunities and challenges. And each day you surpass these more will open to you. More clarity, more understanding, more freedom. Everything is about you stepping into who for really are and what your place needs to BE!

What is before you was created and designed by you, for you, above you. . . As LOVE

I know. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ,  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Amen

speak of life before

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What are you doing?

I’m reading the witness guidelines. It talks about a AD and BC the year of the Lord Annio Domino and then BC  Before Christ? Why is one part Latin and the other part not Latin, it doesn’t make any sense to me. They want me to speak of life before I encountered Jesus, and then speak about my encounter with Jesus. And then how my life has changed after the encounter, which I do every day in a new encounter with You.

Yes, Jesus is always here encountering. He’s asking me to do more. Showing me how to do this, teaching me how to do that. It’s really kind of fun sometimes, because we get kind of goofy. Like when I made that meatloaf. I never thought of making a meatloaf before, but it was just so spontaneous and clear how much fun it was, where he just led me through it. . . Course I missed a few things, as I’m still learning to listen better. . . 

I know Jesus loves doing things and being very present, here and now in this experience. I don’t seem to be able to share that with anybody though. Nobody seems to understand me when I talk about it being so present and real. I started to pray at work and it’s really just funny. I mean, instead of holding my hands up in the prayer pose. I’m holding my hands down and peeing… lol… but it’s interesting how my energy and disposition shift so much. So I make sure I do it every day, now 2 or 3 times a day.

I also noticed that I have more guidance and strength in my workday. It’s different when I’m at home because then I could just chant my “Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ,” like I’ve learned years ago. But at work, it’s more focused on getting something done with my active mind, instead of just trusting the spirit to guide me.

I know that’s what I need to do everywhere, it’s just trusting spirit to guide me. Like learning about welcoming, trying to figure out how to talk and share is the challenge.

All your lil "friends" who let you sit in the comfort of your bad habits don't love you as much as the people who dare to challenge you to be better.Am

I know it’s always about the Word!

What is before you, will become more clear every day, as you move forward and step into things that you are not accustomed too. You have always been able to smile and stay at peace through some of the greatest challenges and confrontations. Now you will be moved through so much more. 

I just Love Your Word! And yes, I’ve noticed you are getting more specific and more demanding. I know it’s never demands, but you are very clear about what I need to be doing and when it’s appropriate for me to do different things.  

What about yesterday, what jumps out to you?

I remember when I knew I had to get out my pressure washer and clean up my back yard. The Word, was so strong! Oh course, then I realized that I had no gas, and had to drive out to get some gas. As I was pulling out, I felt . . . . lol, or “heard” how I needed to go right down to the Shell Station, instead of left to Wawa’s. But I was already heading left. So I turned out on 16th and again ‘heard’ turn right to Shell. 

What you did was very strong and clear. You still went left and got into the turn lane, using the excuse that you were in traffic and already moving in this direction. But again you heard our directions to go to the right. And you even asked us specifically. And as the left turn arrow came on and the traffic started moving, you noticed no one was on the other side turning. So you quickly turned right in front of all the traffic to go in the direction we asked.

I thought that was so weird, but I accepted Your Word! As I went down to 9th Street I thought I might have missed an accident the other way, or maybe it was someone before me that I would see. When I got to the intersection, I turned right again into the 7-11, instead of Shell on the left.

What did you see or feel when you started with the gas. . . ?

I was thinking how I might need to fill all my gas tanks. Like something would shift and we would be out of gas soon. What an interesting Word to feel as I filled my 4.5 gallons! Yea, a 5 gallon container, but overfilling means I spill it. Something else similar happened when you told me to put my chicken soup in the freezer. I felt like it was all the food I needed through some nasty things before us. . 

What was next?

Oh i filled my tank and drove out, turning down 21st Ave and headed home, then 12th Street to 20th Ave. . . And home in no time. I really didn’t noticed anything more, and waved to someone walking or something. I try to do that everywhere, all the time. It’s like something important for me. . . Always greeting my neighbors. Like my ride to the Mangroves has befriended a bunch of people, including some who recognized me from church. And Now again I’m leaving early enough to bike down to the Sundail and Chant, as well as visiting my Mangroves . . . . We’ll see. . . 

I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to achieve all you have set before me today ;-)

 I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

He knew he was ready too. . .

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word ! Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to achieve YOU WILL!

What about tomorrow. . . . 

I am meeting with the Deacon for breakfast again! It’s my turn to buy. . . . Of course, I just sent him a test now, saying to be hungry tomorrow, so I can buy him a big breakfast. I always wanted to invite John too. 

What happened now

I crashed this app again. . .  I think it tried to put too many picture into it. . . I copied the messages to my kids and my anchor to john. And I posted it all here, oh except the videos. And I realize that I’m going to blow the doors of it all.

I mean 

It’s just so obvious how things always fall together. I can see it happening more and more all the time. It’s just such a neat life I’ve got, that I never seem to really understand and I’m always so grateful and experiencing. . . I wonder what it’s all about sometimes. But them I’m totally perplexed how awesome and incredible it all is. . . . 

What about the movie?

It ended with Jesus going in Jerulsum to die! And it was so cool, as just as he is saying his last words to everyone and leaving . . . MY SON CALLED FaceTime on my iPhone. . . WOW, I jumped up, fumbling with my phone? Not sure, but I lost him, or what I did, but then just recorded the scene on the movie screen. . . Wow, it was just really cool. Like Chris knew I had to record this. . . 

When did that happen before?

I was meeting with an engineer in the office! And my phone rang, and l looked to see I was 5 minutes late for a hearing. . . Lol, it was Domain Homes calling about buying another house. And I was so grateful to get out to my zoom call. . . I sat online with the zoom hearing through TWO MEDIATIONS, before they asked that I cancel and agree to dismiss it all. . .

What about the next morning?

I know, I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

I went into a Code enforcement hearing too. They wanted to fine me $500/ day for having Airbnb people for less than a month. . . So I was ready. . . Had my leases, and all my other violations. . . . In my suit with a black leather case of data. . . Lol. . . Bury them in BS. . . 

Then they told me it had been dismissed!

What? Dismissed?

Let me talk to someone.

So the guy in my neighborhood came out. . . So I started with my story and list of violations. . . Like the parking in the front yard, that was really in the alley. Or the Urban Agriculture when I could show them the rules, they never read. . . .

It’s was funny 

As the guy and I spoke, he recognized me.  And admitted he had done the alley with me. . . We laughed and talked more. So then I thought the hearing was all about meeting and connecting with him. . . And complimenting him on his work, encouraging him to move up in the city. . . 

I asked if he had been promoted already I always have more to talk about and where to the right and it’s interesting how things happen h

He knew he was ready too. . . 

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Each day you are getting better

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! Yes I know when you ask me to write, or stop and review what I’ve written it’s not about editing or adding to the lost post but to create new one. 

What came to mind immediately with this?

Yes, I know it’s how annoying it always was for me to write in a book, or journal! I just wanted to open and write. I didn’t want to find the last post and read whatever, to find the place that I left off. It would really just annoy me. I remember for years telling you that if you wanted m to write. Then always open my journal to a clean blank page. I really need to get back and read all my old journals….

What is important is that you created this to express this Divine Experience and Guidance that you are!

I get it! Wow, that’s a bit presumptuous. I hate writing things like that.

What is important, is that you do!  Each day you are getting better, clearer, closer and more focused than ever. Do you see how easy this has become for you to get back into the truth and power that you knew alone in the woods. You really have no idea how many times we had very deep powerful experiences.  Recognize how God has been and always is. Everything here was created and established over years, centuries, eons. And daily the resources and opportunities to bring GOD HOME, are closer and closer. While equally the snake gets more and more desperate to stop us.

I know! I see them both all the time.

What do you mean, you seem to see everything, but the snake. You recognize he’s been beaten, and fearlessly just follow what you are told to do. 

I know! And it’s really a struggle sometimes as so much gets crazy around me. I never seem to know what I am doing. And I constantly get pulled into new things. I think I have my weekend planned and hope I can get to the art show and concert this weekend. 

What you need to remember is that you are doing what you need to do. And this means, that you are given rewards and benefits to honor your work.

I get it. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

there’s a mountains so your climbing

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What happen now?

I realized how I have never prayed for a company before! It’s like I’ve always sort of known that whatever I set my mind to would be felt by everybody. It’s something that has kind of annoyed me over the years, where I decide to go to Burger King, or where ever. And the place is empty all week long, but the moment I decide to go there, the place is jam-packed full of people. That has happened to me so many times that I’ve realized it’s better not to plan to go anywhere, but just wait until the last minute and turn in, because then nobody knows I’m coming, and nobody arrives until after I do. 

It’s really sort of just one of those challenges that you have. Like if you know you’re a mountain climber and these mountains show-up, and you cant help stop to climb all the time. And then it’s just common knowledge over there’s a mountains, so your climbing it. It’s never question. It’s just something that I’ve learned. So I realize now that I have a new life, and a new job, and I knew everything. That when I pray about it and set an intention for them to do better, it only increases this that I already know. 

What about this makes you so insecure?

I’m not sure if it’s insecurity. But I do recognize that it’s intimidating. I almost feel like I should warn people. Uh-oh, I wrote a review for you. You better watch out. It’s not like any surprise to me.. I mean, I almost take it for granted, that it’s inevitable. Of course, now I wonder about my company and my church.

I’ve noticed that my neighborhood has exploded too. I guess, the whole city exploded, when I moved in. I mean like, four new high-rises started when I moved to this city. I think three of them came from the company I was with too. It’s just funny!

What Surprises you about that, since you’ve seen it all your life anyway. What’s the big deal?

It’s Not a big deal, but just something I need to be conscious of. I need to be careful what I focus on. Just like wanting to go to Burger King and recognizing that I can’t put that energy out or else the place will be packed in no time.

What else did you feel like you had to do?

I guess, I realized how I need to be teaching. I mean, I watched this PBS nature show tonight about whales and the guy doing the filming. Who wanted to talk to the whales. And he was talking to whales, but he didn’t realize he was talking to whales. So the whales are sitting around waiting for him to say something and he doesn’t know that they understand him. It’s just so bizarre how naïve people are, but of course they’ve been programmed by the machine to disregard everything that’s real. All they can understand is what the TV tells them.  I know it’s all changing, everyday… I found him online of course. Then I told him how easy it was to learn to talk to animals and shared the Turtle Story with my son. . .  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Dear Jesus, how do you expect me to move forward? I’m tired. I’m stressed. You keep giving me more, more, more. I don’t know how to keep above water even. I’m just tired. I am stressed and I can’t keep up with all this. Let me sleep please, please, please, let me sleep Sleep, yes I know so 8 o’clock and I need to get to sleep. I try to get to sleep early and I can’t. I can’t sleep at all. I have to. 

clear and comfortable going

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word ! Ah baby changes everything. so I realize I’m a little kid again playing with the toys. I always wanted in my whole life. Well, I guess I made it myself because there’s only one life here. So God created God for God.

We just haven’t figured this out yet so we think we’re going to set an alarm wrong. wow what is your incredible as hell? I am perplexed by all this technology, and it just keeps coming at me from every direction. It’s like another world that I live in. And I know I serve so much to do. I know I gotta get up in the morning then I can swim, what is the Weeknd doing and I almost 40 hours this week . . . 

I love this experience so much. I’ve got to get more done, every day!

It’s going to get intense again. I can feel it coming. I guess that’ s

I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, sing hallelujah, sing hallelujah to the writer of the words. . . On TheJoyFM.com @ 10:23 12/7/23

What are you doing now? 12:42 11/23/2023

I can’t even count how many holidays I’ve spent alone! I’m always grateful for this experience with You Dear Jesus. But I never understand the next steps. You are always pushing me for more, and then you feed me so well and take such good care of me. Like now, I cooked a pound of Shrimp. Yes, cleaned wild shrimp, with my hot salsa. And I keep hearing the wine. 

What we are saying, is sure have some wine with your lunch. It’s part of the celebration of being clear and grateful for this experience and gift before you. 

I’m always stunned by these gifts from You! I’m not sure why being alone is a gift. I know I can sleep in the hammock out in the sun. Or Bike around the city to see if anything is open, or anyone is around. I really don’t care, and would rather go to sleep in my bed or in the bathtub full of epson salt.

We have told you before, that you were getting ready for a lot. And you have recognized how important your own reconciliation is in this process before you.  

I get it, and it’s all steps in the process! And I realize being alone to chat with You is also part of my process.

What we have set before you is to get you more “religious.” Yes, religion beyond the spiritual energy you feel and live is the conscious connection to others in love and respect. Religion is about the church and community. Honoring traditional principles opens more clarity and freedom in your spiritual practices. As you are finding with SEEL, the experience in your own exercises allows a stronger more focused relationship with everyone around you. These exercises and challenges bring you closer together in spirit and love.

I get it. I’ve sat on my magnetic mat before the alter to rest in my room. The breeze through this house has really been awesome. I’m cleaning out my office and resetting things all around as I go. I replanted some mangroves and found more seeds to plant. The seed beds outside have been scavenged by a rat, squirrel or mouse! I’m not sure what to do but replant, tend, and keep trying. It’s weird as I never have had so much house in my life. And it’s all to myself. 

What you have is a gift from your mother. You set of mothers who have all passed to share this time with you. It’s always about you growing, and forgiving, and learning, and sharing. Everything is about you stepping into a stronger place of love and freedom.

I get it. I’ve got to get my truck fixed, and it’s not going to be any fast easy process! Nothing ever seems like a fast easy process for me anymore. I guess I witnessed to the Men’s Welcome Group and that was easy as I wrote up an outline and stepped into all the different aspects. 

What about this brought you closer to reconciliation?

I guess it was recognizing how I’ve always gone through these cycles with you. Working hard and strong in something specific you set before me and then completing some major aspect, where I’m given some extended period of peace and quiet. Sitting alone now, makes me wonder what the next step into some major challenge will be. I know that reconciliation will sorta clear the slate between us.

Yes, this is what it is all about. You need to leave behind all the demands and challenges you created in New Jersey. Yes, you were a Prodigal and came back for very specific reasons. Bringing forth the child you had invited into your life was important, and the efforts you made around them set the stage for so much more. This was completed, and you have moved on. Releasing those limitations you demanded to keep you focused are necessary now.

I get it. And I’m not sure how to make this work for me.I know it’s about the reading You have set before me, both in SEEL and in Welcome. This reconciliation is both about seeing my sins, where I stepped down from the virtues and gifts of the spirit. I see and recognize how lucky I’ve been in maintaining my “cardinal virtues” of prudence, justice, fortitude, and temperance. And I seed how these gifts have been my strengths for a long time. Standing strong with a family filled with conflicts and struggles. Sure I was abused, insulted and humiliated most of my life. And it seems that this strengthened these virtues as I continued to grow and express myself through all of these.

I have acknowledged how these challenges of youth were a big part of what made these elements so strong for me. And now I’ve been lead to open the Ignatian Adventure book that I’ve been reading for SEEL, and this verse put me in tears. Luke 7:47 “Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven—as her great love has shown. But whoever has been forgiven little loves little!”  And this feels like the many gifts I’ve been given. And again I recognize I Have so much to be thankful for, and again I wonder what could be next for me. 

I’ve had my truck stuck at the office for the last few days. Yesterday, I called around to check about getting it fixed and found someone who understood what I was dealing with and knew my truck ready to fix it. This morning I biked to work and called my insurance company for a tow of my truck. They told me about the same price as I heard at work. And I’m confident it was be working fine when I get it back. It feels good to get my truck fixed. I’m still perplexed by everything I have at hand. I try to stay in my spirit and focused about my tasks and goals. 

I’m tired of having strangers in my house. I’m not happy about this, nor do I respect those who are taking advantage of me. It’s really gotten annoying. And I know I need the extra cash, but I’m tired of it. I’ve been wondering about selling my house. I know I could get almost twice what I paid for. I mean my deposit was enough for a new truck and a new airstream camping trailer to live in. I wouldn’t have any cash left over for gas or anything. But I honestly considered it, just to escape all that I have around me now. 

Now again to sell my home means buying the biggest, best truck and trailer with cash for gas and travels lasting years. Not that I need to escape anything, or dealing with my mortgage or bankruptcy or whatever I have before me is completely crazy. I’ve always been able to come out ahead, and I know Jesus always is watching out for me. I never know what could be next and never seem to care. I mean, Jesus always has these challenges that show up and I’m never ready and always surprised, but still end-up ahead or winning whatever it is.

What this is, is the prudence, justice, fortitude, and temperance that you spoke of before! Stepping into things requires these steadfast and immovable which prepares you for more. As You have read and heard before to those with great gifts, are given great responsibilities. 

I’m in pain and frustrated, my keyboard on my iPad is not working anymore. Which really sucks. I do have to much to do.... More just cleaning and taking care of things around my house. I love this house. Maybe because it's filled with my mom or maybe because it's be such a wonderful gift from her. I don't like being alone, and I don't feel I can do anything productive here. It's really annoying more than anything. 

I have always been loving and productive all my life. And I feel like it's brought me here, but this is nothing but being alone and feeling sorry for myself.

What did you do today?

I Finished my confession and rescinded all my demands that I placed for you when you brought me back as a prodigal. It is with Father Jonathan, who helped me all along. So I was clear and comfortable going through everything that I’ve had to confess. Thank you, Lord Jesus I love you.

What this does is open new things for you. You’ll be able to experience more and understand more because we won’t be as limited as you had made it before.

I know its about starting a new life and accepting my responsibility at a new level because I know you have so much more for me to do and I’m a young kid again so it’s gonna be fun

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

never write those words, because I don’t know how to spell them

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What this is about is making the next step easier and faster for all.

I get the feeling that the world will soon be crazier than ever.  I met with another professional leader, and shared too much. As crazy as it seemed I included my complaint to the student aid office and then I received this notice discharging it all completely. It was as if I had set the energy into motion for resolution as I planned my meeting, and the energy of resolution itself was enough to bring the issues to conclusions, far beyond my own desire or need to present or address it again myself.

This reminds me of Kim’s comments about our new roof, when Christopher left Florida. It was obvious to her that I was somehow protected or living a life in a different world, where money and support for all my efforts and desires simply appeared. This is a similar effect, as I’ve started to write here several times before I really said anything.

We have always told you that this world was some sort of playground for you. You simply have been here from the very beginning and choose to do and accept challenges and responsibilities that most people can barely understand or conceive of. You have always been an instrument of change, very necessary and powerful changes beyond your own understanding. Often like the ripples in a pond the impacts on the edges are far removed from the source.

I’m still not sure what that means, except as we are all still the one same electron that started everything here. But I am getting more comfortable with my regular routine. I know I need to get into a regular health and exercise routine again, before I could do anything significant, but I don’t really know what that means. Anyway, it’s clear I’m getting prepared for something so much more. I’m always getting prepared for something, sometimes it feels like just trivia. You know, like another new bike for another road trip or something else I don’t consider significant. Even meetings and conversations seem trivial sometimes. I really don’t know how much shifts from one moment to the next, while people seem so surprised sometimes.

What we love, is how you dance between, learning, sharing, growing, and teaching others, the here now you stopped to send praise to Apple, who still follow and learn from your writing and works.

I’m always perplexed at how each week I seem to get another Apple Beta upgrade and another nightmare vanishes. Like, the AI they use now is knowing what I want to write, when I cant spell or write, never having a clue what needs to be shared. And now again, I can talk to the screen as much as I write to the screen, and then switch to the text, or switch to the pen, or the typewriter and go back-and-forth randomly, which is insane. I just laughed about it, because I’ve written for so long; and have been so frustrated with the pen, and so frustrated with the notebook, and frustrated with the computer, frustrated with this keyboard, but now I can switch randomly. It seems so random and easy, allowing me to share what I need to share, using which ever methods are easy and preferred from one moment to the next. Clearly showing me how I must continue, not missing a work, or stopping a moment, knowing the pen, and mic await when I can’t find the correct keys to type.

What that means for us is that we can do a lot more as well. You’re not intimidated by speaking for us. You can type very quickly and you can talk even faster. And when things come out wrong, you almost wonder whether AI or someone else understands something which is teaching you something. Everything just flows for you and you allow it to flow. This is your blessing. This is your power. This is your purpose. Every day another planet shifts because of your words. Those around you have no idea.

I hate how that sounds, it’s just so arrogant or prideful; and really what’s funny here, is that I would never say those words, or never write those words, because I don’t know how to spell them, so I avoid them, but now you got them out as i just allow Your Flow! 

What is more for you?

I’ve been asking for more wisdom and more guidance all my life, but what’s more is recognizing that I need to do this where I feel I’m most confident. I guess that means I need to seek Gods wisdom in guidance at work. This is where it feels like I know what I’m doing all the time. If I recognize that I’m back doing the same work that I did when I first arrived at St. Petersburg, except now that I’ve shifted from Eric the Methodist to Rafé the Catholic and all the work is the same, then I need to recognize that it’s a spiritual shift as well. Like today Ron called, where he wanted to come work for me again, after he got laid off and went to the county, while I got laid off and biked for four years. So now working together again might be totally crazy. Or it might really be exactly what we both need to be doing. . . Doing more!

What about this surprises you?

I guess it was weird that Ron called today, and more so that he’s coming for an interview on Friday. I guess I can accept this as the next step before us!

What are You doing now. . . 5:39. 10/24/23

I AM starting over again. Tomorrow is my SEEL meeting, and i thought to read over what we’ve done! Of course, my very first meeting started with my clear statements about following the guidance of Jesus and “creating a new life, community, passion and experience.” I realized I was starting over and know it will be wonderful beyond anything in could imagine.

Last night Rick was very clear that Saint Ignatius’s exercises were in a sense magically encouraging us to ask for more. What, me? Ask for MORE? How could I ever want anything more. I’ve already been given more than I could dream, and the idea of “more” just seems too preposterous. But as I spoke to Rick and remembered the call from Ron. MORE was present and stronger than ever as I recounted my recognition of starting this New Life. Rafé the Catholic was back Moving Rivers and setting up city infrastructure to love and hold the waters of life. And now Ron was back as my intern who I was training, and now is prepared to step into everything I could ever design and dream of.

What’s more, is as incredible as it sounds, Ron has been at the county learning and growing and now has been trained in all the latest tools and techniques, that I need to shift everything we are building before us. And he’ll be there on Friday ready to start, and I’ve got a long list of tasks coming into my head each moment. So not only is Rafé ready and stepping into this new life of more before me, but the world is bending to meet me there . . . . Giving me everything I could ever imagine, AGAIN!

What are you reading now. . . 

Yes, now again, as i reread the first week’s SEEL exercises, we need to begin each Prayer period with a Prayer for a singular Grace: “What do we desire” What do we want during this time of Prayer? Moreover, naming what we want also helps us to open up to receive the expected and the unexpected gifts of God. Each week I suggest a certain grace, but do not be bound to these words or a specific grace, but allow your praying for grace to flow from your heart….

This morning in Mass, before the Saint Raphael’s Mens Group, I felt deep into the Spirit. I have always recognized that the Power of Christ and the Spirit is strong and easy in Church. It’s much the same voice and vibration I feel and carry with me all the time. . . While Church is just more powerful. When Father Curtis got to our prayers, where we all support each request for our Church and Community by saying “Lord Hear our Prayer.”  Then he stopped in silence for us each to add our own in the silence of our hearts, and I said “More for Jesus”

We started this first week asking to be more aware of how God is near, to trust in God‘s personal care and love for me. Starting with Isaiah 43 one through seven; Luke 12:22 to 34, Psalm 23, Psalm 131, Psalm 139 one to 18; then back to Isaiah 43 one or Psalm 139 and review your journal, remembering Key Graces, and give thanks to God for them.

I knew the next week went into how God is still creating, always creating, always moving us forward, always sharing love and guidance. I guess that’s my challenge with “more” as asking for love and guidance is really nothing new or more at all.  It’s like asking for breath, while I'm breathing all the time, so what’s the point of asking for breath? I guess that’s my challenge with asking for more,”more Jesus,” or More Love, is really like asking for nothing at all. I’m blessed and grateful for all the love and Grace I receive every day. I also recognize that more is about stepping up into my BEINGNESS.

For unto whomsoever much is given, of him shall much be required; and to whom men have committed much, of him they will ask the more . . . From everyone given much, much will be required; and from the one for whom more is provided, all the more they will ask of him.

I AM again brought into this space of more. And I’m challenged beyond recognitions as I prepare for another hearing. The homeless drug addict who lived in my house with her son, or husband, filed assault charges and had me evicted from my own house. Today the public defender has submitted a motion for dismissing the case, since no one can find the drug addict. Everyone involved, including many of my neighbors who witnessed her, know how she created a scene to avoid paying rent. She essentially had two months here for free. And scared or intimidated everyone who came near, essentially guaranteeing that no one new came into the space to pay me the rent I needed for the mortgage.

What this brings forth is how the state supports drugs users. She was obtaining drugs through a state program, and then buying more to support their addictions. Stealing and lying to obtain further state food stamps and benefits that allowed her to continue. When people learn these loop holes in the system and exploit them, it really hurts everyone, those who really need to services and those like you who are needlessly impacted.

I get it and wonder how my own trauma and challenges have prepared me for these issues before me. And then to see how I’m meeting with Ron who wants to come work with me again. I hadn’t considered this before I spoke to Rick who clearly confirmed so much more had been given to me for such a strong experience.

What about making this the change you need?

I'm here with you now; and know I’m ready to step into the power and grace you have give to me. I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.