learn to rely first on prayer as we strive to live in freedom

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! I was in tears again. My random readings and lessons are all connected more powerfully than ever. The last was the Ignatian Day 3 speaking about the Annunciation . . . Where the lesson assignment was so specific about the experience. “Imagine the sights, sounds, and smells of the scene, when the angel Gabriel greets the young woman. Listen to their conversation.”

We do have so much fun with these things. And you certainly have a lot going on to step into.

Yes, I know! So the Reading today for the Consecration to St Joseph was Day 15 about how the man needs to be the lead of the family. Which is really why satan has been screwing men up everywhere. Divorce and drugs, porn and LBGQT craziness, and the constant poisons and plastics destroying all the hormones and all. So these reading with St Joseph included another piece: 

Yes the House of Loreto is Mary’s Home where she was visited by Gabriel. So it was eight more pages about this house, and where it is now, and how it was moved by Angels three times. . . . I mean, it’s kinda random that I’m doing SEEL and Exodus together. And there are several men who have. But then for the Exodus Fraternity to do the Consecration to St Joseph is a bit much. . . But the synchronization and alignment of these is just so so completely perfect as I am still in struggles with my home and income and everything.

I mean I started with the Exodus readings at 4am, then for the podcasts on theJoyFM.com by 5am. . . Read the Stanley Page, then the St Joseph, and finished with Ignatian. So to read about this house being moved by angels, and all the popes and saints who visited it and experienced healings there, is just a bit more intense than I can understand. I mean to “Imagine the sights and sounds” when Gabriel Visits. . . And of course I have a more specific story to consider . . . . And it’s about the power and focus we find in someone's house . . . And again it really forced me to consider my own House-House and how blessed everything has been here for me. I completely struggle almost daily with different aspects. Like I've still not fixed the back gates that were through around my the hurricanes. I did clean the front gardens and got the backyard set enough for a bonfire. But now i've been cited again by the city because I put a bikerack in the front "right-of-way." Yes, I've been in trouble before for blocking the RW, so now it's all the pots and plants over two feet high that I still need to move.

What else happened?

I know when I started with Ignatian I knew it would go backwards. . . And the 4am wake up included a cramp in my leg:  

I had another crazy dream where I woke up and had a cramp in my leg. Yes, I jumped out of bed and I yelled and screamed for a couple minutes, and finally relaxed and went to the bathroom. Then of course, the first thing I did was plug in my iPhone and turned it on. And when it finally came on, it said 400, exactly 4 o'clock. I tried to snap a picture of it. I wouldn't let me snap and it tried three, four times, still it wouldn't let me catch a picture. And I knew I had to tell this dream, so I finally turned it on and started to talk. So now I'm sharing this dream. And I'm trying to remember this dream, and it was really, really powerful. It was really, really long, and I saw so much detail. And it was like I had gotten stranded at this. I want to say it was like a car lot, or a car garage. And the guy who came to help me, or someone came to help me, was in this little blue pickup. And all I remember was trying to find this little blue pickup. 

And so I had my cell phone and I was just wandering around, trying to find this little blue pickup. And someone offered to help, and we were walking around together, looking for this little blue pickup, and he rented a little scooter. And what was weird is that we'd would scoot along for a little while, and then he'd stop and shut it off. And like we stopped for ice cream, and he bought me an ice cream, and we're eating ice cream and he's not really concerned about finding this blue pickup. He's, you know, having fun, I guess. And it was really weird because I started getting annoyed that we weren't, I mean, it could take us 10 minutes to ride around the whole garage to find this little blue pickup. And he was just strolling around and taking his time. And finally we got on a scooter again and we started going again and he stopped for something else. He's like, oh, I’ll be right back. And he disappeared or left me with the scooter and disappeared for a few minutes, and it was just really weird. 

I started getting annoyed again and I was like, you know, let's just find this little blue pickup. It was so fucked up. I mean, I started walking down the street and going somewhere else, you know, seeing maybe I could find it on my own and I walked into this neighborhood. And this is weird too, because I started walking down into this neighborhood, and I was like, okay, I'm not getting anywhere. I'm going to get lost. And so I went back, or I started walking back towards the scooter and for some reason, I walked into this house and the house was like filled with dogs. 

Well, not really. Well, yeah, it was kind of weird because it was. I saw this dog and it was friendly and it was, you know, nice. And this lady was with this dog and she was kind of surprised that I was in her house. The dog was friendly, so she was friendly. And then there were two or three other dogs that came along and they like greeted me and I was, like you know, hey, I need help finding this little blue pickup. And she was more interested in how friendly the dogs were. And it was really kind of weird because, you know, the rest of her family came in, or showed up, and they were all fascinated with the dogs because the dogs, you know, were so friendly with me so quickly. And I guess that just never happened or something. And I was in this house and they didn't want me to leave, because of how the dogs were treating me. And it's really just weird. And she finally said, okay, I'll help you find your pickup truck. 

And we started going somewhere and she had another friend with her and you know, we were just looking around and, you know, going around. And then I noticed that my iphone was gone. And I realized that they had taken my cell phone. And her and her friend both had their cell phones chained to their pants. I mean, literally chained to their pants. And I was like, where's mine? And they like totally denied knowing anything about it. And that's when I woke up, I was pulling this phone out of her pocket, and it was chained on, and I don't know, oh, and she completely disregarding ever seeing my phone. 

And it just was a weird way to wake up, wondering, oh, where the hell is my iPhone? Where the hell is my iPhone? I can't get by without my iPhone. And it was kind of fucked up because you think that if I had my iPhone in the first place place, I could have called a Uber or something to find this blue pickup or I didn't need a blue pickup if I could call Uber or a lift or something. But it was just so weird, I can't believe that I woke up at 4 a.m. or I can't believe that was the first thing I needed to do was stop and write about this dream, which was just a weird, weird, weird dream, you know? 

And I keep remembering that first moment when I realized the blue pickup was going to get me out of there. And whoever I was with was like, oh, there's your ride. There's your blue pickup or whatever it was. And I turned around and it was gone. And I was like, oh, okay, I'll find it. And then I spent all this time trying to find it. And it was like this big complex. I mean, it was a garage, but it was like. hundreds of them, you know, all connected and different people working in different places and different, you know, businesses and I was just sort of lost in space trying to find this little blue pickup to go home. I don't know if that's what it was all about. It was all about just trying to get home. 

And I'm still recording, so I just keep talking because I know that if I have this recorder on that I got to keep talking or else it's wasted space and that's kind of makes me wonder, maybe that's what I'm always worried about. It's wasted space. Is that what I'm all about? This wasted of space? My house and my car, and my iPhone and everything is just taking up space. And it's all wasted space. And that's kind of weird to get from a dream about a blue pickup to explore the space. So I'm stopping this recording. As I know my dreams are always, they're always like, like Jesus trying to explain something to me that I'm not understanding. I have these experiences in my life and these challenges before me and these different events that occur. 

And the dreams are really sort of just random. I mean, I have dreams that come and go and I go through these real intense experiences and I always feel like the dream is like a secret message. And if I could understand my dream, I could understand everything I'm doing or everything I'm challenged with. And I never seem to be able to understand my dreams. I always am totally perplexed by them. And each time I have a dream, I try to write it down. I try to get as much detail as possible. And you think I'd go back and read them over and over and over again before I figured it out. But I never seemed to do that. 

And that's something else I noticed is that I never seem to really use my journal. I'm almost random about reading it. And or should I say I am completely random about reading my journal? Stop. I actually have to. I don't know if. Oh, I thought I said “stop,” and I wasn't sure if that meant that I shut off my recording or not. But I noticed that I only will read my journal when I get to the end of it. And I go back and I flip through it and I wonder about what I was writing and wonder about what the book is about. 

And I've got dozens of these books now, and I've got dozens of pages and I've got dozens of blogs, and it's all perplexing to me. Still to this day, it's totally perplexing to me, and I share things once in a while, and nobody ever comments on anything. I never have a clue at what I'm writing about or I never know why I bother sometimes. And it's just one of those things that is part of my experience. And so now I'm up to 12 or 12 minutes of recording. And so, I don't know. Time to stop…

I don't get it at all, as the Exodus was wicked strong too: I am created to do something or to be something for which no one else is created; I have a place in God’s counsels, in God’s world, which no one else has; whether I be rich or poor, despised or esteemed by man, God knows me and calls me by my name. I have my mission. Somehow, I am necessary for his purposes. I have a part in this great work; I am a link in a chain, a bond of connection between persons. He has not created me for naught. I shall do good, I shall do his work. O Lord, I give myself to Thee. I trust Thee wholly. Deign to fulfill Thy high purposes in me whatever they be—work in and through me. I am born to serve Thee, to be Thine, to be Thy instrument. Amen.

Reflection: Just like Moses interceded for his people before God, we, too, must learn to rely first on prayer as we strive to live in freedom and bring others to him. Every day, we are called to encounter the Lord in silence and lift up the people he has placed in our lives. !

We’re surprised you posted the whole dream recording. These tools of yours have really been set to transcribe things for you for years, and you’ve only played with it. Never really using it as you need to. Like the bike pouch you designed for your bike. It’s ideal for you to record your experiences and learnings, but again you’ve barely used it at all, and almost never go back and listen to what you recorded.

I get it, you keep giving me more and more to do and experience and record. And that constant theme is always there from Luke, those who are given much, much is expected. So I constantly try to do more things as you inspire me. I listen and follow the best I can and seem to get slammed all the time. I mean, I try to plant mangroves, and try to teach urban ag, and try to do ABB or whatever I try to do . . . It never seems to go anywhere. Like the engineering crap I’ve done. I seemed to just be teaching others, I bust my butt, and they copy what I do, and then they don’t need me any more. lol, seems to be what happened with UA and ABB too. 

What’s wrong with that, getting others started is great.

I know, but it sucks that I’m always struggling, and always lost! Fine if I help everyone and they are all growing and learning. And it’s great that you take such good care of me. But can I please stop struggling. And if I’m always going to be helping others find success, please let me live in peace and not always struggle. Yes, I know I’ve got it so much easier than many can dream of. But can I just stop the chaos and be at peace. I’m happy to always be giving, and happy to always see others fly, while I just watch. But let me stay at peace as I watch, and not struggle with my own security and be at peace while trying to help everyone else.

We have been asking for more details about your immediate needs and passions. Wha is your deepest?

I know, my Jesus is love with you, you KNOW I can only want you more fulfilled! I’d rather just walk to church every day. And or bike to an office somewhere that I can just teach, love and share whatever you give me in the new day as I can. Yes, it would be great to have kids again, and I’d love to be married to one of the goddesses you have placed in front of me. . . I mean, I did everything I could for both Maryanne and Kathy . . . . And then Kim I learned so much from, but she had already decided her plans long before I had any clue what was happening between us. 

This really happens all the time too. You love how much I can do and how I’ve always been above and beyond this weird culture on Earth, but family and community “means:” That I accept and participate with whatever culture I’m in.  Sure we are always changing everything. And You want to return to full embodiment on Earth, where everything shifts into higher vibrations again. So let’s just DO IT. How much more preparations do we need. I know we need to “live free from sin” FIRST!  And now most all these greed systems of sin are collapsing, and so be it. I’m thrilled to know you have it all set for us to rebuild. That's great and I’m always ready to help.

But please if things are shifting to another place, and I’m prepared for it, then let’s be done with it.  

What do you really want Son?

I want to stay in this House-House in this Catholic Community of Saint Petersburg, and teach, and share, and love all the You have given to me to the Fullness of YOUR PRESENCE here with us. If this is about me fulfilling the Dreams and Desires We have created TOGETHER, then Let's JUST DO IT!

What about asking for help? Do you think this is also a critical aspect of Being in Community. Is this aspect of bearing your soul something that opens you up to growth and learning at a new level. Asking for help and being honest with your peers and brothers is an important aspect of community and creating family and deeper respect.

I get it, and I know “Bearing my Soul to My Community” might be something that I've missed, or needed. I mean, I wonder if this deeper respect and honesty that comes with “asking for help” was what doomed my romantic relationships. If I don't connect or understand what it means to connect at this deeper level. I'm really not clear about what this is.  Asking for help is certainly something I've done before. . . I guess?  I can't imagine I've never asked for help? But taking this deeper, I remember last week when I was in tears crying for Your strength and direction to bring me through this craziness. 

Your Tears were after the readings above, as you started this blog post!

Oh, I'm now 8:24:27 05/15/2025 reading this again, , , and I’ve flashed to Mrs Michelson the art teacher in elementary school, like the Gym teacher too, they both followed me from Crescent Elementary to the Middle School. The Gym Teacher even transferred to the High School with me? As I remember. I must have really asked them “HELP ME.” Like what I felt now was maybe “Please, Mrs Michelson can I do ART all the time?” And last week with the Welcome Team Meeting here in my house, I commented about the ceramic bust my mom had, that sitting here with me now. Mrs Lemon in like 2nd grade, asked me to redecorate all her bulletin boards with each new weekly teaching she did. Like one of the few times I really worked and applied myself to school. So for Presidents’ Day I made all these busts, and the Team here all started talking about which president this bust could be, while everyone back then in school said it looked like another teacher Mr Dilli.,?!

It is now again with these Divine Synchronicities of Love that you dig deeper into your own passions and share your love more clearly in this blog post!

Oh, I'm not surprised . . . reading about Archangel Gabriel Visiting Mary in her family home and then the Angels wanting to protect the home, and moving it around to keep it safe.  I don't really think I've had many Angels visiting me. But I guess, since I've been here in this house, there was something that I wanted to change about my demanding concessions after my accident. I realized that my demands for no Angels or "any airy fairy" stuff, where I knew instead that I needed to receive very direct physical actions instead, like a stubbed toe, or a leg cramp! This was an extreme demand. I have since Prayed for Jesus to "remove" such crazy demands of my youth. 

Yes these were the demands about life and death, that I set into motion before returning to Earth, after my Motorcycle accident, which seem a bit odd to be discussing now. But I have realized having Messages from Angels is really a Wonderful and Honorable thing. Sure the Colloquies with Saint Joseph and Saint Mary have been incredible, as I've been learning more and more every day with these directions in the SEEL Course. So I guess inviting the other Angels and Saints to share with me now is more important than ever. . . Please Dear Jesus forgive me for making so many demands before returning to Earth as Your Requested. Thank you for all the Wisdom and Guidance You have shared.  Please allow Your Angels and Saints to visit me more regularly; and release all the former demands that I made in my youth. 

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

God shall supply all your needs

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! I am so blessed and happy about my experiences with you. This morning I didn’t want to get up. I loved just laying there listening to the rain outside. Course I had already done the prayerline at 4am, and turned on my sprinklers for an hour too. I knew I had a bunch of fruit and hadn’t made my fruit salad yet. I finished the last of my veggie salad yesterday and knew I had to cook all morning.

I did bring down my books to read with my breakfast. I have a Monthly magazine from Intouch, so I read Charles Stanley Daily as shown at right here. I also always listen to his morning Podcast. Even on the weekends when theJoyFM.com is missing it. Yes, I already heard the episode this morning. After Exodus 90 lessons, I just gotta do Stanley, its a good habit now. I also have the new week in SEEL and the daily reading in the Consecration to St. Joseph

What is neat was that this Intouch reading was all about kids. Or what the kids need to see and understand in Jesus Christ. . . Which is really weird for me now to read and learn, since I simply lived it, and my kids saw it all the time: Psalm 24:1 The earth is the Lord's, and the fulness thereof; the world, and they that dwell therein. Philippians 4:19 But my God shall supply all your needs according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus. Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.

I guess I still need to keep this in my heart as I move forward. Or I guess I DO, and just need to trust and accept this even when it’s a struggle or a challenge that I see before me.

What did the Consecration to St. Joseph bring to you?

I guess it’s more protection and peace. I know that has always been the place of the Father in the Family, to be the Provider and Protect the family. Here on Mother’s Day to read this piece really felt appropriate. I’ve accepted so much that happened with my own children. And I’ve been stunned again and again to learn how I was able to raise them in Christ. It’s just been a blessing for me to learn so much about my children, or find I was able to do things that are often recommended and encouraged for kids. Like I’ve shared here before. It’s really powerful to remember and experience what I’ve had.

What do you mean?

I guess, I’ve been in tears a few times reading and remembering things this week. I never really think about having children again but I certainly love the opportunity to teach and share with any kids I encounter. Like now Larry has his kids with him in my bunkroom.  They really seem to love the space. He said it was the first time they all spent the night together in years. I guess helping out a family is wonderful. But I’ve really not done anything special. . . 

What you have remembered and learned about your experience with your own children really should give you deeper insight to this current experience that you “discount.” Like when you read about the Ignatian Examen, and suddenly realized this was what you did nightly for nearly ten years. Of course, not completely since the first years did not include much discussion at all with the infants. But the experience you created by being with them each night allowed for this development. Similar to the “Savior of the Savior” piece you read about St Joseph. That power and focus provided by creating security and comfort has great implications beyond what is obvious.

I’m still stunned my son is not talking with Jesus all the time!

What makes you so sure he is not? He might be telling you this, but the passion and power he is finding inside has the same source. Just like the deceptions which he allows without confirming God by asking for the name Jesus Christ. These issues were the same challenges your mother had with you. She always knew you were protected and watched over, but then she also was careful to teach you key prayers and visualizations that brought through greater power in the Spirit.

I get it. I didn’t know you had so much to share today.

What about the rest of your readings this morning. Have you finished them all?

I still have to do the Ignatian reading with Week Eleven . . . lol, on May 11, at 3:07pm, where day one was Contemplation on the Incarnation. . . And now day two was a repetition. Considering how the trinity stepped into the Holy Family . . . Father Son and Holy Ghost embracing Joseph, Jesus and Mary. Seems really appropriate to consider this on Mother’s Day, especially with the Savior of the Savior readings. I’ve been pressed to trust and accept what’s before me. 

As part of this reading the question posed are about how this Divine Trinity sees the world now. And what do they dream. It’s really interesting to consider that now. I’ve recently written how I’ve always considered the gardens and development of Urban Agriculture in the local community as a new version of the Garden of Eden. Open and free, sharing all I produce and helping others to learn and grow their own. It really feels like an ideal to me. Helping people love and share with their neighbors. It’s really all that I’ve done since I’ve been here. . . I’ve even been able to teach others to grow their own and share in the harvest. 

Sure I’ve not produced enough to feed very many people. I let my arugula go to seed more than anything I ate. Now I’ve got hundreds of sweet little Everglades tomatoes growing everywhere. I’ve eaten dozens in salads and omelettes, but again feeding only myself and a few guests. I feel the model is sound. If I could get a dozen or more neighbors doing the same things we could feed ourselves. Or really just supplement our diets. The real food is important, but it’s only a small amount that could never off-set the tons of poisons we get from all the industrial foods we have. 

I saw some little clip last night about how the Queen of England only eats food she grows. They spoke about how most of the really wealthy never touch any of the commercial industrial foods. It’s obvious how much poisons are everywhere and to completely avoid it seems like common sense. I realize Japan is ultra careful about the foods they import and how much they limit everything to purely organic. 

What does this make you feel?

I really feel like I’m not doing very much at all. I was teaching people how to do it with the ABB guests, but I’ve had to stop this!

What about restarting the urban ag courses you wanted to do.

I know I could do more! I’m always pressed to do more everyday. I’m always perplexed that I’ve been able to get anything done as it always seems to be more and more every day.

What you learned about the experience with your children, exactly like Kim describing how you replaced your roof in Seminole Heights. . . Over one weekend, no quotes, no estimate, no comparison, just one neighbor helping another and it was done. And done in half the costs, in no time at all.  Yes, and Your children having such a divine experience that you really have no conception of. It was ever present and a continuous synchronicity. What they experienced each weekend with you was more divinity than most people see in their whole lifetimes. Yes, like the roof, you simply live in a space beyond what most people can understand. And like the experiences with your father, you have lived here all your life, so you do not even recognize that there is anything different than what everyone else sees and experiences.

I guess I need to stop second guessing myself and my impact on others. I always feel like I have no idea what I’m doing, but then I seen to always be doing things that are just remarkable. Like the Seminole Heights roof deal was just so far beyond normal practice, but I never even noticed. I mean, it wasn’t until Kim explained it all in detail that I had any idea what actually happened. I guess that’s what happened with Sharon and my Dad too, I only became conscious of the actually experiences and impact when someone took to time to explain it to me in detail. 

Which is why we always ask you to write everything. It forces you to consider what actually has happened and your direct experiences. The details and understanding still escapes you many times, but when you write these events you return and read and understand more all the time. It’s really about a transition and shifting the vibrations higher and higher. We have always tried and keep you informed about what is happening and you understand to a certain point. But this is always hanging too.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

important habits I need

What is more remarkable than ever, is how I can talk to my blog now. I can say whatever I want and it appears as text in front of me. I’m sure it might not seem like any big deal to you, but when I first started writing back in the 70s, such a thing was considered preposterous. “What do you wanna talk to a computer and have a write out the text for you?” What’s the use of having a computer if you don’t have to do anything. Just tell her what to do and it does it for you . . . 

Well, that’s where we are now. Does it make it any easier for me to share the love of Jesus?  Yes, I think so! Now, I just need to fix typos! And for the most part, it types out pretty close to what I say! I know that if I keep using it, it’ll get better and better at this! But then I am challenged to say whatever comes to mind. I should say, the challenge is talking as fast as I think. Or do I mean, thinking as fast as I talk?

I don’t know, if it is something like that! What’s really cool about it is that, I’m creating who I am, as usual. So why not write as fast as I can talk?? Or should I say talk as fast as I write?? Or was it something else? I don’t remember!   Weeee ain’t this fun. . . 

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What else would we create, but something to make it easier for you to express yourself…

I know it’s always about Your Word! And if I can write it faster and faster, then I guess it’s better and better. I’m always challenged by what you put in front of me. I know you always give me more to do. I always have more to step into. It is really kind of annoying sometimes. Like nobody else can do anything, where I always seem to get the weirdest things to do. It always feel that way, I guess

Why am I thinking this thought? 

What is the root cause for this thought?

Where do these thoughts lead me? 

Will these thoughts get me where I’m going?   Trust in God

Philippines 4:8 “Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.” Romans 8:6 “The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace.” We are now living in a crisis of truth, with the turbo charged gossip-mill on the internet pumps out an endless stream of lies. John 8:31-32 “If you abide in my word, you are truly my disciples, and you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

I started writing here several times already. Or I guess, I should say I have needed to, as I know you prefer to share the Word with me here. However, I was able to write on paper, where I even started a new book, and realized it’s my birthday in a week, which implies starting a lot more new and fresh in my life.

What are you struggling with?

I know that you provide and it's always about Faith in Your Word! I've seen and experienced so many gifts and synchronicities bringing me here to this place of peace and beauty. Everything is so remarkable and incredible that I never question or challenge anything. Yes, I have struggled to get by and always wonder what could be next, so now as my Birthday approaches and Matt tells me I might need to sell and move or worse. . . . I’m really totally perplexed and struggling to come to terms with this for myself. I’ve really never said this to anyone. Not my mom, or brothers, or anyone I can relate to or talk to. I’ve had several of these people show up in the last week and seemingly ready to share and wonder with me. But still nothing more.

What are we here for?

I know, and I’m sitting here in my room, comfortable and relaxed. . . I’ve used my pen, and now the keyboard. And I guess that means I’ll be talking to this iPad again soon too. But getting real about this experience with you, is really what it’s all about.  I know you always provide and protect, and it’s always about me sharing more with you. I mean, I’ve even noticed the birds and plants in my yard responding to me more. And the one sick squirrel I helped is around too. I mean, I literally have a collection of birds that hang out in my yard, and/or fly in to greet me every time I walk outside. Like that one Blue Jay that seems to get closer and closer to me each time I see him, especially as I’m always putting out peanuts for them.

What does this all make you feel?

I know, I’m always feeling so safe and blessed to be here. And then I’ve got a bunch of podcasts I do daily and bible readings, and added more exercises with these important habits that I need to bring into my space more and more. I mean, I even made that yummy espresso cup of coffee that Kevin opened up for me. . . It’s really all getting better and better every day. So to even consider some crazy changes really is absurd. 

What about your Faith?

Jesus I know. And I equally realize that those given much . . . Wow . . If you are given much, much will be required of you. If much is entrusted to you, much will be expected of you. Luke 12:48

What about your own intimate desires and prayers?

Yes, I’ve been very clear that I Love it here in my House-House! And I’ve been very generous sharing and opening my space and joy to others, even to a fault, where I’ve been exploited or taken advantage of. Could I have done more? Certainly, we all have opportunities and challenges for more. Have I been irresponsible? Well not really, there is always more that I can do and share and it’s always a challenge to address all the insight and inspirations I receive.

What does that mean?

I know, you fill me with this all the time. I always have countless experiences and insight every day. Like batten-down-the-hatches and hold-on tight, because we’re in for a rough ride. But you know the chaos I’ve been through already will make this look like a merry-go-round ride at an amusement park. And I know that that’s my challenge to always accept whatever shows-up. Except when I go back and read what I have written and what you always ask, it always returns to what is my real desire in all of this.

Yea, so What is it? 

I always really want to see our whole community like a family, where we all love and help each other all the time. No more fighting and competing, no More Bills and selfishness. People just cooperate and love and support each other, like we all were in one and only one family. It's really a vision of what it could be with you back here now in your Garden of Eden. Please just return us to the garden of Eden where we can all work and share in Your Love and Glory all the time.

What do you think you have been doing all along here?

I know, I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ Please bring me peace and security in my blessed House-House here in Saint Petersburg Florida where I can share and love all those that you send to me for Your Glory, Amen

another engineer called me to help him

Another engineer called me to help him VORTEX4LOVE, but I'm fumbling around with it all . . . seems weird, like I've gotten intimidated by what I do best. . . . or have done best. . . it's kinda weird, as I'm writing here with windows 7 on my MacBook that I setup to do dual-boot for getting back into engineering models.  So as I learn my place in regular exercises and prayers with Exodus and find myself welcomed into a wonderful Catholic Community. . . . I've got to get back into my profession as well. Or I've had these things open up for me simultaneously . . . Like the synchronicity of Kathy and Cincinnati; I try to be conscious of the alignment God Makes for me . . . and step into my place and responsibility. 

What about praying now?

I prayed for help to complete what is before me now.  . I know I need to get into a deeper place. As I studied about discernment and I recognized it was about the coherence and synchronicity of all aspects of my humanity at once.

What about returning to what you know?

I Uhg, and I get it . . . . but somehow I don't seem to be making any progress. . . . . And I've realized that my science and knowledge from my engineering mind also needs to be connected into spirit.

What about praying now for guidance and insights directly into the experiences you are having. How do you deal with Lawnmower challenges? Where is the constant Chant calling forth the guidance that you require?

There are so many things here that are out of sorts. I'm not really sure as I stopped to look at my watch for a second now, and saw 12:22:22 . . . this number is really a beautiful synchronicity in itself, and it adds up to 11. And simultaneously, I notice my typo above where I missed the keys on my keypad and just wrote "I'm not rea;;y..." instead of "really" and could you really tell if I had written "rea11y" instead. . . lol, see ll or 11. . .  So this synchronicity of my moment in time is more powerful than ever. 

What about praying now?

I get it, . . . you are really making everything easier and easier for me. Like my MacBook is jammed up again and I was searching in it to find what's taking up all the memory. . . And I seem to have downloaded hundreds of pictures from my iCloud. Yes, 300GB drive jammed-packed and 180GB of it are pictures and videos that I likely have copied somewhere else. . . uhg, quick easy clearing that space. . . 

What about praying now?

I need to thank you for this moment of sanity. I've really be pressed beyond all limits and I'm so tired of running all over the place trying to get a grip on what it is that I'm doing or need to do. Yes, I know it's more about Prayers and getting more personal and in touch with You. And I know it's a family thing. I need to get more focused and dependent on God. My friendship and desire must all be focused and dedicated to God. All the rest is insignificant and falls away. And to he that receives much, much is expected. So I share and support those who come to me and accept what I can offer. it's kinda interesting how this works where I'm pulled in different directions based on who shows up in my space.

We have a lot more for you. And again it's about praying for your desires, and priorities now?

I know, you want me to get more specific about my deeper desires. I get it. And the big challenge you place before me now is about bringing the love and joy I find in my yard and my bike out in nature with bliss; back into my office and my work. Or more specifically, to pray and bring the love of God, all the guidance of the Saints and Angels more into my intellectual practices as I have in the gardens. Wow this has been a challenge to even say, and recognize. it really does follow from My SEEL discernment studies, but to have the direct application slamming me in the face, is really not what I expected or planned for. 

What about praying about it all now?

I get it, I knew this would be a powerful season, as you had me copy such a specific phrase here into my blog, that really has pushed me to address the challenges at hand. Then of course, this blog is everywhere, on my MacBook, My MacPro, iPhone, and the iPads that I seem to have everywhere now.

What about praying now?

I get it, I need to now! Please Dear Lord Jesus Christ guide me to bring  your love more deeply into my heart and soul to achieve all that is before me for the Glory of Father, Son and Holy Ghost, Amen.

flowers coming up everywhere, it’s so beautiful

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What are you struggling with?

I don't feel like I know what I'm doing!

What about praying about it?

I know I've tried a few times! I guess I try to reason and think, instead of accept and understand. 

What you have been learning and realizing is how much you have already known and been in touch with so much already. Yes, it's about stepping into a new space, and allowing your own Spirit to flow at a higher level. Of course, it's intimidating, everything we step into that is new, can be intimidating, that's the whole point of the experience, to get you to grow and evolve into higher and higher vibrations of Love!

Yes, but what about having to earn an income and be responsible for myself?

We have shown you this before. It's about your faith and trust. Pray and get into the power that you know, allow it to flow through you, and make it better to move forward. . . Do you remember when you first started working, you knew it was time to get married and have Emily. But the whole world was stacked against you and you still pulled through. Do you remember how every time Colleen got pregnant, you would lose your job. You never thought those were related. Just like when Emily was born “blue” and rushed to the NICU. You were the first Parent she knew. Like when you sang to Colleen’s big Prego Belly. She always thought you were crazy, but to this day, Emily Still remembers that. And Christopher does even more, since you AND Emily would sing to the Colleen’s big Prego-Belly when Chris was in there.

I get it, and I try more and more every day. I realize everything is a blessing for me now. Last night the Church Welcome Team meeting was in my house, and we all ate and laughed sharing more and more. The Charles Stanley podcast in the morning was right on point too. So I shared it already with pictures of our event. - I even thanked Mark for the dinner he planned, where I had to get more chairs to fit his guest list. Yes ten chairs perfect for the Welcome Team.

Once again the clear synchronicities and coincidences that align with such percussion and accuracy, that the conception of Divine Grace is very apparent. Isn’t this the whole point of your writing. Haven’t you said from the start how important it was to write these events since they were so common and obvious that no one could deny the connection to Spirit. And more importantly the obvious Love, Protection, and Providence that was shared with you. What were the few places that you wanted to speak at your meeting, but never did. 

It was where someone mentioned a dream or a movie where he saw the bus ride to heaven. Anyone could catch the local city bus to could go and see the gates of heaven. He saw the Angels there were asking them in, but they chose to go back to Earth instead. It was challenging for him to consider how people would rather return to Earth than to stay in Heaven! So this scene stuck with him so strongly. And I remembered my motorcycle accident and NOT wanting to come back to Earth. Even demanding concessions to return, when I was told to return . . .!

Yes, and now you recall the “concessions” you demanded where still to this day, you stub your toe so rarely and seemingly ignore the deeper perceptions and wisdom. What was even more telling, was the reading in the Bible about God providing and recognizing the Joy and Bliss you felt when considering the birds and flowers that you love and care for every day. Matthew 6:25-34

I never thought about how God was providing for the birds “through me.” Nor did I consider the Joy and Bliss that I share and experience each day I wander through my gardens, handing out peanuts to the Ble Jays. I’m always Chirping at the birds, and then pulling the seeds of the flowers, to drop them in the same bed around there. I have so many of the same flowers coming up, it’s so beautiful.  I did harvest a bunch of tomatoes for the meeting, just since I saw so many in my front yard. Someone did eat some and commented how sweet and yummy they are, which is essentially my exact reaction as well.

I Love You Loving Lord Jesus Christ.