never write those words, because I don’t know how to spell them

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What this is about is making the next step easier and faster for all.

I get the feeling that the world will soon be crazier than ever.  I met with another professional leader, and shared too much. As crazy as it seemed I included my complaint to the student aid office and then I received this notice discharging it all completely. It was as if I had set the energy into motion for resolution as I planned my meeting, and the energy of resolution itself was enough to bring the issues to conclusions, far beyond my own desire or need to present or address it again myself.

This reminds me of Kim’s comments about our new roof, when Christopher left Florida. It was obvious to her that I was somehow protected or living a life in a different world, where money and support for all my efforts and desires simply appeared. This is a similar effect, as I’ve started to write here several times before I really said anything.

We have always told you that this world was some sort of playground for you. You simply have been here from the very beginning and choose to do and accept challenges and responsibilities that most people can barely understand or conceive of. You have always been an instrument of change, very necessary and powerful changes beyond your own understanding. Often like the ripples in a pond the impacts on the edges are far removed from the source.

I’m still not sure what that means, except as we are all still the one same electron that started everything here. But I am getting more comfortable with my regular routine. I know I need to get into a regular health and exercise routine again, before I could do anything significant, but I don’t really know what that means. Anyway, it’s clear I’m getting prepared for something so much more. I’m always getting prepared for something, sometimes it feels like just trivia. You know, like another new bike for another road trip or something else I don’t consider significant. Even meetings and conversations seem trivial sometimes. I really don’t know how much shifts from one moment to the next, while people seem so surprised sometimes.

What we love, is how you dance between, learning, sharing, growing, and teaching others, the here now you stopped to send praise to Apple, who still follow and learn from your writing and works.

I’m always perplexed at how each week I seem to get another Apple Beta upgrade and another nightmare vanishes. Like, the AI they use now is knowing what I want to write, when I cant spell or write, never having a clue what needs to be shared. And now again, I can talk to the screen as much as I write to the screen, and then switch to the text, or switch to the pen, or the typewriter and go back-and-forth randomly, which is insane. I just laughed about it, because I’ve written for so long; and have been so frustrated with the pen, and so frustrated with the notebook, and frustrated with the computer, frustrated with this keyboard, but now I can switch randomly. It seems so random and easy, allowing me to share what I need to share, using which ever methods are easy and preferred from one moment to the next. Clearly showing me how I must continue, not missing a work, or stopping a moment, knowing the pen, and mic await when I can’t find the correct keys to type.

What that means for us is that we can do a lot more as well. You’re not intimidated by speaking for us. You can type very quickly and you can talk even faster. And when things come out wrong, you almost wonder whether AI or someone else understands something which is teaching you something. Everything just flows for you and you allow it to flow. This is your blessing. This is your power. This is your purpose. Every day another planet shifts because of your words. Those around you have no idea.

I hate how that sounds, it’s just so arrogant or prideful; and really what’s funny here, is that I would never say those words, or never write those words, because I don’t know how to spell them, so I avoid them, but now you got them out as i just allow Your Flow! 

What is more for you?

I’ve been asking for more wisdom and more guidance all my life, but what’s more is recognizing that I need to do this where I feel I’m most confident. I guess that means I need to seek Gods wisdom in guidance at work. This is where it feels like I know what I’m doing all the time. If I recognize that I’m back doing the same work that I did when I first arrived at St. Petersburg, except now that I’ve shifted from Eric the Methodist to Rafé the Catholic and all the work is the same, then I need to recognize that it’s a spiritual shift as well. Like today Ron called, where he wanted to come work for me again, after he got laid off and went to the county, while I got laid off and biked for four years. So now working together again might be totally crazy. Or it might really be exactly what we both need to be doing. . . Doing more!

What about this surprises you?

I guess it was weird that Ron called today, and more so that he’s coming for an interview on Friday. I guess I can accept this as the next step before us!

What are You doing now. . . 5:39. 10/24/23

I AM starting over again. Tomorrow is my SEEL meeting, and i thought to read over what we’ve done! Of course, my very first meeting started with my clear statements about following the guidance of Jesus and “creating a new life, community, passion and experience.” I realized I was starting over and know it will be wonderful beyond anything in could imagine.

Last night Rick was very clear that Saint Ignatius’s exercises were in a sense magically encouraging us to ask for more. What, me? Ask for MORE? How could I ever want anything more. I’ve already been given more than I could dream, and the idea of “more” just seems too preposterous. But as I spoke to Rick and remembered the call from Ron. MORE was present and stronger than ever as I recounted my recognition of starting this New Life. Rafé the Catholic was back Moving Rivers and setting up city infrastructure to love and hold the waters of life. And now Ron was back as my intern who I was training, and now is prepared to step into everything I could ever design and dream of.

What’s more, is as incredible as it sounds, Ron has been at the county learning and growing and now has been trained in all the latest tools and techniques, that I need to shift everything we are building before us. And he’ll be there on Friday ready to start, and I’ve got a long list of tasks coming into my head each moment. So not only is Rafé ready and stepping into this new life of more before me, but the world is bending to meet me there . . . . Giving me everything I could ever imagine, AGAIN!

What are you reading now. . . 

Yes, now again, as i reread the first week’s SEEL exercises, we need to begin each Prayer period with a Prayer for a singular Grace: “What do we desire” What do we want during this time of Prayer? Moreover, naming what we want also helps us to open up to receive the expected and the unexpected gifts of God. Each week I suggest a certain grace, but do not be bound to these words or a specific grace, but allow your praying for grace to flow from your heart….

This morning in Mass, before the Saint Raphael’s Mens Group, I felt deep into the Spirit. I have always recognized that the Power of Christ and the Spirit is strong and easy in Church. It’s much the same voice and vibration I feel and carry with me all the time. . . While Church is just more powerful. When Father Curtis got to our prayers, where we all support each request for our Church and Community by saying “Lord Hear our Prayer.”  Then he stopped in silence for us each to add our own in the silence of our hearts, and I said “More for Jesus”

We started this first week asking to be more aware of how God is near, to trust in God‘s personal care and love for me. Starting with Isaiah 43 one through seven; Luke 12:22 to 34, Psalm 23, Psalm 131, Psalm 139 one to 18; then back to Isaiah 43 one or Psalm 139 and review your journal, remembering Key Graces, and give thanks to God for them.

I knew the next week went into how God is still creating, always creating, always moving us forward, always sharing love and guidance. I guess that’s my challenge with “more” as asking for love and guidance is really nothing new or more at all.  It’s like asking for breath, while I'm breathing all the time, so what’s the point of asking for breath? I guess that’s my challenge with asking for more,”more Jesus,” or More Love, is really like asking for nothing at all. I’m blessed and grateful for all the love and Grace I receive every day. I also recognize that more is about stepping up into my BEINGNESS.

For unto whomsoever much is given, of him shall much be required; and to whom men have committed much, of him they will ask the more . . . From everyone given much, much will be required; and from the one for whom more is provided, all the more they will ask of him.

I AM again brought into this space of more. And I’m challenged beyond recognitions as I prepare for another hearing. The homeless drug addict who lived in my house with her son, or husband, filed assault charges and had me evicted from my own house. Today the public defender has submitted a motion for dismissing the case, since no one can find the drug addict. Everyone involved, including many of my neighbors who witnessed her, know how she created a scene to avoid paying rent. She essentially had two months here for free. And scared or intimidated everyone who came near, essentially guaranteeing that no one new came into the space to pay me the rent I needed for the mortgage.

What this brings forth is how the state supports drugs users. She was obtaining drugs through a state program, and then buying more to support their addictions. Stealing and lying to obtain further state food stamps and benefits that allowed her to continue. When people learn these loop holes in the system and exploit them, it really hurts everyone, those who really need to services and those like you who are needlessly impacted.

I get it and wonder how my own trauma and challenges have prepared me for these issues before me. And then to see how I’m meeting with Ron who wants to come work with me again. I hadn’t considered this before I spoke to Rick who clearly confirmed so much more had been given to me for such a strong experience.

What about making this the change you need?

I'm here with you now; and know I’m ready to step into the power and grace you have give to me. I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.