have learned this very important

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word, I love YOU so much. . . I helped Dan setup everything for recruiting people to our Welcome Weekend. He was setting up pictures and signs and redecorating and I was finding easels and boards to help him. And I was reminded of my mom and how the art and decorating was always sorta spontaneous and looking to see what fits and what looked best. 

What did you tell him about your mom?

It was kinda neat, as I said how my mom did little art classes once a week for me and the kids in our neighborhood, which fascinated him. And then he asked me where she started. And I said how she started with the basic shapes and how to shade them with the pencil to make them look three dimensional!  It was kinda neat, because I remembered how everything else we draw or sketched begins with basic shapes… a round head, triangle nose, oval eyes. . . 

Life’s journey: https://www.intouch.org/listen/radio/the-characteristics-pt-1  Knowing Jesus, allows others to feel this living presence… 1) Divine life: sealed with Holy Spirit, Christ reconciles man to God … brings the Holy Spirit living inside us, as our body is the temple of Spirit, 2) Life Purpose: always walk in will of God, 3) Life of Faith: trust God in all aspects of life, 4) continued surrender to God’s control over me, 5) life in joyful obedience, 6) life of prayer and praise in silence, 7)

Isaiah Chapter 1:18 and I'm listening to Charles Stanley again. Yes this above is what came through to me this morning and now after attending three seasons of mass today, I am back home again. I had arrived early and made a pot of coffee and then drank most of it myself, yes Dan shared it with me. We spent the morning recruiting for the welcome weekend. And again I was able to witness and inspire people to sign up. I video taped welcome brothers presenting today too.  I will go again this afternoon to record another. I really have so much to do and really feel great about all I need to do.

That if you consent and obey to Jesus in faith, I have reserved the best for you. Where you are wealthy in Jesus.  Trust and recite Gods best. 

So I have this crazy experience I’ve just talking and sharing my life with some Divine experience. I always thought it was talking to Jesus or something else. OK I’m sorry. I’ve come to know. It is talking to Jesus. I always thought I was talking aliens. Or talking to the trees. Or talking to some other Spirit that was around me all the time. But I’ve come to realize it was always Jesus.

It’s very clear and specific. Always telling me what to do and what not to do. Really gets very specific at times and completely throws me for a loop.  I know right now, that it’s important for me to share whatever I need to share. Yes, I’m just talking to my cell iphone now. I thought I was gonna write on my iPad. But I’ve actually been recording bike rides. It is really about the timing, He gets the strongest. I guess it’s really when I listen the best. When I’m out of my bike, it’s just me and Jesus, nobody else around. There’s nothing to distract me but the breeze in the wind and it’s just me in Jesus.

So now another day and another struggle and I always stumble over myself trying to figure out what I’m supposed to do. And he’s very specific and he’s always very clear, to do this, to do that and I try my best and I’m always feeling guilty about missing something.., !?!?!   Like you told me to go shopping for groceries today, I’ve been running around all day long. I just didn’t feel like it. So when I got home, I realized there was nothing here for me to eat.

What About letting us talk too? 

I OK, that’s wicked intimidating!

Why?

I don’t know?

What If we told you that we’ve been waiting for this forever. Would that matter to you? You’ve really done some incredible things already. You don’t even notice when you do things so far out of the norm. You really have always been that way. We always wonder if it’s you being humble or naïve. Like Kim telling you about the roof totally surprised you. However, that was what you did all the time. You have constantly just stepped into things and carried them through. That’s what you’re doing now.

I get it, yes I get it, what do I need to do now?!

What about letting us talk some more. We really wanna allow this to flow to another level. You Need to let go of your fear. You know that you’ve always been carried through. You always let things happen at the last minute. You also understand that that level of surprises is divine, it always has been.

I ! Guess why that’s why Kim was so surprised?

What Happen was that she just couldn’t accept it. Helping you to reach your divine nature wasn’t what she came here to do. She wanted you to accept being part of people, part of family. She got you ready for the Catholic Church. You never would’ve respected a fraternity and been able to deal with men if Kim hadn’t come in.. . . 

I know, it’s really incredible, everything has been incredible. I like talking to my blog now. The text is too small for me to read on the iPhone. I say a sentence and watch the letters pop up. The right number of words come up. I did OK, and now it gets better and better every time

We told you this was created by you, for you, about you. Do you know there’s only one life here. We’re all in this together. Period. So every day you do something that affects everybody else that’s at such a level that you don’t understand. And you really don’t need to understand nor do you really care. You’re very responsible and follow through.

It Still catches me as crazy.

What Do you think, it wasn’t possible without it getting crazy. How crazy were your dreams about the garden of Eden? Do you remember, that’s what you wanted to do was go back to the garden. You always wanted to be in the garden. You always felt like it was where you belonged. You wanted to see what it felt like. You wanted to be there with us in peace and joy all the time without the struggles.

I know the struggles are about learning. If you teach me everything anyway when can I find an escape from the struggles?

What you have learned is very important. Being able to talk to your phone is wonderful. Being able to share this with us is necessary. Each time this phone shifts the letters and the words fit better and better. You can learn to do this all the time

I need To find peace.

What else is there, You are always at peace. When he tells you to do it, how he tells you to do it as much of it as he tells you to do it, as long as is necessary to do it. That's what obedience says. The Christian life begins with faith in Jesus, and is then marked by obeying God.  

I know, I always have so much more to do. And I trusted that I’m being guided with everything I do. I’ve already spent three hours this morning In prayer and meditation talking with Jesus and trying to figure out, where I’m at, what I’m doing. .  . It feels like there so much beyond my control, but I know Jesus carries me through everything. Stepping into a new day is really a challenge and a blessing at the same time.

.I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

really a challenge sometimes

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! I’ve been doing the Prayerline again. It’s wonderful to share with so many people. Of course, I get some people who get rude or unreasonable. It’s sad sometimes how arrogant people get. Where our authentic self developed skills through real experiences with Christ Jesus to bring us our strength and spiritual identity in Christ. I guess it’s important to stay in my truth and understanding that I know.... And also allow others to hold their own perspectives independently even when I know they are false lies twisted in evil.

10:45am 7/13/2025 What is important is to share and follow from where your truth is this very moment. Today you were excited about helping Joe with the welcome table but then after speaking with them for a while, you felt out of place and left. You really never spoke at all, but only listened into their conversion a bit. 

I really thought I was coming home to Work, but now feel more that it is time to share! Then I heard Larry's children were here and I was ready to go out and find something to do with them. Yesterday we vacuumed up the kitchen and cleaned the floor. This time we pulled out some old bikes and got them working. So we rode around a bit and then Larry come out with us and took the kids on a longer ride somewhere. When they got back I was digging in the dirt and his daughter came and helped. They are really good kids and always want to help me with chores and such.

https://youtu.be/5sTsF6Ikw5M?si=BD6IgzcyHiiYE60C All Catholic institutions, whether it's a hospital, it's a school, it's a university, it's a seminary, it's a parish, whatever it is, the primary purpose of it is to evangelize. What makes a Catholic institution Catholic is it's declaring the lordship of Jesus and inviting people to share his life in the church . . . . That should be the dominant ethos of the institution that affects every aspect of the life of the place.

Bertrren Russell felt mathematics is the ground for our belief in the eternal. . . . I think mathematics introduces you to a higher world. Indeed, a world that can't be seen. It's not a world that is open to sense perception. When you sense the meaning of the number seven or 7 plus 5 equals 12 or the quadratic formula you're not in this world of ordinary sense experience. You moved into a higher world that is indeed eternal. . . . 

Now, you can go further and talk about angels and the soul, but start with elementary mathematics that introduces you into a higher spiritual world. That's right. It gives us the concept, the truth that something can be real and immaterial at the same time. . . And there it thereby refutes materialism as an ideology.  Now similarly looking at science like you’re a biologist or you're an astronomer or whatever you are, in the scientific realm you're looking for an intelligible pattern, otherwise the science won't get off the ground. If the world is just chaotic nonsense or it's just one random thing after another, Science couldn't have predictability, you couldn't draw conclusions, you couldn't confidently predict what might happen. Science rests upon the assumption that the world is radically intelligible. That's a religious idea. Again, we say God has created all things. That means all things are imbued with some kind of intelligibility which has come from a more primordial intelligence.

Catholic school has that keen sense that nothing in authentic science could ever be opposed to religion because they both come from the same source, namely from God, who is truth. We see it's so importantly when Jesus says, "I am the way, the truth, and the life." He's not just saying, "I'm a person saying true things." Any prophet could say that. Yes. “I am the truth” and we can see He Is the logos made flesh. We say therefore all logic, all logos and the sciences all deal with logos intelligibility.  They're all related to Him. He's the center of the sciences. He IS the Alpha and the Omega of the sciences. Freud understood the dynamics of the mind and I would say the dynamics of desire and sees that religion corresponds to the deepest desire of the heart. So we all have desires for different things, right? We seek various ends. But through all those and above all those as a kind of trajectory and lure to all of those, there's the great desire for God, for ultimate truth and ultimate goodness.

What happens to our fallen hearts is that we're seeking God in all the wrong places. We're at war with ourselves. But that war should lead you to finally know and surrender to God. The beautiful is just as true propositions and true things in the world point to the truth ultimately of God. So all beautiful things speak finally of the source of all beauty. So the humanities of course should lead you to a consideration of God. As all Word, and all Truth is of The Word! Christ as logos. I would say is the purpose, is evangelization, right, that's declaring the lordship of Jesus, who's Jesus? If he's one teacher among many, then who cares? Have teach about him in in philosophy class. But if he's the logos made flesh, then He must pervade all of the logical enterprises of a school. Jesus must pervade the whole of its life. It's the ethos of the logos that makes it all work . . using those two Greek words. If the ethos of the logos isn't there, then you've lost the narrative that permeates the entire institution. Yeah. You've lost the narrative.

 wow. . . so much so fast. . . I get it, that I'm learning. . . and each day I need to accept what shows up. 

What comes before you will stretch you to new limits. And you will be able to move forward in Truth. You have all you need, trust it!

I  love the Word in God. And I’ve found myself in silence and in Jesus more and more all the time. I thought He wanted me to speak and share with Saint Mary and Saint Joseph, but Jesus really likes my attention. It’s so neat as He wants to share and be engaged in everything that I do. I’m lead to stop and pray all the time… it’s funny sometimes I’ll jump up and head downstairs or outside before I know what I’m doing. 

Yes Jesus, I’m outside now, what do I need to do? It’s really a challenge sometimes. I know I need to do so much all the time, and my schedule fills up and gets more intense. I’ll stop and relax with solitaire or PBS, and instead now, I’ve started reading the Bible and Saint Ignatius or Saint Augustine! 

What is important is this private time we have together. You see and witness this power and focus very clearly. Accepting this is critical, you have gifts abounding. Accepting and fulfilling what is immediate for you is your place and time now.

I am sorry, I’ve missed things directly before me. It’s important to accept my place more clearly. I’m perplexed again, here awake waiting for the Prayerline, 4:38am and that’s not working today?  I’m not sure what to do… I saw all their links yesterday and can’t find them now…. I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

close to your word as possible. . .

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

I always feel so blessed and guided in everything that I do. 

What are you finding?

I have found that I have been led very clearly all the time. I’ve been bringing Jesus into my space more and more all the time. I realize this is so much beyond what I share and talk about each day. Like since Christmas I’ve been really focused on my son!  I remember talking to him about this year being his 33rd birthday and talking about how at age 33 Jesus came into His Passion. 

What was his reaction to this? 

It was really a surprise for me. He spoke about having no interest or belief in Christ Jesus! I was perplexed, explaining how for his first ten years of life with me and his sister, we were bathed in the beauty and joy of Jesus. I always had this Divine Experience and exceptional opportunities everyday, as their mom Colleen, would give me the children and almost vanish whenever I was home.  I was completely alone with them for countless hours,k which was why the divorce didn’t affect me. I still saw the kids as much as ever, and she wasn’t there at all, instead of just hiding. . .   I have since realized that’s where the experiential education developed, because taking care of the house and family was really my responsibility, which the children shared in immediately; starting in the baby pouch, and then the toddler backpack ,they were with me as I did everything.

With Christopher’s Christmas confession, I realized that I never explicitly spoke about the relationship and love of Jesus as it was really what children meant to me. I know I’ve written stories about Being the Prodigal Son, who demanding a Fat Ram for my Party returning to Christ. And then Maryanne had aborted a child without even telling me while I was still in High School. And I can’t even count how many times she was pregnant after that, or could have been, finding a red lump in the toilet with each new ovulation cycle she had. So then returning to Jesus, or accepting my new knowledge of my Fat Ram coinciding with my Dad moving to Tampa, made it crystal clear that my next step in my evolution was in Tampa going to college to support a family and babies!

I knew Tampa was about Children so to build STARS with Chuck and Jack was another complete blessing. Restructuring education was something I knew was needed before children anyway. And suddenly I was graduating and immediately married who I was with, knowing it was time for children.  When Emily came out after 20+ hours of labor, and she was all blue, and rushed to the NICU. WOW, another powerful wake-up call for me . . . Time to get serious about a BABY, GOD’s Gift to me, an awesome Angel directly from the Breathe of God and Jesus that moment. . . WOW, WHAT MUST I DO NOW?  More focused and clear than ever before.

What is remarkable here, more than anything is the power and truth we saw in your WOW Statements above, that you really just breezed over here, but actually feeling the power and focus over and over:

• Wow, you survived a 90mph motorcycle accident at age 16…
• Wow, you are a Prodigal Son returning to your place WithGod…
• Wow, you have this awesome Fat Ram… Fine, Barbie Doll Goddess . . . 
• Wow, you have a child taken from you …

• Wow, you have children anxious to be in the next stage of your life…
• Wow, you have been called to Tampa escaping the chaos you created in NJ…
• Wow, you have the Best of NJ helping you to reform Education in Tampa…
• Wow, you finished schooling and have a first child, wow,
• Wow, your first child is almost lost with no breathe and you are ready at age 26…wow,wow,wow,

• Wow, your whole universe changed in 10 years . . . . From Death to Life in only 10 years! And now suddenly you have this little angel with her wings trimmed needing you to bring her into her next place of Divinity. And you knew this, deep in your soul. It was very obvious and clear to you, even confirmed by your mother who brought HER MOTHER to see and share this Divine Light you were now caring for. . . Three Maria’s spanning four generations right there before your eyes.

Yes, and I know this whole “Wow” exercise is about me learning and accepting my place more and more everyday. . . I gotta tell somebody, I need to share this. . . !

What are you waiting for?

It is so very intimidating! I know I’ve got all I could ever imagine in my hands. And I know I need to stay as close to Your Word as possible. . . 

What does this really mean?

I know, so I called Kevin! He had just came back home from a trip last night and was able to get on the phone, as everyone else was still asleep. So he really was so wonderful to chat with. Very specific and clear about whether I am in Judgement or in Love with my son . . . . Which was really what Chris was asking about too, when we had a FaceTime call, while I was in the Welcome Team Meeting Wednesday night. And it’s really important that I just Love him and hold onto the truth that we share. . . . And I guess what is really important is how Chris was again exploring more relationship, more experience, more understanding and more dialogue with me. He didn’t invite me to their wedding. . . Which I can’t blame him, since I know Paul and Colleen will be there and that would be dangerous, as it was for Emily. It’s really kinda annoying to me, but I guess someone has to be mature about it.

What is important now is to keep the doors open and listen and share as much as possible.

I guess it’s interesting as I met with the Friday Men’s group.  Roy was there again, as he was in the Welcome Team Wednesday night and the Exodus Rosary in the morning too! So I decided to email him today, asking him to support my work elsewhere. I mean, I saw his name and picture in one office I was visiting last week . . . So I felt like he could help me there.. . .

What did you do now?

I sent Kevin and Jack notes about Jack’s work as a Guardian ad Litem. I really just asked Jack if he’s doing anything in St Pete, offering to help him and give him a free place to stay. As crazy as it is for me, Lisette checked-in too. She just returned from a trip and as I writing to Kevin, I got a message from her asking if I’m ok.  This community at Saint Raphael is just awesome. They are all connected too, like last week when Jim asked me to lunch, I had just replied to someone else from church.  It’s almost like they plan to all hit me at once. 💕❤️😇👍🥰

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.