have learned this very important

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word, I love YOU so much. . . I helped Dan setup everything for recruiting people to our Welcome Weekend. He was setting up pictures and signs and redecorating and I was finding easels and boards to help him. And I was reminded of my mom and how the art and decorating was always sorta spontaneous and looking to see what fits and what looked best. 

What did you tell him about your mom?

It was kinda neat, as I said how my mom did little art classes once a week for me and the kids in our neighborhood, which fascinated him. And then he asked me where she started. And I said how she started with the basic shapes and how to shade them with the pencil to make them look three dimensional!  It was kinda neat, because I remembered how everything else we draw or sketched begins with basic shapes… a round head, triangle nose, oval eyes. . . 

Life’s journey: https://www.intouch.org/listen/radio/the-characteristics-pt-1  Knowing Jesus, allows others to feel this living presence… 1) Divine life: sealed with Holy Spirit, Christ reconciles man to God … brings the Holy Spirit living inside us, as our body is the temple of Spirit, 2) Life Purpose: always walk in will of God, 3) Life of Faith: trust God in all aspects of life, 4) continued surrender to God’s control over me, 5) life in joyful obedience, 6) life of prayer and praise in silence, 7)

Isaiah Chapter 1:18 and I'm listening to Charles Stanley again. Yes this above is what came through to me this morning and now after attending three seasons of mass today, I am back home again. I had arrived early and made a pot of coffee and then drank most of it myself, yes Dan shared it with me. We spent the morning recruiting for the welcome weekend. And again I was able to witness and inspire people to sign up. I video taped welcome brothers presenting today too.  I will go again this afternoon to record another. I really have so much to do and really feel great about all I need to do.

That if you consent and obey to Jesus in faith, I have reserved the best for you. Where you are wealthy in Jesus.  Trust and recite Gods best. 

So I have this crazy experience I’ve just talking and sharing my life with some Divine experience. I always thought it was talking to Jesus or something else. OK I’m sorry. I’ve come to know. It is talking to Jesus. I always thought I was talking aliens. Or talking to the trees. Or talking to some other Spirit that was around me all the time. But I’ve come to realize it was always Jesus.

It’s very clear and specific. Always telling me what to do and what not to do. Really gets very specific at times and completely throws me for a loop.  I know right now, that it’s important for me to share whatever I need to share. Yes, I’m just talking to my cell iphone now. I thought I was gonna write on my iPad. But I’ve actually been recording bike rides. It is really about the timing, He gets the strongest. I guess it’s really when I listen the best. When I’m out of my bike, it’s just me and Jesus, nobody else around. There’s nothing to distract me but the breeze in the wind and it’s just me in Jesus.

So now another day and another struggle and I always stumble over myself trying to figure out what I’m supposed to do. And he’s very specific and he’s always very clear, to do this, to do that and I try my best and I’m always feeling guilty about missing something.., !?!?!   Like you told me to go shopping for groceries today, I’ve been running around all day long. I just didn’t feel like it. So when I got home, I realized there was nothing here for me to eat.

What About letting us talk too? 

I OK, that’s wicked intimidating!

Why?

I don’t know?

What If we told you that we’ve been waiting for this forever. Would that matter to you? You’ve really done some incredible things already. You don’t even notice when you do things so far out of the norm. You really have always been that way. We always wonder if it’s you being humble or naïve. Like Kim telling you about the roof totally surprised you. However, that was what you did all the time. You have constantly just stepped into things and carried them through. That’s what you’re doing now.

I get it, yes I get it, what do I need to do now?!

What about letting us talk some more. We really wanna allow this to flow to another level. You Need to let go of your fear. You know that you’ve always been carried through. You always let things happen at the last minute. You also understand that that level of surprises is divine, it always has been.

I ! Guess why that’s why Kim was so surprised?

What Happen was that she just couldn’t accept it. Helping you to reach your divine nature wasn’t what she came here to do. She wanted you to accept being part of people, part of family. She got you ready for the Catholic Church. You never would’ve respected a fraternity and been able to deal with men if Kim hadn’t come in.. . . 

I know, it’s really incredible, everything has been incredible. I like talking to my blog now. The text is too small for me to read on the iPhone. I say a sentence and watch the letters pop up. The right number of words come up. I did OK, and now it gets better and better every time

We told you this was created by you, for you, about you. Do you know there’s only one life here. We’re all in this together. Period. So every day you do something that affects everybody else that’s at such a level that you don’t understand. And you really don’t need to understand nor do you really care. You’re very responsible and follow through.

It Still catches me as crazy.

What Do you think, it wasn’t possible without it getting crazy. How crazy were your dreams about the garden of Eden? Do you remember, that’s what you wanted to do was go back to the garden. You always wanted to be in the garden. You always felt like it was where you belonged. You wanted to see what it felt like. You wanted to be there with us in peace and joy all the time without the struggles.

I know the struggles are about learning. If you teach me everything anyway when can I find an escape from the struggles?

What you have learned is very important. Being able to talk to your phone is wonderful. Being able to share this with us is necessary. Each time this phone shifts the letters and the words fit better and better. You can learn to do this all the time

I need To find peace.

What else is there, You are always at peace. When he tells you to do it, how he tells you to do it as much of it as he tells you to do it, as long as is necessary to do it. That's what obedience says. The Christian life begins with faith in Jesus, and is then marked by obeying God.  

I know, I always have so much more to do. And I trusted that I’m being guided with everything I do. I’ve already spent three hours this morning In prayer and meditation talking with Jesus and trying to figure out, where I’m at, what I’m doing. .  . It feels like there so much beyond my control, but I know Jesus carries me through everything. Stepping into a new day is really a challenge and a blessing at the same time.

.I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

really a challenge sometimes

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! I’ve been doing the Prayerline again. It’s wonderful to share with so many people. Of course, I get some people who get rude or unreasonable. It’s sad sometimes how arrogant people get. Where our authentic self developed skills through real experiences with Christ Jesus to bring us our strength and spiritual identity in Christ. I guess it’s important to stay in my truth and understanding that I know.... And also allow others to hold their own perspectives independently even when I know they are false lies twisted in evil.

10:45am 7/13/2025 What is important is to share and follow from where your truth is this very moment. Today you were excited about helping Joe with the welcome table but then after speaking with them for a while, you felt out of place and left. You really never spoke at all, but only listened into their conversion a bit. 

I really thought I was coming home to Work, but now feel more that it is time to share! Then I heard Larry's children were here and I was ready to go out and find something to do with them. Yesterday we vacuumed up the kitchen and cleaned the floor. This time we pulled out some old bikes and got them working. So we rode around a bit and then Larry come out with us and took the kids on a longer ride somewhere. When they got back I was digging in the dirt and his daughter came and helped. They are really good kids and always want to help me with chores and such.

https://youtu.be/5sTsF6Ikw5M?si=BD6IgzcyHiiYE60C All Catholic institutions, whether it's a hospital, it's a school, it's a university, it's a seminary, it's a parish, whatever it is, the primary purpose of it is to evangelize. What makes a Catholic institution Catholic is it's declaring the lordship of Jesus and inviting people to share his life in the church . . . . That should be the dominant ethos of the institution that affects every aspect of the life of the place.

Bertrren Russell felt mathematics is the ground for our belief in the eternal. . . . I think mathematics introduces you to a higher world. Indeed, a world that can't be seen. It's not a world that is open to sense perception. When you sense the meaning of the number seven or 7 plus 5 equals 12 or the quadratic formula you're not in this world of ordinary sense experience. You moved into a higher world that is indeed eternal. . . . 

Now, you can go further and talk about angels and the soul, but start with elementary mathematics that introduces you into a higher spiritual world. That's right. It gives us the concept, the truth that something can be real and immaterial at the same time. . . And there it thereby refutes materialism as an ideology.  Now similarly looking at science like you’re a biologist or you're an astronomer or whatever you are, in the scientific realm you're looking for an intelligible pattern, otherwise the science won't get off the ground. If the world is just chaotic nonsense or it's just one random thing after another, Science couldn't have predictability, you couldn't draw conclusions, you couldn't confidently predict what might happen. Science rests upon the assumption that the world is radically intelligible. That's a religious idea. Again, we say God has created all things. That means all things are imbued with some kind of intelligibility which has come from a more primordial intelligence.

Catholic school has that keen sense that nothing in authentic science could ever be opposed to religion because they both come from the same source, namely from God, who is truth. We see it's so importantly when Jesus says, "I am the way, the truth, and the life." He's not just saying, "I'm a person saying true things." Any prophet could say that. Yes. “I am the truth” and we can see He Is the logos made flesh. We say therefore all logic, all logos and the sciences all deal with logos intelligibility.  They're all related to Him. He's the center of the sciences. He IS the Alpha and the Omega of the sciences. Freud understood the dynamics of the mind and I would say the dynamics of desire and sees that religion corresponds to the deepest desire of the heart. So we all have desires for different things, right? We seek various ends. But through all those and above all those as a kind of trajectory and lure to all of those, there's the great desire for God, for ultimate truth and ultimate goodness.

What happens to our fallen hearts is that we're seeking God in all the wrong places. We're at war with ourselves. But that war should lead you to finally know and surrender to God. The beautiful is just as true propositions and true things in the world point to the truth ultimately of God. So all beautiful things speak finally of the source of all beauty. So the humanities of course should lead you to a consideration of God. As all Word, and all Truth is of The Word! Christ as logos. I would say is the purpose, is evangelization, right, that's declaring the lordship of Jesus, who's Jesus? If he's one teacher among many, then who cares? Have teach about him in in philosophy class. But if he's the logos made flesh, then He must pervade all of the logical enterprises of a school. Jesus must pervade the whole of its life. It's the ethos of the logos that makes it all work . . using those two Greek words. If the ethos of the logos isn't there, then you've lost the narrative that permeates the entire institution. Yeah. You've lost the narrative.

 wow. . . so much so fast. . . I get it, that I'm learning. . . and each day I need to accept what shows up. 

What comes before you will stretch you to new limits. And you will be able to move forward in Truth. You have all you need, trust it!

I  love the Word in God. And I’ve found myself in silence and in Jesus more and more all the time. I thought He wanted me to speak and share with Saint Mary and Saint Joseph, but Jesus really likes my attention. It’s so neat as He wants to share and be engaged in everything that I do. I’m lead to stop and pray all the time… it’s funny sometimes I’ll jump up and head downstairs or outside before I know what I’m doing. 

Yes Jesus, I’m outside now, what do I need to do? It’s really a challenge sometimes. I know I need to do so much all the time, and my schedule fills up and gets more intense. I’ll stop and relax with solitaire or PBS, and instead now, I’ve started reading the Bible and Saint Ignatius or Saint Augustine! 

What is important is this private time we have together. You see and witness this power and focus very clearly. Accepting this is critical, you have gifts abounding. Accepting and fulfilling what is immediate for you is your place and time now.

I am sorry, I’ve missed things directly before me. It’s important to accept my place more clearly. I’m perplexed again, here awake waiting for the Prayerline, 4:38am and that’s not working today?  I’m not sure what to do… I saw all their links yesterday and can’t find them now…. I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

close to your word as possible. . .

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

I always feel so blessed and guided in everything that I do. 

What are you finding?

I have found that I have been led very clearly all the time. I’ve been bringing Jesus into my space more and more all the time. I realize this is so much beyond what I share and talk about each day. Like since Christmas I’ve been really focused on my son!  I remember talking to him about this year being his 33rd birthday and talking about how at age 33 Jesus came into His Passion. 

What was his reaction to this? 

It was really a surprise for me. He spoke about having no interest or belief in Christ Jesus! I was perplexed, explaining how for his first ten years of life with me and his sister, we were bathed in the beauty and joy of Jesus. I always had this Divine Experience and exceptional opportunities everyday, as their mom Colleen, would give me the children and almost vanish whenever I was home.  I was completely alone with them for countless hours,k which was why the divorce didn’t affect me. I still saw the kids as much as ever, and she wasn’t there at all, instead of just hiding. . .   I have since realized that’s where the experiential education developed, because taking care of the house and family was really my responsibility, which the children shared in immediately; starting in the baby pouch, and then the toddler backpack ,they were with me as I did everything.

With Christopher’s Christmas confession, I realized that I never explicitly spoke about the relationship and love of Jesus as it was really what children meant to me. I know I’ve written stories about Being the Prodigal Son, who demanding a Fat Ram for my Party returning to Christ. And then Maryanne had aborted a child without even telling me while I was still in High School. And I can’t even count how many times she was pregnant after that, or could have been, finding a red lump in the toilet with each new ovulation cycle she had. So then returning to Jesus, or accepting my new knowledge of my Fat Ram coinciding with my Dad moving to Tampa, made it crystal clear that my next step in my evolution was in Tampa going to college to support a family and babies!

I knew Tampa was about Children so to build STARS with Chuck and Jack was another complete blessing. Restructuring education was something I knew was needed before children anyway. And suddenly I was graduating and immediately married who I was with, knowing it was time for children.  When Emily came out after 20+ hours of labor, and she was all blue, and rushed to the NICU. WOW, another powerful wake-up call for me . . . Time to get serious about a BABY, GOD’s Gift to me, an awesome Angel directly from the Breathe of God and Jesus that moment. . . WOW, WHAT MUST I DO NOW?  More focused and clear than ever before.

What is remarkable here, more than anything is the power and truth we saw in your WOW Statements above, that you really just breezed over here, but actually feeling the power and focus over and over:

• Wow, you survived a 90mph motorcycle accident at age 16…
• Wow, you are a Prodigal Son returning to your place WithGod…
• Wow, you have this awesome Fat Ram… Fine, Barbie Doll Goddess . . . 
• Wow, you have a child taken from you …

• Wow, you have children anxious to be in the next stage of your life…
• Wow, you have been called to Tampa escaping the chaos you created in NJ…
• Wow, you have the Best of NJ helping you to reform Education in Tampa…
• Wow, you finished schooling and have a first child, wow,
• Wow, your first child is almost lost with no breathe and you are ready at age 26…wow,wow,wow,

• Wow, your whole universe changed in 10 years . . . . From Death to Life in only 10 years! And now suddenly you have this little angel with her wings trimmed needing you to bring her into her next place of Divinity. And you knew this, deep in your soul. It was very obvious and clear to you, even confirmed by your mother who brought HER MOTHER to see and share this Divine Light you were now caring for. . . Three Maria’s spanning four generations right there before your eyes.

Yes, and I know this whole “Wow” exercise is about me learning and accepting my place more and more everyday. . . I gotta tell somebody, I need to share this. . . !

What are you waiting for?

It is so very intimidating! I know I’ve got all I could ever imagine in my hands. And I know I need to stay as close to Your Word as possible. . . 

What does this really mean?

I know, so I called Kevin! He had just came back home from a trip last night and was able to get on the phone, as everyone else was still asleep. So he really was so wonderful to chat with. Very specific and clear about whether I am in Judgement or in Love with my son . . . . Which was really what Chris was asking about too, when we had a FaceTime call, while I was in the Welcome Team Meeting Wednesday night. And it’s really important that I just Love him and hold onto the truth that we share. . . . And I guess what is really important is how Chris was again exploring more relationship, more experience, more understanding and more dialogue with me. He didn’t invite me to their wedding. . . Which I can’t blame him, since I know Paul and Colleen will be there and that would be dangerous, as it was for Emily. It’s really kinda annoying to me, but I guess someone has to be mature about it.

What is important now is to keep the doors open and listen and share as much as possible.

I guess it’s interesting as I met with the Friday Men’s group.  Roy was there again, as he was in the Welcome Team Wednesday night and the Exodus Rosary in the morning too! So I decided to email him today, asking him to support my work elsewhere. I mean, I saw his name and picture in one office I was visiting last week . . . So I felt like he could help me there.. . .

What did you do now?

I sent Kevin and Jack notes about Jack’s work as a Guardian ad Litem. I really just asked Jack if he’s doing anything in St Pete, offering to help him and give him a free place to stay. As crazy as it is for me, Lisette checked-in too. She just returned from a trip and as I writing to Kevin, I got a message from her asking if I’m ok.  This community at Saint Raphael is just awesome. They are all connected too, like last week when Jim asked me to lunch, I had just replied to someone else from church.  It’s almost like they plan to all hit me at once. 💕❤️😇👍🥰

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

peace in my Home to DO and BE God’s WILL

Ok I confess, everyday this old iPad gets easier and easier. I’m always learning a new trick and find greater ease in what I do and want to do in my Love for Jesus. Thanks you Dear Jesus, for all you share and all your guidance. I know you are with me always, and I try to ask for Saint Mary or Saint Joseph more by name . . . And I know you always enjoy the real experiences we share . . . And I know I still have lots to learn. Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word, and I do ask for YOUR Fire of Pentecost to fill me for your Glory.

What happened with SEEL? 

I know, I need to step back a bit. This last week was SEEL Week 12, which was about Imagination. Imagination is my space and beingness; I have always been able to see things, and do them, or make them happen around me . . . I know that I have too much power in this area and have terrified myself several times doing things or changing things selfishly. And I realize now, more than ever that Jesus and the Saints really dominate all the Voices in my Head . . . Of course, I also get crap showing up, and I realize this is really not that reactions, like swearing all the time or other craziness, that I see vanish from my beingness, with the call of Jesus, or Saint Michael. 

You know I just stopped writing for a moment and went to the bathroom down here and saw the poster of Saint Michael that I have in the bathroom now. I’m so blessed here in this house, and I know it’s all perfect and a total blessing every single moment I’m here. Like this iPad, each aspect of this “House HOUSE” loves me, resonates with me, fills me with the Love of God and His Joy . . . “I can use a little church today. . . 8:35pm 6/24/25 SpiritFM . . . Michael Tylor, God DID IT!!!”

What about SEEL. We all recognize that sharing the Love and Joy in love has got to be a secret that you’ve been keeping, you are with me in the Whistle in the wind . . . So many nights i have been saying… all i want is already done. . . I just want to share it with you. . . 9:25amSpiritFM Song: . . . You have been all that i needed. . . In times i feel you in the fire and the rain. . . Love has got a secret that you’ve been keeping. . . You are with me in a whisper in the wind. . . Stay. . . It’s so close i can feel it.. . YOU ARE WITH ME IN EACH WHISPER OF THE WIND. . . 

I know, I HEAR YOUR Word in everything all around me, all the time. It’s really silly, as if you were GOD and YOU created everything, so that then everything you see, hear, taste, touch or feel would contain a “critical secret” with hidden codes and clues to bring YOU back to GOD, so you could never get lost! It’s all Love, all for Love, all About Love, Doing More Love all the time every way possible . . . 

What book did you feel writing this now?

I know it was Conversations with God again, sharing your Word!

Do you see how specific and focused this is  . . . Your Intentions to lead and teach are everywhere and coming to fruition more and more . . . PLEASE ACCEPT THIS! This is your place, critical and important to who you are! What about SEEL?

I confess, Jesus and the Word, really just takes over sometimes. And I know I need to examine each page again of this Week 12 of SEEL. I had to change the first line on this SEEL page above because “God DOES speak to us all the time.” Like the whispering in the wind song above, I was in tears crying through that moment with my body vibrating in “goosebumps” everywhere . . . His Spirit of Love really completely takes me over sometimes. And for the most part I love it, learning and teaching ways to bring that feeling on, but also seeing that the magicians and guru’s everywhere who say that they know how to “bring us to Spirit” are really just selfish and lost . . . lol . . . What a waste, they just need Jesus! As real prayer engages thoughts, memories and imagination.

Yes, I even have met priests and “Catholic Church Certified” healers who tell me I’m wrong and CAN NOT do what I’ve known and shared all my life. . . It’s really funny how arrogant and pathetic some people get trying to tell me what to do. . . Or NOT DO. Reminds me of the clown telling me “no videos” last week. He was doing the best he can, just didn’t know any better. . . Oh, well that is what we have to deal with in this insane world of satan where greed, “divide and conquer” is all we know. . . . satan get behind me! I must only see, think, or experience Love and Jesus as my real Priority! 

What about SEEL?!?!?!

TRUSTING how God is always speaking, and HAS ALWAYS! I know so I posted this first one page above 141. . . and the next, following Your Word! Yes this morning, I was told to get busy on SEEL, going over each page and marking it up completely to share. This last week I skipped a meeting with Dick, asking for an extra week to work on this, and then the next week we never talked about what to do next, so I figured that meant I hadn’t finished this week twelve yet. Of course 12, or 1+2=3, is all about the Trinity where I belong anyway . . . So I need to get busy and do a lot more here! As I’m in the right place again, at the right time . . . To hear Bishop Barron talk about this same experience with the Trinity again, where I marked on this page here how my BIGGEST LESSONS is how God Speaks to me all the time, through imaginations, memories, thoughts, feelings, sounds, sights, angels, saints and ancestors and I really need to “STOP SECOND GUESSING” and really trust and allow this FLOW to dominate, continue and excel. . 

What did we ask you?

It started this morning, when you said to reread the Week 12 SEEL instructions . . . . And it all started with these two pages 141 above, about imagination. I knew this is about stepping into my place more, so this is not just Duties, and WORK, where I started with the Prayer to St Joseph, IT IS LOVE, my deep and grateful Love of God. And of course there was so much that I could feel and resonate with . . . And so you asked that I reread it all over, so I snapped all these page pictures so I could review and markup each like shown above. . . Then of course I saw things I never read or considered and the instructions said to read this and read that, so I have six pages now, that I have to go through to post now, the two above and here comes the next.

Oh my, Yes it’s kinda funny, as I am totally perplexed by every blessing that shows up . . . Knocking me over! And then of course this very next page I read is about making these experiences more consistent with very distinct focused habits. I did the Alter Service today, and when I was standing waiting to start, I repeated under my breath: Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Saint Mary, I Love You Saint Mary,  Thank You Saint Joseph, I Love You Saint Joseph , , , so I’ve been creating this habit of calling the Saints as well. . . Like I’ve noticed others, like Saint Michael, who I seem to have called on countless times. But then reading this page I realized that I’m not specific about my own desires. Funny, the week I did my grades I got two calls about presenting for new positions. Of Course, I prayed about what I should prepare in a presentation that I had to do on Leadership for the “management team” . . . Uhg, like here we go again what is my “leadership style” . . . From Management, through Entrepreneurship, into my Passion of Urban Agriculture and FOOD!!!!

Of course, this lead to me revising all my webpages, and creating a whole new scene there too! I was pleasantly surprised how nice that came together and how it looks now. . . Wow. And I feel good about my prayers above asking “to find peace in my Home to DO and BE God’s WILL”

What did you learn??

I guess my biggest lesson from these pages of this SEEL lesson has been recognizing, accepting, and really understanding how I am always with Jesus and always have His Holy Direction and guidance for all my activities. And it’s really not just instructions as much as His active participation like Saint Teresa speaking of being the "Hands of Christ" directing Christians, through their actions, are to continue Christ's work on Earth. Which I always write about and share here online. I’ve recognized how my writing has been shifting. The constant daily coincidence is the reason I started my writing to record and understand my own experiences. It’s sorta shifted more to teaching and learning, instead of just sharing.

 What 5:38am 6/25/25, God demands recognition of Holiness: Worship Me!

I Love you so much, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, and I’ve got my meeting with my spiritual director, when I asked what is a mystic:

What happened with my first spiritual Director; she called me a mystic one day, and I said "how a Mystic" by any stretch of the imagination. She said OK let me ask you this, do you believe in the body blood soul and divinity of Jesus in the Eucharist? "Oh yeah." Next do you believe in the resurrection? "Yeah." Do you believe that Mary was the mother of Jesus yeah? "Yeah." Now all of those are mysteries, that you have accepted, that my very definition makes you a low level Mystic! So that implies that there are higher levels!

Please ask your ChatCBG app you've programmed "What are the levels of Catholic Mysticism"

OK so what are they, an example is people who can speak in tongues, that’s a mystery why does that happen? How does that happen? There’s nothing that you can point to experience that . . . it is pretty much a total surrender of the living in God‘s will, and it just takes practice. You know being aware of God‘s presence, as one author puts it, having the humility to let God lead. How do I know that God is leading me, but it is a surrender and partnering with God.

I’ve come to terms with everything recognizing my ability to share something’s and having the responsibility to take that in my hand, and do what I know I can do and just like I did with last week with the video, I mean I knew what they wanted. I knew what they needed. I did what they wanted and what was really incredible is there was one student in the class that thought I was doing something wrong and came and told me you can’t do that and I said to just leave me alone and he says no you’re not supposed to do that and went and told on me.

OK I’m out here and it was so funny because I realize that I saw my dad the narcissist yelling at me “don’t do that.” I don’t like the narcissist right, I mean that’s what I saw and I packed up and I left and I didn’t tell anybody. The word responsible is to do “what’s the loving thing to do” because that would’ve been good. The loving thing to do is say; “I’m sorry I got to go,” and I know that would’ve been the loving thing to do, instead of running and hiding.  OK all of our spirituality is about love and relationship and everything we do is predicated on love and so our language has to be congruent with that as a big part of our spiritual journey.

I Love you so much, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, so I do my three letter codes and immediately want to create new ones for Saints Mary and Joseph. . . BECAUSE IT'S ALL ABOUT LOVE AND RELATIONSHIP.

What HAPPENED NOW WAS THAT you said what was necessary to create change and growth in the new lives around you. Stepping into the truth that you know will be very intimidating for a lot of people, that is simply what is, you still need to step-up.

I did my Prayerline, 3 times I was able to share Repeat after me: “I renounce XYZ in the name of Jesus, I command XYZ to leave me in the name of Jesus.” Then did my 20x exercises with the FamilyFocus podcost, and now Journaling with Charles Stanley podcast. Now this restart pp 23 a habit with structured and rhythm . . . . And pp24  is about waiting in silence to listen only to God. It's really wonderful. As I see again now, how my whole house and life is filled with the love and beauty of GoD. “God turned the light on” Charles Stanley book of his preaching. Sounds like how I live and love.

What you have now before you is really critical again. Having the blessing to share and speak the truth before you. 

I need to speak to gossip in the church, a gossip from satan kills churches. Like, I signed up for this cool class. Great teacher who knew I was out of work with Covid. Called me back the next day because her next student was someone who retired and so their company hired me. But they needed an intern to follow directions and NOT A Phd that found errors in their work, so that wasn't happening so that didn’t last long . . .  . So I recognize it is satan trying to get me into the gossip that stirs things up really strong. 

It Happened again last week. We had a special instructor came in from out of town. She shared God’s beauty, materials and talent from a private and copyrighted firm from out of state…  I offered to record her own divine expressions for her own use, irregardless of corporate policy and BS. Use of videotape to share her gifts, was breaking corporate rules. So Loving my friend, I recorded for four days. The last day some guy decided he knew better and confronted me telling me not to record her instructors. . . Yes satan get behind me!

What we know is that Jesus will be with you and guide you. And it’s important to stand your ground and be the fullness you know and see!

I shared this bit above about gossip in the church with my men’s group this morning 3:57pm 6/27/25. It was gospel perfect for I said specifically how a man who fears video usually indicates something else. My own experience was paul as a pedophile but someone else said how fear of video coincides with fear of getting arrested, as they know they are doing something illegal, immoral or worse . . . Much worse as with paul!

What happened this morning was really better than you could imagine. Your Spontaneous prayers were clear and focused. Then stepping out to share your real concerns for everyone in the room. That’s why the understanding was so clear that the comments you received were the details that you missed. It’s really great that you are stepping into this more readily. The idea about writing these issues of gossip out before hand clearly was very important too.

I recognize it’s always really about having this private time with You Dear Jesus. I know I’m alone here with everything I could ever need, or imagine needing. Typing with ease now as Rev John preaches in the YouTube app somewhere on this iPad. 

What is this lesson on this Page.

I want to do your will Dear Jesus. I know you are keeping me home alone and filling my day with insights and challenges . . . . It is always about change and shifting things for the people and community around me. It’s funny how I flashed to building the NT server at the County, where USF had just done the same thing. And I remember how they were sued for competing with Google and now I realize how Google, and Microsoft, and everyone created email system the similarly, where all the archives are kept forever. And now I realize this incredible archive of human discussions and adventures fundamentally creates lifetimes of data suitable for creating AI. And now I see how this is all coming together with the blessings of Jesus and AI is everywhere. 

It’s all about God, It’s all about bringing this Love and Truth and Knowledge of experience to a higher level, to bring more insight and growth to others. Of course the very next page I read and marked-up is all about journals and how valuable they are in this process.

I always call this writing a duty or a chore, but I really love it. And find peace and comfort in sitting and reading and writing. It’s really a major priority for me. I also notice the readers in the hundreds and thousands, but always felt that so many others read from other places beyond. Yes, I go back and read over this page everytime I start writing again in it. It’s important to stay consistent and have the flow clear and focused. Of course more comes though all the time and I get how it’s really a lot already. And more details and clarity helps and improves everything, and I’m always adding and expanding.

It is all exactly as it needs to be, no worries, we are with you always.

I guess I shouldn’t be surprised that this last page for me is about my writing again. I love how my learning and experience always brings me in circles where I get the same messages over and over. Like seeing the picture of Saint Michael in the bathroom, moments after saying his name. So what's really powerful for me here is how I get the message in words, sights, sounds, or otherwise. I always recognize it coming through to me over and over.

What do you mean?

I Remember now that this post on assignment actually started with me talking about this iPad and how my use is always so much fun and joyful as I can scribble worse than you see here and the AI still is rewriting correctly, even correcting spelling and grammar.

What do you expect, is this what you asked for? And this expectation is necessary too.

I know, but whining about new technologies before the PC even came out was kinda pushing it a bit…  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

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Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word !

What brought you here today?

I am always so surprised by my experiences. Like now, I knew I needed to write something, I didn’t know what, so I opened my iPad and set it up with the keyboard . . . That has NOT worked for months . . . But I just went along and did whatever I felt. And so here I am all alone again writing whatever I need to write with everything with this iPad magic keyboard working fine! Oh yea, I noticed the iPad had another software upgrade. Yes, I’ve got these to load automatically and it says I’m up to IOS 18.6 Developers Beta . . .  

What happened last week?

I was able to speak with another attorney and Jim was on the call with me. He just wanted to be sure I was clear what I was doing and where things were going. It was a little weird, as he asked more questions than me. And we were both happy about how it all went. Course, yesterday I dropped in to give them some cash, and it was clear that everything was moving exactly the way I needed it to. I really got the feeling of being in the right place, at the right time, to blow this crap all to pieces. Then the thing that really surprised me was how when I ran into Bob, after mass last week, I just told him what I was doing to prepare to sell everything.

I sort of randomly asked if he would join the board instead! And he said sure, he’d be happy to. I never thought of that. And it came up again Friday at our Prayer Group. Scott said how he had already read everything I was doing, since he was part of St Vincent and they were already helping me out. But what was more remarkable than anything was to have some SWISS entrepreneurial competition show up?!?!?! It was just weird how it came into my space and I was able to fill-out all the pieces and submit. And more importantly than ever, was reading and writing about developing a new business . . . Wow, me starting another business, how crazy is that?

We have been telling you to for years. You could have sold “Moving Rivers” easily if you had incorporated it. 

I know, I know. . . But with all I do already, it really seems crazy that I would seek to do more! But yes I understand if I had gone through the motions to incorporate something to sell. I wouldn’t be worried about working or income at all now. I really believe this is more about changing the system than anything.  I mean, I’ve been engaged in breaking this system all apart, or rebuilding it, all of my life. And I realize that I’m usually stepping into things and doing things, that I really had no conception about. I remember Kimberly explaining to Chris about the new roof I got for the house. Here she went into great details about an experience and operation I did myself.  But the perspective she shared was really one based on fear and insecurity, while I was on peace confident Jesus always takes care of everything!

What are you imagining and feeling into this now?

I guess what was a really powerful experience that I never could have imagined, was when I arrived and saw Lisa again... She recognized me of course, but was slow, being really stiff and sore. I asked if I could help her and held her hands infront of us. Then told her to take off-her shoes and gave her the magnetic visualizations of the earth and heart to consider connection with us through infinity e=mc2. Then we breathed together and shared the experience together. 

She then told me that I had completely healed her. She said the had been to the hospital earlier this week, and had been in a lot of pain, unable to sit or to move much at all. I told her I had known all my life I could heal, and to share with her was such an awesome blessing for me. Then I told her not to tell anyone. 

Why do you think you did that?

I know it’s about fear. So many people in this church are still afraid of me. They can’t understand, they can’t accept, they see a scary old man or whatever they see, as a man who can’t follow all their rules. OR WHATEVER. 

What about your own fear. Are you afraid of what Lisa might say, what she feels or how people will interpret her . . . Are you afraid of stepping into something new. Afraid of doing what you have prepared for all your life.

I get it. I’m sorry. I did tell her the next day to share or tell anyone she wants to. I admitted that my own fears should not interfere with the truth she knows and experienced. It was really cool, she told me about grounding and how she has another friend or someone in her family who has been telling her the same things over and over again. She said she married into an old Philippino Indigenous family that still knew and practiced these deeper truths as we shared. , , , it was really just a beautiful experience. I watched her all week, and she was so happy moving and running around all the time.

Every time I asked how she was doing she commented about sitting on the floor and standing up. Something she did “all by herself,” as if she had not been able to do anything like that for months. Like “did you see,” I sat on the floor twice already today. . . . It was really nice to hear about her experience.

 What did you “feel” about that?

Yea, I know you have been waiting a while for me to come in here with you. And so I've always felt how I could hold someone's hand and pull them out of a wheelchair. It was just something that I've always seen in my imagination, every time I see a wheelchair. I've almost been afraid to get near handicapped people. . . . Knowing how I just want to put my hands onto them.

We have, yes we have, are you ready to do this very slow and steady.? Right now we made more than ever. Seeing the craziness, over and over again it is more important than ever. : to stay slow and steady.... To slowly listen and love and learn all of God in gratitude Joy & Peace to the fullness of your being…. And now you have the assistance of 2 dogs we are ready to start loving everyone again. And you will soon see more love growth experience seeing the goodness of GOD: IN mercy, loving concern for a's 2 Samual 2. 24 his mercy is great,

I need to have more practice again here with you going really slowly, still struggling with this pen. As Fr. Curtis posted about 2 German shepherds. Another, Father is moving out of state so his dogs are for free. Wow so Jesus decided I was ready for dogs and its time to start building gardens everywhere.

Was ready for a dogs means lots busy work to get everything done all by yourself . . . You are stepping into your next vibrational level of experience. Your impact on those around you … it is all your Holy way redeemed and savored to return to your place. The child ready to step in, ready to do. Yes your time has come to design and build all things necessary to bring as all forward. Mercy Grace, love in gratitude to bring healing and truth before us.

 

What is remarkable is how easily you laugh at the challenges before you. Each time something crazier than before shows up, and you just roll with it . . . . . . No fear, to step into more and more power, purpose and goals. Today was the first time you considered BEING full supreme unity of GoD !!! Building your church the way it is designed and intended to be. People focused instead of car and greed focused. A space filled with  animals, people, food, love, peace all together in the garden of Eden again. It is really what you asked for remember. You wouldn't come back unless we could  Guarantee it would all work the way it was supposed to, you had to know and see it all come back to the holiness of one peace, one love, one life, we all experience together 

What this is really about is you stepping into this deeper truth of who you really are. Taking these steps before you with clarity and power. You know what needs to be done, and you know more about what we are doing than anyone will ever know. It’s something we have done and planned with you since that very first spark in the mud. You were there with us and we are all ready for the next steps. Yes, the fearless actions that you do and create in  your community are essential for the shift that is coming to everyone. . 

I better get busy then. . . 

What is important is that you are planting sweet potatoes, you can plant hundreds and it’s important to simply plant. No questions, no challenges, just do it. . . Slowly, peacefully. . . No rush, just do it. . . 

I get it. . . I’m bringing my trailer, and clearing everything I need to do for my gardens and world right now. . . Simple, easy. Just do it.  

What about saying some prayers first for guidance and insight to step forward. . . 

I know i need to ask St Joseph to help and lead me. . . 

THANKS Saint Joseph and Saint Mary. . . I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

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Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What about getting more serious with your time here. If you are called and directed into all these tasks before you, lessons, clearing, sorting and organizing for The 2025 Exodus Fraternity BonFire! What’s does this mean?

I Love Your Word! It’s always such a blessing to have this experience with You. Thank You so much for helping me to share more with other people. Please dear Saint Joseph, Marion, and Jesus guide me into Your Family of truth and forgiveness. Help me to live The Fire of Christ.

Yes, I need to get some firewood from the church this morning too. I am so grateful to have this time with You. I know I’ve had some powerful dreams again.  You asked me to write them down, but I haven’t been able to . . . Of course, now I’m talking to my iPhone again. And then I know I can do this all the time.

What Do you think we were trying to get you to speak out loud for?

I know, I just need to listen to Your Word! You always have such a challenge for me. When I have the synchronicity with all the Bible verses together, I always want to write them down and share them. I’ve been sending them, as best as I can. Both to my children, to the men’s group, and even the welcome group. I know I need to be more specific about my experiences with You.

What Have you felt regarding past trauma and clearing it? And Really Clearing it out of your system.

I’m still trying to stay in Your Word! Every moment I feel I’ve been getting more direction coming to me. I’ve really been trying hard to keep up with everything.

What About the feelings in your heart when you’re in church or in communion on the Prayerline.

I love You! It has become a very specific feeling, I can recognize the warmth in my heart. If I breathe really deeply into it, then the bone will come up in my chest. I can feel my whole body opening up for the flow of God’s Light. I realize I need to do this more. I need to be full and clear in the light of Jesus.

5:55pm 5/30/2025 What a great job. You have everything ready for your party and it all looks great! Even that you sat in this hammock with your beer. You are ready for anything. That is all we ever asked of you. And you are always prepared and ready. Good Job son!

What a sweet thing to share! I’m so very grateful that You take the time to share with me now. I was really running all day, and was even embarrassed that I hadn’t made any food when the beer was poured and I was ready for the hammock. Wow, 32 chairs are set here and the hammock is perfect for a couple or me!

Yes, I will recount the chairs to be sure, as it’s so crazy to be out here now all by myself. And I know it’s only 6pm now and the Bonfire is 6-10pm. I’m not sure who, what, or when, but it’s always just perfect. I love it here Jesus. It’s so nice to hear the church bells and know that it’s all for Jesus and it only gets better and better every day. Oh, You want me to make videos all night . . .  please remind me!

What happened?

Yes, I forgot the videos, but got the fire going great, for only six of us: Dan, George, Tobias, Mike, Father Claudius, and one more . . . . Then Larry came in too . . .  

What Are you Feeling. . . 

I need to learn how to Pray more with You. And I'm sure there is so much before me still. Please Guide me and Lead me to fulfill all that You have set before me today . . .

What you did was good for the day. You started in prayers and then your studies. Then you got some important work done in your office. You are tired and it should be so. You missed all your exercise and habits that you have been working on. It's important to recognize that these habits should become priorities, instead of a burden.

I just added this picture so I could write with my pen and get the text really large and not off the side of my iPad screen. Course when I first read this picture I’ve added, I thought someone had written about me. It's really incredible how things happen for me. Like now as I write, it feels like a complete De-ja-vu. I mean everything that I’ve been working on has been all for Jesus. I've been careful to follow directions and to move slowly to get things done. And I know there is still so much to do. I do feel really good about it all. But I'm sorta nervous, and tired.

This morning I decided I was going to make a big breakfast and asked Larry if that would be ok with his kids. They had asked me about picking tomatoes in the front yard, so I had to make something with them. It was fun as I cut up some fruit for all of us and cooked sausages. Then I made a bunch of omelets, some with only cheese, and some with cheese and tomatoes and then cheese, tomatoes and sausage. It was just fun to share with them all.

What is more remarkable than ever is how real you are about it all. You deep down know it will always be better than you could imagine. And always you imagine so much more beyond what could even be possible. It's not something you really consider. Whenever you imagine something it comes from the immediate circumstances and experiences that you encounter. Like when you imagined selling your business. It really popped out of the air as you were biking past Ed. You never thought to sell any thing, but as you saw him in the early morning-hour you immediately thought that your sales should go to those you know of first. If anyone else will benefit from your hardship, let it be a friend or someone you know who benefits. 

This love you imagine, share and create is really a wonder of you. . . You have always been able to imagine and create such wonders. It's really important to accept this blessing you have. If you randomly create wonders all the time, then maybe you should consider how important it is for you to bike freely, share openly, and stay fearless.

I guess what happens to me is that I always try to stay focused and present with whatever shows up and stay ready to step in and to do anything. Like this picture here is from my iPhone listing all the calls I got in the last day or so. I really felt so blessed and lucky to have so many of my church brothers reaching out to help me. Wow, I never had that before. It seems like I never had anyone but my mom really stepping out for just me. I mean everyone else would do so to get something from me. Wow that's really a sad pathetic thought.

What is more important is recognizing the truth. You have always been very generous with your time, efforts, and trust. Trusting and respecting those who really don't deserve it, haven't earned, or are usually just trying to exploit you.

It has been a challenge for me to learn discernment. I try to be careful who I invite into my life and share with, always knowing there is so much more for me to do and share. But I've always just accepted those who show up and step into my space...

I mean literally... Its - 5:22 am 6/15/2025 and I just got off the phone with a single lady in Missouri who needs a now place to live. Of course I told her that I had an extra room, and banks downstairs at $800 a month. She said she was only pay $500 now for an apartment in a duplex. So sure I could let her stay for that much, as of don't think Larry pays me that yet.

What else did you learn?

I guess I went through a lot yesterday. Like I found a place online that sells AirBNBs. I started to put my house out there and got about half way. I guess I really know I can sell it very easily. Which is really funny since I know I could build another very easily too. I still really love it here and do not want to sell anything. I keep thinking of the nonprofit that they sent me to as well. To finally get a real board and funding into STARS would really be incredible. I have the market and target audience and everything all set and ready to go. I just never have done board development and fundraising. I’ve been thinking I should have no problem with it since everybody at church is at that level already!

What about taking this seriously as your next challenge before god.

I got another typo there that I didn't change. Of course, I can do anything for you Jesus! It's always just for the love of Jesus. Like when I looked at the leadership of the nonprofit, it was all public health people. So suddenly I flashed to completing my PhD in Public Health. Wow, that was really neat. I was a grad assistant at stars building community gardens again.

What happened now??

I flashed into building UA in St Pete and thought of the Tampa Tree Map I helped build a hundred years ago. And so I looked it up and Shawn is fixing it up again. Wow, how cool is that. So it had a feed back form and I looked up the names of the people I knew and offered to help again. Then at the bottom was Shawn email and phone number anyway.

What did got feel?

I really felt the live al joy of helping a peer who really knows me. I mean I met Shawn when he was an architecture student. I but he knows on has worked with my son even.

What happened now.

I  though of how someone is might reach my son more than others  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

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Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! I was in tears again. My random readings and lessons are all connected more powerfully than ever. The last was the Ignatian Day 3 speaking about the Annunciation . . . Where the lesson assignment was so specific about the experience. “Imagine the sights, sounds, and smells of the scene, when the angel Gabriel greets the young woman. Listen to their conversation.”

We do have so much fun with these things. And you certainly have a lot going on to step into.

Yes, I know! So the Reading today for the Consecration to St Joseph was Day 15 about how the man needs to be the lead of the family. Which is really why satan has been screwing men up everywhere. Divorce and drugs, porn and LBGQT craziness, and the constant poisons and plastics destroying all the hormones and all. So these reading with St Joseph included another piece: 

Yes the House of Loreto is Mary’s Home where she was visited by Gabriel. So it was eight more pages about this house, and where it is now, and how it was moved by Angels three times. . . . I mean, it’s kinda random that I’m doing SEEL and Exodus together. And there are several men who have. But then for the Exodus Fraternity to do the Consecration to St Joseph is a bit much. . . But the synchronization and alignment of these is just so so completely perfect as I am still in struggles with my home and income and everything.

I mean I started with the Exodus readings at 4am, then for the podcasts on theJoyFM.com by 5am. . . Read the Stanley Page, then the St Joseph, and finished with Ignatian. So to read about this house being moved by angels, and all the popes and saints who visited it and experienced healings there, is just a bit more intense than I can understand. I mean to “Imagine the sights and sounds” when Gabriel Visits. . . And of course I have a more specific story to consider . . . . And it’s about the power and focus we find in someone's house . . . And again it really forced me to consider my own House-House and how blessed everything has been here for me. I completely struggle almost daily with different aspects. Like I've still not fixed the back gates that were through around my the hurricanes. I did clean the front gardens and got the backyard set enough for a bonfire. But now i've been cited again by the city because I put a bikerack in the front "right-of-way." Yes, I've been in trouble before for blocking the RW, so now it's all the pots and plants over two feet high that I still need to move.

What else happened?

I know when I started with Ignatian I knew it would go backwards. . . And the 4am wake up included a cramp in my leg:  

I had another crazy dream where I woke up and had a cramp in my leg. Yes, I jumped out of bed and I yelled and screamed for a couple minutes, and finally relaxed and went to the bathroom. Then of course, the first thing I did was plug in my iPhone and turned it on. And when it finally came on, it said 400, exactly 4 o'clock. I tried to snap a picture of it. I wouldn't let me snap and it tried three, four times, still it wouldn't let me catch a picture. And I knew I had to tell this dream, so I finally turned it on and started to talk. So now I'm sharing this dream. And I'm trying to remember this dream, and it was really, really powerful. It was really, really long, and I saw so much detail. And it was like I had gotten stranded at this. I want to say it was like a car lot, or a car garage. And the guy who came to help me, or someone came to help me, was in this little blue pickup. And all I remember was trying to find this little blue pickup. 

And so I had my cell phone and I was just wandering around, trying to find this little blue pickup. And someone offered to help, and we were walking around together, looking for this little blue pickup, and he rented a little scooter. And what was weird is that we'd would scoot along for a little while, and then he'd stop and shut it off. And like we stopped for ice cream, and he bought me an ice cream, and we're eating ice cream and he's not really concerned about finding this blue pickup. He's, you know, having fun, I guess. And it was really weird because I started getting annoyed that we weren't, I mean, it could take us 10 minutes to ride around the whole garage to find this little blue pickup. And he was just strolling around and taking his time. And finally we got on a scooter again and we started going again and he stopped for something else. He's like, oh, I’ll be right back. And he disappeared or left me with the scooter and disappeared for a few minutes, and it was just really weird. 

I started getting annoyed again and I was like, you know, let's just find this little blue pickup. It was so fucked up. I mean, I started walking down the street and going somewhere else, you know, seeing maybe I could find it on my own and I walked into this neighborhood. And this is weird too, because I started walking down into this neighborhood, and I was like, okay, I'm not getting anywhere. I'm going to get lost. And so I went back, or I started walking back towards the scooter and for some reason, I walked into this house and the house was like filled with dogs. 

Well, not really. Well, yeah, it was kind of weird because it was. I saw this dog and it was friendly and it was, you know, nice. And this lady was with this dog and she was kind of surprised that I was in her house. The dog was friendly, so she was friendly. And then there were two or three other dogs that came along and they like greeted me and I was, like you know, hey, I need help finding this little blue pickup. And she was more interested in how friendly the dogs were. And it was really kind of weird because, you know, the rest of her family came in, or showed up, and they were all fascinated with the dogs because the dogs, you know, were so friendly with me so quickly. And I guess that just never happened or something. And I was in this house and they didn't want me to leave, because of how the dogs were treating me. And it's really just weird. And she finally said, okay, I'll help you find your pickup truck. 

And we started going somewhere and she had another friend with her and you know, we were just looking around and, you know, going around. And then I noticed that my iphone was gone. And I realized that they had taken my cell phone. And her and her friend both had their cell phones chained to their pants. I mean, literally chained to their pants. And I was like, where's mine? And they like totally denied knowing anything about it. And that's when I woke up, I was pulling this phone out of her pocket, and it was chained on, and I don't know, oh, and she completely disregarding ever seeing my phone. 

And it just was a weird way to wake up, wondering, oh, where the hell is my iPhone? Where the hell is my iPhone? I can't get by without my iPhone. And it was kind of fucked up because you think that if I had my iPhone in the first place place, I could have called a Uber or something to find this blue pickup or I didn't need a blue pickup if I could call Uber or a lift or something. But it was just so weird, I can't believe that I woke up at 4 a.m. or I can't believe that was the first thing I needed to do was stop and write about this dream, which was just a weird, weird, weird dream, you know? 

And I keep remembering that first moment when I realized the blue pickup was going to get me out of there. And whoever I was with was like, oh, there's your ride. There's your blue pickup or whatever it was. And I turned around and it was gone. And I was like, oh, okay, I'll find it. And then I spent all this time trying to find it. And it was like this big complex. I mean, it was a garage, but it was like. hundreds of them, you know, all connected and different people working in different places and different, you know, businesses and I was just sort of lost in space trying to find this little blue pickup to go home. I don't know if that's what it was all about. It was all about just trying to get home. 

And I'm still recording, so I just keep talking because I know that if I have this recorder on that I got to keep talking or else it's wasted space and that's kind of makes me wonder, maybe that's what I'm always worried about. It's wasted space. Is that what I'm all about? This wasted of space? My house and my car, and my iPhone and everything is just taking up space. And it's all wasted space. And that's kind of weird to get from a dream about a blue pickup to explore the space. So I'm stopping this recording. As I know my dreams are always, they're always like, like Jesus trying to explain something to me that I'm not understanding. I have these experiences in my life and these challenges before me and these different events that occur. 

And the dreams are really sort of just random. I mean, I have dreams that come and go and I go through these real intense experiences and I always feel like the dream is like a secret message. And if I could understand my dream, I could understand everything I'm doing or everything I'm challenged with. And I never seem to be able to understand my dreams. I always am totally perplexed by them. And each time I have a dream, I try to write it down. I try to get as much detail as possible. And you think I'd go back and read them over and over and over again before I figured it out. But I never seemed to do that. 

And that's something else I noticed is that I never seem to really use my journal. I'm almost random about reading it. And or should I say I am completely random about reading my journal? Stop. I actually have to. I don't know if. Oh, I thought I said “stop,” and I wasn't sure if that meant that I shut off my recording or not. But I noticed that I only will read my journal when I get to the end of it. And I go back and I flip through it and I wonder about what I was writing and wonder about what the book is about. 

And I've got dozens of these books now, and I've got dozens of pages and I've got dozens of blogs, and it's all perplexing to me. Still to this day, it's totally perplexing to me, and I share things once in a while, and nobody ever comments on anything. I never have a clue at what I'm writing about or I never know why I bother sometimes. And it's just one of those things that is part of my experience. And so now I'm up to 12 or 12 minutes of recording. And so, I don't know. Time to stop…

I don't get it at all, as the Exodus was wicked strong too: I am created to do something or to be something for which no one else is created; I have a place in God’s counsels, in God’s world, which no one else has; whether I be rich or poor, despised or esteemed by man, God knows me and calls me by my name. I have my mission. Somehow, I am necessary for his purposes. I have a part in this great work; I am a link in a chain, a bond of connection between persons. He has not created me for naught. I shall do good, I shall do his work. O Lord, I give myself to Thee. I trust Thee wholly. Deign to fulfill Thy high purposes in me whatever they be—work in and through me. I am born to serve Thee, to be Thine, to be Thy instrument. Amen.

Reflection: Just like Moses interceded for his people before God, we, too, must learn to rely first on prayer as we strive to live in freedom and bring others to him. Every day, we are called to encounter the Lord in silence and lift up the people he has placed in our lives. !

We’re surprised you posted the whole dream recording. These tools of yours have really been set to transcribe things for you for years, and you’ve only played with it. Never really using it as you need to. Like the bike pouch you designed for your bike. It’s ideal for you to record your experiences and learnings, but again you’ve barely used it at all, and almost never go back and listen to what you recorded.

I get it, you keep giving me more and more to do and experience and record. And that constant theme is always there from Luke, those who are given much, much is expected. So I constantly try to do more things as you inspire me. I listen and follow the best I can and seem to get slammed all the time. I mean, I try to plant mangroves, and try to teach urban ag, and try to do ABB or whatever I try to do . . . It never seems to go anywhere. Like the engineering crap I’ve done. I seemed to just be teaching others, I bust my butt, and they copy what I do, and then they don’t need me any more. lol, seems to be what happened with UA and ABB too. 

What’s wrong with that, getting others started is great.

I know, but it sucks that I’m always struggling, and always lost! Fine if I help everyone and they are all growing and learning. And it’s great that you take such good care of me. But can I please stop struggling. And if I’m always going to be helping others find success, please let me live in peace and not always struggle. Yes, I know I’ve got it so much easier than many can dream of. But can I just stop the chaos and be at peace. I’m happy to always be giving, and happy to always see others fly, while I just watch. But let me stay at peace as I watch, and not struggle with my own security and be at peace while trying to help everyone else.

We have been asking for more details about your immediate needs and passions. Wha is your deepest?

I know, my Jesus is love with you, you KNOW I can only want you more fulfilled! I’d rather just walk to church every day. And or bike to an office somewhere that I can just teach, love and share whatever you give me in the new day as I can. Yes, it would be great to have kids again, and I’d love to be married to one of the goddesses you have placed in front of me. . . I mean, I did everything I could for both Maryanne and Kathy . . . . And then Kim I learned so much from, but she had already decided her plans long before I had any clue what was happening between us. 

This really happens all the time too. You love how much I can do and how I’ve always been above and beyond this weird culture on Earth, but family and community “means:” That I accept and participate with whatever culture I’m in.  Sure we are always changing everything. And You want to return to full embodiment on Earth, where everything shifts into higher vibrations again. So let’s just DO IT. How much more preparations do we need. I know we need to “live free from sin” FIRST!  And now most all these greed systems of sin are collapsing, and so be it. I’m thrilled to know you have it all set for us to rebuild. That's great and I’m always ready to help.

But please if things are shifting to another place, and I’m prepared for it, then let’s be done with it.  

What do you really want Son?

I want to stay in this House-House in this Catholic Community of Saint Petersburg, and teach, and share, and love all the You have given to me to the Fullness of YOUR PRESENCE here with us. If this is about me fulfilling the Dreams and Desires We have created TOGETHER, then Let's JUST DO IT!

What about asking for help? Do you think this is also a critical aspect of Being in Community. Is this aspect of bearing your soul something that opens you up to growth and learning at a new level. Asking for help and being honest with your peers and brothers is an important aspect of community and creating family and deeper respect.

I get it, and I know “Bearing my Soul to My Community” might be something that I've missed, or needed. I mean, I wonder if this deeper respect and honesty that comes with “asking for help” was what doomed my romantic relationships. If I don't connect or understand what it means to connect at this deeper level. I'm really not clear about what this is.  Asking for help is certainly something I've done before. . . I guess?  I can't imagine I've never asked for help? But taking this deeper, I remember last week when I was in tears crying for Your strength and direction to bring me through this craziness. 

Your Tears were after the readings above, as you started this blog post!

Oh, I'm now 8:24:27 05/15/2025 reading this again, , , and I’ve flashed to Mrs Michelson the art teacher in elementary school, like the Gym teacher too, they both followed me from Crescent Elementary to the Middle School. The Gym Teacher even transferred to the High School with me? As I remember. I must have really asked them “HELP ME.” Like what I felt now was maybe “Please, Mrs Michelson can I do ART all the time?” And last week with the Welcome Team Meeting here in my house, I commented about the ceramic bust my mom had, that sitting here with me now. Mrs Lemon in like 2nd grade, asked me to redecorate all her bulletin boards with each new weekly teaching she did. Like one of the few times I really worked and applied myself to school. So for Presidents’ Day I made all these busts, and the Team here all started talking about which president this bust could be, while everyone back then in school said it looked like another teacher Mr Dilli.,?!

It is now again with these Divine Synchronicities of Love that you dig deeper into your own passions and share your love more clearly in this blog post!

Oh, I'm not surprised . . . reading about Archangel Gabriel Visiting Mary in her family home and then the Angels wanting to protect the home, and moving it around to keep it safe.  I don't really think I've had many Angels visiting me. But I guess, since I've been here in this house, there was something that I wanted to change about my demanding concessions after my accident. I realized that my demands for no Angels or "any airy fairy" stuff, where I knew instead that I needed to receive very direct physical actions instead, like a stubbed toe, or a leg cramp! This was an extreme demand. I have since Prayed for Jesus to "remove" such crazy demands of my youth. 

Yes these were the demands about life and death, that I set into motion before returning to Earth, after my Motorcycle accident, which seem a bit odd to be discussing now. But I have realized having Messages from Angels is really a Wonderful and Honorable thing. Sure the Colloquies with Saint Joseph and Saint Mary have been incredible, as I've been learning more and more every day with these directions in the SEEL Course. So I guess inviting the other Angels and Saints to share with me now is more important than ever. . . Please Dear Jesus forgive me for making so many demands before returning to Earth as Your Requested. Thank you for all the Wisdom and Guidance You have shared.  Please allow Your Angels and Saints to visit me more regularly; and release all the former demands that I made in my youth. 

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.